A stunning debut from a remarkable new author. All told from the perspective of women at various points in their lives, Danielle Lazarin's short stories encapsulate the essence of what it means to be human: grief-stricken, in love, heartbroken, struggling with motherhood, enduring the pain of divorce, and lost in the crippling uncertainty of the future.
In the book's opening story, "Appetite," we meet two sisters in the aftermath of their mother's death. "I was twelve when my mother died. It took three years. Before she left, we let her have as much anger and fear as she wanted, even as it suffocated the rest of us," Lazarin writes. "What is love in my family if not inked in suffering?"
In "Spider Legs," we are introduced to Caitlin, who struggles to adapt to the shifting dynamics created by her father's divorce. Lazarin's observations about the complexity of family dysfunction can resonate with almost anyone: "The things I want I can't will into existence: a version of my family that never was, a place we can all agree on as home. And maybe I am like my father, not built for this, not built for siblings, or family, or Jack and Jill. Perhaps it's a gene, a predisposition. When I think of it this way, as a malfunction, it doesn't hurt so much, though it seems like a waste of time, all these years of me trying to fit into them what I cannot, not by my nature, not by theirs." So beautiful!
In "Window Guards," one of the shortest but most powerful in the collection, we meet Lexie, whose boyfriend's brother disappears, and in which we are given some insight into the severity of his mental illness, to which Lazarin refers as "a growing wild inside him." In "The Holographic Soul," two sisters are forever bound by their psychic abilities; their clairvoyance allows them to see that their mother is cheating on their father. In "Hide and Seek," we meet a single mother who has just learned of her ex-husband's death. One of the most beautiful lines of the book is written in this story: "In the morgue, Nick focused there, instead of on Michael's busted face, or his lacerated waist, where a knife had gouged over and over. The tattoo was a sunburst above his heart, as if goodness were pouring out from it, or trying to get in." (Ah!)
The stories that comprise this collection shed light on a grieving widower who lost his wife suddenly; on a woman whose boyfriend returns home one day and tells her he's leaving; on two best friends who record the tragedies that happen around them in New York City ("the distance from danger was further for us, but that year we pretended it wasn't"); of a woman, Hope, who falls in love with an older man, but is heartbroken when he tells her he's in love with someone else. Danielle Lazarin reminds us all of what it means to be alive -- fully and deeply -- and to engage in this world with an open heart. Four stars for this debut collection!