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218 pages, ebook
First published February 8, 2018
Vira was one hundred percent against relationships. She’d had a boyfriend when I met her, but she insisted on it being an open relationship. The guy had been fine with it at first, but once he realized how amazing Vira was, he pushed for more, and that had been the point that she walked away.
When Vira was shot at a nightclub, I took her home and did my best to care for her, but even then, she didn’t want me helping her. So here I was, a year and a half later, still pining away for a woman that would never give me what I wanted.
That was one of the things that made our relationship so difficult. If I decided to move on, I would still see her at get togethers.
“I don’t have to be at work until ten. I can hang out-” “Sean, don’t do this. You know the rules. If you keep pulling this shit, we can’t sleep together anymore.”
“I’m tired of just being your fuck buddy. You know I want more, so you’re going to have to give me something if you want this to continue. I’m not asking for all of you, just give me something.” “I can’t.”
“What changed is that I’m not going to be the schmuck that waits around for you anymore. I can’t. It’s been a year and a half and I can’t get any more from you than a quick lay and a night at the club. You don’t even share normal details of your life with me.”
“This isn’t about me not getting my way. This is about me finally seeing that you are a selfish person that doesn’t care about anyone but herself. You may think you care about others, and up until a few minutes ago, I thought you did too. But now I see that you just don’t have it in you to truly care about how your actions affect others.”
I had yet to find a woman that liked the kinky shit that Vira and I did together.
I was ready for someone to be mine, and that was something I would never get with Vira. She slept with other men over the last year and half and I just couldn’t take it anymore.
Apparently, Sean and Vira, the beautiful woman he walked out with, were having a sexual relationship. Now I knew that no matter if I had accepted a drink invitation from him or not, there would never be any way things would go further with us. Sean was obviously a man whore and there was no way I could ever be involved with someone that treated sex so casually.
My breathing slowed and I finally opened my eyes, disappointed to see Frank and not the man I truly wanted.
“Sorry, Frank. I don’t do dates and I don’t sleep with anyone more than once, but thanks for the release.”
“Vira, you know I love you, but you have to stop this. He’s loves you and you’re stringing him along.”
“Then you should do the right thing and stop seeing him. He deserves to find someone who wants the same things as him and as long as you’re in the picture, he will always want you. It makes it impossible for him to move on.”
Then I thought of Vira and how simple things were between us for the most part. I got everything I needed sexually with her, but she kept me at a distance, never wanting to share herself with me.
“Vira. I thought we both agreed this was over?”
This was my chance. I needed to reign Sean back in. He was trying to walk away from our arrangement and I couldn’t let that happen.
Two hours later, Sean had me panting on the dance floor. Not from dancing, but from the way he was running his hands over my body and whispering in my ear all the dirty things he wanted to do to me later.
“Here we go with this shit again. Vira, I tried staying away from you for two months. Neither of us was happy and you know it.”
“Yeah, I did, but then you showed up on my doorstep. This can’t happen anymore. I need to stay away from you so I can move on.”
“I won’t come back to you because you’re a selfish bitch.” “I believe you said that last time also.”
While I liked hanging out with Lillian and I was extremely attracted to her, I wasn’t sure I could hold out for her. I still craved Vira and even though I had told her we were over, if she just came to me and offered more of herself, I would be with her in an instant.
“Vira. What are you doing here? We’re over. You shouldn’t be here.”
There was no denying my attraction for her. I was getting hard just looking at her and it had been too long since I had touched her.
“Well, it’s not everything I want to know, but it’s a start. Are you sure you want to do this? There’s no turning back from here. Once you’re mine, I’m not giving you up.”
“Sean, fuck me. You know how I like it, so give me what I want.” “Anna-” I flinched at the name.
“You are so damn sexy. I tried to push you out of my head, but you were always there. You were under my skin from the moment I met you and I don’t think there’s any way I could ever work you out of my system.”
“I love you, Vira. I’ve been waiting for you for so long.”
“I offered Sean more and then he made love to me and told me he loved me and I ran.” “You did what?” I heard from the doorway. I turned to see Logan standing in the doorway with his arms crossed over his chest. He looked pissed.
As mad as I was at myself, I was even more pissed at her that she would come here and offer something only to run away. I told her she would be mine and she didn’t tell me no. I had to be done with this.
“Sean. Please, just tell me the truth.” “Yes, I slept with her.”
“I don’t understand. Did you ask me to come here so that I would see her leave? Did you plan this?” “No. I swear I didn’t. It was all a horrible mistake.”
“The reason I kept going back to Vira was because I loved her, or at least I thought I did.”
“Why would you date me if you were in love with another woman?” “I wanted Vira, but she kept pushing me away. Then I met you and you were just so much different. You were open with me and I was attracted to you. I wanted to know more about you. I didn’t think about Vira at all when I was with you.”
“But you still slept with her when you were dating me. All it took was her coming over here for you to decide I wasn’t worth it.”
“Well, I hope you two will be happy together.” “You don’t understand. I told her I loved her and she ran. I don’t think she would ever accept what I wanted to offer her. It’s over.” “How can you be sure?”
“That may be, but you also destroyed whatever was happening between us.”
“Do you honestly think a few dates will make it up to me? You chose a woman who used you as a play thing over a woman that wanted to build something honest with you.”
I feel sorry for you that she messed with you and treated you like you were worthless.”
“I was dating a good woman and we were doing well, but then you walked back into my life and pretended like you wanted something-” “I did-” I held up a hand to stop her. “You played me again. I told you that if you and I got back together, you would be mine. You didn’t deny it. You didn’t tell me no. Then you ran out of here and left me.
“Vira and I are over.” “Yeah, I’ve heard that before.”
“How do you know? When we were out together, he seemed to really like you,” Harper said “And yet he slept with another woman.” “Touche.”
“How can you want me back? You just told Vira you loved her and now you suddenly want to be with me. I don’t understand it.”