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Paper Girl
I haven’t left my house in over a year. My doctor says it’s social anxiety, but I know the only things that are safe are made of paper. My room is paper. My world is paper. Everything outside is fire. All it would take is one spark for me to burst into flames. So I stay inside. Where nothing can touch me. Then my mom hires a tutor. Jackson. This boy I had a crush on before the world became too terrifying to live in. Jackson’s life is the complete opposite of mine, and I can tell he’s got secrets of his own. But he makes me feel things. Makes me want to try again. Makes me want to be brave. I can almost taste the outside world. But so many things could go wrong, and all it takes is one spark for everything I love to disappear…
352 pages, Paperback
First published December 4, 2018
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Cindy R. Wilson
5 books219 followersCindy began creating worlds as a kid, entertaining her siblings with spontaneous ghost stories before bed. She filled notebooks with novels and ideas and realized quickly she wanted to be a writer as an adult.
Now Cindy lives in the foothills of the Rocky Mountains and loves using Colorado towns and cities as inspiration for settings in her stories. She’s the mother of three girls who provide plenty of fodder for her YA novels.
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Now Cindy lives in the foothills of the Rocky Mountains and loves using Colorado towns and cities as inspiration for settings in her stories. She’s the mother of three girls who provide plenty of fodder for her YA novels.
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November 27, 2018
The idea of a story about Agoraphobia has always intrigued me and when I read the synopsis for Paper girl I knew I had to get my hands on it. I’m so glad it didn’t disappoint.
Zoe is our paper girl. She likes crafting with paper and has made an out of this world solar system. She also likes playing chess. All her hobbies can be done in the home. In fact, everything she does can be done in the home. Zoe hasn’t left her house in over a year. Her anxiety has taken over her life. She is missing out on a normal life. She is homeschooled. Her sister desperately wants her to attend her graduation. Zoe wants to play online chess with Black knight and pretend the rest of the world doesn’t exist.
Jackson is the top of his class. He’s a good kid and keeps his head down. After his Mum died, Jackson’s Dad lost control of his life. He started a downward spiral of alcohol and drugs. Jackson needed to get out of the situation and now lives in his car. He spends most of his days in the library when he’s not at school. His life isn’t perfect but he’s trying his best to get a college scholarship with maximum funding. He tutors for extra cash and plays online chess for fun.
These two have lots in common but they are also opposites. Ones a math genius the other needs a tutor. Ones homeless the other never leaves her home. They both love chess and have taken up each other’s interests. They have two relationships. They know each other but they also have an anonymous online relationship. Both need to be brave and change their lives. This is a story of struggle but also romance. The story is intriguing and touching. This book for me was perfect. The story was something I wanted to read about and the author executed it beautifully.
5 stars out of 5. I received an ARC in exchange for an honest review.
Zoe is our paper girl. She likes crafting with paper and has made an out of this world solar system. She also likes playing chess. All her hobbies can be done in the home. In fact, everything she does can be done in the home. Zoe hasn’t left her house in over a year. Her anxiety has taken over her life. She is missing out on a normal life. She is homeschooled. Her sister desperately wants her to attend her graduation. Zoe wants to play online chess with Black knight and pretend the rest of the world doesn’t exist.
Jackson is the top of his class. He’s a good kid and keeps his head down. After his Mum died, Jackson’s Dad lost control of his life. He started a downward spiral of alcohol and drugs. Jackson needed to get out of the situation and now lives in his car. He spends most of his days in the library when he’s not at school. His life isn’t perfect but he’s trying his best to get a college scholarship with maximum funding. He tutors for extra cash and plays online chess for fun.
These two have lots in common but they are also opposites. Ones a math genius the other needs a tutor. Ones homeless the other never leaves her home. They both love chess and have taken up each other’s interests. They have two relationships. They know each other but they also have an anonymous online relationship. Both need to be brave and change their lives. This is a story of struggle but also romance. The story is intriguing and touching. This book for me was perfect. The story was something I wanted to read about and the author executed it beautifully.
5 stars out of 5. I received an ARC in exchange for an honest review.
January 12, 2019
"The real world was like paper, and one screw up, one spark, and the whole thing would go up in flames."
Paper Girl surprised me in a plethora of ways – all of which for the better. Having dived into this contemporary without many preconceived notions of how it’ll turn out, proved to be a wonderful occurrence! This is a beautiful story about love, discovery, and ultimately, confronting our fears and inner demons, regardless of the pain that may arise. I fell in love with Zoe and Jackson the moment they appeared in the first chapter and appreciate how well we’re able to immerse ourselves in their shoes through reading the dual perspectives. Wilson does a marvelous job constructing unique voices for her characters, and I admire how authentic the emotions radiating from them feel.
The social anxiety representation is handled in a lovely manner. Although I don’t suffer from this mental illness, myself, I believe the author’s portrayal of Zoe’s anxiety is depicted in a truly genuine manner – as expected from a novel with events based off Wilson’s own experiences. What I love most, is how simple it is to understand Zoe’s struggles and desire to shield herself from the outside world. These are very real fears and doubts that I’m sure many readers can relate with, even if it’s too a lesser degree.
Zoe’s family is present! I mention this quite often, but I’m a huge advocate for families having prevalent roles in YA literature. As a teenager, myself, I find it quite odd how infrequently nuclear families are incorporated in story lines. While I understand that difficulties can arise from parents interfering with the main characters of the story, I don’t believe cutting them from the plot entirely is the perfect solution. In Paper Girl, I absolutely loved the effects Zoe’s circumstances had on each member of her family. All they wish for her, is the best, and while they may not had been the most understanding at times, they reacted in highly realistic manners. Her sister, Mae’s frustration at not being able to connect with Zoe as they did before, her mother’s constant hope for recovery, and her father’s confusion over how to communicate with her, are all depicted well, and never feel overly dramatic or improbable.
Another strong suit of this story, is its inclusion of therapy in a positive perspective. Zoe’s therapist helps lead her down beneficial, albeit difficult, roads to recovery. I love the conversations between the two and admire how Zoe’s development and growth is reflected through these therapy sessions. The mutual trust and comfort Zoe and Jackson share with one another is also quite lovely. Despite how Zoe is the title character, we receive much development on Jackson’s part as well. The struggles he faces with having an alcoholic father is heartbreaking, and it’s even more painful seeing how he refuses to confide in others. He has no incentive of being on the receiving end of pity, so he avoids the topic of his unfortunate home life – or lack, thereof – at all costs. Witnessing him crawling out from his shell of fear and doubt, not unlike Zoe’s progression through her own, is wonderful to witness.
In conclusion, this is a stunning story that touches many important topics in our society, and produces a sweet romance that is neither forced, nor unrealistic. The struggles each of the characters face, whether it be combatting anxiety or confronting a previously negligent parent, feel remarkably raw and emotional, and I was all for it. I highly recommend this one for fans of Eliza and her Monsters and Dear Evan Hansen.
I received an ARC from the publisher in exchange for an honest review!
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December 6, 2018
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Rogue and BlackKnight have progressed from just playing online chess matches to chatting on a regular basis. They hide behind their usernames, sharing more about themselves than they'd willingly share to friends offline. At the same time, at just seventeen Zoe battles agoraphobia and a panic disorder, leaving her unable to leave her home and incapable of maintaining personal friendships. Her older sister's friend, Jackson, is the one she misses the most. He thinks of the quiet, smart girl often, wondering what has pulled her from school and away from his curious eyes. She presents a welcome distraction to his difficult days outside of school, spent wandering from location to location as he fights to survive on his own away from his addicted father. Tutoring and therapy bring the two together and they discover that the crushes they harbored are not unrequited. Together they work together to get Zoe outdoors, but Jackson continues to keep his secrets quiet, including the one that could change everything about their relationship.
Paper Girl isn't your typical young adult romance; Zoe hides behind the paper planets she obsessives over and Jackson attempts to call his homelessness anything but what it really is. And each relies on their internet personas for honest human connection.The story primarily focuses on the difficulties each teen is facing in their lives and the steps they both take to tackle them and to avoid them. The pacing is slow, but the story is definitely more about their personal development rather than the romance they find in one another. It's funny, sad, heartwarming, and complicated all at once. It's a complex story about the baby steps, the leaps, the setbacks, and the people you need rooting for you along the way.
Paper Girl is one of the most realistic novels I've read in a while. I could picture Zoe's paper projects, her nearly obsessive organization, and feel her terror seeping from the pages as she struggled to take even just a few steps out of her apartment's elevator. Her struggles with anxiety are very accurate and I really appreciated the time Cindy R. Wilson gives to Zoe and her therapist and the dialogue they share. There's a lot of growth in the novel and there's space for Zoe to challenge herself, to set goals and to make them happen. It isn't a novel about fixing the illness, but rather about facing it and fighting for a life that is filled with experiences. Jackson, on the other hand, deals with a situation that I do not personally relate with, but understand is becoming more common than we'd like. At such a young age he must care for himself, left mourning alone as his father chases his demons. He's very mature, but at the same time his family life has shaped him and he doesn't even realize he must tackle those feelings until he walks alongside Zoe as she faces her own.
