I don't even know where to start with this. What a doozy of a book. I was ready to DNF at the halfway point, I was just done. I continued my hate-read to see how the train wreck ended. Little did I know it's part of a series......I don't think a book has pissed me off this bad in a while.
So yay for ranty incoming review.
Again, I feel like I need a header here to say I am not against forbidden romances. Emphasis on the ROMANCE because I searched this whole damn book and found zero. If you're going to tell a story that will test the readers morals and hard limits of what is acceptable, then you have to give more than clandestine sex between a man who knows better and an impressionable child living away from home on her own and using the flimsy excuse "I couldn't help myself" Yeah, buster, that doesn't wash with me. There has to be some hook to this forbidden story otherwise, as this was the case for me, it just left me cringing throughout.
My skin was crawling for this gross story. A 32 yr old coach seducing his 15 yr old gymnast. Sure, it was consensual in the fact she said yes, but hello, 15. They had sex when she was 16, but did other things before that. I was uncomfortable throughout, both of them are unlikable, she is arrogant and pushy and doesn't talk/think like a child, but then has to be told not to call it a penis. Like either have her childlike or a raving nympho, she can't be both. I couldn't care less what happens to either of them.
I've read lots of age-gap romances, loved some ( looking at you, Original Sinners ) hated others, but at the crux of any of those stories is love. When you have a hero who talks the way Kova does, who actively has a gf throughout ( I hate OW/OM ) and shoves his exploits with the gf in the heroines face, that to me is not romance and instantly a turn off. He didn't come across as he liked this girl, other than lusting after her, he was constantly ridiculing and talking down to her.
Kova was just a dickhead, plain and simple, and an un-redeeming one at that. I like asshole characters, give me them all, but this guy, besides his penchant for a young girl and blaming it on her that he can't control himself ( major eye roll ) he was just not nice, I hated everything, down to the way he spoke.
“I did no such thing, it was all you. You pursued me every chance you got and you know it. A man can only take so much before he loses his fucking mind and caves.” THIS is the hero. How can you not fall in love with that. *sarcasm much implied*
- I didn't feel any chemistry from either character at all, I might have got on board a connection/friendship from them and then something sexual to happen once she was over 18, but there was nothing to hold onto. It was just a lusty pervert wanting his cake and eating it. He stayed with his gf throughout the book, actively told the h he was fucking his gf and thinking of her because he couldn't have her. I mean really, is this what romance heroes are now??? #Toolbag
- She has to take the morning after pill TWICE. Naturally this dude can't control himself or provide condoms for his underage sexing.
- He pulls her from a competition through jealousy over a teenage boy he thinks h is dating ( she's not ) and she in turns tells H if he doesn't let her compete she'll blab about their relationship and everyone will think it was rape.
"And everyone believes a girl who cries rape.” *sighs hard enough to suck up the sun* I just can't with this heroine and this stupid af line.
But the shit doesn't end there. Here's some stellar lines I rolled my eyes hard at;
“Does it make me a pervert for wanting you so desperately?”
“No,” I responded immediately. Because it didn’t.
“Good, because if it did, well, I would not give a fuck. I want you.” --- he has the morals of a perverted alleycat.
“Why do you do this to me, Adrianna,” he said huskily. “Why do you make me want you so bad? You make me want you in ways that should make me ashamed.”
what they do not teach us is it is not always the coach who seduces the athlete. That sometimes, maybe sometimes, it is the other way around.”
“You think I seduced you,” I stated plainly. “Because at fifteen I knew what I was doing with an older man, so I set out to get you.”
“If you want to do what Katja does, you are going to have to suck harder. She loves sucking my cock.” --- Taunted her with the gf. I think I need all my heroes to be exactly like this guy from now on.....
I got so distracted in the actual forbidden/ick relationship that most of the storyline got skimmed, it was too long, and unnecessary, frankly boring in many places. I don't think I needed a blow by blow account of h inspecting her vagina and finding it torn and then more details of every time she needed to pee and how it stung. It's like every unappealing detail you could NOT want in a romance book is thrown in there, and that's on top of every single word of gymnastics every spoken ever in the world. I'm now a gymnast expert, I'm thinking of trying out for the next Olympics, I just need some chalk and Vaseline.
And the injuries this girl had, how is she not dead? And I'm going to have to be the one to say it; she's not all that good at gymnastics. I didn't see her excel in anything, so she's only at that training camp for two reasons; daddy's money and the pervert coach wanting to diddle her.
I'm not trying to ridicule someone's hard work, but ugh, my thoughts on this book were too strong to hold in and not review, I would have burst like confetti.
This didn't work for me on many wrong levels, it's my own fault for getting caught up in book hype, I just can't resist, lesson learned.
I shan't be reading the following book.