On September 9, 2010, the day Todd was killed , Jeanne's art studio closed. Unfinished paintings sat on easels. Brushes, caked with paint rested on their palette. Four months later she again began to paint--not the normal sea related paintings; but paintings in honor and memory of her beloved son, Todd. She painted to music seven days a week, sometimes ten hours a day; taking time only for family gatherings or events scheduled in honor of Todd. This book relates her personal journey in learning how to navigate through her new 'state of being' as a Gold Star Mom with pride and a greater understanding of God's love and grace.