Is it too much to say I think this is a book that should be required reading for every teenager? Cindy R. Wilson tackles topics that are difficult to discuss and often portrayed incorrectly in media. I do think it could be triggering, but at the same time I think that many youth are unaware of the prevalence of mental health issues and the way it shows itself in individuals. Just as Paper Girl touches on, those who suffer from anxiety and panic disorders are afraid of the judgement, they build it up so much in their mind that they never believe another could be there for them. Paper Girl made me cry, but it also made me feel hope. The story is sweet, funny, and features two characters with so much passion for life that their setbacks can't hold them down. I highly recommend Paper Girl and am so glad I had the opportunity to read it.
ARC provided.
Rogue and BlackKnight have progressed from just playing online chess matches to chatting on a regular basis. They hide behind their usernames, sharing more about themselves than they'd willingly share to friends offline. At the same time, at just seventeen Zoe battles agoraphobia and a panic disorder, leaving her unable to leave her home and incapable of maintaining personal friendships. Her older sister's friend, Jackson, is the one she misses the most. He thinks of the quiet, smart girl often, wondering what has pulled her from school and away from his curious eyes. She presents a welcome distraction to his difficult days outside of school, spent wandering from location to location as he fights to survive on his own away from his addicted father. Tutoring and therapy bring the two together and they discover that the crushes they harbored are not unrequited. Together they work together to get Zoe outdoors, but Jackson continues to keep his secrets quiet, including the one that could change everything about their relationship.
Paper Girl isn't your typical young adult romance; Zoe hides behind the paper planets she obsessives over and Jackson attempts to call his homelessness anything but what it really is. And each relies on their internet personas for honest human connection.The story primarily focuses on the difficulties each teen is facing in their lives and the steps they both take to tackle them and to avoid them. The pacing is slow, but the story is definitely more about their personal development rather than the romance they find in one another. It's funny, sad, heartwarming, and complicated all at once. It's a complex story about the baby steps, the leaps, the setbacks, and the people you need rooting for you along the way.
Paper Girl is one of the most realistic novels I've read in a while. I could picture Zoe's paper projects, her nearly obsessive organization, and feel her terror seeping from the pages as she struggled to take even just a few steps out of her apartment's elevator. Her struggles with anxiety are very accurate and I really appreciated the time Cindy R. Wilson gives to Zoe and her therapist and the dialogue they share. There's a lot of growth in the novel and there's space for Zoe to challenge herself, to set goals and to make them happen. It isn't a novel about fixing the illness, but rather about facing it and fighting for a life that is filled with experiences. Jackson, on the other hand, deals with a situation that I do not personally relate with, but understand is becoming more common than we'd like. At such a young age he must care for himself, left mourning alone as his father chases his demons. He's very mature, but at the same time his family life has shaped him and he doesn't even realize he must tackle those feelings until he walks alongside Zoe as she faces her own.
Is it too much to say I think this is a book that should be required reading for every teenager? Cindy R. Wilson tackles topics that are difficult to discuss and often portrayed incorrectly in media. I do think it could be triggering, but at the same time I think that many youth are unaware of the prevalence of mental health issues and the way it shows itself in individuals. Just as Paper Girl touches on, those who suffer from anxiety and panic disorders are afraid of the judgement, they build it up so much in their mind that they never believe another could be there for them. Paper Girl made me cry, but it also made me feel hope. The story is sweet, funny, and features two characters with so much passion for life that their setbacks can't hold them down. I highly recommend Paper Girl and am so glad I had the opportunity to read it.
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September 15, 2018Zoe is an adolescent with agoraphobia and social anxiety who loves chess and constructing amazing things with paper. She uses an on-line chess app where she plays under another name, and there she meets a guy who also loves chess and talking to her, and in their on-line world they can trust each other without judging, and bit by bit they open up to each other.
This guy she plays chess with turns out to be Jackson, a guy from school who also is gonna began tutoring her and who used to care for her, and still does.
We have these two main characters, Zoe and Jackson, with their lives and their problems. They are more or less rounded, but I didn't end caring particularly for either of them. The only character that called my attention was Mae, Zoe's sister, as she appeared to be full of potential. Another one that did show some promise was the psychologist. Outside of this trio plus the psychologist, the other characters fell somewhat flat and where only there because the story needed parents and friends for the main characters.
The story began strong enough, but I got the feeling it lost momentum, and while the goals and marks Zoe sets for herself (or has asked of herself by her therapist) seems like reasonable and a way to keep moving the story forward, and so do the plot of Jackson homelessness and his dad's story, I didn't end up caring for them...
This guy she plays chess with turns out to be Jackson, a guy from school who also is gonna began tutoring her and who used to care for her, and still does.
We have these two main characters, Zoe and Jackson, with their lives and their problems. They are more or less rounded, but I didn't end caring particularly for either of them. The only character that called my attention was Mae, Zoe's sister, as she appeared to be full of potential. Another one that did show some promise was the psychologist. Outside of this trio plus the psychologist, the other characters fell somewhat flat and where only there because the story needed parents and friends for the main characters.
The story began strong enough, but I got the feeling it lost momentum, and while the goals and marks Zoe sets for herself (or has asked of herself by her therapist) seems like reasonable and a way to keep moving the story forward, and so do the plot of Jackson homelessness and his dad's story, I didn't end up caring for them...
November 14, 2018
Paper Girl is a young adult novel about Zoe, a wealthy girl who has agoraphobia and panic disorder. She falls for Jackson, who she has had a crush on for ages, and who is homeless because of his addict father. While there is nothing objectionable about the book, there's nothing memorable about it either. There's no real conflict--Zoe gets better, Jackson is able to return home. Ta da! If this was 1995, it would be right at home. In 2018, the characters and plot are both embarrassingly thin, and Paper Girl is as insubstantial as its title.
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February 25, 2019
The beginning reminded of the book Everything Everything but a not so good version of it. I don’t know if it was because it’s young adult (which I like to dabble in from time to time) or what, but this was like a waste of a read to me.
Zoe is a teenaged girl who has been in doors for a year with the fear of going outdoors and being social with others. She has agoraphobia and to me, it first started from being in commercials for her dads car company. I also think her mother plays a part in sheltering her. When I heard paper girl I thought something totally different but in reality, she finds some sort of peace and security with building things out of paper.
Jackson is a senior in high school who lost his mother and even though his father is alive, drugs and alcohol has consumed him. Jackson is currently homeless and keeping it a secret so that no harm he can happen. His goal is college and is willing to do anything to make it happen. In the mist of that, he likes Zoe and is trying to get to know all parts of her.
Their connection seems unrealistic or comical to me but overall, the book was not for me. The message I did enjoy from it is courage. Having to get uncomfortable to in order to find out who you truly are and what you are capable of.
Zoe is a teenaged girl who has been in doors for a year with the fear of going outdoors and being social with others. She has agoraphobia and to me, it first started from being in commercials for her dads car company. I also think her mother plays a part in sheltering her. When I heard paper girl I thought something totally different but in reality, she finds some sort of peace and security with building things out of paper.
Jackson is a senior in high school who lost his mother and even though his father is alive, drugs and alcohol has consumed him. Jackson is currently homeless and keeping it a secret so that no harm he can happen. His goal is college and is willing to do anything to make it happen. In the mist of that, he likes Zoe and is trying to get to know all parts of her.
Their connection seems unrealistic or comical to me but overall, the book was not for me. The message I did enjoy from it is courage. Having to get uncomfortable to in order to find out who you truly are and what you are capable of.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
December 3, 2018
I flew through this book so quickly. It was such a great read and exactly the kind of book I was needing right now. I needed something light and entertaining with some good feels, and that's exactly what I got. I loved the characters and their struggles that were so realistic and relatable. I loved their dynamic and how everything unfolded. Such a great read, and perfect for if you're in a reading slump and need something to get out of it!
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July 23, 2019DNF at 65%
Throwing in the towel with this book.
There isn't really anything wrong with it, but there isn't anything right, either. There's no real plot, no conflict, nothing to pique my interest, and even less to hold it.
Yes, it was kinda cute. And I'm sure this will work for actual young adults a lot better than it did for me.
I, however, felt incredibly bored.
No rating as I didn't finish it.
Throwing in the towel with this book.
There isn't really anything wrong with it, but there isn't anything right, either. There's no real plot, no conflict, nothing to pique my interest, and even less to hold it.
Yes, it was kinda cute. And I'm sure this will work for actual young adults a lot better than it did for me.
I, however, felt incredibly bored.
