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All Through the Night
Helena Millan is a beautiful, lonely and awkwardly endearing girl whose life changes just when she believes to be on her merry way to death. While on her first day at Clearwater Private University, she meets the star forward of the soccer team, Emily Knight, a charming, and kind-hearted girl with a secret. Their blinding attraction leads them to slow-burn confessions and a magical, lust-filled romance. Helena’s issues with rejection, her love/hate relationship with her sister and abandonment from her career-driven parents are juxtaposed to Emily’s struggles with her gender identity, transition, and bullying. After they fall madly in love, there is an unforeseen consequence that shifts life for everyone involved. Life and death that is.
- GenresLesbian
417 pages, Kindle Edition
First published May 30, 2017
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K.R. Prince
3 books11 followersK.R Prince fell in love with stories at the tender age of five and hasn't been able to put down her ink and quill ever since. She currently resides in the Pacific Northwest where she finds the gray, rainy days and inspiring sights to be fantastic fuel for her pen, aside from conveniently satisfying her coffee addiction that is!
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February 21, 2019
Loved this book. There are not many books about trans love that are well written and tasteful. Massive props to the author. I’m very excited for the 3rd one
July 14, 2020
Terrible. Just terrible. I was so excited to start this book and it was really promising in the beginning. Feeling the same when you start Maupassant’s “Life”. When you’re young, beautiful, naive, rich, educated, all your life lies ahead of you and nothing is impossible. But very soon I started feeling irritated…
I know that it used to be a fanfic and then became a published book. But it doesn’t seem like the author actually tried to make it look like one. Although it’s claimed as a transgender lesbian romance in reality it’s still G!P magic baby fanfiction. Because there’s no other logical reason for making Emily a trans woman other than a baby which is still magic and biologically impossible.
The plot is boring. In the beginning you’re excited to read about first love, but after they’re finally together and even had their first sex nothing interesting happens. It’s chewing the same all the time. Although the issues heroines face (mentioned in a book description) are interesting and have a good potential the author completely fails to tell us about their deep feelings and fears, dreams and wishes. We don’t see how they’re getting to know each other, all we gets are lust and hormones. It’s unrealistic and boring. They’re the kind of couple that everybody hates because no-one believes they’re genuine. Their relationship doesn’t seem to have any development. It’s just “I love you more and more every day”. No, it doesn’t work like that. People have disagreements or even fights. And from the way how they deal with them their relationship grows. By overcoming difficulties, by facing the reality not ignoring it. When people fall in love everything else doesn’t seem to matter. But after a while the hormonal effect fades and they need to wake up to build a relationship. Very often only then they start to be really interested in each other’s real personality and not a perfect picture they imagined. And sometimes they’re disappointed. So rings and babies at that stage are stupid and irresponsible.
The characters are flat. Both of them don’t seem to have any really deep feelings or fears about their life, health, future, past. All they seem to care about is fertility. It looks like some pro-life bullshit.
Yes, people can accept their heart diseases or be comfortable with their gender identity. But it changes their behaviour anyway. I would actually like to read about Helena’s feelings when she found out about her disease and how she managed to cope. Or how Emily felt as a lonely misunderstood child. But the author doesn’t bother to tell me about that. The only thing she’s interested in is a baby.
Helena is not just cute and naive, she actually seems stupid. Has anyone meet such person in real life? And she’s totally emotionally dependant on her mother. Katherine is extremely intrusive and Helena is obedient and doesn’t know how to stand for herself at all. And she repeats the pattern with Emily controlling what she eats but somehow doesn’t care about her being violent. Anyway that closeness with her mother can’t be a case if Helena spent all her life apart from her. I don’t believe that. It’s absolutely unrealistic. She was sent to a boarding school at… what age? 6? It’s absolutely impossible that after that she doesn’t have any psychological issues. A small child was abandoned. Left alone. She can’t not just be really close with her mother, she would have definitely had some commitment issues, developed co-dependent or contra-dependent behaviour or something like that. Actually Maddison is the one who looks more natural.
