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Before I Saw You
Folks are dying fast as the ash trees in the southern Indiana town ravaged by the heroin epidemic, where Jaycee Givens lives with nothing more than a thread of hope and a quirky neighbor, Sudie, who rescues injured wildlife. After a tragedy leaves her mother in prison, Jaycee is carrying grief and an unplanned pregnancy she conceals because she trusts no one, including the kind and handsome Gabe, who is new to town and to the local diner where she works.
Dividing her time between the diner and Sudie's place, Jaycee nurses her broken heart among a collection of unlikely friends who are the closest thing to family that she has. Eventually, she realizes she can't hide her pregnancy any longer--not even from the baby's abusive father, who is furious when he finds out. The choices she must make for the safety of her unborn child threaten to derail any chance she ever had for hope and redemption. Ultimately, Jaycee must decide whether the truest form of love means hanging on or letting go.
Includes discussion guide.
Dividing her time between the diner and Sudie's place, Jaycee nurses her broken heart among a collection of unlikely friends who are the closest thing to family that she has. Eventually, she realizes she can't hide her pregnancy any longer--not even from the baby's abusive father, who is furious when he finds out. The choices she must make for the safety of her unborn child threaten to derail any chance she ever had for hope and redemption. Ultimately, Jaycee must decide whether the truest form of love means hanging on or letting go.
Includes discussion guide.
379 pages, Paperback
First published June 5, 2018
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About the author
Amy K. Sorrells
15 books220 followersA long time believer in the power of story to change lives, Amy's stories feature strong female heroines who find hope in the midst of the unexpected. Recipient of a starred review from Publisher's Weekly, and reviewed by Library Journal, USA Today, and more, her work has been featured in a wide array of publications including newspapers and medical journals. Her novels have been shortlisted for the 2014 Inspy awards, semi-finalists for the ACFW Genesis awards, and a winner of the 2011 Women of Faith writing contest.
An Indianapolis native and graduate of DePauw University, Amy lives with her husband and beloved dogs in central Indiana. Together they have raised three sons. When she's not writing or working her day job as an RN, she enjoys DIY projects, gardening, birding, and long walks in the woods with her labrador retriever.
An Indianapolis native and graduate of DePauw University, Amy lives with her husband and beloved dogs in central Indiana. Together they have raised three sons. When she's not writing or working her day job as an RN, she enjoys DIY projects, gardening, birding, and long walks in the woods with her labrador retriever.
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June 14, 2018
Wow! This is my first ever Amy K. Sorrells novel and it most definitely will not be my last one. This book, it's setting, it's characters, it's messages......all of it absolutely gripped me and took me on an emotional roller coaster ride. I was up, down, sideways, in and out while reading this novel, and it left me with a feeling I haven't had with a book in a long, long time.
As a former street drug abuser, I related with this book on so many levels, with it's work of opioid abuse weaved into the story line. It's a very real thing now a days, and so many people are dying from the use of it. Thankfully, with God's love and kind forgiveness, I was saved and have been drug free for more than 15 years now, and this novel brought with the flood of emotions. Watching Jaycee struggle with certain decisions, watching her and her faith grow stronger through the novel, really made me see myself in her.
Throughout these pages, Ms. Sorrells has woven a message of the utmost importance from our God.......true love. I love my children more than life itself, but my truest love of all comes from, and for, our God. I could feel that message unweaving with each page turn, felt it envelope me and keep me hooked to the story.
This is more than a 5 star book. This is one that I highly recommend to everyone. This book is emotional, gripping, and may not be an easy read for some, but it's one that will forever be on my shelf and one that I will turn to when I need a reminder that sometimes struggles are what are needed to over come the mountains that God puts in my life. Faith,hope, love and more make up this novel and I can't wait to dive into another amazingly chiseled creation from this talented author! Well done, Ms. Sorrell!
*I received a complimentary copy of this book from the publisher and was under no obligation to post a review, positive or negative.*
As a former street drug abuser, I related with this book on so many levels, with it's work of opioid abuse weaved into the story line. It's a very real thing now a days, and so many people are dying from the use of it. Thankfully, with God's love and kind forgiveness, I was saved and have been drug free for more than 15 years now, and this novel brought with the flood of emotions. Watching Jaycee struggle with certain decisions, watching her and her faith grow stronger through the novel, really made me see myself in her.
Throughout these pages, Ms. Sorrells has woven a message of the utmost importance from our God.......true love. I love my children more than life itself, but my truest love of all comes from, and for, our God. I could feel that message unweaving with each page turn, felt it envelope me and keep me hooked to the story.
This is more than a 5 star book. This is one that I highly recommend to everyone. This book is emotional, gripping, and may not be an easy read for some, but it's one that will forever be on my shelf and one that I will turn to when I need a reminder that sometimes struggles are what are needed to over come the mountains that God puts in my life. Faith,hope, love and more make up this novel and I can't wait to dive into another amazingly chiseled creation from this talented author! Well done, Ms. Sorrell!
*I received a complimentary copy of this book from the publisher and was under no obligation to post a review, positive or negative.*
November 22, 2025
Equally heartbreaking and heartwarming.
Jaycee has a rough life as a teenager and young adult. Her mother is a heroin addict and Jaycee does her best to care for her infant brother Jayden.
Jaycee has a rough life as a teenager and young adult. Her mother is a heroin addict and Jaycee does her best to care for her infant brother Jayden.
August 18, 2018
Sometimes when I read a really impactful story, I make a note of the author and keep an eye out for any future publications. Amy K. Sorrells was added to this short list after I read her novel, Lead Me Home. Sorrells has a unique voice and I appreciate how she takes believers to task without getting preachy. This new story, Before I Saw You, takes place in a small town in Southern Indiana caught up in the hope-crushing, life-shattering grip of the opioid crisis. While grieving over the destruction of her family, Jaycee becomes pregnant and questions whether adoption would provide the best chance for her baby’s future.
Sorrells attends to every detail of this story. She draws upon her experience as a nurse to add credibility and gravity to scenes, adds interesting details about Sudie’s hobby of animal rehabilitation, gives each secondary character a purpose, and carefully balances her main character’s head voice (thoughts and prayers) with her interpersonal dialogue. By far, however, my favorite detail is the growth and maturity of Jaycee’s faith. This comes by a variety of means—the Word preached, personal prayer, and godly counsel.