No rating as I didn't finish it.
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November 21, 2018DNFed at 57%
While I do believe that this book is beautifully written and the premise interesting I have found myself at a bit of a crossroads. I really want to know how this book ends, but I'm also suffering from panic attacks as the main character, and I face a portion of the same judgment and pressure she does in the book, which has in turn proven itself to be a trigger for me. Ever since I did my last update yesterday, it's been one panic attack after another. I've been starting to notice the tiniest of judgment around me and panicking even more. It's been a little disheartening since I was at one of my longest streaks - two months without panic attacks.
I think it's best that I DNF it, take a few days off to ride out this wave of negative emotion and get back to normal.
While I do believe that this book is beautifully written and the premise interesting I have found myself at a bit of a crossroads. I really want to know how this book ends, but I'm also suffering from panic attacks as the main character, and I face a portion of the same judgment and pressure she does in the book, which has in turn proven itself to be a trigger for me. Ever since I did my last update yesterday, it's been one panic attack after another. I've been starting to notice the tiniest of judgment around me and panicking even more. It's been a little disheartening since I was at one of my longest streaks - two months without panic attacks.
I think it's best that I DNF it, take a few days off to ride out this wave of negative emotion and get back to normal.
December 3, 2018
A debut author and some deep topics like a high school girl with an anxiety disorder and a high school guy hiding that he is homeless made this new YA Contemporary become a book I was curious to read.
Paper Girl begins with two on-line chess partners who know nothing about each other, but meet up to play chess. Black Knight wishes to become friendly and chat, but Rogue remains aloof as she kicks his butt in chess.
In real life, Zoe doesn't leave her family's high rise apartment because she has agoraphobia and panic attacks about the world outside the apartment. She uses colored paper to design her study room walls like the solar system, homeschools, and her therapist comes to her. All that changes when she meets her new math tutor and he's the guy she crushed on before her year hidden away began.
Jackson's life is one big lie. He lies to everyone at school who think his life is great with sports, top of his classes, and friendly, nice-looking guy. When in reality, his dad started doing hard drugs after his mom died and home became a nightmare. He lives out of his car and pretends so he doesn't end up in the foster system. He's nearly eighteen and is college-bound. He picks up several jobs to make ends meet and save what he can for the future. Then he gets a really good job to tutor and meets Zoe, who is more trapped in her lonely life than he is in his.
This is a story that doesn't try to dazzle or set the world on fire. It introduces two teens with their own private battles going on. They grow close and are friends. They help each other grow stronger and start dreaming again. It's baby steps as it should be for what Zoey has going on in particular. Not much beyond these two is fleshed out for some time, but I thought that was another way of showing how isolated they have become. But, Zoey's sister is there and urging her on. I rather found Zoey's mom an enabler more than anything else. I was glad that Jackson and Zoey both had to face their personal demons and it happened in a way that was not easy, but ended up in a believable, rewarding way.
YA Warnings: no violence or sex, but moderate on language. Suggest for mid to older teen crowd.
Paper Girl will be a story that I'm glad I read and I cheered on this pair to win over their troubles. I'm always glad to see mental health issues, grief, and addictions addressed in a healthy, positive way. It didn't grab me strongly and I did get inattentive a few times so I would set it down. But, ultimately, I was happy to come back to it and keep going with Zoey and Jackson's story. I think those who enjoy a slow-burn character-driven YA with a friends to lovers style sweet romance will be the target group.
My thanks to Entangled Teen for the opportunity to read this book in exchange for an honest review.
Paper Girl begins with two on-line chess partners who know nothing about each other, but meet up to play chess. Black Knight wishes to become friendly and chat, but Rogue remains aloof as she kicks his butt in chess.
In real life, Zoe doesn't leave her family's high rise apartment because she has agoraphobia and panic attacks about the world outside the apartment. She uses colored paper to design her study room walls like the solar system, homeschools, and her therapist comes to her. All that changes when she meets her new math tutor and he's the guy she crushed on before her year hidden away began.
Jackson's life is one big lie. He lies to everyone at school who think his life is great with sports, top of his classes, and friendly, nice-looking guy. When in reality, his dad started doing hard drugs after his mom died and home became a nightmare. He lives out of his car and pretends so he doesn't end up in the foster system. He's nearly eighteen and is college-bound. He picks up several jobs to make ends meet and save what he can for the future. Then he gets a really good job to tutor and meets Zoe, who is more trapped in her lonely life than he is in his.
This is a story that doesn't try to dazzle or set the world on fire. It introduces two teens with their own private battles going on. They grow close and are friends. They help each other grow stronger and start dreaming again. It's baby steps as it should be for what Zoey has going on in particular. Not much beyond these two is fleshed out for some time, but I thought that was another way of showing how isolated they have become. But, Zoey's sister is there and urging her on. I rather found Zoey's mom an enabler more than anything else. I was glad that Jackson and Zoey both had to face their personal demons and it happened in a way that was not easy, but ended up in a believable, rewarding way.
YA Warnings: no violence or sex, but moderate on language. Suggest for mid to older teen crowd.
Paper Girl will be a story that I'm glad I read and I cheered on this pair to win over their troubles. I'm always glad to see mental health issues, grief, and addictions addressed in a healthy, positive way. It didn't grab me strongly and I did get inattentive a few times so I would set it down. But, ultimately, I was happy to come back to it and keep going with Zoey and Jackson's story. I think those who enjoy a slow-burn character-driven YA with a friends to lovers style sweet romance will be the target group.
My thanks to Entangled Teen for the opportunity to read this book in exchange for an honest review.
September 15, 2018
***Thanks to NetGalley for providing me a complimentary copy of PAPER GIRL by Cindy R Wilson in exchange for my honest review.***
Zoe, who has agoraphobia and Jackson, who is homeless play online chess under screen names. Unbeknownst to either, they were schoolmates before Zoe’s anxiety escalated and she stopped leaving the house. When Jackson becomes her tutor and figures out Zoe is his online friend and opponent he struggles with disclosing the relationship and having the girl he likes realize he’s homeless.
My favorite part of PAPER GIRL was that Wilson stayed away from the trope love cures mental illness. Zoe worked with a therapist and set treatment goals. Her recovery wasn’t entirely realistic in the speed or activities she tried. Prom and a stadium full of people watching graduation gives people who aren’t agoraphobic anxiety.
I also enjoyed the arc with Jackson and his father, although Jackson’s homelessness made not having a place to live seem easier than the reality those without a place to live experience.
Wilson made me care about the major and minor characters, root for their successes. I read PAPER GIRL in one sitting. I look forward to more Cindy R Wilson books.
Zoe, who has agoraphobia and Jackson, who is homeless play online chess under screen names. Unbeknownst to either, they were schoolmates before Zoe’s anxiety escalated and she stopped leaving the house. When Jackson becomes her tutor and figures out Zoe is his online friend and opponent he struggles with disclosing the relationship and having the girl he likes realize he’s homeless.
My favorite part of PAPER GIRL was that Wilson stayed away from the trope love cures mental illness. Zoe worked with a therapist and set treatment goals. Her recovery wasn’t entirely realistic in the speed or activities she tried. Prom and a stadium full of people watching graduation gives people who aren’t agoraphobic anxiety.
I also enjoyed the arc with Jackson and his father, although Jackson’s homelessness made not having a place to live seem easier than the reality those without a place to live experience.
Wilson made me care about the major and minor characters, root for their successes. I read PAPER GIRL in one sitting. I look forward to more Cindy R Wilson books.
November 26, 2018
Rating: 3.5 Stars
Jackson was homeless, and Zoe never left her home. When their online lives clash with their real world lives, they both may find the courage they need to tackle their respective issues.
• Pro: I really liked Jackson. He was forced to take on grown up responsibilities sooner than he should have due to his mother's death and his father's alcoholism. This could have made him jaded or bitter, but he didn't let it get him down. He kept his focus on his future and kept pushing ahead.
• Pro: This book was pro therapy, but it didn't show it without any shortcomings. Zoe was on her 6th therapists, and she made a game out of how many times they used the word "cope". But, when she found the right therapists, changes started happening.
• Pro: Zoe's family was very present in this book, but they were not perfect. I thought their imperfect reactions and responses to Zoe's agoraphobia were realistic. It's a difficult thing to see your loved one withdraw from the world, but at least they were there for her, and they never gave up on supporting her. I also liked that Zoe's agoraphobia wasn't the result of some BIG trauma. It just slowly grew from everyday things.
• Con: Oddly enough, as Zoe started to sort of take charge of things, I felt like the pacing was off. I am not sure about what happened, but it did get better towards the end.
• Pro: I enjoyed the chats between BlackKNIGHT and Rouge2015. Their banter was fun and honest as they hid behind their screen names, and it was great seeing the relationship between those two grow alongside the IRL relationship of Zoe and Jackson.