And when there comes the situation where Katherine actually has a right to intrude Helena’s behaviour becomes even more stupid and childish. Like “Fine, I can die at 18, but I’ll to run away and have a baby no matter what, I’ll just eat burgers and pies and behave as stupid as possible”. She says she has “her reasons”, she “needs” to do this. But as usual it’s a secret to readers .
And Emily… It seems like when the doctor tells Emily about her options regarding future transition she realises it for the first time. She reacts like she had never knew that eventually she would have to either start anti-androgens or have a surgery. Every trans person knows that from the very beginning, it’s absolutely impossible she didn’t.
And her repeating will to quit college and find a job “to provide”. Gosh, what job? Waitress? Security guard? Driver? She has absolutely no skills or experience, and Helena used to be rich and by no chance would be ok with living in poverty in some shithole. Love doesn’t conquers all, it’s a fairy tale, people need food, especially when they have children. This is America, besides the delivery they both need serious life-lasting medical treatment that costs fortune. And where does this idea of “providing” come anyway? Because she’s a “man” in this relationship?! And she finally felt adult and that the life is real? Running to Seattle when they both are supposed to fix their medical problems and quitting college is not adult behaviour. It’s protesting stupid teenager’s behaviour. Not mentioning how easily she agreed to support Helena in her stupid decision. Yes, it’s Helena’s to make but it doesn’t matter everybody has to be ok with it. Emily is scared to loose Helena more than anything but she seems ok to take this significant risk. For what?! A baby! Everybody must have a baby as soon as possible no matter what!
And so many other things feel unrealistic. Again - it’s not fanfiction anymore. If you write a book you have to take responsibility for every word. And be able to justify everything you say. But it looks like many events and facts are there for no reason. Story full of false Chekhov’s guns.
- Why did Millan parents have to send their three children to different schools? Really, why? Wouldn’t it be better for everyone to have them all in one place? To give them a chance to bond? To be a family? And why in Europe? And their age looks odd in a first place.
- When did both Katherine and Henry managed to divorce, meet and make a baby? How? Do I understand right - when Maddison was just 3 month old Katherine was so eager to cheat on her ex-husband that she slept with Henry? A woman barely recovered from the previous labour! And Santiago has absolutely no problem with cheating on his wife who’s barely out of the hospital herself and leaving her? Does he have a special taste for breastfeeding women? Such a noble man…
- And where the hell is Cai’s mother? Did she just give up her newborn son?
- Why did Helena and Emily invite Maddison and Caleb to Halloween party?
- Why did Etta invited Helena’s favourite band?
- What happened to those guys who attacked Emily near her house?
- Who intruded Emily’s room?
- What happened to the bullies that were calling Emily’s parents?
- Why does Emily seeing therapist? To switch from puberty blockers to anti-androgens?!
- Why did Emily and Helena have to leave Helena’s aunt’s flat? Why couldn’t they stay?
- Why does Emily always drive Helena’s car? Doesn’t look she’s an experienced driver, she doesn’t have her own… Again, because Helena’s a “lady” or what?
- Cherry blossom in December?! Seriously?!
- What exactly is Helena’s illness? Want medicines she’s on? What is her doctor looking for? Why can’t she have just a simple heart disease? Why does it have to be something rare?
- Will there be any legal consequences for Emily hitting Leo? isn’t it… illegal? Or if he’s a jerk the violence is justified?
- Why is Emily on some some imaginary experimental drugs? Existing hormones and blockers are good enough to make a trans girl to have a perfect pass if started on time. What research? Why? What about? Everything described is just a common treatment.
- Giving a puppy to a person who spends almost no time at home?
-How did they manage to drive from Seattle to San Francisco leaving after breakfast and arriving by 17.00?
- What do Helena’s siblings do at her doctor’s appointment? Does this family have any idea of privacy?
These and many other questions hanging on the wall and never shooting.
So here it comes. The cherry on top. The pregnancy! How? Why? No, really, why?! I know that for some reason SQ authors are obsessed with magic babies. But once again - it’s not a G!P fanfiction anymore! And not even a science fiction! Otherwise you should warn about that. I would have never read a book if I knew that… There’s no logical reason or way for that. It is both impossible and unnecessary. Helena's risking life at 18 and everyone except Katherine (at first) looks absolutely fine with that. Nope. I don’t buy it.
