4.5 stars!
“Don’t tell me that when my memories return I won’t like you. Because I don’t believe it. I won’t believe it. I know what I feel for you now at this very moment, and I know deep within my heart, to the depths of my soul that I will never care for anyone as I care for you.” Drake Darling may be raised by aristocrats but he is not one. He cannot escape who he truly is, especially when Lady Ophelia Lyttleton goes out of her way to insult and belittle him at every opportunity she has. Which is why when Drake found Lady Ophelia confused and with no knowledge of who she is, he decided to tell her that she is his servant as a petty revenge. Although doubtful at first, Phee eventually found pleasure in doing household chores for her employer. However, she is later heartbroken when she regained her memory and discovered that everything that has transpired between her and Drake was nothing more than a revenge act on his part.
Once more, My Darling Rogue is the second book from Lorraine Heath’s historical romance series, Scandalous Gentlemen of St. James. I know, I am reading this series out of order again but this looked like the most interesting out of all books. I like the amnesia trope in historical romance so this one was fun! I have not read any book from the series this is connected to but I do not think it diminished the enjoyment I had with it.
Meet Lady Ophelia Lyttleton: She is the daughter of an earl. In Drake’s words, “She is opinionated, irritating, haughty,” and I can assure you, she is exactly that during the beginning of the book. She never dances and entertains spares, let alone commoners. Her line could be traced back to William the Conqueror so naturally, she believes she’s all that. She was a literal bitch. She had always been angered by Drake Darling’s existence, if she could kill him she probably would. That’s how much she hated him. Phee, however, is another story. She was a girl who was nice and had a care for the people and the animals that surrounded her. And eventually, it was revealed that there was more to this haughty aristocrat than what she portrays herself to be.
Meet Drake Darling: He was born as Peter Sykes. He was the son of a murderer. It was something that has always haunted him. He does not have any blue blood at all but he was raised within the aristocracy. His mother entrusted him to Frannie Darling who married the Duke of Greystone. His new family loved and treated him as their own. But no matter how refined he is by now, it will not erase the fact that he’s a commoner. He does not like Lady Ophelia either for she slights him with every chance she has. He can’t seem to understand why she was so bothered by him but eventually realized it’s because she believes him to be beneath her.
Lady Ophelia Lyttleton is Lady Grace’s (Drake’s sister) best friend, so the two cross paths all the time. During an evening ball, Lady O sees Drake again and she can’t help but put him in his place and remind him that he is beneath them. She’s disgusted by the Ladies showing interest in Drake Darling, ladies did not consort with commoners! Ophelia, being high and mighty, approached Drake, - “Boy,” she repeated with a touch more arrogance, “do fetch me some champagne, and be quick about it.” Of course, Drake obliged because he knows she’s just provoking him. This is not the only time she gave him the cut direct. She was a horrible person to him. And how the tables have turned when Drake found Ophelia unconscious in Thames. When she woke up, she had no idea of who she was at all. His initial plan was to return her to her family but she was being so bossy even when she seemed not to remember that she was a lady. Drake decided to tell her that she’s his servant to teach her a lesson and as a little revenge too. He planned to keep it going only for a day…until it had been more days than that. As days passed by, he discovered a woman who was not at all like Lady O who was always so arrogant to him. And he can’t help but fall for her. Revelations, explanations, Traumas, internal conflicts and finally a well deserved HEA!
Lady O was a complex character. In the beginning, I did not immediately like her for the way she treated those who she deemed beneath her. She was so annoyingly haughty. But, I must admit that her disdain for Drake entertained me. It was so obvious that she was attracted to him but she has her reasons why she cannot and she must not, so, she resorts to hating him. Her trauma does not excuse her actions. What she did to Drake was not very nice. However, it does explain why she is the way she is. Why she’s so guarded and why she doesn't like Drake, who looks like the kind of guy who can lure anyone without thinking of the consequences. Who she was as Phee, I believe, is the real Ophelia. One who’s protective of who she cares for, one who wants to shelter animals (Drake said something beautiful about this in the epilogue which explains why she does that), one who’s not judgemental of where Drake came from. A person who’s strong and intelligent. Lady Ophelia was her defense mechanism. A facade of who she should be. Phee is who she is, buried by Lady O deep within her. I came to understand her character and eventually cared for her. I loved her by the end of the book. I can see why Drake loved her!