The other aspect of the story I thoroughly enjoyed was what I believe to be a call to action (much like I saw in the author’s previous book). Through Jaycee’s story, readers get a glimpse of how the church can have a positive impact on our communities. As a body, we should be extending grace to repentant sinners and welcoming them into or back into the fold. Additionally, we are reminded to heed the Great Commission and “go” out to rescue the lost instead of retreating into the safety and comfort of our Christian communities. As individuals, committing to disciple and encourage one, two, or many people. While the congregation in this story seems to be on the right track, these principles were best lived out through Jaycee’s neighbor, Sudie. It was this older woman to whom Jaycee could speak about her mother’s addiction, how her boyfriend mistreated her, and the new life growing inside her. This story tugged at my heart and stirred me to action. It’s impossible to read it and walk away unmoved.
Sorrells attends to every detail of this story. She draws upon her experience as a nurse to add credibility and gravity to scenes, adds interesting details about Sudie’s hobby of animal rehabilitation, gives each secondary character a purpose, and carefully balances her main character’s head voice (thoughts and prayers) with her interpersonal dialogue. By far, however, my favorite detail is the growth and maturity of Jaycee’s faith. This comes by a variety of means—the Word preached, personal prayer, and godly counsel.
The other aspect of the story I thoroughly enjoyed was what I believe to be a call to action (much like I saw in the author’s previous book). Through Jaycee’s story, readers get a glimpse of how the church can have a positive impact on our communities. As a body, we should be extending grace to repentant sinners and welcoming them into or back into the fold. Additionally, we are reminded to heed the Great Commission and “go” out to rescue the lost instead of retreating into the safety and comfort of our Christian communities. As individuals, committing to disciple and encourage one, two, or many people. While the congregation in this story seems to be on the right track, these principles were best lived out through Jaycee’s neighbor, Sudie. It was this older woman to whom Jaycee could speak about her mother’s addiction, how her boyfriend mistreated her, and the new life growing inside her. This story tugged at my heart and stirred me to action. It’s impossible to read it and walk away unmoved.
May 22, 2018
Few books have ever truly touched my soul like "Before I Saw You" has. As a child of adoption, this book stirred thoughts and emotions I thought I'd long ago dealt with. But after reading this book, I've at last been able to forgive my birth mother, and have come to understand what a truly incredible gift she gave me.
The characters in this book were completely believeable and totally relevant to today's society. My family has been deeply touched by the opioid epidemic, and have watched vital, purposeful lives become reduced to pure squallor. But thank God, I've also seen those lives turned around and made into something incredibly beautiful by the power of God's grace and mercy.
While a fictional story, this book shows the reality of what a life of poverty and drug abuse can do to an individual and their family. But it also shows the unconditional love, grace and mercy shown by our loving Heavenly Father, to anyone who would ask. Amy Sorrells has done an amazing job telling a story that few are brave enough to tackle. A must read!!
The characters in this book were completely believeable and totally relevant to today's society. My family has been deeply touched by the opioid epidemic, and have watched vital, purposeful lives become reduced to pure squallor. But thank God, I've also seen those lives turned around and made into something incredibly beautiful by the power of God's grace and mercy.
While a fictional story, this book shows the reality of what a life of poverty and drug abuse can do to an individual and their family. But it also shows the unconditional love, grace and mercy shown by our loving Heavenly Father, to anyone who would ask. Amy Sorrells has done an amazing job telling a story that few are brave enough to tackle. A must read!!
December 5, 2018
Seriously, how can this be my first ever Amy Sorrells book?! It boggles the mind when I think about all the literary goodness I've been missing! I'm dumbfounded over this egregious literary lapse! (hanging my head in shame as I vow to do penance.)
So, I was transfixed by Jaycee's story. Emotionally-gutted, heart-pummeled absorbed right to the very last word. And then I mooned around in a weepy stupor of mixed emotions as I tried to process it all.
The author has an uncanny grip on the raw reality of life. Profoundly so. Hardship, pain and loss embraced by the fragile beauty of hope -- that's what makes this book impossible to put down. Jaycee's redemption story is powerfully moving and truly uplifting. From characters to setting to plot -- Sorrells delivers a memorable story that will linger in the recesses of your mind long after you reach that dreaded last page.
So, I was transfixed by Jaycee's story. Emotionally-gutted, heart-pummeled absorbed right to the very last word. And then I mooned around in a weepy stupor of mixed emotions as I tried to process it all.
The author has an uncanny grip on the raw reality of life. Profoundly so. Hardship, pain and loss embraced by the fragile beauty of hope -- that's what makes this book impossible to put down. Jaycee's redemption story is powerfully moving and truly uplifting. From characters to setting to plot -- Sorrells delivers a memorable story that will linger in the recesses of your mind long after you reach that dreaded last page.
May 21, 2020
This was such a beautiful story about learning to trust in God and overcoming. Jaycee Givens has grown up on the poor side of her hometown in small town, Indiana. She struggles with not only the poverty, but also the rampant drug abuse all around her. In the midst of this, the unthinkable happens in her family and she finds herself as a young adult on her own. When she finds herself pregnant by a boyfriend who is abusive and unfaithful, she has to decide what to do.
I think many can relate to Jaycee's feelings of unworthiness, even if we don't come from her circumstances. I loved how the people in her life stepped up at just the right time, which showed God's care and intimate concern for her. Even though she struggled in her faith walk, I loved how she heard from God and strived to obey Him. By the ending, I was crying big crocodile tears. In a good way! This one has been on my TBR stack for awhile, and I'm glad I pulled it out now - not sure what took me so long! This is one I would recommend to all readers of Christian fiction!
I think many can relate to Jaycee's feelings of unworthiness, even if we don't come from her circumstances. I loved how the people in her life stepped up at just the right time, which showed God's care and intimate concern for her. Even though she struggled in her faith walk, I loved how she heard from God and strived to obey Him. By the ending, I was crying big crocodile tears. In a good way! This one has been on my TBR stack for awhile, and I'm glad I pulled it out now - not sure what took me so long! This is one I would recommend to all readers of Christian fiction!
June 16, 2018
Adoption is a topic that is very close to me. My grandmother was adopted. She was loved by two mothers, the one that gave birth to her, loved her and cared for her until she was six weeks, while keeping it a secret from everyone. The second one was the mother that adopted her, an amazing mother whom had nothing, but love for her daughter, her grandchildren and her great grandchildren. She was incredible. Always laughing, and giving something of herself to others.