• Pro: The romance was pretty adorable. These two had been mutually interest in each other prior to Zoe's dropping out of school. Jackson was very sweet and patient with Zoe, and they both gave each other little nudges in positive directions.
• Pro: Jackson's story was heartbreaking, and we got peeks at the emotional toll it was taking on him, but thank you, Cindy Wilson, for giving him such a hopeful resolution.
Overall: A thoughtful look at two struggling teens, who were able to find the strength and courage to overcome their obstacles.
*ARC provided in exchange for an honest review.
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Jackson was homeless, and Zoe never left her home. When their online lives clash with their real world lives, they both may find the courage they need to tackle their respective issues.
• Pro: I really liked Jackson. He was forced to take on grown up responsibilities sooner than he should have due to his mother's death and his father's alcoholism. This could have made him jaded or bitter, but he didn't let it get him down. He kept his focus on his future and kept pushing ahead.
• Pro: This book was pro therapy, but it didn't show it without any shortcomings. Zoe was on her 6th therapists, and she made a game out of how many times they used the word "cope". But, when she found the right therapists, changes started happening.
• Pro: Zoe's family was very present in this book, but they were not perfect. I thought their imperfect reactions and responses to Zoe's agoraphobia were realistic. It's a difficult thing to see your loved one withdraw from the world, but at least they were there for her, and they never gave up on supporting her. I also liked that Zoe's agoraphobia wasn't the result of some BIG trauma. It just slowly grew from everyday things.
• Con: Oddly enough, as Zoe started to sort of take charge of things, I felt like the pacing was off. I am not sure about what happened, but it did get better towards the end.
• Pro: I enjoyed the chats between BlackKNIGHT and Rouge2015. Their banter was fun and honest as they hid behind their screen names, and it was great seeing the relationship between those two grow alongside the IRL relationship of Zoe and Jackson.
• Pro: The romance was pretty adorable. These two had been mutually interest in each other prior to Zoe's dropping out of school. Jackson was very sweet and patient with Zoe, and they both gave each other little nudges in positive directions.
• Pro: Jackson's story was heartbreaking, and we got peeks at the emotional toll it was taking on him, but thank you, Cindy Wilson, for giving him such a hopeful resolution.
Overall: A thoughtful look at two struggling teens, who were able to find the strength and courage to overcome their obstacles.
*ARC provided in exchange for an honest review.
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October 31, 2018
I received an e-ARC from NetGalley in exchange for an honest review. Review can also be found on *Milky Way of Books*
Zoe lives in her family's penthouse...and hasn't left it for a year. Making galaxies from paper and enjoying her online winning as a chess master, and having one online friend, she tries to gain back her self-confidence, because she wants to go to her sister's graduation and because she wants to become a better person.
Then there's Jackson; homeless, but nobody knows it, who becomes Zoe's math and Physics tutor as also something more.
This book feels like it doesn't get the attention it deserves. The cover first caught my eye and then the summary. Only one another similar book made me so emotional and that was *Under Rose Tainted Skies by Louise Gornall*. Both characters have their own struggles but you can't miss the humor, the emotions and the tender moments. Also, Zoe's family tries to be supportive in every way and also help her through her own fight.
Also, Jackson was a sweetie with his smiles and support. And the beauty of this book is that both protagonists deal with their families and try to work through their own past.
Truly a beautiful book!
Zoe lives in her family's penthouse...and hasn't left it for a year. Making galaxies from paper and enjoying her online winning as a chess master, and having one online friend, she tries to gain back her self-confidence, because she wants to go to her sister's graduation and because she wants to become a better person.
Then there's Jackson; homeless, but nobody knows it, who becomes Zoe's math and Physics tutor as also something more.
This book feels like it doesn't get the attention it deserves. The cover first caught my eye and then the summary. Only one another similar book made me so emotional and that was *Under Rose Tainted Skies by Louise Gornall*. Both characters have their own struggles but you can't miss the humor, the emotions and the tender moments. Also, Zoe's family tries to be supportive in every way and also help her through her own fight.
Also, Jackson was a sweetie with his smiles and support. And the beauty of this book is that both protagonists deal with their families and try to work through their own past.
Truly a beautiful book!
December 3, 2018
I was provided an ARC via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.
*4.25 Stars*
Zoe hasn't been outside in a year. A series of things happened and now, when she thinks about leaving her apartment, she gets panic attacks. So she doesn't. And she doesn't like it but at least she can escape through chess and her paper art. Everything changes when she gets a new therapist and when Jackson, a friend of her sister starts spending more time at their place.
I really enjoyed this. The character were layered and interesting. The dynamics between them were captivating and I really loved the whole chess thing.
The plot was simple but effective and I felt for both our main character. I was a bit more involved in Zoe's side of the story though because I could relate with her more than I could with Jackson.
I really enjoyed seeing the main characters interacting with their family and friends too, I found that side of the story just as strong as the love story parts.
I read this pretty fast and enjoyed it a lot. I do really love short chapters and also loved the chapters that were chats only from the chess website.
Basically, it was a very strong debut novel and I'm looking forward to reading more from this author.
*4.25 Stars*
Zoe hasn't been outside in a year. A series of things happened and now, when she thinks about leaving her apartment, she gets panic attacks. So she doesn't. And she doesn't like it but at least she can escape through chess and her paper art. Everything changes when she gets a new therapist and when Jackson, a friend of her sister starts spending more time at their place.
I really enjoyed this. The character were layered and interesting. The dynamics between them were captivating and I really loved the whole chess thing.
The plot was simple but effective and I felt for both our main character. I was a bit more involved in Zoe's side of the story though because I could relate with her more than I could with Jackson.
I really enjoyed seeing the main characters interacting with their family and friends too, I found that side of the story just as strong as the love story parts.
I read this pretty fast and enjoyed it a lot. I do really love short chapters and also loved the chapters that were chats only from the chess website.
Basically, it was a very strong debut novel and I'm looking forward to reading more from this author.
May 9, 2019
What. A. Book.
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I am so happy I was able to read this in May which is also Mental Health Awareness month. This book just touched my heart so deeply as someone who struggles with anxiety on a daily basis. This book is about Zoe King, a girl who's anxiety and panic has consumed her life. Her fears keep her contained to her penthouse. Zoe spends the majority of her time in her room creating a paper universe and playing chess online. She is working really hard each day so that she will be able to attend her sister's graduation. There's romance, there's laughter, and there were times I had to close the book because Zoe's experiences seemed a lot like mine.
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Zoe's internal struggle to face her fears and take steps to complete her goal was so inspiring to me. This is because one cannot just simply "get over" their big fears and anxieties, it is a long term process that takes time and this book puts it perfectly.
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I am so happy I was able to read this in May which is also Mental Health Awareness month. This book just touched my heart so deeply as someone who struggles with anxiety on a daily basis. This book is about Zoe King, a girl who's anxiety and panic has consumed her life. Her fears keep her contained to her penthouse. Zoe spends the majority of her time in her room creating a paper universe and playing chess online. She is working really hard each day so that she will be able to attend her sister's graduation. There's romance, there's laughter, and there were times I had to close the book because Zoe's experiences seemed a lot like mine.
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Zoe's internal struggle to face her fears and take steps to complete her goal was so inspiring to me. This is because one cannot just simply "get over" their big fears and anxieties, it is a long term process that takes time and this book puts it perfectly.
November 5, 2018
Paper Girl by Cindy R. Wilson a five-star read that will rip you into pieces. What a book, I honestly didn’t expect this to be as amazing as it was, it had me in tears several times not just sad tears either. This was so nicely done, as we read Zoe’s story you will get drawn in and realise that everyone at some point in their lives could be a paper boy or girl, ripped apart so easily and at times pieced together again just as easy. This is a deep story but also at times comedically funny and so entertaining that you will love every page. When you read the description of the paper room and they are in such descriptive details that you can see the comets on the walls. This story will have you looking up origami and if you are anything like me trying to find easy pieces to try out. I hadn’t read anything by this author before, but I will be making sure to check anything she releases as I cant get enough of this writing. If you have ever suffered from anxiety then this novel will speak to you, and if you know anyone with anxiety this will help you to understand them better, Cindy R. Wilson has a great talent for showing you the good, the bad and the beautiful of anxiety and how to deal with it.
December 6, 2018
This book was a real page-turner. Both of the characters were really developed in a way that you felt all of their pain and anxiousness. I know that I was rooting for both to figure out that the other was actually their anonymous chess partner online, but until they did, it was very interested to see just how much they'd share. Reading the descriptions of Zoe's paper galaxy made me want to actually see pictures of it. I did my best to picture them in my head, but I'm sure I had nothing anywhere close to what it actually should have been. Jackson's life was a hard one. It was very sad to read about him living in his car. But I guess even sadder is that there are actually kids probably doing that all the time. I was glad to see what happened with his dad went the way it did. Once in a while it is nice for there to be happy endings all around if possible. I loved Zoe's mother, she was such a fun character. Her sister Mae, definitely made me mad at times, but that was because she was so realistic, just like a real sister probably would be. I feel like this book did a great job with showcasing so many different types of issues that teens today might deal with, and it kept me reading and wishing and hoping for the HEA. This is one I will definitely put on my list of books to order for my library with budget money in the future.
