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246 pages, Kindle Edition
First published February 15, 2018
"I feel like I'm trapped in a dehydrator and turning into beef jerky."
"You'd make for some fine jerky," Owen said, laughing.
"As would you, Bartlett," I replied.
"I'd gnaw on you," he continued, eyeing my torso.
"I'm not a piece of jagged, dried-out meat," I said indignantly. "I'm tender, juicy meat."


Why did I enjoy this man's insults so much? I couldn't explain it, but I wanted him to keep going. Pick apart my privilege-soaked preferences and deride my expensive polo shirts. Tear down my quirky-for-the-sake-of-wonky mannerisms. Strip it all away.
For the first time since high school, I wanted to slow it all down. I wanted to take a break.
Not the bullshit PR cover-up sabbatical, but a vacation.
In Maine.
With a fisherman who didn’t know anything about me.
This was crazy. Even if he looked like rough-palmed sex, he was straight. Probably. Maybe. Aw fuck, I couldn’t tell. The longer I thought about it, the easier it was to convince myself that he was gay and a huge, husky gift to me from the sea. From Poseidon himself. But it wasn’t like I had enough game to make anything happen. I’d earned my born-again virgin chip some time ago.
It wasn’t like I could throw myself at him. As thrilled as I was to hear of his preference for penis, I couldn’t drop my shorts and ask if he wanted a taste of mine.
I wanted him and that want was infinitely greater than sexual desire. I wanted to fuck him straight through the summer but I also wanted to wrap my arms around him and never let go.
I’d never experienced sex like this before. There was the insanely good fucking component but that wasn’t the whole story. It was the feeling of it all. The emotion behind every thrust, the intention in every kiss, the promise in every breath we shared. This kind of sex was an affirmation, and an ever-growing part of me knew I could scavenge the earth and not find anything else like it. Like him.
He was everything to me, and I was dying to be everything to him.



"Boom. Just fucking boom went my heart."I wish I knew how to put gifs in my reviews because there would be a lot of *heart eyes* and *oh yeahs* and *happy sighs* as well as a boatload of *sexy bears* getting it on.
Don't make me gag you," I said, then thought better of it. "Unless you'd like that." "No, I wouldn't," he said. "But if you don't suck my dick right now, I'm gonna think you don't know how to."I have never heard of this author before but if they write more MM I'm on board. The writing was engaging, funny, and thoughtful. The pacing and plot was spot on. There's no added drama because the story just doesn't need it, and the few supporting characters we see around the small cove, as well as Cole's assistant we only meet in texts, are just the cherry on top.
"...You're fuckin' internet royalty." "That's an exaggeration." Frowning, he folded his arms over his chest. "I'm not internet royalty." "The fuck you aren't," I cried. "Royalty suggests power by bloodline." He shrugged. "I wasn't born into this. I'm more of an alchemist." "Oh, my God, Cole," I shouted. "Shut the hell up."
Even in the darkness I could make out a rosy flush across his sharp cheekbones. I wanted to tell him he was beautiful and goofy and erotic, all at once. I wanted to watch the way my words affected him. I wanted him to give me his words, and I wanted them to come from the same confusing places as mine.
[talking about fireflies]"They're flashing us their happy little dick pics," Cole said. "This is just a whole lot of dick announcing I'm down to f**k."
"We're basically watching a glow-worm orgy," I said.
"I know," he whispered. "It's awesome until you really think about it."

If there was one think I'd learned since Cole drifted into my life it was that we mattered more than I.
Boom. Just fucking boom went my heart.
I'd never experienced sex like this before......It was the feeling of it all. The emotion behind every thrust, the intention in every kiss, the promise in every breathe we shared.
I always wanted him wrapped around me, and I knew talk of my other life wouldn't give me that. I knew it would come between us because it came between me and everything.
His walls might be tall but I wasn't afraid of the climb.
Cole: You knew? All this time, you knew where I was and you didn't come and find me?
Neera: You didn't want me to find you.
Neera: I believe you were busy finding yourself