When I read this story of Jaycee, I knew that the story was very different than that of my grandmother. But her mother that gave birth to her was similar in that she felt she had no choice. In that time, you didn’t keep a child when you were not married.
This story touched me as you felt the love of a birth mother for her child. The sacrifice she gave to give a child life. Often that is neglected in the story of adoption to show the incredible love that is there.
I wish that we were more supportive of mothers, so they do feel they have options, like Jaycee, that if they want to parent or release their child to be parented by another set of parents, we would see there is love in both actions.
I would recommend this book to anyone that has adoption as a part of their life, to see a glimpse inside the world of a mother that chose adoption, but not only them, almost anyone that would want their heart to be touched to glimpse into how we can love, self sacrificially in so many ways.
This book was obtained by me from the publisher, Tyndale House. The opinions contained herein are my own.
When I read this story of Jaycee, I knew that the story was very different than that of my grandmother. But her mother that gave birth to her was similar in that she felt she had no choice. In that time, you didn’t keep a child when you were not married.
This story touched me as you felt the love of a birth mother for her child. The sacrifice she gave to give a child life. Often that is neglected in the story of adoption to show the incredible love that is there.
I wish that we were more supportive of mothers, so they do feel they have options, like Jaycee, that if they want to parent or release their child to be parented by another set of parents, we would see there is love in both actions.
I would recommend this book to anyone that has adoption as a part of their life, to see a glimpse inside the world of a mother that chose adoption, but not only them, almost anyone that would want their heart to be touched to glimpse into how we can love, self sacrificially in so many ways.
This book was obtained by me from the publisher, Tyndale House. The opinions contained herein are my own.
June 16, 2018
Sometimes I read for the pure joy of immersing myself in a good story on a quiet afternoon. At least, that's what I thought I was going to do when I picked up Before I Saw You by Amy K. Sorrells. Guess what? Not so! The power of grace is so prevalent in these words that I was amazed at how easy it was to include it in a fiction story.
Life is hard! God is good! Life is about letting go and letting God. Cliches? Yes (and no, they are not used in the book).
If anything, life is about choices. Some easy. Some hard. Some based on what we know. Some based on what we don't. We always have a choice. Throughout the book, the main character is reminded to trust God for the answers.
Life is about decisions that often affect more than the person making them. It's evident throughout the story here and about life in general, for everyone.
Now, I know I'm being quite vague in this review but, I'm trying to keep from spoiling this great read for you.
Relationships are really what life is about and this book is full of the twists and turns, good and bad, that all relationships take. A drug-addicted mother, a woman-child who hasn't had the benefit of a good life, a sickly baby, a bully boyfriend, an unplanned pregnancy, an unexpected turn of events, and choices, so many choices...
I highly recommend adding this to your summer reading list. It's definitely worth your time!
Life is hard! God is good! Life is about letting go and letting God. Cliches? Yes (and no, they are not used in the book).
If anything, life is about choices. Some easy. Some hard. Some based on what we know. Some based on what we don't. We always have a choice. Throughout the book, the main character is reminded to trust God for the answers.
Life is about decisions that often affect more than the person making them. It's evident throughout the story here and about life in general, for everyone.
Now, I know I'm being quite vague in this review but, I'm trying to keep from spoiling this great read for you.
Relationships are really what life is about and this book is full of the twists and turns, good and bad, that all relationships take. A drug-addicted mother, a woman-child who hasn't had the benefit of a good life, a sickly baby, a bully boyfriend, an unplanned pregnancy, an unexpected turn of events, and choices, so many choices...
I highly recommend adding this to your summer reading list. It's definitely worth your time!
June 20, 2018
I’ve been waiting anxiously for this book to come out! And I was not disappointed! Amy does not shy away from talking about some hard realities of life.
I could easily picture the area as we had just driven through that part of Indiana. And I really cared about the characters.
It’s a convicting book. And a wonderful story of God’s love for us. I highly recommend it!
I could easily picture the area as we had just driven through that part of Indiana. And I really cared about the characters.
It’s a convicting book. And a wonderful story of God’s love for us. I highly recommend it!
May 9, 2018
An exquisite, emotional tale that gives a glimpse inside the hurt caused by the opioid epidemic and the impossible choices one young woman must make in the wake of its damage. Extremely relevant and lyrically told, this book did not leave me with dry eyes, but it did leave me with a renewed sense of the power of kindness and the beauty and tenacity of hope. Highly recommend! I look forward to reading more of Sorrells's books!
June 3, 2018
Before I Saw You, by Amy K. Sorrells is a wonderful story. Jaycee has gone out to rescue baby rabbit and left her little brother home sleeping. Her mother is at home with friends who could and do cause harm to her little brother. Her mother is sent to prison and Jaycee is all alone. She works at a diner and is now pregnant. She has broken up with her abusive boyfriend. With the support of friends and co-workers, Jaycee decides it is best to give her baby up for adoption. When the father's family finds out they file for custody.
This is a great book. With discussion questions at the end, this would be a good book for book discussion groups. The story focuses on drug addition, unplanned pregnancy and forgiveness. Several things in this story stand out for me. One being how Jaycee is finally able to forgive her mother and turns to her for emotional support. Another is how the church members and elderly ladies in Jaycees life help her through the tough times. When her brother dies and her mother goes to prison, the church steps in to help her. Her neighbor, Sudie, is there through all her life helping her and her mother. And her employer is a friend as well as an employer. I really enjoyed this story. I feel anyone who likes to read about contemporary women's issues will like this story.
I received a copy of this book from Tyndale Blog Network. This is my honest review.
This is a great book. With discussion questions at the end, this would be a good book for book discussion groups. The story focuses on drug addition, unplanned pregnancy and forgiveness. Several things in this story stand out for me. One being how Jaycee is finally able to forgive her mother and turns to her for emotional support. Another is how the church members and elderly ladies in Jaycees life help her through the tough times. When her brother dies and her mother goes to prison, the church steps in to help her. Her neighbor, Sudie, is there through all her life helping her and her mother. And her employer is a friend as well as an employer. I really enjoyed this story. I feel anyone who likes to read about contemporary women's issues will like this story.