This review was first published on Lisa Loves Literature.
This review was first published on Lisa Loves Literature.
January 1, 2019
Thank you to Entangled Publishing LLC. and NetGalley for providing me with an advance reading copy of this book!
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December 4, 2018
YA contemporaries that mix mental health issues and romance can be tricky. There is a chance that the romance can overwhelm the actual representation of mental health and warp the most interesting part of the novel into a mere subplot in comparison to the romance.
I would like to give the caveat that I do not have firsthand experience with mental health, so take my opinions with a grain of salt and please also seek out own voices reviewers.
However, Paper Girl has the prefect mix of exploring Zoe's life and her journey with agoraphobia, including anxiety, therapy sessions, exposure therapy, progression, and regression. This isn't a simple story where a boy shows up and magically cures Zoe's anxiety. Jackson is important to Zoe, but doesn't become her crutch. In the end, Zoe makes her own life better, which is a strong theme that is not seen in YA as often as it should.
Speaking of Zoe, I loved her characterization. Yes, her agoraphobia is important, but it isn't the most important thing about her. She is quirky because of her personality, not because of her mental health. Her love of chess, obsession with paper art, and pendant for comic books are used to characterize her as "quirky" or "different" instead of her agoraphobia.
Zoe is also a great character since we get to see both the highs and the lows with her therapy. There is no magical cure for mental health and her journey shows the complicated process of progression and regression in therapy.
Even though Jackson is not Zoe's "savior" I do appreciate his relationship with Zoe. They have an incredible "meet cute" story that is pure, innocent, and too gosh darn adorable. Their relationship is built off of a love of chess and mutual nerdiness that warms my heart. Most importantly, I loved the give and take in their relationship. There was a respect in their relationship that make it even more awe-worthy.
The romance isn't the only relationship that I loved as both Zoe's and Jackson's families were given a lot of page time. Both families are completely different, yet they also both struggle and love. Both the good and the bad were shown in both families, which is a dynamic that is not traditionally seen in YA.
Jackson has his own struggles, but since the synopsis doesn't specify them, I am going to leave you to discover them. All I will say is that I believe they were handled well, if a little bit unrealistically.
My only complaint would be that the plot was a little bit weak, more so a diary of their lives instead of an action-driven narrative. There were some end goals in sight, but on the whole, especially with Jackson's narrative, the story just seemed to be rambling on to the future.
Ultimately, Paper Girl is a great exploration of living with agoraphobia that doesn't fall into the popular trap that romance fixes everything. If you love chess, origami, or just good mental health representation (which I hope is all of you), I recommend Paper Girl.
Trigger Warnings: Child Abuse, Panic Attacks, Drugs, and Alcoholism
This review and other bookish shenanigans can be found on my original blog, Crazy for YA.
I would like to give the caveat that I do not have firsthand experience with mental health, so take my opinions with a grain of salt and please also seek out own voices reviewers.
However, Paper Girl has the prefect mix of exploring Zoe's life and her journey with agoraphobia, including anxiety, therapy sessions, exposure therapy, progression, and regression. This isn't a simple story where a boy shows up and magically cures Zoe's anxiety. Jackson is important to Zoe, but doesn't become her crutch. In the end, Zoe makes her own life better, which is a strong theme that is not seen in YA as often as it should.
Speaking of Zoe, I loved her characterization. Yes, her agoraphobia is important, but it isn't the most important thing about her. She is quirky because of her personality, not because of her mental health. Her love of chess, obsession with paper art, and pendant for comic books are used to characterize her as "quirky" or "different" instead of her agoraphobia.
Zoe is also a great character since we get to see both the highs and the lows with her therapy. There is no magical cure for mental health and her journey shows the complicated process of progression and regression in therapy.
Even though Jackson is not Zoe's "savior" I do appreciate his relationship with Zoe. They have an incredible "meet cute" story that is pure, innocent, and too gosh darn adorable. Their relationship is built off of a love of chess and mutual nerdiness that warms my heart. Most importantly, I loved the give and take in their relationship. There was a respect in their relationship that make it even more awe-worthy.
The romance isn't the only relationship that I loved as both Zoe's and Jackson's families were given a lot of page time. Both families are completely different, yet they also both struggle and love. Both the good and the bad were shown in both families, which is a dynamic that is not traditionally seen in YA.
Jackson has his own struggles, but since the synopsis doesn't specify them, I am going to leave you to discover them. All I will say is that I believe they were handled well, if a little bit unrealistically.
My only complaint would be that the plot was a little bit weak, more so a diary of their lives instead of an action-driven narrative. There were some end goals in sight, but on the whole, especially with Jackson's narrative, the story just seemed to be rambling on to the future.
Ultimately, Paper Girl is a great exploration of living with agoraphobia that doesn't fall into the popular trap that romance fixes everything. If you love chess, origami, or just good mental health representation (which I hope is all of you), I recommend Paper Girl.
Trigger Warnings: Child Abuse, Panic Attacks, Drugs, and Alcoholism
This review and other bookish shenanigans can be found on my original blog, Crazy for YA.
December 23, 2018
I have a very good friend who suffers from agoraphobia and a daughter with social anxiety. I’ll admit I never really understood these feelings. I’m the opposite, a consummate extrovert who loves the hub of urban life and exploring everything the world has to offer. But PAPER GIRL takes me inside the life of Zoe, an agoraphobic who hasn’t left her home in over a year. Zoe was always more shy and reserved than her outgoing older sister, Mae, but before a series of events pushed her into seclusion, she lived a fairly normal life, attending Mae’s games and flirting with Mae’s friend, Jackson. After retreating into her home, she creates a haven of paper art that soothes her as well as occupies her time. Zoe is determined to return to some sort of a normal life, starting with attending her sister’s high school graduation. With the help of her therapist, she sets small goals for herself, including allowing herself to be tutored by Jackson, who has troubles of his own. Small victories and big steps backward combine to make Zoe’s journey one that is both realistic and relatable.
Plot
Told from dual points of view, there is one main plot, the romance between Zoe and Jackson, and two major subplots involving Zoe’s goal to re-enter life outside her home and Jackson’s relationship with his estranged father. The author throws enough roadblocks into both of their paths to keep things from ever getting too easy. The only thing I really wanted more of was uncertainty in their romance. There wasn’t any angst or doubt, nothing to really keep me turning the pages to make sure these two would end up together.
The Characters
I absolutely loved Zoe. She’s complex, smart, creative, funny, and just neurotic enough to be the perfect character to root for. I could feel her shame and horror when life infringed on her safe space. Watching her stretch the boundaries of that safety zone had me cheering for her every step of the way. Jackson was a little more pulled together, even though he’s homeless. His circumstances are as outside his control as Zoe’s are, but they’re environmental rather than emotional and mental. These two both overcome their own circumstances and situations to grow in believable ways.
Top Five Things I Enjoyed About PAPER GIRL
1. Paper art. Colorful origami in three-dimensional space creates a solar system and galaxy that fills Zoe’s room and life. I would love to see it, because I’m not sure my imagination does it justice.
2. Mae. She is sympathetic as the older sister who loves Zoe and struggles with supporting her sister and longing for the life they used to have together outside their home.
3. Zoe’s mom. The Instagram and YouTube star who documents all the craftiness that is her life is both a supportive and understanding parent with some of the best lines in the book.
4. Jackson. He’s sweet, patient, and brilliant. He creates the perfect balance between supporting Zoe without being a crutch.
5. Zoe. She is fascinating, at times sarcastic, terrified, artistic, smart, and more all rolled into a tiny ball of determination.
Bottom Line
A wonderful young adult contemporary romance that examines how social anxiety can transform someone from the inside out.
Disclaimer
I was provided a copy of this book by the publisher in exchange for an honest review.
Plot
Told from dual points of view, there is one main plot, the romance between Zoe and Jackson, and two major subplots involving Zoe’s goal to re-enter life outside her home and Jackson’s relationship with his estranged father. The author throws enough roadblocks into both of their paths to keep things from ever getting too easy. The only thing I really wanted more of was uncertainty in their romance. There wasn’t any angst or doubt, nothing to really keep me turning the pages to make sure these two would end up together.
