I paid a bunch of money for this book because as a 5th year NYC public middle school teacher, I was starting to feel overwhelmed and drained in a way that didn't feel like "burnout." I love teaching. I was inspired to become a teacher because I had amazing teachers growing up who helped me grow not only as a learner, but as a person. Before becoming a teacher, I spent four years working as a teaching assistant in another NYC public elementary school. I hold a couple of leadership roles in my current school, and I thought this book might help me deal with my own feelings of being demoralized, and perhaps provide some advice on how to avoid demoralizing others in the profession. Although I found a few pieces here and there relatable and helpful (ex: the lists at the end of each chapter), I was overall a bit disappointed, and in some places very concerned by the voices elevated in this book.
Don't get me wrong - I have a lot of respect for experienced teachers. I do not mean to come off as knowing more, or being better than, any individual represented in this book. I am opposed to the insane amount of standardized testing students are put through (I don't think standardized tests should exist at all for elementary level students). I did, however, read parts of this book as venting sessions for teachers who have been in the game a long time and are resistant to new ideas (even ones that may ultimately be helpful). This book tried REALLY hard to avoid this interpretation, and yet I couldn't help but see it in this way. So many of the teachers represented felt "demoralized" because they were being told to use assessments and data in their classrooms. In some cases, teachers felt they were testing more than necessary, but others seemed to take issue with the concept of assessment as a whole. The one statement that resonated with me is this one, from a teacher of 16 years (who had a career in business before becoming a teacher):
"Patty's very excited about the depth that she can go into subjects on account of the Common Core. She appreciates the kind of feedback that she receives from the computer-based assessments. 'They're making me a better teacher, it's helped me identify [student needs] better. You have to enter all that data in, so it's a lot of work, but it's very valuable.' She is not sure that all of the scanning she needs to complete in order to submit artifacts for her teacher evaluations is making her a better teacher, however. Patty has yet to see the value in entering all the data for RTI plans and biweekly assessments into the computer, but she believes the targeted instruction helps the students, so she is happy to do it."
Another thing I struggled with is the book's repetition...I get it, being demoralized is different from burning out.
Finally, there is one teacher voice in this book that stands out to me as being particularly problematic. Now, I do not mean to lump all of the teachers together because of this one voice. However, I think choosing to highlight this particular concept without being extremely critical of what's been said taints the rest of the book. If this is the person chosen to be given a platform to speak (seemingly without pushback), how can I trust the rest of the voices selected? The section begins by describing this particular school as being in "an elite suburb of a major city in the Mid-Atlantic...It is easy for Monica to provide a list of the district's privileges, for students and for teachers... However, the district has also been challenged to ensure equity for all students, having been scrutinized as a result of a lawsuit in which families of lower-income black students alleged discrimination in accessing all educational programs." Red flags are popping up for me as I read this, and I'm thinking the teacher may go on to list issues of discrimination she saw in the school. However, the section continues:
Where the program teachers once were able to select interested students, that discretion was removed in the interest of racial and socioeconomic equity. Monica worried that not being able to be selective in enrollment could lead to students who were less invested in the program."
Monica is identified in the book as a white teacher. When I read this, I am hearing the voice of someone who, best case scenario, has not thought critically about her own white privilege. Worried about weeding out kids who are "less invested"???? All kids want to do well. All kids deserve the chance to participate in honors programs. If this teacher feels some kids are "less invested," perhaps she should consider WHY some students, specifically black low-income students, might be less enthusiastic about being in the program. I would be willing to bet issues of feeling excluded, stereotyped, and flat out racist acts contribute to some students being "less invested." The school has already been called out via a lawsuit for being discriminatory, and here we have a teacher pushing back on initiatives taken to better support the school's black students.
It gets worse. The teacher goes on to discuss behavioral issues in one of her classes, specifically when she was called into her principal's office about an accusation that she had physically harmed a student. This student happened to be black, and she recalls this student having a number of behavioral issues in her classroom. She states:
"Oh my God! There was a time in class where I was so frustrated that he was refusing to pay attention and he was such a distraction to everyone else. I put my hand on his chin and I moved his head to be facing in the right direction."
Okay. I 100% understand being frustrated by behavioral issues, and I also understand that sometimes administration is not as supportive as we would like (Monica mentions that earlier in the year she had reached out to her principal about the "toxic" combination of students in her classroom and she received no help). I also admit that I have physically interacted with students when they are not giving their full attention to the assignment - I will often gently tap students on the shoulder to refocus their attention. HOWEVER, I ONLY do this with students I have positive relationships with. I would NEVER touch a student in ANY way (no matter how gently) if I did not have a good relationship with that kid. I would also never touch a student's FACE - even if it was gentle, even if I had a wonderful relationship with them. I can not imagine how disrespected I would feel if someone, especially someone I was not fond of, grabbed my face in an attempt to get me to comply to their rules. This action is totally inappropriate, and I have no sympathy for this teacher who felt "demoralized" because her principal called her out on this behavior. Was her intent to physically hurt a kid? I'm sure it wasn't. Was she in the wrong and deserving of some kind of reprimand? I would say so. I'm also sure there's more that could be said and unpacked about how this teacher seems resistant to racially inclusive initiatives and then highlights a major conflict in her career as being between herself and a black child. That wasn't explored at all in this book.
So, to conclude the longest GoodReads review I have ever written, I overall would not recommend this book. Although I admire the author's dedication to studying this subject (over ten years I believe?), the voices are a bit whiny, repetitive, and problematic. I did find the recommendations/actions steps at the end of each chapter to be useful, especially for chapter six (School Leaders), and I will continue to consider how feeling demoralized might come into play in my own career.