I received a copy of this book from Tyndale Blog Network. This is my honest review.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
June 5, 2018
It took awhile for me to gather my thoughts and get my emotions under control after finishing, Before I Saw You. I have to be honest and admit that I didn't think that I would become so attached to Jaycee, Sudie and some of the other characters in this book.
I think its' because the storyline is so timely given what's happening in society, the drug epidemic, the feeling of hopelessness but more than that, the lost innocence of our youth. Jacycee is a perfect example of that when she takes on the responsiblity of caring for her mother, baby brother, working and going to school. She became the adult in her home much earlier than she should have. Yet, she still managed to find some joy along the way. She had people who were encouraging and took an interest in her life so she had some emotional support.
Yes, this is a fictional story but the author brings her characters to life with her descriptive storytelling making it so real. I cried with and for Jaycee and I was thrilled to see her grace and maturity throughout the book as she tackles tough and life changing decisions by doing what I thought was the most selfless and loving thing a person can do.
There can be beauty in even the ugliest situations which Ms. Sorrells details in the pages of the book. An engaging read with a nice pace that will keep you reading "just one more chapter" even though you may have an early appointment that you can't cancel it because the doctor requires a 24 hour advance notice.
I highly recommend this one and it's definitely going on my keeper shelf.
I received a complimentary copy of the book from the publisher and was under no obligation to write positive review. All opinions are my own.
I think its' because the storyline is so timely given what's happening in society, the drug epidemic, the feeling of hopelessness but more than that, the lost innocence of our youth. Jacycee is a perfect example of that when she takes on the responsiblity of caring for her mother, baby brother, working and going to school. She became the adult in her home much earlier than she should have. Yet, she still managed to find some joy along the way. She had people who were encouraging and took an interest in her life so she had some emotional support.
Yes, this is a fictional story but the author brings her characters to life with her descriptive storytelling making it so real. I cried with and for Jaycee and I was thrilled to see her grace and maturity throughout the book as she tackles tough and life changing decisions by doing what I thought was the most selfless and loving thing a person can do.
There can be beauty in even the ugliest situations which Ms. Sorrells details in the pages of the book. An engaging read with a nice pace that will keep you reading "just one more chapter" even though you may have an early appointment that you can't cancel it because the doctor requires a 24 hour advance notice.
I highly recommend this one and it's definitely going on my keeper shelf.
I received a complimentary copy of the book from the publisher and was under no obligation to write positive review. All opinions are my own.
November 7, 2018
The first three-fourths of this book was decently good, but didn’t really hit me in the gut UNTIL the final chapters when the author portrayed a birth mom’s wrenching decision to give her baby up for adoption in such a real and poignant way. It was a subtle crescendo until it really grabbed me. Yes, adoption is such a wonderful and beautiful thing for the adoptive family and the child, and mostly I just see that side of it and share in the joy of the people I know whose lives have been made better. The happy-ending side. But the fact that a woman ever feels that she should/needs to/or even wants to give her baby up, in the first place, indicates how broken our world is. How often do we think about that perspective? My heart broke for Jaycee, as she made this decision. Even though she is a fictional character, she represents thousands of women and girls whose feelings and perspective are largely unknown and unheard. This book touched my core. I wasn’t expecting that to happen. But it surely did.
September 26, 2018
This is a great book that touches on so many of today's issues. Its primary issues are the opioid epidemic and domestic violence, things that are becoming all too common today and often remain hidden until they get too big to cover up any longer.
As a Christian reader, I love the various issues that come up in people of faith. This book's main theme is about how He cares for us through the trials we endure. He may not protect us for everything that is bad, put His hand is on us, sustaining us, uplifting us, and showing us that His plan may not always be our plan. The situations in the story that show us His faithfulness are the loss of loved ones, imprisonment, abuse, and unplanned pregnancy, to name a few.
The option of adoption is prevalent in this story. God brings it about in a way that is a blessing to all of those involved. But I like that it isn't the foregone conclusion throughout since it is quite realistic that it is seldom the only option.
As a Christian reader, I love the various issues that come up in people of faith. This book's main theme is about how He cares for us through the trials we endure. He may not protect us for everything that is bad, put His hand is on us, sustaining us, uplifting us, and showing us that His plan may not always be our plan. The situations in the story that show us His faithfulness are the loss of loved ones, imprisonment, abuse, and unplanned pregnancy, to name a few.
The option of adoption is prevalent in this story. God brings it about in a way that is a blessing to all of those involved. But I like that it isn't the foregone conclusion throughout since it is quite realistic that it is seldom the only option.
July 2, 2018
Incredible
This book was incredible, so much feeling was packed into these pages bringing about such an intense emotional response from me the reader. Many tears were shed in reading this and my heart hurt for Jaycee’s struggles. Religion plays a huge part in this book and the way it intertwines with Jaycee’s life was amazing. It never comes off as a push on religion but a crucial aspect of the main character and her story while at the same time touching anyone with strong belief such as Jaycee’s. So much pain, so much struggle and yet so much of god’s grace is brought through these pages while addressing many current issues and bringing attention to subjects some choose to not think about. This is definitely a must read
This book was incredible, so much feeling was packed into these pages bringing about such an intense emotional response from me the reader. Many tears were shed in reading this and my heart hurt for Jaycee’s struggles. Religion plays a huge part in this book and the way it intertwines with Jaycee’s life was amazing. It never comes off as a push on religion but a crucial aspect of the main character and her story while at the same time touching anyone with strong belief such as Jaycee’s. So much pain, so much struggle and yet so much of god’s grace is brought through these pages while addressing many current issues and bringing attention to subjects some choose to not think about. This is definitely a must read
June 13, 2018
Before I Saw You is quite an emotional read for me. Jaycee Givens has been through so much throughout their lifetime. She experiences more as a child than anyone should ever have to their entire lifetime. I enjoyed watching her grow in the book. She has to learn how to love, forgive, and trust again. Then ending was so heart wrenching but yet encouraging.
I give Before I Saw You 4 1/2 stars. Such a powerful and inspiring story of faith and hope.
I received this book from the publisher. This review is 100% my own honest opinion.
I give Before I Saw You 4 1/2 stars. Such a powerful and inspiring story of faith and hope.
I received this book from the publisher. This review is 100% my own honest opinion.