The Characters
I absolutely loved Zoe. She’s complex, smart, creative, funny, and just neurotic enough to be the perfect character to root for. I could feel her shame and horror when life infringed on her safe space. Watching her stretch the boundaries of that safety zone had me cheering for her every step of the way. Jackson was a little more pulled together, even though he’s homeless. His circumstances are as outside his control as Zoe’s are, but they’re environmental rather than emotional and mental. These two both overcome their own circumstances and situations to grow in believable ways.
Top Five Things I Enjoyed About PAPER GIRL
1. Paper art. Colorful origami in three-dimensional space creates a solar system and galaxy that fills Zoe’s room and life. I would love to see it, because I’m not sure my imagination does it justice.
2. Mae. She is sympathetic as the older sister who loves Zoe and struggles with supporting her sister and longing for the life they used to have together outside their home.
3. Zoe’s mom. The Instagram and YouTube star who documents all the craftiness that is her life is both a supportive and understanding parent with some of the best lines in the book.
4. Jackson. He’s sweet, patient, and brilliant. He creates the perfect balance between supporting Zoe without being a crutch.
5. Zoe. She is fascinating, at times sarcastic, terrified, artistic, smart, and more all rolled into a tiny ball of determination.
Bottom Line
A wonderful young adult contemporary romance that examines how social anxiety can transform someone from the inside out.
Disclaimer
I was provided a copy of this book by the publisher in exchange for an honest review.
September 24, 2018
The issue I had with Paper Girls were the characters of Zoe and Jackson. The plot was fine and the idea of a girl battling her agoraphobia was also fine. What broke this story apart was how much Zoe and Jackson depended on each other. At first they only know of each other. They've seen each other at school when Zoe used to go. Jackson talked to Zoe once and despite being Zoe's sister's (Mae) friend, he never sees her when they hang out at Zoe and Mae's apartment. Both of these characters are obsessed with one another and love one another despite not knowing anything about each other. Each chapter was a different view point and right from the beginning Zoe and Jackson were always thinking of each other and wishing they could date each other, but equally deciding that the other person didn't like them.
Eventually Jackson weasels his way into Zoe's life as her physics and math tutor. He doesn't even know Zoe has agoraphobia. He just assumes she's very shy. He crossed the line with Zoe multiple times without caring about her boundaries and mental state. As a person with anxiety, this is something you don't do. You don't manipulate a person just because you have a crush on them in order to satisfy yourself.
Because of how Jackson implanted himself into her life, Zoe decided to get better for him. She labeled Jackson as her reason to breathe, and Jackson did the same with Zoe. These characters manipulated and withheld words and feelings when they wanted the other person to change and they wouldn't. Zoe wanted Jackson to give his dad a chance and move back home. Jackson wanted Zoe to be free of her agoraphobia and leave her apartment so they could go on dates. They have no right in demanding the other person to change. If Jackson doesn't want to make up with his dad then leave it at that. If Zoe doesn't want to leave the apartment then who cares? They guilt tripped each other into changing into the perfect versions they created in their heads.
The more I think about this story, the more it frustrates me because of how toxic these characters were portrayed. I wish a romance hadn't been included that way Zoe could grow on her own and learn to love herself by being independent.
Thank you NetGalley for the ARC.
Eventually Jackson weasels his way into Zoe's life as her physics and math tutor. He doesn't even know Zoe has agoraphobia. He just assumes she's very shy. He crossed the line with Zoe multiple times without caring about her boundaries and mental state. As a person with anxiety, this is something you don't do. You don't manipulate a person just because you have a crush on them in order to satisfy yourself.
Because of how Jackson implanted himself into her life, Zoe decided to get better for him. She labeled Jackson as her reason to breathe, and Jackson did the same with Zoe. These characters manipulated and withheld words and feelings when they wanted the other person to change and they wouldn't. Zoe wanted Jackson to give his dad a chance and move back home. Jackson wanted Zoe to be free of her agoraphobia and leave her apartment so they could go on dates. They have no right in demanding the other person to change. If Jackson doesn't want to make up with his dad then leave it at that. If Zoe doesn't want to leave the apartment then who cares? They guilt tripped each other into changing into the perfect versions they created in their heads.
The more I think about this story, the more it frustrates me because of how toxic these characters were portrayed. I wish a romance hadn't been included that way Zoe could grow on her own and learn to love herself by being independent.
Thank you NetGalley for the ARC.
October 21, 2018
I was provided an ARC through NetGalley in return of an honest review.
This book is wonderful and I think it's a very important book to read. It's one of the few books I've found that is so pro-therapy, which made me beyond happy.
First off, I love the way the chapters work. I love how one chapter is both characters talking online through their chess games, the next is from Zoe's point of view, and the next is from Jackson's. I feel that this was the perfect way to do this and to show what each character was like and what they were each going through.
Second, I found I could relate to Zoe in some aspects. I am someone who deals with anxiety myself, although not to the extremes of Zoe's. This was such an accurate portrayal of what anxiety is like; it doesn't always make sense as to why someone with anxiety thinks they way they do, it's just how it is. Watching Zoe grow throughout the book and learn to deal with her anxiety was inspiring. I found myself constantly rooting for Zoe and the progress she was making.
Third, I love Jackson. He is just such a lovable character. I found myself saddened by everything he was going through, and I understood Zoe always wanting to find a way to help him. I loved his growth as well. He's a character that has gone through a lot in the past, and he uses that to make himself better instead of letting it weigh him down which I admire.
Lastly, Gina is everything I would want in a therapist. She really listened to Zoe and what she was saying and feeling. She let her express and explain everything. She encouraged her to take her small steps at dealing with anxiety and didn't let her back down.
Overall, I think this book is amazing, and I believe Cindy R. Wilson did an excellent job telling this story.
This book is wonderful and I think it's a very important book to read. It's one of the few books I've found that is so pro-therapy, which made me beyond happy.
First off, I love the way the chapters work. I love how one chapter is both characters talking online through their chess games, the next is from Zoe's point of view, and the next is from Jackson's. I feel that this was the perfect way to do this and to show what each character was like and what they were each going through.
Second, I found I could relate to Zoe in some aspects. I am someone who deals with anxiety myself, although not to the extremes of Zoe's. This was such an accurate portrayal of what anxiety is like; it doesn't always make sense as to why someone with anxiety thinks they way they do, it's just how it is. Watching Zoe grow throughout the book and learn to deal with her anxiety was inspiring. I found myself constantly rooting for Zoe and the progress she was making.
Third, I love Jackson. He is just such a lovable character. I found myself saddened by everything he was going through, and I understood Zoe always wanting to find a way to help him. I loved his growth as well. He's a character that has gone through a lot in the past, and he uses that to make himself better instead of letting it weigh him down which I admire.
Lastly, Gina is everything I would want in a therapist. She really listened to Zoe and what she was saying and feeling. She let her express and explain everything. She encouraged her to take her small steps at dealing with anxiety and didn't let her back down.
Overall, I think this book is amazing, and I believe Cindy R. Wilson did an excellent job telling this story.
September 17, 2018
Huge thanks to NetGalley and Entangled Publishing for this great YA read!
Zoe is home schooled. She has not left the house in a year. In that time, she's created a world made out of paper. In addition to the paper, she finds an escape playing chess online with a dude. They open up to each other.
Jackson is super smart and on track to becoming valedictorian. His mom passed away, and he can't live at home because his dad has turned to alcohol. He finds an escape playing chess online...
Jackson is friends with Zoe's sister. When Zoe needs a tutor, he's available. Zoe starts to feel things and wants to try to get out of the house for Jackson. For her family. And for herself.
I LOVED this book. It's a really sweet story, and I loved how pro-therapy it is. I really appreciated Zoe trying to cope with her social anxiety and working through it with her therapist. Everyone in this book seemed like a good character, even when they had flaws. What a feel good story it was, and I enjoyed reading it.
Zoe is home schooled. She has not left the house in a year. In that time, she's created a world made out of paper. In addition to the paper, she finds an escape playing chess online with a dude. They open up to each other.
Jackson is super smart and on track to becoming valedictorian. His mom passed away, and he can't live at home because his dad has turned to alcohol. He finds an escape playing chess online...
Jackson is friends with Zoe's sister. When Zoe needs a tutor, he's available. Zoe starts to feel things and wants to try to get out of the house for Jackson. For her family. And for herself.
I LOVED this book. It's a really sweet story, and I loved how pro-therapy it is. I really appreciated Zoe trying to cope with her social anxiety and working through it with her therapist. Everyone in this book seemed like a good character, even when they had flaws. What a feel good story it was, and I enjoyed reading it.
September 18, 2018
First let me address the cover... wowzers! It's one of my favorite covers of 2018! Cindy is a beautiful writer who takes you into the world of Zoe and Jackson. Zoe suffers from social anxiety and is afraid to leave the house. She connects with the outside world through online chess and befriends a player named Jackson. But little does she know her online friend has struggles of his own, and Zoe and Jackson are more connected than they realize...
