Brandon has been keeping a secret to himself for 30 years. The weight of his secret is getting heavier by the day. He's tired of lying to himself. But he doesn't know how to be real with his feelings, until he meets Kyle. Kyle, is a total masc, and straight acting man. Yet, he understands Brandon's secret all too well. Can Kyle help Brandon to finally open up and accept a part of his life, that he's suppressed and denied for so long or will Brandon continue to burden himself with his truth? This is an unfiltered portrayal into the life of a DL man.
Brandon took us into his very first experience of being a black man on the down low in a most thoughtful, sensitive and thought-provoking way. He did not make the interaction salacious or full of raunchy details that cheapened the experience. The marvel of this work was held in the describing the transference of energy and trust between two adult individuals. I enjoyed reading this short story and applaud the author for how well written this book is.
I went into this expecting something entirely different. The blurb talks about someone hiding his own sexuality and through another human learns to embrace it. That is literally what I came into it for. And, seeing as it is only 50 or so pages long it was the only thing I thought would be in here. That isn’t exactly what happened.
Before I even dig into that the first chapter starts talking about how Brandon never felt so alive as he did wating for someone to come through the door. This made me think that there was either an undercover relationship going on or that the story was starting after the awakening and Brandon was out. However later on he and Kyle meet in a parking lot and Kyle goes up to the room first. The other issue here is that the first sentence starts off at present-day scene but the entire first page is a deep dive into catfishing and then after that a somewhat more passible section about blaming his absent father for his desires towards men. None of this does much to explain why the first sentence is there and even more frustrating is that when we finally get to said scene he isn’t waiting for someone to come through the door.
The second chapter talks about after high school and college but mostly about having sex with women to feel more masculine and one of the guys, which I totally understand. It’s taking away page time though. All this take on masculinity and upbringing could’ve been squashed into a much more compact intro without the opening sentence (it’s actually the first sentence of the second paragraph. I realised this after I did the vlog. It stays though lol) and gotten to the meeting someone online part faster. The blurb clearly states another man awakens him to acceptance and all this introspection is just taking up page time that could be used to do just that. It is after all what the blurb promised and what I’m actually here for.
Great read, and I love the insight on this subject. I believe I ran into a couple guys like this..never asked but I got the vibe and was totally okay with it. Was always curious as to why not embrace it. But I believe I got the answer here. Would love to read how Brandon is doing now that he got his first piece of ass 😁 Hopefully Kyle is still in the picture 🤞🏾
Five stars for a five star short story. Few words but the volume of the story was loud. There are not to many short stories that leave me breathless and wanting more... excellent book. Tip my hat to the author.
This door was just what I wanted at the moment that I read it nothing more nothing less. If you want a quick hot story this pays very well and comes with sex this is it it lets you paint a picture