May 5, 2019
Very well written story of those without the finer things in life. However they love deeply and they hurt deeply as well. I loved the strength of the characters in this novel. I loved their faith in the midst of their storms. So worth the read. This writer, Amy K. Sorrells is a keeper!
August 23, 2022
3-1/2 stars
September 4, 2018
WARNING: DO NOT ATTEMPT TO READ WITHOUT KLEENEX! This book had my crying before I'd even hit page 50, and had me shedding crocodile tears at the end. This was one emotional roller-coaster of a ride. In many ways this was not an easy read--but was a necessary one. My husband (along with several of his siblings) are adopted children, so this story really hit close to home. I really don't want to give away too much in the story-line for this because it was all so powerful and each piece was perfectly woven to be revealed at just the right time.
This was a book I ended with book fog. My poor husband was sitting right beside me as I finished and saw the giant tears coming down my face. While he's fairly used to my emotional reactions to books, he said he was surprised to see me sobbing. I shared with him what the book was about so he already knew. I actually asked him a couple questions about his adoption if he knew of his birth mother having any contact with him before she had to say goodbye.
One thing that I find of important note that I feel the book did a very good job of addressing, comes along with the wording when talking about adoption. My husband had a unique situation that the ministry that helped his birth mother through her pregnancy also has been a part of his life. While it was a closed adoption and they could not reveal any information to either party, they were able to minister to both sides. One of the things that I have personally heard them repeat, is that they are against the usage of the term "giving up for adoption." They use the term "placed in adoption" because the hope of the mother is to give their child their best chance. It's a difficult, selfless decision to provide the very best for their child even if it can't be with them. I appreciated the wording that the author used throughout to be sensitive to the topic and sharing the full heart behind it all.
Another powerful piece to the story was the fact that while Jaycee had a rough upbringing with her mother addicted to heroin, God had provided people around her that were able to step-in where her mother had signed-out. She had a community of people that truly cared for her and were by her side in full support regardless of what she was going through. My favorite supporting character was Jaycee's neighbor Sudie. She would take in inured animals like birds, turtles, raccoons, etc and rehabilitate them. Jaycee would go over to her home and help her out. Sudie was like the grandmother she never had. While her past is a bit of a mystery in the beginning, more is revealed overtime and it made me appreciate her even more. I won't reveal anything because you need to read for yourself. Just know she's an amazing woman.
Towards the beginning of the story I wasn't quite sure where Jaycee stood on a spiritual level, but it appears she had church interaction throughout her life. What broke my heart the most though was Jaycee's feelings that she didn't deserve God's love and felt completely unworthy. Her friend Carla had the perfect response: "It's the folks who thought the Lord shouldn't love them that he made a point to love the most." God is able to reach out to us and meet us where we are at. He is able to pick us up even out of our lowest low if we will just take his hand and follow him.
I really don't want to share too much about this story because it's so perfectly orchestrated, but I seriously can't recommend it enough. As I said in the beginning, a box of tissues is basically a requirement for reading, but I promise it's worth it. Despite being a fictional story, this book is real. It's the story and voice of countless women who have or have contemplated placing a child in adoption. It's a message to the adopted children, that they haven't been "given up" but instead given their best chance. It's a powerful enough message that I'm tearing up just writing this review. Absolutely being added to my favorites list!
This was a book I ended with book fog. My poor husband was sitting right beside me as I finished and saw the giant tears coming down my face. While he's fairly used to my emotional reactions to books, he said he was surprised to see me sobbing. I shared with him what the book was about so he already knew. I actually asked him a couple questions about his adoption if he knew of his birth mother having any contact with him before she had to say goodbye.
One thing that I find of important note that I feel the book did a very good job of addressing, comes along with the wording when talking about adoption. My husband had a unique situation that the ministry that helped his birth mother through her pregnancy also has been a part of his life. While it was a closed adoption and they could not reveal any information to either party, they were able to minister to both sides. One of the things that I have personally heard them repeat, is that they are against the usage of the term "giving up for adoption." They use the term "placed in adoption" because the hope of the mother is to give their child their best chance. It's a difficult, selfless decision to provide the very best for their child even if it can't be with them. I appreciated the wording that the author used throughout to be sensitive to the topic and sharing the full heart behind it all.
Another powerful piece to the story was the fact that while Jaycee had a rough upbringing with her mother addicted to heroin, God had provided people around her that were able to step-in where her mother had signed-out. She had a community of people that truly cared for her and were by her side in full support regardless of what she was going through. My favorite supporting character was Jaycee's neighbor Sudie. She would take in inured animals like birds, turtles, raccoons, etc and rehabilitate them. Jaycee would go over to her home and help her out. Sudie was like the grandmother she never had. While her past is a bit of a mystery in the beginning, more is revealed overtime and it made me appreciate her even more. I won't reveal anything because you need to read for yourself. Just know she's an amazing woman.
Towards the beginning of the story I wasn't quite sure where Jaycee stood on a spiritual level, but it appears she had church interaction throughout her life. What broke my heart the most though was Jaycee's feelings that she didn't deserve God's love and felt completely unworthy. Her friend Carla had the perfect response: "It's the folks who thought the Lord shouldn't love them that he made a point to love the most." God is able to reach out to us and meet us where we are at. He is able to pick us up even out of our lowest low if we will just take his hand and follow him.
I really don't want to share too much about this story because it's so perfectly orchestrated, but I seriously can't recommend it enough. As I said in the beginning, a box of tissues is basically a requirement for reading, but I promise it's worth it. Despite being a fictional story, this book is real. It's the story and voice of countless women who have or have contemplated placing a child in adoption. It's a message to the adopted children, that they haven't been "given up" but instead given their best chance. It's a powerful enough message that I'm tearing up just writing this review. Absolutely being added to my favorites list!
October 17, 2018
What a wonderful heart wrenching book. You will need tissues. I have read all of this author's books and have loved them all but this one is my favorite. A story of grace and fortitude and courage and selfless love. I highly recommend it and anything else Amy Sorrells has written.
July 26, 2018
This book is a powerful, emotional roller coaster of a book. I have no experience or knowledge of street drug abuse other than what I've seen on the news so this book was a huge eye opener. I got immersed in the story immediately and I became invested in Jaycee, Sudie, and Gabe's story.
