4.5 Stars
Inspiration. Creation. Love. Motherhood. Children. Sibling Rivalry. Family. Repressing one’s inner self. Regret. Resentment. Promises broken. Dreams crushed. Writing. Commitment. Betrayal. These are some of the themes throughout this story.
At the somewhat still tender age of thirteen, Joan Ashby kept notebooks labeled “Favorite Words,” “Books I Am Reading,” “Quotes Never to Forget,” “Stories,” and “How to Do It.” Within the last one is a list of nine principles, which, include, beyond the standards regarding writing, “Avoid crushes and love,” “Do not entertain any offer of marriage,” “Never ever have children,” and “Never allow anyone to get in my way.”
At a young age, eight years after writing this list, Joan Ashby’s first short story collection, “Other Small Spaces” is published to acclaim, making the best seller list and winning the National Book Award. Four years later, she follows that up with another collection of short stories, “Fictional Family Life,” shortlisted for the Pulitzer Prize, and once again a best seller.
This is the life she has chosen. She chooses this life every day; she lives to tell the stories that run through her, like blood through her veins, or air. Necessary for life.
And then, somewhere in between her books, she fell in love, although not entirely all-consuming. He had his space, she had hers. She wrote. After many desperate love letters, weekends at her place, weekends at his place, she acquiesced, they married, and that verbal contract of no children, ever, is suddenly null and void. A baby is on the way, but this newly married bliss is not tarnished, she convinces herself this pregnancy is a mere blip in the delight she’s feeling. Her husband, Martin, a neuro-ocular surgeon, is thoroughly delighted. They love the small town they’ve moved to in Rhome, Virginia, him from Baltimore, her from NYC.
”… the act of writing had never felt as exquisitely important, so much like prayer.”
And so, a child arrives. A son, Daniel. And because, as they say, “you can’t just have one,” after several years, they have another son, Eric.
This is the life that chooses her.
“The Resurrection of Joan Ashby”
is told through Joan’s personal views, woven alongside sections of Joan Ashby’s written stories throughout the novel. This worked for me most of the time, but there were a few that didn’t work as well, one time that went on a bit too long, and another time it felt more like an interruption. However, these figured in more as the story continues, as the children grow older, as she begins to find a way to get back to her writing, to her real self, as roadblocks pop up at so many turns.
There are a few likeable characters in this debut novel, this story - these stories by Cherise Wolas, but there are at least equally as many who are questionably likeable, or capable of love. The story of Joan Ashby is frequently moving and the writing has a sense of strength and determination, a intense focus on the internal repercussions and struggles of her allowing this life, these choices, to pull her away from her writing. The sacrifices we make, chosen or not.
Writing is as much a product of one’s soul as giving birth to and raising a child or children, but trying to do both in a home where one parent is responsible for virtually all of the home related duties, and parenting responsibilities seems almost impossible. Both require a nurturing environment, a parent can tend to the children, but tending to oneself always seems to be pushed aside when others are scrambling to be heard. And suddenly it becomes a choice to be made another day.
”But weren’t people ultimately and irrevocably lost if they abandoned those dreams, ceased trying to create a rich alternative world for themselves and for other? Wasn’t the beauty of art found in the uncovering and discovering in being taken, or led, to the line, the step, the curve, the color, the note, the word? Wasn’t the ability to start anew, again and again, the very definition of human endeavor?”
The mistakes we make throughout our lives define us as well as the choices we make, a simple one word response to a child shapes so much of a destiny, the simple orbit changed into a damaging trajectory where words collide.
Recommended
Published: 29 Aug 2017
Many thanks for the ARC provided by Flatiron Books!