This is not really a book review but my reaction to the contents of the book and my own view of the band's history. I've been an Alice in Chains fan since the early 90's but I knew very little about the band itself. I just enjoyed their music and that was that. To me, they were just one of the bands I listened to and even though I greatly appreciated their music and talents, it never occurred to me to delve into their personal lives like some fans did or do, probably because I also had my own demons to contend with at that point in my life. But when their lead vocalist, Layne Staley, died of a drug overdose and the circumstances of his death were revealed, I wasn't just devastated, I was shocked because I never really knew about the extent of his drug addiction and how much it affected the band as a whole. This book is not perfect and perhaps not wholly accurate, considering the author could not even get the cooperation of the remaining band members and Layne's mother, who would have provided an invaluable account of Layne's life. This lack of cooperation resulted in the obviously lack of in-depth information about the rest of the band and the book ending up as more of an untold story of Layne's and not the band's. But I have to give the author credit for managing to scrape enough information that he compiled into what qualifies as a book and the first and only biography of one of the greatest bands to have ever come out of Seattle during the Grunge Movement in the 90's and in history, really.
I read the book while listening to songs of the band from their early days to even the latest ones that they recorded with their new lead singer, William DuVall. I took out my old tapes of their earlier albums and watched videos of the band, and I realized how truly great they were. The book was incredibly hard to read knowing how things ended up and it was much harder to listen to their old songs without thinking about what could have been if Layne had lived. I wept more than once and the part that stuck with me was when Layne first checked into rehab and the people there immediately recognized him and started playing Alice in Chains songs whenever he was around. He cried because he realized that he wasn't just a guy who had drug problems, he represented Alice in Chains and he felt that he was letting his band down. The book is basically 60-70% about Layne and for good reason. I loved the rest of the band, even Mike Starr with his thrasher-style bass playing during their heyday. I remember having a crush on Jerry Cantrell when I was 14 years old and to this day, I think he's one of the most underrated guitarists and songwriters in music history. Jerry is credited for most of the band's songs and I truly admire his talent, but Layne Staley was Alice in Chains, not because he was the frontman but because his unique vocal style was instrumental in the creation of the band's sound that would ultimately help sell millions of records. I would list Layne as one of my favorite singers of all time along with Maynard James Keenan of Tool, Chris Cornell of Soundgarden, Robert Plant of Led Zeppelin and Eddie Vedder of Pearl Jam among others. But he wasn't just a great singer, he was distinctly unique. He was masterful in his craft not just in the way he belted out the songs, but the way he created specific vocal parts that became the hook of those songs. He became so influential that he ended up generating legions of Layne wannabes. He's probably one of the most imitated vocalists of all time, especially during the post-grunge era when everybody wanted to sound grungy but never could. I liked and listened to some of these bands but most of them I ignored and just laughed at because at that point even the old Grunge bands like Pearl Jam didn't sound Grunge anymore. I think this is precisely why I was initially critical of the band's decision to hire a new singer to take Layne's place. I was all for them regrouping and making new music but I guess I sort of expected them to just become a three-piece band with Jerry taking over the vocal duties. I have nothing against DuVall as a singer, I think he has the vocal chops to pull off even the most vocally challenging songs that Layne sang with the group, but my beef with him has always been the difference in energy and mood when he sings. Layne was a tormented soul, a beautiful and gifted man, but very much conflicted, so when he sang, all that torment, sadness and anger reverberated through the guitar riffs and you feel it in the very depths of your being. Good vocalists are a dime a dozen, plenty of people can hold a tune or even belt out like nobody's business, but only few can sing with the power and emotion that leave you speechless with chills running down your spine. William is good at singing for sure, but he doesn't affect me like Layne did despite the great music that Jerry provided him. And that's why I can't bring myself to like the new songs in spite of my love for Jerry Cantrell's compositions. Whenever I hear Jerry sing a verse, I unconsciously expect to hear Layne's vocals next and I get disappointed when I hear someone else's voice instead. I know there are lots of fans who like William and that's fine. He's great in his own way but he just doesn't possess the exceptional qualities of a singer that I can truly admire. Layne, on the other hand, had all that and more because I thought he had the makings of a great songwriter as well with his Man in the Box and Angry Chair compositions that are staple Alice in Chains songs and his work with Mad Season, which I love to this day. And according to the book, he also got into art and photography. I didn't even know that he painted the artwork for Mad Season's Above album before reading this book.
I could only speculate on why he chose to live his life the way he did and threw away all his God-given talents, but I hate the idea of people seeing him as just another casualty of drugs, fame, and the rock 'n roll lifestyle. That's the impression I got from this book somehow and I didn't like it. Countless people got addicted to drugs in the past and while others succumbed to its death grasp, there are some who managed to pull through and turn their life around. Rolling Stones' Keith Richards had used drugs for years but he managed to kick the habit and has outlived many of his younger brethren at 73 years of age. I don't claim to know what Layne was going through but I think perhaps he lacked the emotional strength and support that he needed to keep himself clean when he was trying to kick his drug habits. I've been suffering from depression for more than two decades now and even though every day is a struggle, I am fortunate enough to be surrounded by genuinely good people who refuse to give up on me. If I had been exposed to a bad crowd in my teen years, I have no doubt that I would have either ended up destroying my life or dying early. I guess Layne wasn't as fortunate as I am. He had family and friends who loved him but they seemed to have given up on him or that they refused to pressure him because they thought it would backfire. The book mentions a certain Michelle Ahern-Crane who claimed to have befriended Layne in the mid-90's and there was a hint of a relationship but Michelle denies it in the book, so it seemed like she led him on and it disappointed him greatly. After reading that part, it occurred to me that perhaps if he had someone whom he cared about who was a positive force in his life, loved him and guided him, he could have gotten the courage and strength to kill his demons and chose to live on. But instead, he fell in love with someone who was instrumental in his own demise. I don't blame Demri for his choices but clearly, they should have stayed away from each other the moment they both got hooked on heroin. None of them could have stayed sober when the other relapsed. They should have decided to go on their separate ways until they could get clean. Staying together was what ultimately killed them, in my opinion. Sometimes the one you love is not what's best for you. I was surprised to find so many others who still listen to the old Alice in Chains and talk about Layne Staley on social media these days. He was certainly right when he said he's going to be around for a very long time. He may have passed away, but he lives on in the music he helped create, his loved ones, and his fans.