Drake’s life was actually so sad. I loved him immediately. Perhaps because he was on the receiving end of Ophelia’s contempt. I loved how the book started and ended with his journal entry. I love his relationship with the Duke and Duchess, it’s very touching how they loved him as their own. I feel sorry for him because he feels the need to prove himself worthy of being taken in although unnecessary. And this part, “But no matter how far I journeyed, I could not escape my sordid beginnings. I could not be anything other than what I was born to be.” It was so good! He was a commoner, and yet he was raised by aristocrats. He made something of himself. He’s now a wealthy man and yet it cannot erase his past. It cannot erase the fact that his father is a murderer, and he is afraid that he might be just like him. Drake was very human. He was not perfect. He had flaws, he had conflicting emotions and contradicted himself because he was a man who had more to him. Although his initial decision was to teach Ophelia a lesson, he could not help himself but be intrigued by her and eventually care for her well-being. He dislikes her at first, but only because of her disdain for him. Both Drake and Ophelia were flawed people who brought out the best in each other.
I love the amnesia trope so this one was really enjoyable for me. I was hooked right from the prologue and I stayed up way past my bedtime just so I could finish reading this one. I loved both the hero and heroine. I dislike shrewish characters but I guess I have a thing for heroines who believe themselves way too good for the hero at first (e.g. Annabelle from Secrets of a Summer night and Cynthia from Like no other Lover) so when they fall for the hero and finally admit it to themselves, it’s all very sweet and rewarding.
What Drake did to Ophelia was wrong. He should’ve returned her to her family but I understand his motivations. If someone was constantly reminding me that I was beneath them, I would take the chance to exact a petty revenge to get back at them. What Drake did was wrong but that does not make Lady O’s disdain for him any more right. I think she got what she deserved. Later on in the book, she admits that she deserved what she got and that she would probably do what Drake did. For he had been the subject of her anger for so long that one would understand why he did something so immature. The synopsis might seem wild, but Drake was actually so kind to Ophelia. He had not mistreated her or anything, he was even the one doing the chores because she did not know how to. Although he decided to be rude to her at times to attempt to humiliate her, he did not mean it. Eventually, Phee learned and was actually doing the chores not because she believes it her duty but because she wanted to please Drake. She was quite fond of him.
Drake was the type of man to crumble completely when Ophelia cries. He was willing to do anything for her. Even when he was not aware he loved her, he showed her that cared for her. He wanted to teach her a lesson and yet it had not felt like a success at all when she regained her memories for he knew that he had hurt her. He was honestly so in love with her! I do think Phee loved him very much too. Although she fought it when she knew the truth. And the parallels okay! Lady O snubbed Drake when he asked to dance with her years ago, and now it is she who demanded him to dance with her. I found it so sweet, I screamed! For someone who had the rule not to dance with spares and commoners, she was willing to let go of that because she was a better person than she initially was. Phee, who was so buried deep inside Lady O had come out and was ready to try her chance at happiness and love. They changed each other for the better, they saw each other for who they truly were, knew their deepest hurt and shame and were ready to love each other anyway.
This was so long! I got carried away. I just loved Ophelia and Drake. They are so complex. Flawed and yet completely redeemable and loveable. I think that the ending was a bit rushed, I think she should’ve regained her memory at the 70% mark but it was not really a big deal. It worked out just as well but if she regained her memories earlier, the angst would’ve been better! Overall, I enjoyed this so much! Heath once again proved herself capable of writing characters that had depth and a romance that’s so tender it’ll tug at your heartstrings.
Some quotes:
“Without my memories, with no tarnished past”—with no memories of Wigmore to intrude—“I was free to fall in love with you. I do love you, Drake. At first I was hurt and so angry but when I take in the entire tapestry of my life, my happiest, most joyful moments have been with you.”
“I won’t be Lady Ophelia after we marry.”“You’ll be marrying a commoner, but the title of Lady comes from your father. You can keep it.”“I don’t want to. I want to be Phee Darling or Mrs. Darling. No more, m’lady. Just Mrs.”“You don’t have to do this for me, Phee.”“I’m not. I’m doing it for me, and because I want the world to know that I’m incredibly proud to be your wife. We’ll be equal, Drake. You and I. That’s how it should be. How I want it.”“Then that’s how it shall be.” (IM SOFT!!)
“She didn’t do her chores around the house because they were her duties. She did them because she wanted to please him. She wanted him happy. She wanted him to want to come home to her. She wanted to greet him with a smile and a kiss. She wanted him to take her into his arms. She wanted him to return at midnight, slip into bed beside her, and cradle her. She wanted him to sleep beside her, his breaths matching hers.”
She turned her attention back to Drake. “Kiss me once more, my darling rogue.”Taking her in his arms, he did just that.
“The love of a wife for a husband she chose. The love of a woman for a man who appreciated her strengths and her weaknesses. The love of Phee, the center of my most precious memories, the heart of my life.”