The story is timely with real characters who have lost hope, need grace, and feel lost. Readers who have no first hand knowledge of street drug addiction will be pulled into the story and on some level be able to relate to the characters, because we have all felt hopeless, in need of grace, and lost at one time or another. Ms. Sorrells does a fantastic job of showing that grace, hope, and being found can only come from Christ.
My Bottom Line:
If you enjoy books that are full of emotion, and pack a powerful punch to your soul then look no further. This book will have you invested in the characters and story line. The subject matter is tough and will have you reaching for a Kleenex from time to time. Ms. Sorrells shows the pain of losing your childhood as well as feeling completely hopeless. While the book hit me hard it is also one that I will remember for a long time. These characters will not be forgotten anytime soon!
The story is timely with real characters who have lost hope, need grace, and feel lost. Readers who have no first hand knowledge of street drug addiction will be pulled into the story and on some level be able to relate to the characters, because we have all felt hopeless, in need of grace, and lost at one time or another. Ms. Sorrells does a fantastic job of showing that grace, hope, and being found can only come from Christ.
My Bottom Line:
If you enjoy books that are full of emotion, and pack a powerful punch to your soul then look no further. This book will have you invested in the characters and story line. The subject matter is tough and will have you reaching for a Kleenex from time to time. Ms. Sorrells shows the pain of losing your childhood as well as feeling completely hopeless. While the book hit me hard it is also one that I will remember for a long time. These characters will not be forgotten anytime soon!
September 16, 2019
Received a Kindle copy from Goodreads, finally got a chance to read it. This is my first book by this author. As an adoptee, I wasn't sure how I'd take the adoption aspect and the journey Jaycee took. I think that it was presented very well, and could tell the author had done her research on birth mothers. I enjoyed this whole story and felt that the scripture and faith tie in was just right, not overly Christian based. Overall, a great story and lots of emotions, did not expect to be hit with the amount of tears, but so worth it.
May 6, 2019
This is a heart wrenching story and yet so full of hope. It resonated with me since it takes place in southern Indiana and I live in Kentucky. I see the effects of meth and heroin in my small town, the death of the ash trees, and the heartbreak of a pregnancy that’s not anticipated. Ms. Sorrells writes beautifully and poignantly with characters so real they could be sitting next to me. I highly recommend this book.
May 10, 2020
I am participating in a reading challenge through my local public library. One of the 52 challenges was to read a book where the author has the same first or last name as you. I chose Amy Sorrells. No final S in my last name but close enough.
This book is just so beautiful. I am thrilled to know of this amazing author.
Amy Sorrells tells the faith-filled saga of a pregnant young mother surrounded by opioid addiction who finds hope in the goodness around her. Jaycee Givens is no stranger to heartbreak and grief. Her baby brother Jayden has unnecessarily died, and her heroin-addicted mother has been sent to prison. Then Jaycee realizes she’s pregnant by her abusive on-and-off boyfriend. Thank goodness she has friends to support her. Middle aged Sudie who is more like a mother, nurtures and with great God filled wisdom advises Jaycee.
Together they rescue injured animals adding to the heart of the characters. Then there is newcomer to the small rural town of Riverton, Indiana, Gabe. Gabe is the mature, sweet, handsome guy who has moved there to be a paramedic. He supplements his income by working at the diner where Jaycee works.
The characters Sorrells has created are believable and complex. You will fall in love and want to know more about the people you’ve gotten to know as you turn the last page.
No one in this life is immune to the tough realities of life, so readers can easily identify even if circumstances are different. The book is never preachy but rather is filled with life-giving grace. I really enjoyed the Bible references from the old and new testaments and how they so aptly apply to life in the 21st century.
When you start this beautiful story be prepared to lose yourself within these 300 plus pages with joy and tears.
This book is just so beautiful. I am thrilled to know of this amazing author.
Amy Sorrells tells the faith-filled saga of a pregnant young mother surrounded by opioid addiction who finds hope in the goodness around her. Jaycee Givens is no stranger to heartbreak and grief. Her baby brother Jayden has unnecessarily died, and her heroin-addicted mother has been sent to prison. Then Jaycee realizes she’s pregnant by her abusive on-and-off boyfriend. Thank goodness she has friends to support her. Middle aged Sudie who is more like a mother, nurtures and with great God filled wisdom advises Jaycee.
Together they rescue injured animals adding to the heart of the characters. Then there is newcomer to the small rural town of Riverton, Indiana, Gabe. Gabe is the mature, sweet, handsome guy who has moved there to be a paramedic. He supplements his income by working at the diner where Jaycee works.
The characters Sorrells has created are believable and complex. You will fall in love and want to know more about the people you’ve gotten to know as you turn the last page.
No one in this life is immune to the tough realities of life, so readers can easily identify even if circumstances are different. The book is never preachy but rather is filled with life-giving grace. I really enjoyed the Bible references from the old and new testaments and how they so aptly apply to life in the 21st century.
When you start this beautiful story be prepared to lose yourself within these 300 plus pages with joy and tears.
July 31, 2018
Before I Saw You by Amy K. Sorrells
Published by Tyndale House Publishers June 05, 2018
Genre: Drama, Christian
Pages: 400
Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
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Publisher’s Description
Folks are dying fast as the ash trees in the southern Indiana town ravaged by the heroin epidemic, where Jaycee Givens lives with nothing more than a thread of hope and a quirky neighbor, Sudie, who rescues injured wildlife. After a tragedy leaves her mother in prison, Jaycee is carrying grief and an unplanned pregnancy she conceals because she trusts no one, including the kind and handsome Gabe, who is new to town and to the local diner where she works.
Dividing her time between the diner and Sudie’s place, Jaycee nurses her broken heart among a collection of unlikely friends who are the closest thing to family that she has. Eventually, she realizes she can’t hide her pregnancy any longer―not even from the baby’s abusive father, who is furious when he finds out. The choices she must make for the safety of her unborn child threaten to derail any chance she ever had for hope and redemption. Ultimately, Jaycee must decide whether the truest form of love means hanging on or letting go.
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Story Notes
Amy K. Sorrells offers a complex story of grace, forgiveness and letting go that will resonate in the hearts and minds of readers long after they finish the last page.
