I think the easiest way to start this review is to say I loved everything about this book. I was a little worried going into it as I really enjoyed We Used to Be Kings by Stewart Foster, which I believe is an adult book, and was worried that maybe I wouldn't enjoy this one as much. But I did. Perhaps even more than We Used to Be Kings.
It was a completely heartbreaking book for the most part since it was difficult to read about Alex and his struggles with OCD and the bullying. Thankfully, I've never really been bullied, not like Alex, but there so was something so painfully real about the way it was written.
I really loved both Alex and Dan, despite Dan being the bully. Don't get me wrong, I did find myself getting rather angry at what he was doing, but because it's told from the Bully's perspective as well as the victim, you really get an insight into what's going on in his life, which made me feel conflicted about Dan, in a good way, since one second I would be so angry at him and everything he's doing to Alex, and the next I would be feeling sorry for him. But Dan really does grow as a character and it's probably one of my new favourite character growths I've read about.
And Alex, poor little Alex, bless him. You really get a sense of his struggles and being able to access the thoughts in his head was so important which is why it's such a good book to have included both the victim's and the bully's perspective.
The actual plot line of Alex helping Dan with the raft took about one third of the book to get to, however, I really felt like that first third really helped to build the characters up and their relationships with each other, and show the extent of the bullying before diving in to Alex helping with the raft. It was definitely not boring in any way and I think it was rather important it was done this way.
This book is set in year seven so the characters are on the younger side, but I feel like this book can be appreciated by all ages. It does mention Game of Thrones in at one point, nothing in depth, but simply stating the TV show, and personally, I'm not sure I would have really known too much about adult TV shows when I was that age (though I could be wrong), which I'm presuming is the target audience (though I could be completely wrong here as well), but now, slightly older than what I presume is the target audience I feel like that mention really added to the characters and who they are, which is why I feel it can be appreciated by older readers.
I feel this is the right time to mention this book had so many references. One that really stood out to me was the Horrible Histories reference, which I fully appreciated. I'm not a huge fan of Star Wars, but if you are then, you 're in for a treat, since this book is practical filled with Stars Wars (though not to an extent where it's boring to those who don't like Star Wars. I didn't necessarily understand some parts of it, but it didn't drag on, if you get what I mean) since Alex (and Dan) are Stars Wars fans.
One thing I really liked about this book was how it portrayed the bullying, and how one can feel like their trapped. Of course, if you're being bullied, you should tell someone, but this book really shows how it's not as easy as it seems, and that simply saying those words and trying to get help sometimes doesn't feel possible, which is another reason it was so hard to read in that sense. You really want Alex to get the help and you watch him struggle with it, but he just can't do it.
Another thing I really liked was how Dan was being influenced by another person to bully Alex. It just shows that bullying someone can be a type of peer pressure. I'd never really thought about it that way before since I think I'm always thinking more about the victims experience, but there's definitely the bully's side to the story too. I mean, I've always known that a bully often has their own problems in their life, but as a peer pressure as well, it's just something I've never thought of that much.
It also shows how hard it is to step in and stop someone else being bullied. I won't go into too much depth here, but there were several occasions where Alex could have stepped in to help someone else from the bullying, but because you were inside Alex's head, you really got the sense of how it isn't that easy. It just feels like there was so many different factors to this bullying and they were all so well rounded up, like everything slotted together so well.
I really loved how this book ended. I'm not going to say too much here, other than I was satisfied.
So, would I recommend?
Yes, for sure. There was something so special about this book, and while it was painful to read, everything Foster wrote worked so well.