Also… I won't go deep into trans women's biology but all this looks like a complete nonsense made up just for one reason - to create a magic baby. The author is mentioning so many almost zero to zero probability situations that altogether there's absolutely no chance it could happen in reality. Also Helena did a (negative) pregnancy test. And really, 8 weeks? That doesn’t match… But who cares about the biology? Or math? Or logic? And the fact that they both are stupid lust-driven children? With no skills, no life experience, no common sense, no ability for adult decisions, no resources for ones. We want magic baby! What is it? Some pro-life brochure? And of course driving 1300 km to Seattle to meet Emily’s brother and his child was a complete coincidence under these circumstances and totally natural for the plot.
And the pregnancy remains the main unanswered question because to find out what happens next you need to read the second book. No way. I barely survived through this one. I don’t care even if their plane crash and they die altogether. Enough.
And the last - the language. Although the author doesn’t seem untalented in this field I struggle to understand why it is so difficult to describe Emma and Regina (sorry, Emily and Helena) without constantly mentioning the colour of their eyes. Ok, we got it, Emily has green eyes and Helena has brown. Maddison has blue and Katherine has hazel. Please don’t remind us about that every single page. Several times. And a skin tone. Every time. Olive, pale. And those “perfectly manicured nails”… Gosh… Thank you for at least avoiding “blonds”, “brunettes”, “redheads”, “younger” and “older” women.
The choice of words, building sentences, the structure are actually mostly good… There’s definitely a potential in it. But the author looks absolutely unaware of what it takes to write a good book.
There’re so little novels about trans lesbians. And I’m very upset that this one turned out to be such a disappointment.
I know that it used to be a fanfic and then became a published book. But it doesn’t seem like the author actually tried to make it look like one. Although it’s claimed as a transgender lesbian romance in reality it’s still G!P magic baby fanfiction. Because there’s no other logical reason for making Emily a trans woman other than a baby which is still magic and biologically impossible.
The plot is boring. In the beginning you’re excited to read about first love, but after they’re finally together and even had their first sex nothing interesting happens. It’s chewing the same all the time. Although the issues heroines face (mentioned in a book description) are interesting and have a good potential the author completely fails to tell us about their deep feelings and fears, dreams and wishes. We don’t see how they’re getting to know each other, all we gets are lust and hormones. It’s unrealistic and boring. They’re the kind of couple that everybody hates because no-one believes they’re genuine. Their relationship doesn’t seem to have any development. It’s just “I love you more and more every day”. No, it doesn’t work like that. People have disagreements or even fights. And from the way how they deal with them their relationship grows. By overcoming difficulties, by facing the reality not ignoring it. When people fall in love everything else doesn’t seem to matter. But after a while the hormonal effect fades and they need to wake up to build a relationship. Very often only then they start to be really interested in each other’s real personality and not a perfect picture they imagined. And sometimes they’re disappointed. So rings and babies at that stage are stupid and irresponsible.
The characters are flat. Both of them don’t seem to have any really deep feelings or fears about their life, health, future, past. All they seem to care about is fertility. It looks like some pro-life bullshit.
Yes, people can accept their heart diseases or be comfortable with their gender identity. But it changes their behaviour anyway. I would actually like to read about Helena’s feelings when she found out about her disease and how she managed to cope. Or how Emily felt as a lonely misunderstood child. But the author doesn’t bother to tell me about that. The only thing she’s interested in is a baby.
Helena is not just cute and naive, she actually seems stupid. Has anyone meet such person in real life? And she’s totally emotionally dependant on her mother. Katherine is extremely intrusive and Helena is obedient and doesn’t know how to stand for herself at all. And she repeats the pattern with Emily controlling what she eats but somehow doesn’t care about her being violent. Anyway that closeness with her mother can’t be a case if Helena spent all her life apart from her. I don’t believe that. It’s absolutely unrealistic. She was sent to a boarding school at… what age? 6? It’s absolutely impossible that after that she doesn’t have any psychological issues. A small child was abandoned. Left alone. She can’t not just be really close with her mother, she would have definitely had some commitment issues, developed co-dependent or contra-dependent behaviour or something like that. Actually Maddison is the one who looks more natural.
