I love BDSM books of most types from the heavy pain inflicting kind to the subtler like What He Needs. Where the Sub wants someone to lead, care and protect them. I am surprised to find out that this is the author’s first MM novel.
So, we begin with poor Craig, whose Dom left him 18 months ago, with no notes of explanation. Craig knew their relationship was starting to fail, but for Tim to leave without even trying to mend things, this not only broke Craig’s heart but left him mentally scared, believing he was not a good sub, that he did not give himself enough to Tim.
He finally has built up his courage to go to a BDSM Club, the only one that he has not been in with Tim, as he does not want anything to remind him of Tim. But Fate can be cruel as he soon finds out when Tim comes over to speak to him. Craig is shocked to the core, not only by meeting Tim, but that Tim is wearing a Collar and is followed by a Dom.
This freaks Craig out and causes a scene when he bluntly shuns Tim. Tim’s Dom thinks Craig is disrespecting him through his actions towards his sub.
Could things get any worse? Thankfully not, As Alan the club owner, comes over to find out what is going on. Alan soon realises something is very wrong, and warns Tim and his Dom to stay away from Craig.
Seeing how distraught Craig is, Alans Dom side kicks in, he wants to protect Craig, but is also aware that Craig is not his, so is careful not to push the guy too much.
When Craig intervenes, and stops the incident in the club, Craig is so thankful. There is an instant attraction between the two men, but neither dares to do anything about it. Craig because he feels like he is a failure as a sub. And Alan because he is bored with the endless line of Subs that just want hard core BDSM, when he wants more, he wants a lover as well as a sub.
We follow Craig and Alan as they navigate their mutual attraction and needs from each other. For them to have a future, they must prove to each other that they are all that they want and need from each other. Craig feels protected, wanted and loved when he is in Alans company. And Alan feels alive in a way he has not felt in a long time. He is amazed at how Craig’s body reacts to his every touch and how natural Craig’s submission is, but most of all the love that grows between them.
I loved the strength the Craig finds to help Tim when he needs help, but to stay strong and tell Tim that he needs help and that he has helped him but that it does not mean he still has feelings for him.
The book is about finding trust and strength, and understanding. I found the book authentic and well written and look forward to following EM Denning’s MM novels.