DNF 75% in. This book was such a hate read for me, that I was furious the entire time I was reading it, then I woke up in the middle of the night, started thinking about it, and got so mad I couldn't get back to sleep for a few hours.
The good: the writing is pretty decent, the plot isn't overall bad, I like Theo and her friends
The bad:
-The love interest, Ewan. He and Theo had a relationship 6 years earlier, she was a virgin and they have sex, his father finds them, Ewan takes back asking Theo to marry him so he can go off to become a soldier, telling her he'll come back in a year and marry her. A month after he leaves, he's reported dead. Theo pretty much immediately becomes another man's mistress, and eventually marries that man. Ewan decides that despite whatever evidence he knew to the contrary, and despite only having been with all of two men, that Theo is now a viper, a whore, a slut, conniving, a gold-digger, manipulative, scheming, and the list of her supposed sins goes on forever beyond that. He is her judge and jury and she's responsible for everything bad that ever happened to Ewan. Not once does he ever stop and think what would happen to a poor "fallen" woman, and a woman of color at that, in Regency England, without a protector and without work. Not once does he stop to consider why a woman might need to immediately marry at that time to avoid further scandal.
Nope, he doesn't care. Ewan can't for one single second examine the way misogyny and racism work in his world; even when he finds out the whole story, he still doesn't seem to fully understand it. When they meet up again after 6 years, several months after Theo's husband has died, Ewan immediately tries to blackmail her into giving up her land/estate like his family wants, by saying that he'll put on a play where she is fully recognizable as the villainous whore (never mind that he supposedly hates his father and wants nothing to do with him, Ewan immediately just falls in line with what his father wants to do to Theo). Ewan stalks her repeatedly, coming onto her land over and over, tries to barge into her house numerous times, including climbing up to her bedroom (and gets very upset whenever she does refuse him entrance to her house because of the way he treats her), follows her around, even inviting himself into the private box of a duke at the theater.
Never listens to her or respects her boundaries. He slut shames her constantly, and doesn't ever acknowledge that she is only a "fallen" woman because she slept with him. He manipulates and tries to seduce her WHILE SHE'S HAVING A PANIC ATTACK, knowing that she's terrified and not really capable of rational thought, and basically tells her while doing so that she's already a whore, so why put up a fuss about putting out to him again. Tells her a few times that he "forgives her" for her transgressions (and is bewildered why she doesn't fall at his feet in gratitude), but 1-doesn't actually forgive her for anything, 2-doesn't apologize for never letting her know for 6 years that he was still alive, 3-doesn't apologize for all the things he's said or thought about her, 4-doesn't apologize for his current actions for trying to take her land and income, and 5-doesn't examine why she did what she did when they were parted.
When he does finally find out that Theo had been pregnant, and that his parents fired her and destroyed her name so she couldn't get any work elsewhere, Ewan STILL tries to put the blame elsewhere, in this case on Theo's late husband instead of accepting his parents' fault. He gets possessive and jealous, and still views Theo as his property, and that she couldn't possibly ever love anyone but him (because he's such a catch, right?). At one point when he's basically broken into her bedroom, and he thinks there's a man in Theo's bed, he rages out, and nearly beats up their kid. Oh but wait, when Ewan finds out that he's the father, the kid becomes his. Not Theo's and his, but his alone. There's probably so much more that I'm forgetting, like I'm sure that Ewan probably also blames Theo for the weather or for the war or something else she has nothing to do with.
-Racism: of course it would have been prevalent at the time, but there is a lot of it in the book. But other than Theo calling Ewan on saying that she's exotic, Theo doesn't do much to stand up to the racism, even though she now has money behind her and can better do it then when she was just a flower girl. And Ewan certainly doesn't ever really stand up to the racism. He doesn't do anything when he hears people at Theo's party saying racist things about her--oh sure, he thinks it's awful that they are saying those things about her (not about her race, her specifically). But he doesn't say anything to them, even though as the son of titled nobility, he had power and authority and would be listened to. When Ewan's family says racist things about Theo, well, he tells his brother that he loves Theo like his brother loved his own wife (but nothing about how messed up it is to say stuff about an entire race or use racist slurs)...and that's apparently enough to solve the brother's racism.
-Ableism: where the son's deafness and poor health is somehow all Theo's fault, or her curse, and the boy is never a character in his own right. There's also this gross scene where Theo has already tried a few doctors and numerous remedies to help her son, but literally the second Ewan comes on scene and finds out about the son's pain, he knows a remedy that helps more than all her and her doctors' years of research. Just to set Ewan up as a lifesaver and an expert here to rescue the little lady from her ignorance. The author has another historical fiction that also has a lot of ableism in it towards mental health issues and PTSD, as well as more slut-shaming [worse, that slut-shaming is towards someone who was kidnapped and raped repeatedly--the book is Unveiling Love if you want to avoid it], so this will definitely be the end of my reading her. Which is unfortunate, I'd love to read more romance books with POC in historical fiction.
-There's another secondary character who threatens Theo with sexual assault, threatens to take away her son, disrespects her boundaries, and tries to coerce her into marrying him. (Honestly, every dude in this book other than the late husband is super gross. And even the late husband is on my list due to setting up this secondary character as the guardian of Theo's child and estate.)