I loved the characters, the storyline, and the sweet romance! A must read for anyone who loves YA!
I loved the characters, the storyline, and the sweet romance! A must read for anyone who loves YA!
May 26, 2019
3.5*
What I did not like: that a boy had to come along to get the girl to leave the house, giving the impression that a) romantic love cures mental illness and b) the girl needs to be saved by the boy. The whole rest of the book I loved.
What I did not like: that a boy had to come along to get the girl to leave the house, giving the impression that a) romantic love cures mental illness and b) the girl needs to be saved by the boy. The whole rest of the book I loved.
November 13, 2018
CW: scenes dealing with panic attacks
Told in alternating perspectives, Paper Girl by Cindy R. Wilson is more than its title. Zoe, the titular Paper Girl, and Jackson, a determined student who has become homeless before the opening, are two characters that have levels of engagement for the reader. Readers interested in books about severe social anxiety, agoraphobia, and homelessness re: teens may well find themselves enjoying this story.
There are two main stories in Paper Girl: Zoe and her social anxiety/agoraphobia & Jackson, a homeless teen who is striving to keep his grades up and get into college despite a rough background. While the synopsis makes it seem like most of the book will be centered around Zoe and her plot, I thought that there was a good balance of Zoe narrated chapters, Jackson chapters, and online conversations between the two as they play chess (not knowing who the other is behind screen names).
Zoe's situation, her social anxiety spiraling into full blown agoraphobia, had a somewhat strong story. From the event that caused her anxiety to become more intense to the point of staying in her parents' penthouse apartment for over a year, to the relatively positive therapy rep...these scenes were pretty good, the therapy especially. As of the beginning of this book, Zoe's on therapist #6. Finding one that will listen & help rather than patronizing can be difficult. Gina (#6) seemed like someone that was actually helping Zoe, as opposed to the previous therapist, Dr. Edwards, who pontificated rather than assisted.
Jackson's story was a bit more interesting to me. It's possible because I haven't read that many, if any, books involving homeless teens whereas I have about teens with agoraphobia/social anxiety. It was intense, reading about the things that Jackson did to stay not only alive without relying on anyone, but about what he did to stay off the radar as a homeless kid. Being discovered would've been disastrous for his plans, necessitating moving his car constantly, sneaking in showers whenever and wherever possible, and figuring out how to get enough to eat without tipping someone off.
There were some amazing descriptions of visual elements that Zoe created. Her Milky Way paper art sounded spectacular. It made me wish that there were illustrations of it or even photographs of samples that someone had made based on the concept. Zoe's use of origami/kirigami to cope with her anxiety was an interesting facet of her character. It broke my heart, her decision regarding her "paper room" at the end and I have to say, it was one that I couldn't wholly understand/believe.
The pacing in the second half of the book was my biggest problem with the book and ultimately made me aggravated with the reading process. While the story was engaging enough and enjoyable for the first 50%, there was a point at which it felt like everything ground to a halt. It took so long for anything to actually happen that I got frustrated with the characters and especially the author. It felt like maybe she didn't quite know how to end the book, resulting in a longer book than was necessary.
I'm not sure how to explain my feelings regarding Zoe's family, either. While both her parents were present, there were times when I questioned it because it almost felt like her parents were, at least, getting her therapy and being understanding-ish of her condition, but also that they weren't present other than physically. Her sister Mae reactions to Zoe's anxiety & their parents' dealing with it felt like it might be realistic, but she said a few things that felt particularly insensitive that amounted to "just get over it" or "stop being scared if you're so unhappy". It was a strange imbalance in Mae's supportive/insensitive moments that had me wondering whether I liked and/or cared about her all that much.
I could see recommending this in general with the caveat that the second half can feel like slow pouring molasses, but also to fans of Under Rose-Tainted Skies by Louise Gornall (not a book I cared for, but the similarity in a teen girl dealing with anxiety/agoraphobia may appeal to some readers).
I received a copy of this book from the publisher in exchange for an honest review.
Told in alternating perspectives, Paper Girl by Cindy R. Wilson is more than its title. Zoe, the titular Paper Girl, and Jackson, a determined student who has become homeless before the opening, are two characters that have levels of engagement for the reader. Readers interested in books about severe social anxiety, agoraphobia, and homelessness re: teens may well find themselves enjoying this story.
There are two main stories in Paper Girl: Zoe and her social anxiety/agoraphobia & Jackson, a homeless teen who is striving to keep his grades up and get into college despite a rough background. While the synopsis makes it seem like most of the book will be centered around Zoe and her plot, I thought that there was a good balance of Zoe narrated chapters, Jackson chapters, and online conversations between the two as they play chess (not knowing who the other is behind screen names).
Zoe's situation, her social anxiety spiraling into full blown agoraphobia, had a somewhat strong story. From the event that caused her anxiety to become more intense to the point of staying in her parents' penthouse apartment for over a year, to the relatively positive therapy rep...these scenes were pretty good, the therapy especially. As of the beginning of this book, Zoe's on therapist #6. Finding one that will listen & help rather than patronizing can be difficult. Gina (#6) seemed like someone that was actually helping Zoe, as opposed to the previous therapist, Dr. Edwards, who pontificated rather than assisted.
Jackson's story was a bit more interesting to me. It's possible because I haven't read that many, if any, books involving homeless teens whereas I have about teens with agoraphobia/social anxiety. It was intense, reading about the things that Jackson did to stay not only alive without relying on anyone, but about what he did to stay off the radar as a homeless kid. Being discovered would've been disastrous for his plans, necessitating moving his car constantly, sneaking in showers whenever and wherever possible, and figuring out how to get enough to eat without tipping someone off.
There were some amazing descriptions of visual elements that Zoe created. Her Milky Way paper art sounded spectacular. It made me wish that there were illustrations of it or even photographs of samples that someone had made based on the concept. Zoe's use of origami/kirigami to cope with her anxiety was an interesting facet of her character. It broke my heart, her decision regarding her "paper room" at the end and I have to say, it was one that I couldn't wholly understand/believe.
The pacing in the second half of the book was my biggest problem with the book and ultimately made me aggravated with the reading process. While the story was engaging enough and enjoyable for the first 50%, there was a point at which it felt like everything ground to a halt. It took so long for anything to actually happen that I got frustrated with the characters and especially the author. It felt like maybe she didn't quite know how to end the book, resulting in a longer book than was necessary.
I'm not sure how to explain my feelings regarding Zoe's family, either. While both her parents were present, there were times when I questioned it because it almost felt like her parents were, at least, getting her therapy and being understanding-ish of her condition, but also that they weren't present other than physically. Her sister Mae reactions to Zoe's anxiety & their parents' dealing with it felt like it might be realistic, but she said a few things that felt particularly insensitive that amounted to "just get over it" or "stop being scared if you're so unhappy". It was a strange imbalance in Mae's supportive/insensitive moments that had me wondering whether I liked and/or cared about her all that much.
I could see recommending this in general with the caveat that the second half can feel like slow pouring molasses, but also to fans of Under Rose-Tainted Skies by Louise Gornall (not a book I cared for, but the similarity in a teen girl dealing with anxiety/agoraphobia may appeal to some readers).
I received a copy of this book from the publisher in exchange for an honest review.
September 18, 2018
The cover of this book was the first thing that caught my attention. It implies that the 'Paper Girl' is fragile and that her life could turn to ash at any moment. I thought it captured the essence of the book really well.
The 'Paper Girl' is Zoe, an almost-seventeen-year-old who hasn't left her apartment in over a year. After a socially painful incident at school, she has her first panic attack and becomes trapped in her apartment, unable to face the world. Paper becomes her comfort blanket. She creates a new world out of paper and lives in her paper room. Though she has visits from a number of therapists, none are able to encourage her to live her life outside of her paper walls. That is until Gina and Jackson enter her life. Gina, her new therapist, is different to the others. Though she doesn't tell Zoe straight away, she's lived through a similar scenario and understands the crippling fears that the outside holds. She works with Zoe as an individual rather than an anxiety-ridden patient. And then there's Jackson. Her sister's friend who is hired as her tutor to help with her math and physics work. The boy she's been crushing on but has always been too afraid to pursue. After spending more time with Gina and Jackson, Zoe begins to realise there is more to life than her paper creations and vows to do whatever it takes to gain back her independence. The only question is how, when the outside world absolutely terrifies her.
Compared to other similar books in this genre, 'Paper Girl' was unique in the way other elements were explored so that the whole story wasn't just focused on teenage anxiety. Zoe enjoys origami and chess, and these interests helped distract her. It also gave her something to work towards - going to the art museum for the paper exhibit for example. I think it's important that people with anxiety that read this book understand the importance of interests to help work towards their own steps and goals.
