This is a heart-wrenching story about the complicated emotions that arise with aging and the loss of a first love. It's also about coming back together and appreciating the best parts of a loving, long-term relationship.
It can be very difficult to capture the feelings around advancing years and the changes people, especially women, experience in their bodies. It's easy to fall back on having women constantly examining themselves and lamenting their loss of beauty. That is not the way it plays out in this story. Maggie thinks about her physical changes and those of her wife, Jo, but not in a shallow way. Her self-concept is heavily bound in lamenting losses of many kinds
The internal journey Maggie takes is a reflection on what she once had with her first love. Like we sometimes do with our looks, she has romanticized and idealized the relationship at the expense of what she has now. At first, she tries to put it out of her mind, but she can't. It's only when she accepts it for what it was that she's able to fully be present in her current life.
Maggie's feelings are familiar, the longing to recapture youth and have a do-over for mistakes of the past. How she comes to reconcile her history with her now is also familiar. There's no overdone lamenting, just a realistic portrayal of letting memories run away with us.
The writing style is lovely, and there are plenty of steamy moments as well as tenderness and joy and, ultimately, contentment. I felt like I'd become a better person for having read it.