And when there comes the situation where Katherine actually has a right to intrude Helena’s behaviour becomes even more stupid and childish. Like “Fine, I can die at 18, but I’ll to run away and have a baby no matter what, I’ll just eat burgers and pies and behave as stupid as possible”. She says she has “her reasons”, she “needs” to do this. But as usual it’s a secret to readers .
And Emily… It seems like when the doctor tells Emily about her options regarding future transition she realises it for the first time. She reacts like she had never knew that eventually she would have to either start anti-androgens or have a surgery. Every trans person knows that from the very beginning, it’s absolutely impossible she didn’t.
And her repeating will to quit college and find a job “to provide”. Gosh, what job? Waitress? Security guard? Driver? She has absolutely no skills or experience, and Helena used to be rich and by no chance would be ok with living in poverty in some shithole. Love doesn’t conquers all, it’s a fairy tale, people need food, especially when they have children. This is America, besides the delivery they both need serious life-lasting medical treatment that costs fortune. And where does this idea of “providing” come anyway? Because she’s a “man” in this relationship?! And she finally felt adult and that the life is real? Running to Seattle when they both are supposed to fix their medical problems and quitting college is not adult behaviour. It’s protesting stupid teenager’s behaviour. Not mentioning how easily she agreed to support Helena in her stupid decision. Yes, it’s Helena’s to make but it doesn’t matter everybody has to be ok with it. Emily is scared to loose Helena more than anything but she seems ok to take this significant risk. For what?! A baby! Everybody must have a baby as soon as possible no matter what!
And so many other things feel unrealistic. Again - it’s not fanfiction anymore. If you write a book you have to take responsibility for every word. And be able to justify everything you say. But it looks like many events and facts are there for no reason. Story full of false Chekhov’s guns.
- Why did Millan parents have to send their three children to different schools? Really, why? Wouldn’t it be better for everyone to have them all in one place? To give them a chance to bond? To be a family? And why in Europe? And their age looks odd in a first place.
- When did both Katherine and Henry managed to divorce, meet and make a baby? How? Do I understand right - when Maddison was just 3 month old Katherine was so eager to cheat on her ex-husband that she slept with Henry? A woman barely recovered from the previous labour! And Santiago has absolutely no problem with cheating on his wife who’s barely out of the hospital herself and leaving her? Does he have a special taste for breastfeeding women? Such a noble man…
- And where the hell is Cai’s mother? Did she just give up her newborn son?
- Why did Helena and Emily invite Maddison and Caleb to Halloween party?
- Why did Etta invited Helena’s favourite band?
- What happened to those guys who attacked Emily near her house?
- Who intruded Emily’s room?
- What happened to the bullies that were calling Emily’s parents?
- Why does Emily seeing therapist? To switch from puberty blockers to anti-androgens?!
- Why did Emily and Helena have to leave Helena’s aunt’s flat? Why couldn’t they stay?
- Why does Emily always drive Helena’s car? Doesn’t look she’s an experienced driver, she doesn’t have her own… Again, because Helena’s a “lady” or what?
- Cherry blossom in December?! Seriously?!
- What exactly is Helena’s illness? Want medicines she’s on? What is her doctor looking for? Why can’t she have just a simple heart disease? Why does it have to be something rare?
- Will there be any legal consequences for Emily hitting Leo? isn’t it… illegal? Or if he’s a jerk the violence is justified?
- Why is Emily on some some imaginary experimental drugs? Existing hormones and blockers are good enough to make a trans girl to have a perfect pass if started on time. What research? Why? What about? Everything described is just a common treatment.
- Giving a puppy to a person who spends almost no time at home?
-How did they manage to drive from Seattle to San Francisco leaving after breakfast and arriving by 17.00?
- What do Helena’s siblings do at her doctor’s appointment? Does this family have any idea of privacy?
These and many other questions hanging on the wall and never shooting.
So here it comes. The cherry on top. The pregnancy! How? Why? No, really, why?! I know that for some reason SQ authors are obsessed with magic babies. But once again - it’s not a G!P fanfiction anymore! And not even a science fiction! Otherwise you should warn about that. I would have never read a book if I knew that… There’s no logical reason or way for that. It is both impossible and unnecessary. Helena's risking life at 18 and everyone except Katherine (at first) looks absolutely fine with that. Nope. I don’t buy it.
