✰ 3.75 stars ✰
“Listen to me, Matthew. Listen to what I’m going to tell you and things will start to make a lot more sense.”
I waited; her forehead was furrowed and her hand gripped tighter.
“Don’t ever wait for a storm to pass. You’ve got to go out there and dance in the rain.”
Suspenseful yet tender, heart-warming and gripping, Lisa Thompson's debut novel The Goldfish Boy was a well-written middle grade thriller that kept me on my toes and firmly engaged with the characters and the mystery that had to be solved. It was an interesting premise with an equally unique protagonist that made it all the more compelling to know how it would all be revealed.👌🏻👌🏻
“In my dream I’d asked him a question: How does it feel being stuck up there all day, Lion? Just watching the world go by?
Sounding a bit nervous, like he knew he shouldn’t be talking but really couldn’t help himself, he said: Surely you know how that feels … don’t you, Matthew?”
Matthew, also known as the Goldfish Boy, was a good kid who was dealt a bad hand when an unfortunate event in his life forever changed him and his outlook to life. For five years, he's been carrying the guilt of blame for the reason his mother lost her baby, his unborn younger brother. It's that pain that weighs so heavily on him, for reasons not revealed till the end, that he's kept himself locked inside his room - with only a printout of the print-out of the Mysterious Lion as his companion, obsessed with cleanliness to the extremities that pain his family and have him seen as a troubled soul in their close-knit neighborhood. Forever secure in the sanctity of his room where it's safe and clean and out of reach of prying touches and dirty hands, he's perfectly content to watch the world go by from his window. But, that all changes when he's the last one to see Teddy, a young toddler playing on the sidewalk, before he suddenly disappears. 😥
While the story is heavily centered around Matthew's mental struggles and troubled tendencies, I admired how the author skillfully managed to revolve so much of the plot around it, but not allowing it to overtake the story. His parents' struggles at how agitated he could be towards the simplest of things - unable to hug him or touch him for how he would react, yet still trying to find ways for it to work out for him - aiding him to try and see what he was missing out in life if he stayed holed up in his room all days.
The painful part about it all was that he wasn't always like this - closed off and fearful. 😔 But, Teddy's disappearance was a challenge that he rose to figure out - even as he was in tune to his own compulsive behaviors, he was inadvertently changing himself. In confronting his 'irrational' fears - he was stepping out of his own shadow and embracing life. I liked his openness, his honesty, his vulnerability, but even more so his steadfast determination to use his own creative methods to find Teddy.
The supporting cast that he had to interact with kept the tone fresh and engaging, while also maintaining a sharp vigilant look that not all was right on his block, which I liked. I liked how there was a young group of kids who were willing to help him out, despite his issues - I liked that Matthew grew a backbone and was concerned, overly worried and suspicious, rightfully so, but still help him realize that he could change - or he would be missing out on life. 😟 All the ways that set him apart from others made him all that more determined to find Teddy - noting things and seeing things that others couldn't. It gave him the chance to make friends, enlisting their help to do the things he couldn't because he was too afraid to leave the house for too long, but still be coaxed enough to venture outside simply to save someone in need. It's those subtle little things that I really admired how it was portrayed. 🤍🤍
“It might sound strange, but I miss the brother I never met. The one who died because of me.”
As much as this was the search of a missing boy, there was also another mystery that had to be revealed - one that was the sole reason for Matthew's over-amplified need for cleanliness, his fear of the outdoors, the heightened awareness that if there are germs intact - people will get hurt - namely his brother, which he's forever haunted by grief over it. And how it was his involvement in bringing Teddy home also helped him find a way back home to his own parents - welcoming him again to start over - was a beautiful and teary moment. His parents cared - they weren't just passive participants in the story - even tough love is supportive and caring love and they wanted their son to embrace himself - love himself and see his own worth. ❤️🩹❤️🩹
The final reveal brought such closure to Matthew's heart and my own, because I, too wanted to know what caused his sudden change in his behavior. His visit to his brother's grave - the reminder of the guilt that gnawed at him constantly - more so than the severe way he rubbed against his flesh to rid himself of all infection. That ache and fear was palpable, but so too was his courage to try to change himself - with the help of his family and friends. 🫶🏻🫶🏻
The pacing of the story was also very well-balanced and well-fleshed out. I wanted to know what happened to Teddy - fearful for the worst, hopeful for the best - and I didn't know what to expect. The author did a great job dropping enough clues to ascertain that anything could have gone wrong and I also appreciated the small town community vibe the author maintained - and by setting up Matthew in a closed and limited environment, it gave him a chance to look at things closely with a discerning eye, which he used to his advantage. 🥺
He was smart and resourceful, even though his unusual behavior certainly has earned him a strange reputation on the block, but that's what made him all the more interesting for me. That as much as he was expected to be the odd man out, it was all the more possible for him to see things others couldn't. She kept the element of surprise alive and kept my intrigue up high - building up enough suspense that I was actually curious how the truth would come out! 👍🏻👍🏻
“It’s nice to see everyone going about their lives each day, isn’t it? Why, I watch people myself sometimes when I’m feeling a little lonely.
Life isn’t always easy, is it, Matthew?”
The writing was also a very soft and caring one, almost tentative to the point of feelings of friendship and excitement, but still vivid enough to capture the emotions of loneliness and sadness. The author created a great balance between the seriousness of the situation, while still keeping the spirit of youth light and fresh and humorous. Matthew really grew on me as a narrator and I liked being in his mind, experiencing his anxiety, his woes and his heartbreak through him and that feeling of not being normal in other's eyes, and being helpless to doing something about it. I am looking forward to meeting up with another one of the character's in the sequel to this story soon enough. 🙏🏻🙏🏻