Oh. My. Goodness. What a book! These are the two phrases that kept running through my mind as I read this book. A truly heartbreaking story of finding grace and letting go that I am still pondering several weeks later. And while I have not been through the exact situations of the main character, I have felt the deep hurts and sense of loss that she is struggling to overcome. Ms. Sorrells begins her story in Riverton, Indiana with a young woman named Jaycee who is trying to keep her crumbling family from falling apart. Her father is long dead, her mother has become both a user and dealer of heroin and her nine month old brother Jayden is her main reason to get up every day. He’s been sick and fussy lately but when Jaycee finds Jayden in his crib burning up with fever and very lethargic, she knows something is very wrong. She rushes him to the nearest hospital praying she will make it in time. As the doctors work to cool him down and wake him up, Jaycee searches her mind for something that might help them figure out his deep lethargy. Remembering her mother’s prescription for Methadone was spilled on the counter at home, she quickly tells the doctors her suspicions. But try as they might, Jayden’s tiny body is unable to combat the sickness and the Methadone – he passes away in Jaycee’s arms as she begs him to come back. Several years pass and Jaycee’s mother is put in jail for her son’s death, with little chance of parole anytime soon. Jaycee is working at the local diner to pay the bills and has a boyfriend, Brian, who seems to love her even if he treats her poorly. One her way to her shift at the diner one morning, she literally runs into Gabe Corwin, the diner’s newest employee and a guy who will change Jaycee’s life. But cute as Gabe is, Jaycee carries many secrets, one of which is becoming more obvious by the day, and she knows good guys like him wouldn’t look twice at someone like her. Gabe will surprise Jaycee, both with his kindness and keen perception into the struggles Jaycee faces each day. As Jaycee’s belly grows with her unplanned baby, the fledgling faith she had as a child begins to return as she seeks a way to keep her baby safe. But what is the best for her child? Adoption? Raising him herself? The questions swirl through her mind and lead her to examine her life and what God would have her do. Her first act of new faith is to break up with Brian, which frees her from his many forms of abuse and give her hope for her future. Then she returns to church to find the community she so desperately needs to surround her and her child. Unexpectedly she also finds a new friend in Gabe, who helps her see that her past and her parents mistakes do not have to define her life. He also helps her realize that she is worth more than the “trash” Brian called her – that she is a person of great worth to God and much loved by others. Jaycee must also face her hardest challenge yet, forgiving her mother, before she can really set aside the ropes of her past and move into a better future. As she searches for the courage to forgive, God will supply the answers and grace she needs to accept forgiveness herself. And when her baby is born, God will show her that adoption doesn’t mean she is giving her child away, rather it is giving her child the chance to have the best life possible. It is so hard to write a review for a book that you found so incredible. What to include so others will want to read it too but that also won’t give away the best parts of the story? I cried and laughed so many times as I read this story. You cannot help but feel for Jaycee and the hard life she has. Her struggle to find worth and love while also the grace to forgive was so very real and raw. Her agony as she decides what is best for her child, man! my heart hurt for her pain. The adoption scene is the best and worst…..totally lost any makeup I had on that day as I read the precious words of those chapters. And Gabe is one of the best characters I’ve ever read too. He does show some anger at Jaycee’s deception but he quickly recovers and shows incredible kindness and mercy she truly needs. How I pray to be as like Jesus as Gabe, to also offer quiet advice and support without judgement along with grace and mercy. Ms. Sorrells did a wonderful job of telling a story that is so often overlooked but so true for many people. It isn’t often that we look for those who need Jesus the most, rather we keep to our safe lives and homes and hope they stay in their part of town. Thank you Ms. Sorrells for challenging my faith and my perceptions, may they both grow as a result of your marvelous story. I will most certainly recommend this book to others and purchase extra copies for others. This book is very worth reading and I am currently on the wait list for more of Ms. Sorrells writings. Very much looking forward to her future works as well.
I received this book free of charge from Tyndale House Publishers in exchange for a fair and honest review. I will receive no fiscal compensation for this review and the opinions expressed herein are entirely my own.
Published by Tyndale House Publishers June 05, 2018
Genre: Drama, Christian
Pages: 400
Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
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Publisher’s Description
Folks are dying fast as the ash trees in the southern Indiana town ravaged by the heroin epidemic, where Jaycee Givens lives with nothing more than a thread of hope and a quirky neighbor, Sudie, who rescues injured wildlife. After a tragedy leaves her mother in prison, Jaycee is carrying grief and an unplanned pregnancy she conceals because she trusts no one, including the kind and handsome Gabe, who is new to town and to the local diner where she works.
Dividing her time between the diner and Sudie’s place, Jaycee nurses her broken heart among a collection of unlikely friends who are the closest thing to family that she has. Eventually, she realizes she can’t hide her pregnancy any longer―not even from the baby’s abusive father, who is furious when he finds out. The choices she must make for the safety of her unborn child threaten to derail any chance she ever had for hope and redemption. Ultimately, Jaycee must decide whether the truest form of love means hanging on or letting go.
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Story Notes
Amy K. Sorrells offers a complex story of grace, forgiveness and letting go that will resonate in the hearts and minds of readers long after they finish the last page.
