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In the past year everything Epi’s measured himself by or valued himself for has been stripped away. He’s been left with no choice but to start his life over and figure out who he is now. It’s questions he doesn’t even want to ask and answers he doesn’t have the strength left to find.
When hauled away for a weekend trip by his best friend in an effort to remind him life is still out there, Epi goes along with a sharp awareness of his third wheel status.
Only as they stop in a very small Penn Dutch town to take in some local color, Epi finds a chance to start over in a place where no one knew who he was before. Which means no one expects him to be that person today.
What he finds in the small town will be greater than the answers of just who he’s become.
A modern yaoi / slash / gay romance from S.A. Payne.
When hauled away for a weekend trip by his best friend in an effort to remind him life is still out there, Epi goes along with a sharp awareness of his third wheel status.
Only as they stop in a very small Penn Dutch town to take in some local color, Epi finds a chance to start over in a place where no one knew who he was before. Which means no one expects him to be that person today.
What he finds in the small town will be greater than the answers of just who he’s become.
A modern yaoi / slash / gay romance from S.A. Payne.
431 pages, Kindle Edition
Published September 14, 2017
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S.A. Payne
16 books202 followersSo, ya wanted to know about me... well, nothing to know! I'm from a quiet Penn Dutch area with my husband, a herd of dogs, and WAY too many cats.
The husband and I work for ourselves, no money in it but better than 9 to 5 for some other idiots, and it leaves me time to write. Which, I'm told, is a very good thing.
The husband and I work for ourselves, no money in it but better than 9 to 5 for some other idiots, and it leaves me time to write. Which, I'm told, is a very good thing.
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December 30, 2012
It's such a pity that S.A. Payne has stopped writing, because while her incorrect use of synonyms does annoy me, she has a definite talent for crafting a story.
Epi, a young gay man, who is left deeply scarred and physically restricted, after a horrific car crash, is struggling to come to terms with all he has lost - his physical freedom, as well as his lover who died in the same crash. He is on his first weekend trip away - after a year of hospitalization and therapy, with an old friend, Tori, when he impulsively buys a house - in the middle of nowhere. His friend, concerned for his well-being, hires Nick, who lives in an apartment on the property which had belonged to his great aunt, to run errands for Epi, things that Epi can no longer do, in exchange for Nick remaining on the property rent free.
Slowly, as Nick and Epi grow to know each other, the true extent of Epi's loss becomes clear, while a slow-growing attraction slowly starts to burn between them. They obviously have many hurdles to overcome if they are to have a relationship, especially as the reason for the accident becomes clear. Yet, it seems, Epi is not the only one who is scarred and damaged...
As I mentioned earlier, Payne's writing has recurrent errors that do irritate - than instead of then, effected instead of affected, to instead of too, etc. But overall, I do enjoy her writing, even if this one, for all the pain the characters go through, didn't move me quite as much as I expected it to...
Epi, a young gay man, who is left deeply scarred and physically restricted, after a horrific car crash, is struggling to come to terms with all he has lost - his physical freedom, as well as his lover who died in the same crash. He is on his first weekend trip away - after a year of hospitalization and therapy, with an old friend, Tori, when he impulsively buys a house - in the middle of nowhere. His friend, concerned for his well-being, hires Nick, who lives in an apartment on the property which had belonged to his great aunt, to run errands for Epi, things that Epi can no longer do, in exchange for Nick remaining on the property rent free.
Slowly, as Nick and Epi grow to know each other, the true extent of Epi's loss becomes clear, while a slow-growing attraction slowly starts to burn between them. They obviously have many hurdles to overcome if they are to have a relationship, especially as the reason for the accident becomes clear. Yet, it seems, Epi is not the only one who is scarred and damaged...
As I mentioned earlier, Payne's writing has recurrent errors that do irritate - than instead of then, effected instead of affected, to instead of too, etc. But overall, I do enjoy her writing, even if this one, for all the pain the characters go through, didn't move me quite as much as I expected it to...
May 9, 2016
First,I would like to say that I love S.A.Payne's books.Snowflakes and Embers is one of my all time favourites. This one,however...
I give it two stars because of Epi. I love Epi. He is a realistic character. He act the way someone with his issues would, he feels real. His best friend feels real,his best friend's boyfriend feels real. He's an ass,but it doesn't seem forced.
My issue was with Nick. I couldn't understand why he did what he did. I get that he didn't want to attach himself to Epi, but My biggest problem was with the end. Once his secret was out, he acted ...weird. For me,it's like the writer thought,Hmm,I need some tortured character with horrible past. Yes, I will make it that he . And then forgot it. It literally doesn't show in his behaviour at all.
But,as I said,I love Epi.
I give it two stars because of Epi. I love Epi. He is a realistic character. He act the way someone with his issues would, he feels real. His best friend feels real,his best friend's boyfriend feels real. He's an ass,but it doesn't seem forced.
My issue was with Nick. I couldn't understand why he did what he did. I get that he didn't want to attach himself to Epi, but My biggest problem was with the end. Once his secret was out, he acted ...weird. For me,it's like the writer thought,Hmm,I need some tortured character with horrible past. Yes, I will make it that he . And then forgot it. It literally doesn't show in his behaviour at all.
But,as I said,I love Epi.
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March 2, 2015
This is probably the most tender and sweet M/M that I've read, but it's done in such a way... It just feels incredibly real? Touching?
People are flawed, so they are represented that way. Etc.
I don't know. I started with Snowflakes and Embers, then I thought, well, I'll see if I like anything else, because S&E was really good, but it's highly unlikely that everything is good like that.
Now I am probably going to hole up for the next few days reading her collection and let hope that review I stumbled on that says SA Payne doesn't write anymore is a blatant lie. Yes, the stuff needs a grammar sweep, but the narrative arcs are just good. The pacing is such a slow burn, and really it's incredibly hard to find a book that is willing to talk about "the dirty" without becoming blatant spank bank erotica. So, seriously, if you see this review, author, keep writing. I want to see more.
People are flawed, so they are represented that way. Etc.
I don't know. I started with Snowflakes and Embers, then I thought, well, I'll see if I like anything else, because S&E was really good, but it's highly unlikely that everything is good like that.
Now I am probably going to hole up for the next few days reading her collection and let hope that review I stumbled on that says SA Payne doesn't write anymore is a blatant lie. Yes, the stuff needs a grammar sweep, but the narrative arcs are just good. The pacing is such a slow burn, and really it's incredibly hard to find a book that is willing to talk about "the dirty" without becoming blatant spank bank erotica. So, seriously, if you see this review, author, keep writing. I want to see more.
March 24, 2020
I really love the worlds and characters Payne creates. This is no exception. The characters are deeply flawed, buy deeply relatable and likeable. The premise allowed for growth and a connection between the two characters that went beyond them just being in proximity of each other . The romance was a slow burn that made sense, I like the characters together. It does not get 4 or 5 stars because this didn't seem like a complete stand alone book. It read to me like it was the start of a duology so this left you with an incomplete feeling. Also the grammar urrh so annoying. But I will continue to read more.
June 30, 2011
I love how S.A. Payne writes, and this book is no exception. I just wish someone would do a grammar check on her books - effect/affect, except/accept, bear/bare - I get so frustrated, I just want to fix it myself because as annoyed as I get - I know I'll be re-reading this book again someday.
April 22, 2012
I thought this was very well done in the beginning, but near the end, it just seemed to die down. I mean, .
May 18, 2015
Love this one so much.
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