okay, well this was...not what i was expecting? and not in a good way. none of the characters are likable. seriously, they’re all the worst. and they get away with it. the ending and it’s supposed “message” are crap (more on that at the end). other than who hacked the very first person, we don’t find out who the hackers were. there was on page asian, indian, and colombian rep, but as i said, the characters aren’t...great? they’re either awful people or lack any kind of personality. they definitely don’t have development. i just...i don’t even know what this book is, honestly.
this book should come with a content warning for just about everything. slut shaming, racism, outing, anti-gay slurs, ace/aromisia, self harm, suicide, sexism, misogyny, hacking/violation of privacy, swatting, taking naked photos without consent, sharing and leaking naked photos of teens, panic attacks, ableism, death threats, mentions of abortion, mentions of rape threats, mentions of eating disorders, mentions of alcoholism, mentions of drug addiction.
whew.
the (on page) social anxiety rep is iffy. there were aspects i related to, but overall, it seemed like anna’s anxiety is more for plot convenience, than anything else. her anxiety is supposed to be really bad, but half the time i forgot she’s extremely socially anxious until an “i have sad” comment is randomly thrown in. it didn’t feel very consistent or genuine, more like a plot device.
i’m conflicted on the ending. no one’s behavior was checked. the end message was, “it doesn’t matter what horrible things you do or say about anyone, even your closest friends, because you say and do more positive things,” and that’s...not a good message. it doesn’t matter how many nice, lovely things a person says or does, they still have to make amends and take responsibility for their shitty behavior and check themselves and do better. like, in the art show anna put on with all the negative things the students said, it was mentioned that there was rape and death threats and racist slurs in there, too. those aren’t things you can just, “well, you’ve said more nice things” wave away. the fuck? you can’t just ignore the bad to focus on the good. that’s not how it works.
i think this book could have been really good, but it just lacked a lot of things (enjoyable characters, any sort of development, a proper resolution to the entire book’s plot, a decent execution of what i assume the message of this book was supposed to be) and had a lot of things i just couldn’t get behind, even in this hacker leaks the contents of students’ phones context (gay character being outed and then outing other gay kids, claiming it’s important, so much slut shaming and girls hating girls, what was basically the distribution of child pornography, and pretty much just throwing every single issue into the book without the care or time each serious topic deserves; abortion, self harm, suicide, mental illness in general, addiction, being outed).