Also… I won't go deep into trans women's biology but all this looks like a complete nonsense made up just for one reason - to create a magic baby. The author is mentioning so many almost zero to zero probability situations that altogether there's absolutely no chance it could happen in reality. Also Helena did a (negative) pregnancy test. And really, 8 weeks? That doesn’t match… But who cares about the biology? Or math? Or logic? And the fact that they both are stupid lust-driven children? With no skills, no life experience, no common sense, no ability for adult decisions, no resources for ones. We want magic baby! What is it? Some pro-life brochure? And of course driving 1300 km to Seattle to meet Emily’s brother and his child was a complete coincidence under these circumstances and totally natural for the plot.
And the pregnancy remains the main unanswered question because to find out what happens next you need to read the second book. No way. I barely survived through this one. I don’t care even if their plane crash and they die altogether. Enough.
And the last - the language. Although the author doesn’t seem untalented in this field I struggle to understand why it is so difficult to describe Emma and Regina (sorry, Emily and Helena) without constantly mentioning the colour of their eyes. Ok, we got it, Emily has green eyes and Helena has brown. Maddison has blue and Katherine has hazel. Please don’t remind us about that every single page. Several times. And a skin tone. Every time. Olive, pale. And those “perfectly manicured nails”… Gosh… Thank you for at least avoiding “blonds”, “brunettes”, “redheads”, “younger” and “older” women.
The choice of words, building sentences, the structure are actually mostly good… There’s definitely a potential in it. But the author looks absolutely unaware of what it takes to write a good book.
There’re so little novels about trans lesbians. And I’m very upset that this one turned out to be such a disappointment.
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September 3, 2018
This book it’s just amazing, the story, the life of the characters, it’s simply amazing. I love how the writer embrace those subjects that have a influence in our lives. It shows that it’s okay to accept who we are, how we feel about ourselves no matter what. Simply amazing, good job! ❤️
June 21, 2020
This was a pretty good book for the most part. The writing style could have been a bit better. There were times that I found myself having to pause to figure out who was talking as there was quite a bit of ping-ponging between characters, sometimes having one characters thoughts in a paragraph but then the dialogue in the same paragraph would be from the other. I do feel the relationship was an instant one with not much build up, where I prefer slow burn.
One of my favorite moments was when they were doing the Romeo and Juliet scene. That had my heart and I felt for Emily in that moment. Really emotional.
I will say one major pet peeve this book had for me was the term 'baby'. It was a constant, especially used by Emily in the book, and I honestly don't recall them using any other term of endearment. That word for a significant other just bothers me royally... but this did not reflect in my rating as that is a pure preference to me and I know many don't get bothered by it but I still wanted to mention it.
The story itself is great. I honestly think this is the first time I have read a book with one of the main characters being transgender and I thought it was well portrayed. I really am hoping the issue with the bullying/threats that were coming at Emily in the first half of the this book will be addressed in the second book and resolved, and not just dropped due to the new circumstances that have arisen by the end of this one between Emily and Helena.
I'm looking forward to seeing what the future holds for these two in the next installment. Hopefully it is a happy outcome.
One of my favorite moments was when they were doing the Romeo and Juliet scene. That had my heart and I felt for Emily in that moment. Really emotional.
I will say one major pet peeve this book had for me was the term 'baby'. It was a constant, especially used by Emily in the book, and I honestly don't recall them using any other term of endearment. That word for a significant other just bothers me royally... but this did not reflect in my rating as that is a pure preference to me and I know many don't get bothered by it but I still wanted to mention it.
The story itself is great. I honestly think this is the first time I have read a book with one of the main characters being transgender and I thought it was well portrayed. I really am hoping the issue with the bullying/threats that were coming at Emily in the first half of the this book will be addressed in the second book and resolved, and not just dropped due to the new circumstances that have arisen by the end of this one between Emily and Helena.
I'm looking forward to seeing what the future holds for these two in the next installment. Hopefully it is a happy outcome.
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