──⟡⋆˙✩ 4 stars ✩ ⋆˙⟡──
I watched the anime and didn’t plan to dive into the light novels so soon, but here we are. Perks of being a mood reader, I suppose!
˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Maomao is such a delightful protagonist. Withdrawn and reticent by nature, she’s a woman of few words who prefers to observe in silence. She rarely displays emotion—her face remains impassive even if a tempest brews in her heart. Her nonchalant attitude completely stole my heart. With insatiable curiosity, Maomao has become exceptionally well-versed in the art of poisons—so much so that she often tests them on herself. She’s the very definition of a mad scientist, going as far as inflicting burns on herself to assess her medicines’ efficacy.
Brownie points for dedication...?
˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ The setting, inspired by ancient China, carries its fair share of infuriating sexism. Through Maomao’s nonjudgmental eyes, we glimpse the injustices endured by the women of the inner palace, uncovering complex schemes and relationships. Despite being vastly different from most of the women she interacts with (burning herself and eating poison, for one), Maomao neither judges nor shames them. Instead, she observes their circumstances, reflects on their difficult choices, and helps however she can within the confines of her powerless role as a servant girl.
Though not warm or outwardly expressive, Maomao has a soft heart and a deep sense of justice. She’s pragmatic—she won’t endanger herself recklessly—but she does what she can to ease others’ burdens, offering mercy when possible, withholding information that might cause harm, and treading carefully in a world where missteps are often fatal.
I could talk about Maomao for days honestly, but now let’s move on to Jinshi, the male lead.
˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Jinshi is described as an ethereal, heavenly beauty with a honeyed voice and a saccharine smile. While Maomao is plain by comparison, Jinshi captivates nearly everyone he meets—his beauty is a weapon he wields skillfully. One smile can leave women of all ages flustered, though his pretty privilege sometimes leaves him feeling empty. So, of course, when Maomao—a poker-faced apothecary—appears immune to his charms (she looks at him as if he’s a worm, no less), he is utterly fascinated. For every nasty look she shoots him, a flower of love blooms somewhere among his braincells and a butterfly takes flight in his stomach. And yes, her indifference is genuine.
˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Despite their amusing dynamic, Maomao is acutely aware of the power imbalance between them. Jinshi is of much higher status, and she knows her survival hinges on obeying his orders. In one poignant scene, she asks him:
“If I were to offend a noble someday, and you were tasked with my execution, could you use poison to do it?”
Jinshi is unsettled, realizing that while he enjoys being around her, she views their relationship in starkly practical terms. To her, the reality of his authority—his ability to end her life on a whim—overshadows any personal connection. It’s a sobering reminder of the societal divide that keeps her at a distance, unable to fully trust or open up to him. And let me tell you, he's tortured by it, especially once he starts getting feelings.
That said, I’m eager to see how their relationship evolves from here!