I thought Jackson's character was constructed well as he was battling his own problems but still made time to help Zoe combat hers. His compassion and understanding was great to see, as it showed that Zoe needn't have worried so much about what people thought of her anxiety. Opening up to people is the best way to work towards fighting your fears. Zoe was afraid, but Jackson helped her tackle the issues and this even led her to her own decision to try doing things on her own without protection from another person.
The 'Paper Girl' is Zoe, an almost-seventeen-year-old who hasn't left her apartment in over a year. After a socially painful incident at school, she has her first panic attack and becomes trapped in her apartment, unable to face the world. Paper becomes her comfort blanket. She creates a new world out of paper and lives in her paper room. Though she has visits from a number of therapists, none are able to encourage her to live her life outside of her paper walls. That is until Gina and Jackson enter her life. Gina, her new therapist, is different to the others. Though she doesn't tell Zoe straight away, she's lived through a similar scenario and understands the crippling fears that the outside holds. She works with Zoe as an individual rather than an anxiety-ridden patient. And then there's Jackson. Her sister's friend who is hired as her tutor to help with her math and physics work. The boy she's been crushing on but has always been too afraid to pursue. After spending more time with Gina and Jackson, Zoe begins to realise there is more to life than her paper creations and vows to do whatever it takes to gain back her independence. The only question is how, when the outside world absolutely terrifies her.
Compared to other similar books in this genre, 'Paper Girl' was unique in the way other elements were explored so that the whole story wasn't just focused on teenage anxiety. Zoe enjoys origami and chess, and these interests helped distract her. It also gave her something to work towards - going to the art museum for the paper exhibit for example. I think it's important that people with anxiety that read this book understand the importance of interests to help work towards their own steps and goals.
I thought Jackson's character was constructed well as he was battling his own problems but still made time to help Zoe combat hers. His compassion and understanding was great to see, as it showed that Zoe needn't have worried so much about what people thought of her anxiety. Opening up to people is the best way to work towards fighting your fears. Zoe was afraid, but Jackson helped her tackle the issues and this even led her to her own decision to try doing things on her own without protection from another person.
January 23, 2019
I started this book initially back in April, but had to put it aside. Nevertheless, I had been really compelled by it from the what I’d already read, so I decided to reserve it at the library and I wasn’t disappointed.
If you’re looking for a good, own voices contemporary novel that deals with a main character struggling with anxiety disorder, or mental health in general, then I highly recommend you pick it up. There’s also a strong narrative around teenage homelessness, agoraphobia, familial alcoholism, and a compelling romance with some secrets that could destroy everything between Zoe and Jackson when they come out.
As someone who has a biracial nephew who is half Japanese, I also appreciated the fact that Zoe’s mom is a Japanese-American immigrant, who briefly discusses her uncomfortableness about leaving her home in Japan and starting a life in the US when asked by Zoe and that origami figured so heavily in the book, and not through the paper crane motif, which is supposed to give someone a wish should they fold 1000. Instead Zoe uses her imagination and small, agile hands to fold paper in a variety of colours to form a solar system piece of paper art. Though these elements may not affect your appreciation of the novel.
Speaking of the paper art, there was a minor plot hole that I noticed with continuity regarding whether or not Zoe had created the figure of earth in solar system, and while it did take me out of the story a little, I don’t think it’s the worst thing and it definitely didn’t spoil my feels for this great story about anxiety disorders and the romance between Jackson and Zoe.
Check it out!
If you’re looking for a good, own voices contemporary novel that deals with a main character struggling with anxiety disorder, or mental health in general, then I highly recommend you pick it up. There’s also a strong narrative around teenage homelessness, agoraphobia, familial alcoholism, and a compelling romance with some secrets that could destroy everything between Zoe and Jackson when they come out.
As someone who has a biracial nephew who is half Japanese, I also appreciated the fact that Zoe’s mom is a Japanese-American immigrant, who briefly discusses her uncomfortableness about leaving her home in Japan and starting a life in the US when asked by Zoe and that origami figured so heavily in the book, and not through the paper crane motif, which is supposed to give someone a wish should they fold 1000. Instead Zoe uses her imagination and small, agile hands to fold paper in a variety of colours to form a solar system piece of paper art. Though these elements may not affect your appreciation of the novel.
Speaking of the paper art, there was a minor plot hole that I noticed with continuity regarding whether or not Zoe had created the figure of earth in solar system, and while it did take me out of the story a little, I don’t think it’s the worst thing and it definitely didn’t spoil my feels for this great story about anxiety disorders and the romance between Jackson and Zoe.
Check it out!
December 14, 2018
"Paper Girl" is a YA novel that talks about a girl with social anxiety. As someone who experiences anxiety in social settings from time to time, I thought the author managed to craft a story with a character I can somewhat relate to. I enjoyed reading about the representation because the author doesn't shy away from portraying the difficulties of having and/or experiencing anxiety. I especially enjoyed the familial aspects in the story and how they helped the main character in times of difficulty.
I have to say that I wouldn't normally read books like "Paper Girl" because it can be triggering. However, I still gave this book a shot because the premise intrigued me. The fluffy romance aspect in this book didn't overshadow the main theme in the story. I like how the romance balances out the drama in the book. You can say this book is kind of a "slice of life" story where the main character both had positive and negative experiences (like in real life). This book just felt "real" in a good way.
Finally, while I did like this book, I just felt like I wanted something more from the story itself. Maybe, more from the plot. Even if this had been the case, I thought this was still such a good book. I'd recommend this title to those who are looking for books with good representation.
**Huge thanks to the publisher for providing access to this title in exchange for an honest review.
I have to say that I wouldn't normally read books like "Paper Girl" because it can be triggering. However, I still gave this book a shot because the premise intrigued me. The fluffy romance aspect in this book didn't overshadow the main theme in the story. I like how the romance balances out the drama in the book. You can say this book is kind of a "slice of life" story where the main character both had positive and negative experiences (like in real life). This book just felt "real" in a good way.
Finally, while I did like this book, I just felt like I wanted something more from the story itself. Maybe, more from the plot. Even if this had been the case, I thought this was still such a good book. I'd recommend this title to those who are looking for books with good representation.
**Huge thanks to the publisher for providing access to this title in exchange for an honest review.
September 17, 2018
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When I first recieved this book from Netgalley in exchange for an honest review I was beyond excited. For weeks I’ve been denyed every single request. I absoulety love the cover for this book it fits perfectly.
Zoe has suffered a panic attack that has forced her to become a shut in. Why? Because the real world is scary. She spends most of her time playing online chess and transforming her study into a galaxy made from paper.
Jackson has a troubled relationship with his father. In all terms that matter he’s homeless and has been for a while. He tutors to earn money to save up for college in the fall.
I personally loved how cute this book was. The characters were so adorable as well was the relationship between Zoe and Jackson. I could connect with Zoe the best. I suffer from anxiety and depression one single thing can send myself in a downward spiral of self doubt and be fooled that I have no future. While Zoe’s coping mechanism is folding paper into planets and astriods mine is reading.
I love how Zoe’s family was so supportive they wanted her to get better and was doing everything they could to help her move on and tag a step towards going to her sisters graduation.
Mae is such a loving character and she’s the most real one in this story. Despite understanding her sisters situation she understands that Zoe has to push her self out of her comfort zone or she’ll get no where. She gives her sister the tough love that she needs.
The one thing I didn’t like was how quickly Jackson and Zoe formed a relationship. I wish they would have been a little bit more slower and built up on their friendship.
RATING: ⭐⭐⭐⭐
Highly recommended to anyone that like YA contemporary novels.
When I first recieved this book from Netgalley in exchange for an honest review I was beyond excited. For weeks I’ve been denyed every single request. I absoulety love the cover for this book it fits perfectly.
Zoe has suffered a panic attack that has forced her to become a shut in. Why? Because the real world is scary. She spends most of her time playing online chess and transforming her study into a galaxy made from paper.
Jackson has a troubled relationship with his father. In all terms that matter he’s homeless and has been for a while. He tutors to earn money to save up for college in the fall.
I personally loved how cute this book was. The characters were so adorable as well was the relationship between Zoe and Jackson. I could connect with Zoe the best. I suffer from anxiety and depression one single thing can send myself in a downward spiral of self doubt and be fooled that I have no future. While Zoe’s coping mechanism is folding paper into planets and astriods mine is reading.
I love how Zoe’s family was so supportive they wanted her to get better and was doing everything they could to help her move on and tag a step towards going to her sisters graduation.
Mae is such a loving character and she’s the most real one in this story. Despite understanding her sisters situation she understands that Zoe has to push her self out of her comfort zone or she’ll get no where. She gives her sister the tough love that she needs.
The one thing I didn’t like was how quickly Jackson and Zoe formed a relationship. I wish they would have been a little bit more slower and built up on their friendship.
RATING: ⭐⭐⭐⭐
Highly recommended to anyone that like YA contemporary novels.
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