Star Rating: 4.5 Stars
Holy F. What a heart wrenching, beautiful queer love story. One of my favorite books ever, hands down! I just want more more more more Jack & August ...I’m begging for more here. Oh and did I say more?
1. More because I loved the book,
2. More because I loved August,
3. More because I loved Jack,
4. More because I loved Jack & August,
5. Also more because the ending?!?! How could she do us like that, man?!?! So short! Way too short!
I feel as if the end of this book is like one of those awkward encounters with someone you don’t know in public that go pretty much like this:
Ending: Oh, Hai!
Me: H—
Ending: Oh sorry, thought you were someone else! Bye-eeee *walks away.*
Me: *thinks wt actual f? Mmmk. How rude.*
Also Me, 2 Minutes Later:
*pines for MORE again and whines on goodreads*
That’s why it lost .5 stars. In case anyone was, um, wondering.
I’m pretty sure throughout this review my undying love for both Jack & August is quite, quite, prominently, obvious, lol- but I also loved the book’s formatting, I loved the story, I loved the writing, and I loved the fact that well... I don’t want to reveal any spoilers, but I really, really loved the ending (with the exception of the topic of my rant above).
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Also; I just want to quickly say:
MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS IS SO, SO, SO, IMPORTANT ! ! !
To any of you out there struggling with any type of mental illness (and anyone at all):
You are not flawed; you are perfect. You are beautiful. You are you, & you are lovely.
* Please don’t be afraid to seek help if you suspect you may have symptoms of ANY mental illness .*
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Back to the book:
GOODNESS; I loved well, most of the characters although the character building of the supporting characters is a bit weak IMO. But I’m just in love with the main characters, Jack & August (with their “faults” that aren’t truly their fault, and 100% aren’t actual faults at all. I mean, these are kids in high school- Ignored by both their parents & teachers leaving them with no real resources to properly address the situation and surely no help to rely on. So; they are left to their own devices and a feeling of NEEDING to make things right).
Jack’s state is obviously much more serious than the two realize, and most definitely not just, as August puts it at one point, “bad,” which naturally, August does not, and could not be aware of, or even know how to handle the situation. So, Instead of seeking real help, they do the only thing that they see as an option- to go on the quest calling to Jack in his version of the world, which August, nor anyone else, can see, desperately hoping that completing said quest will “fix Jack
and all of his other problems. August helps him because he sees no other way, and he is desperate for Jack to get better, for the aforementioned reasons.
Needless to say, Jack AND August are BOTH extremely ill, in their own completely different ways, which is revealed little by little, as the book progresses. August’s issues are a little more subdued in comparison to Jack’s, but are none-the-less still there and still just as important.
With all of that said, both boys are just trying to LIVE, trying so very hard to fix the sh*tty situation(s) that they have, quite literally, found themselves in.
They deal with these problems the only way that they know how to. I mean... how could two young kids (seniors in high school) who have been neglected by every single adult in their life and have only had each other for the better part of their lifetimes- be anything BUT extremely loyal to one another, and also extremely & ridiculously ill-equipped to handle the issues at hand?
None of this changes that fact that both of them are so, so, beautiful, so incredibly beautiful, in so many ways. I’m just enamored with these two.
Additionally; The Wicker King covered two parts of the Rubik’s cube that is me, for me (though more #2 than #1 here):
1.
The part of me 7 years after graduating college w/ a degree in Psychology:
The journey here was both fascinating & eye-opening (I am pretty sure Jack had schizophrenia? It’s been a longgg time lol- and I would never want to misdiagnose!), especially because I’ve never been take on a magical journey through a fictional depiction of something like that, ever! What an original, heart-wrenching story (yes I still was a sap; I just don’t feel defined by my degree anymore and I’m way more in tune with my, & other people’s, emotions... I guess that kinda happens on your freakin way to turning 30 this freakin July. 😭 I’m not readyyyyy haha), that kept me wondering what was going to happen next the entire time.
2.
The part of me that pretty much takes up (most of) my entire heart, (and let’s be honest here— the leftover parts of my heart that have nothing to do with any of this at ALL— are MOST LIKELY also just AT LEAST ever-so-slightly shrouded in this part of me, as well): EMOTION! I am legitimately emotional AF.
So, yeah— RE: the “FEELINGSSSSS” part of me:
I gotta say, a huge part of me is an empath, so this truly made my HEART HURTTT, continuously... I mean like, over and over and... I could go on saying over and over forever, lol.
I found that in a relative sense, I was more in tune with August’s emotions, and I just felt as if I could TRULY feel his pain, just from reading this story- which i’ve never experienced even close to an experience as the experiences those boys went through in this novel... but I could just... feel it. K. Ancrum’s writing is just
THAT p o w e r f u l .
As far as Jack’s part in the story is concerned... wow, I can empathize and sympathize but I can’t even come close to truly feeling what he was truly feeling; only a person with the same or a very similar illness could. The only way I can come even close to doing so is to strip the events down to their simplest meaning possible. Then, and only then can I TRY to associate how I’ve felt in certain situations with the same kind of (again... only when you peel away every single layer and are left with the smallest part of the core) feelings, well, as much as any person can imagine/ empathize with what another is feeling/ going through. A part I don’t want to spoil, however, I can completely 100% relate to.
Another feeling I can completely relate to, maybe we can all relate to, I’m sure... is that sometimes you are aware something is wrong, but cannot/ feel like you cannot do much about it. Some may feel hopelessly out of control of the situation.
So yeah. This was an amazing, both relatable, & magical story about two seniors in high school, fighting mental illness in both a real (for Jack) world AND a fictional (for August) world, a remarkable relationship, and the lengths one will go for the ones they love.
Anyway; let’s just say my heart needs some recovery time because it took a ride on quite the emotional rollercoaster these last few days where I actually had a chance time read. ‘twas a vicious cycle, my friends.
I grew to love August & Jack very quickly & so very, very, much ❤️; to say that their journey was a flawed & difficult one is an understatement to say the least!
But what is flawed & difficult, can also be beautiful, and it all, very much was.
I think it was the perfect depiction of what it was set out to depict.
I highly recommend
, although I’m still frustrated with the ending lol.
BUT if you strongly disliked the formatting of the illuminae books, you most likely will not like this either , since the kind of formatting is pretty much the same (albeit a lot less intense & jam packed with info, plus there are pages of “normal” text in between the pages of “unique formatting”)... photos, documents, short excerpts, that kind of thing. It is not your traditional novel.
I must commend & express my thoughts on the author :
I think that K. Ancrum is absolutely brilliant & wonderful, & so very strong to create a fictional work depicting a situation that involved subjects and emotions that I’m sure must be/ have been very sensitive for her to put out there. Athough this tale is fictional, she found herself in a very real situation that was very similar to this one at around the same age,and this book serves as a sort of warning to others to seek help for ANY psychological illness. Though far from these exact fictional occurrences, I cannot even begin to imagine how she felt/ what emotions she had to feel all over again to go through every single step in getting this out on the shelves.
I truly respect & love her for writing this novel.
I just absolutely respect her facing her past to share this original, creative, emotional, informative, different, REMARKABLE, story.
I so ridiculously BEYOND respect her for raising more mental health awareness, unabashedly, and especially targeted at a YA audience.
... I just loved it all, with all of my heart.
So clearly I 100% recommend this to any and all readers.
💕and if you need a reminder, today, or any time, I love you all, my fellow bookish friends! You Are Loved.