Oh. My. Goodness. What a book! These are the two phrases that kept running through my mind as I read this book. A truly heartbreaking story of finding grace and letting go that I am still pondering several weeks later. And while I have not been through the exact situations of the main character, I have felt the deep hurts and sense of loss that she is struggling to overcome. Ms. Sorrells begins her story in Riverton, Indiana with a young woman named Jaycee who is trying to keep her crumbling family from falling apart. Her father is long dead, her mother has become both a user and dealer of heroin and her nine month old brother Jayden is her main reason to get up every day. He’s been sick and fussy lately but when Jaycee finds Jayden in his crib burning up with fever and very lethargic, she knows something is very wrong. She rushes him to the nearest hospital praying she will make it in time. As the doctors work to cool him down and wake him up, Jaycee searches her mind for something that might help them figure out his deep lethargy. Remembering her mother’s prescription for Methadone was spilled on the counter at home, she quickly tells the doctors her suspicions. But try as they might, Jayden’s tiny body is unable to combat the sickness and the Methadone – he passes away in Jaycee’s arms as she begs him to come back. Several years pass and Jaycee’s mother is put in jail for her son’s death, with little chance of parole anytime soon. Jaycee is working at the local diner to pay the bills and has a boyfriend, Brian, who seems to love her even if he treats her poorly. One her way to her shift at the diner one morning, she literally runs into Gabe Corwin, the diner’s newest employee and a guy who will change Jaycee’s life. But cute as Gabe is, Jaycee carries many secrets, one of which is becoming more obvious by the day, and she knows good guys like him wouldn’t look twice at someone like her. Gabe will surprise Jaycee, both with his kindness and keen perception into the struggles Jaycee faces each day. As Jaycee’s belly grows with her unplanned baby, the fledgling faith she had as a child begins to return as she seeks a way to keep her baby safe. But what is the best for her child? Adoption? Raising him herself? The questions swirl through her mind and lead her to examine her life and what God would have her do. Her first act of new faith is to break up with Brian, which frees her from his many forms of abuse and give her hope for her future. Then she returns to church to find the community she so desperately needs to surround her and her child. Unexpectedly she also finds a new friend in Gabe, who helps her see that her past and her parents mistakes do not have to define her life. He also helps her realize that she is worth more than the “trash” Brian called her – that she is a person of great worth to God and much loved by others. Jaycee must also face her hardest challenge yet, forgiving her mother, before she can really set aside the ropes of her past and move into a better future. As she searches for the courage to forgive, God will supply the answers and grace she needs to accept forgiveness herself. And when her baby is born, God will show her that adoption doesn’t mean she is giving her child away, rather it is giving her child the chance to have the best life possible. It is so hard to write a review for a book that you found so incredible. What to include so others will want to read it too but that also won’t give away the best parts of the story? I cried and laughed so many times as I read this story. You cannot help but feel for Jaycee and the hard life she has. Her struggle to find worth and love while also the grace to forgive was so very real and raw. Her agony as she decides what is best for her child, man! my heart hurt for her pain. The adoption scene is the best and worst…..totally lost any makeup I had on that day as I read the precious words of those chapters. And Gabe is one of the best characters I’ve ever read too. He does show some anger at Jaycee’s deception but he quickly recovers and shows incredible kindness and mercy she truly needs. How I pray to be as like Jesus as Gabe, to also offer quiet advice and support without judgement along with grace and mercy. Ms. Sorrells did a wonderful job of telling a story that is so often overlooked but so true for many people. It isn’t often that we look for those who need Jesus the most, rather we keep to our safe lives and homes and hope they stay in their part of town. Thank you Ms. Sorrells for challenging my faith and my perceptions, may they both grow as a result of your marvelous story. I will most certainly recommend this book to others and purchase extra copies for others. This book is very worth reading and I am currently on the wait list for more of Ms. Sorrells writings. Very much looking forward to her future works as well.
I received this book free of charge from Tyndale House Publishers in exchange for a fair and honest review. I will receive no fiscal compensation for this review and the opinions expressed herein are entirely my own.
August 25, 2018
"It's the folks who thought the Lord shouldn't love them that he made a point to love on the most."
"I just . . . I didn't know I could love - and at the same time be afraid of - someone so much who I've never even met."
Jaycee Givens is afraid, in fact she has been afraid for years now, following the kind of heartache and tragedy that no child, turned young woman, should have to bear. As if life hasn't her handed her enough grief, she now bears the responsibility for another, someone tiny and unseen, someone who deserves better than she can give, someone who she will love forever no matter what.
As Jaycee ponders life changing decisions, those around her provide amazing support and kind, generous wisdom; in fact granting her mercy instead of pity, giving her hope; that if like the woman at the well she pleads "I am thirsty", that the answer will be "All you have to do is reach".
A deeply emotional read with wonderful characters and profuse amounts of inspiration.
"I just . . . I didn't know I could love - and at the same time be afraid of - someone so much who I've never even met."
Jaycee Givens is afraid, in fact she has been afraid for years now, following the kind of heartache and tragedy that no child, turned young woman, should have to bear. As if life hasn't her handed her enough grief, she now bears the responsibility for another, someone tiny and unseen, someone who deserves better than she can give, someone who she will love forever no matter what.
As Jaycee ponders life changing decisions, those around her provide amazing support and kind, generous wisdom; in fact granting her mercy instead of pity, giving her hope; that if like the woman at the well she pleads "I am thirsty", that the answer will be "All you have to do is reach".
A deeply emotional read with wonderful characters and profuse amounts of inspiration.
July 9, 2018
This is my third book by Amy K. Sorrels and it was everything I was expecting it to be and more. The characters in this book were well-drawn, and I'll admit I wish I could continue to fictionally live in Riverton, Indiana to find out what will happen in the future with Jaycee and Gabe, though the author does hint at it. This book doesn't have the HEA that I was hoping for. But it took a lot of guts to make the decision that Jaycee makes in the end, and that's why I give this book five stars. It continues to tug at my heart because it's not one to take lightly. Whether in the fiction land or real life, the decision that Jaycee makes, in the end, was a very hard one. I am still crying over her decision whenever I think of it.
August 31, 2018
Wow! I don't even know where to begin. This book has ALL the things! It's beautifully written, both characters and story are distinct and so authentic I had to keep reminding myself (as I blubbered away), "they're not real - this is a story." I'm adopted, and I know my birth parents (both of them), and I've lost 2 babies within the first 6 months of their lives. I also have nieces whose mom (my sister-in-law) went to prison for drugs when they were young. This book spoke to me in ways no other book ever has. Absolutely amazing! It was my first book by this author. I'm torn about reading her backlist because a) she's clearly a talented writer and storyteller, but b) how could any other book be as good as this one??
June 9, 2018
Do you like a well written emotional read? If you said YES, then this is your book. I was pulled in and before I knew it I had read the whole book in one sitting.
Great storyline and characters. Worthy of an afternoon sitting under a huge shade tree relaxing and reading.
Pick up this 4 star emotional read.
The Mary Reader received this book from the publisher. A favorable review was not required and all reviews expressed are our own.
Great storyline and characters. Worthy of an afternoon sitting under a huge shade tree relaxing and reading.
Pick up this 4 star emotional read.
The Mary Reader received this book from the publisher. A favorable review was not required and all reviews expressed are our own.
March 17, 2019
Oh My! This book is incredible! It's a story of love, forgiveness, pain, identity, adoption, and the opioid crisis. I could not put this book down. I forced myself to sleep and finish the next day. It is amazingly powerful and I am so grateful I had the chance to read it! I will warn you though, I basically sobbed through the last chapter or two. It's a moving story and well worth your time!
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