I just started this book and I already know I'm going to hate it. Aki was my favorite character and she's dead now. I had hopes she would be resurrected by some magic but since they buried her I suppose it's out of the question. Her demise was so pointless and callous, like, for 2 novels I was 100% sure she was going to be Shikanoko's soulmate and I was rooting for them to be together (despite that scene of dubious consent). Now I guess it is pretty obvious that Shikanoko's soul mate will be Hina (whom I cannot stand). This pisses me off so much, I feel like the only reason Hina will be his soulmate is because she is a Yamato Nadeshiko type compared to Aki who wasn't that poised and elegant and pliant and beautiful and domestic. Also the obsession with the ages of women in this series. Like, I get a feeling Aki was written off because she was getting too old for Shikanoko, being 17, no, he needs 12 year-old Hina. Are you fucking kidding me? It's like any woman over 16 is a crone. Honestly I am so disappointed, I had such high hopes for this series. I'll keep reading it because I bought it but I regret spending my money on it now.
After finishing this book, I have one more thing to add. My God, do I despise Hina's character. I absolutely despise that she is the main female character, the heroine. The woman is a male fantasy. From the day she was born and all through her adulthood her whole life GRAVITATES around men. When she was a little girl her father was more or less obsessed with her because she reminded him of her dead mother. Then, after the rebellion, her life revolves around Takaakira who raises her up to marry her and doesn't even allow her outside of the house. Her escape has nothing to do with wanting to escape this predator but with the arrival of Masachika and with saving Take. By the time she arrives to stay with the nuns, she's already focused on Shikanoko and her whole life gravitates towards him. She has her sexual awakening thinking about him and somehow realizing she's in love with him. I'd say she's in love with a memory from long, long ago, but nope, Hina knows it's the real deal. Later, she becomes a prostitute who takes full enjoyment in having sex with a dozen men per day. She even has "favorites". Nevermind that she was, you know, raped, nope, nevermind that, Hina warms up to being a hooker super quickly and never tries to escape. Not even once. She doesn't ever contemplate until Chika (a man) comes to her and until she hears from that man she sleeps with that night (Usugi???) about Kiku (another man) and his clan. She escapes and, on the road, Kai is discarded so that Hina can be surrounded by Take, Yoshi and Saru, three men. She is supposed to be this accomplished woman, wise beyond belief but she's been trying to read that book Sesshin left her for half her life and she still got pretty much nothing (except for seeing the two masks). People calling her smart and wise equals to nothing because the narration doesn't present her as either. She is supposed to be incredibly smart but she only comes across as incredibly dull. I also hate the fact that her pseudonym became "Yayoi" aka "Spring" when "Aki" was "Autumn" sort of to mean that Aki was sorrow and regret but Hina is renewal and beauty and youth. Fucking hate that shit. I hate how she looks down on pretty much every female character. She resented Aki for having sex (with dubious consent to say the least) with Shikanoko and for how she was pregnant with his child. She resented Tama although she was sold into marriage and had her child die and had to suffer a mistress in her house. She also seems to resent Tora who "bewitched" her father. She resented Shikanoko's mother for having "abandoned" him, nevermind that she was, you know, A PERSON HERSELF AND DIDN'T HAVE TO LIVE HER LIFE FOR THE WHIM OF EVERY SINGLE MAN THE WAY HINA DOES. His mother would have been married off to his uncle and she didn't want that. However, for Hina, not shouting "Aye, sir" anytime a man farts is inconceivable. She was calling the women her clients went on to marry "ordinary" because of course, they could never match up to her. May I also ask how did she become a good farmer? A samurai's daughter who lived a sheltered life, later wasn't even allowed to get out of the house and then became a prostitute on a boat, who was renowned for her beauty and "skills" far and wide was able to blend in with the peasants of some mountain hamlet right off??? She was a virgin brought up with the nuns then became an expert prostitute in one week??? Despite being so sheltered, she also experiences no discomfort riding through the woods. All men want her, all girls are worse than her. I had to listen to Lady Fuji talk about how Aki was so much uglier and less accomplished at playing the lute than Hina for a whole huge fucking paragraph. I had to see Hina discuss Kai's appearance in her mind, how she was too ugly (because of her ears) to become a prostitute (such a shame, amirite? Because being trapped on a boat to be dicked by men in exchange of rice is the high-life am I right, girls? According to the book "at least you're not dead") but Hina feels jealous of her nevertheless because Yoshimori loves her and she's pregnant with his child. Because how dare any woman other than Hina ever be loved, right? The same thing was said about Aki. Lady Fuji says that she wasn't pretty enough to be a prostitute or something and that life as a nun suited her more. But of course, because that is a life devoid and separate from men, Aki had to die. The nuns also had to be destroyed and die in flames. I know how one of the nuns says this is a recent occurrence, that as of late women are becoming subservient to men but my two cents are that it was always so. At least Hina could be intelligent but she's never shown to be. She only speaks when spoken to, gets into a boat with Chika and only later thinks it might not be ok, when she speaks, her words are only there to comfort the men around her. Her inner monologue doesn't show much dissent. She has no thoughts for herself, she lives entirely for others, her thoughts are entirely for and about others, especially for men. She lives to serve and I honestly cannot believe ANYONE sane could be so subservient. She's a femme fatale and a House Elf at the same time. There's also the fact that all men are insane about her. Takaakira, the Miboshi soldiers coming to inspect the temple, pretty much every single client on that boat, many of whom wish to buy her (How romantic!), we suddenly hear about Chika's lifelong passion for her that I don't remember being addressed prior to this and there's, of course, Shikanoko, who I'm sure will marry her and forget all about Aki the moment Hina takes his mask off. Because she is, of course, the only one who will be able to do it. We couldn't have Takeyoshi do that, full of love and longing for his parent, nope, it must be Hina. Not to mention she can apparently kill people with her mind. This is honestly the biggest Mary Sue I've read of in anything EVER. She is the absolute perfect women by being the misogynistic trope of the empty vessel that lives solely for those (for the men) around her. I am only finishing this series because I paid money for it but God, what a complete disappointment. Never seen so much wasted potential in my whole life.