Christian fiction. Story of a modern prodigal son, Dr Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. Supposedly everyone has a dark side?
Toren, kicked out of the NFL for his rages and anger. That was his work outlet. Now that he’s no longer playing football, it surfaces in the home. His wife, two lovely children. He’s a mean man. Intimidating. A yeller. The family is scared stiff of his rages. He can’t control himself and after the fact, I’m sorry, I’m sorry. This man has a lot of previous abusive history/ programming from his growing up years. A father who drank heavily, beat him and his younger brother and slapped around the mother, who made excuses for him/them. The day comes where Toren is older, has been working out and is bigger and stronger now, challenges his father to a fight after his father was caught slapping the wife around. Toren now becomes power crazy. He’s beat up his old man. Well, at least that stopped the father from being further abusive (at least with his hands but not his mouth). Good grief.
There’s religious messaging here but this guy just doesn’t get it. Through some miraculous intervention, he disappears for 8 months, has an amnesia of those 8 months, everyone thinks he’s offed himself due to a suicide note written in his handwriting and his “special blue writing marker.” He awakens in a remote hotel room 8 mos later, confused, trying to figure out what’s happened and is trying to collect his memories back and immediately wants to go return to his life/wife, etc; he was warned by whomever or whatever took him out for those 8 months that it is not the thing to do. Get to know himself first. But no, he’s impulsive, he’s confused...and he’s still mad. Who did this to him? Why? His family is not at all happy to see him. Why should they be? They actually felt relief when he was presumed dead. Life goes on without Toren and it’s a peaceful, happy life.
So this was weird - I’m thinking to myself, who abducted him, did they do some kind of brain rewiring on him, was this some neurological research center? Gaaah! Aliens? Some spiritual leader tucked away in the remote mountains in another part of the world? Illegal mind body experimentation? Some kind of cult?
It just made absolutely no sense to me and this guy, Toren, really made me angry (so now I’m the one getting angry about the story - what’s wrong with this picture?)because he kept being a complete stupid ass and he kept falling back into his old ways and he kept stalking his wife and trying to get back together with her but she was not trusting of him. Do you blame her? She basically said she’s moved on. She has a boyfriend she loves. A new life. Life is good for her and the kids without this psychopath. True to form, Toren got extremely angry hearing this. He was a jerk in his actions and words, and acted overly masochistic to everyone. A Tough guy; a real brute and he just did not get it. He would say he was sorry but he did not have the true compassion in his soul for love, forgiveness. Anything really, could and would set him off. So the madness continues. And the manipulation of people and circumstances around him continues, to suit only his needs and expectations. He’s a bully.
Toren had to be forced to go through some additional spiritual insight and experiences which I still lack clarity in what that all was explained in the book. There were actual people behind these spiritual scenes that were all involved in his soul change and redemption. Was it divine, cult, spiritual or mystical or all of the above? 🤔 what is the white octagon?
What gets me is all this lying, all this continual built up, provocated or not provocated rage and anger, and at the end, there is a possibility that everything perhaps might be lovely and everything might be ok? That he may have found his soul, saw the Light and he just might get a chance at being a new man? A good man? A changed man?
Toren’s journey was quite drawn out; the end of the story came upon very quickly and was really not what I was expecting. Do you believe or do you not believe? Do you forgive with your heart and soul or do you not? Can you contain your inner rage or will it seep out occasionally?
Can you fully trust again? Can you fully love again? Is it possible to fully change without divine, spiritual or mystical intervention? In your head and in your heart and soul, too?I certainly didn’t go for it. I think Toren’s journey was far too easy and too quick to get full redemption. His wife’s character was a disappointingly weak woman.
Personally, this book was not for me though others have rated this book at high stars. What drew me in to get this book, was Toren’s 8 month abduction and amnesia and then it all went downhill from there. The story turned into waaaaaaay something else other than what I thought or wanted it to be.