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Killer. Criminal. Sociopath.
All of these words have been used to describe me, and for the longest time I believed that that’s all I was.
I’m the man you call in to clean up your mess, assuming your mess is a guy who needs a bullet to the head. I’m the man the MC calls when they want their dirty work done.
I’m the man who doesn’t feel.
Until now.
Until her.
Now my mess is a woman who won’t save herself. I’ll fight like hell to save her, but at what price to the club? And at what cost to me?
Warning: TANK contains graphic violence, profanity, drug use, and explicit sexual situations that may be a trigger and cause some readers emotional discomfort. Intended for an 18+ audience only. Not intended for pussies.
All of these words have been used to describe me, and for the longest time I believed that that’s all I was.
I’m the man you call in to clean up your mess, assuming your mess is a guy who needs a bullet to the head. I’m the man the MC calls when they want their dirty work done.
I’m the man who doesn’t feel.
Until now.
Until her.
Now my mess is a woman who won’t save herself. I’ll fight like hell to save her, but at what price to the club? And at what cost to me?
Warning: TANK contains graphic violence, profanity, drug use, and explicit sexual situations that may be a trigger and cause some readers emotional discomfort. Intended for an 18+ audience only. Not intended for pussies.
315 pages, Kindle Edition
First published September 24, 2015
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Carmen Jenner
48 books3,098 followersCarmen Jenner is a USA Today and international bestselling author.
A hardcore red lipstick addict and a romantic at heart, Carmen enjoys books—duh!—long walks through Sephora, tattooed boys, and eyeliner so sharp it could kill a man. She lives in small-town, Australia, where she wrangles her two children, a French Bulldog named Busy, her Jungle Jag Python named Bunny, and her very own manchild.
Carmen always gives her characters the HEA they deserve, but not before ruining their lives completely first … because what’s a happily ever after without a little torture?
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Carmen always gives her characters the HEA they deserve, but not before ruining their lives completely first … because what’s a happily ever after without a little torture?
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February 13, 2016
4- 4.5 Stars!!
After reading “Kick” the first installment in the series I was more than eager to read Tank’s story, because honestly I found his character more intriguing than almost any other character I’ve met so far in this series. This second installment is as dark, gritty and f@cked-up as the first. Needless to say I enjoyed it very much. What was different from the first installment was the emotional aspect.
Ivy (character we’ve met in the previous book in the series) has been the club whore for almost four years. She agreed to be one for protection. She’s a drug addict and she will do anything to have a little more. She was always like that, just a simple junkie willing to whore herself for the next fix, forced in the beginning and then willingly. Drugs make her forget the pain, the monster who still visits her at night in her nightmares, the past. She’s broken, but maybe not broken beyond repair like she believes she is.
She whores herself to forget. She likes to be hurt, treated like the whore she thinks she is, she likes to be insulted, used and abused, because she thinks she’s not worthy.
Tank is the hitman for Savage Saints MC. He kills without remorse, he’s dangerous and yet he wants to help the woman he loves so much. He knows Ivy longer than hiss club brothers, but he doesn’t know her story, at least not the entire story. He wants to save Ivy for everyone who wants to harm her and he wants to save her from herself.
Oh my…what a fantabulous read! Gripping, intense, action-packed and so heartbreaking at times. Exactly what I wanted! This one was really hard to read at times. Everything is f@cked-up in this story and I enjoyed every minute of it. Tank was such a great hero. In some way he truly was a HERO. He’s a killer without a conscience, but he’s a man who loves his woman with all his heart. And let me tell you, his love is all-consuming, palpable and it felt so damn real.
Tank’s character was fantastically portrayed. Despite the fact that he’s what he is, you will fall for him fast and hard. He believes he’s like his father – heartless, but he has such a big heart. He’s so caring, sweet, and attentive with Ivy and his love and tenderness were so real and heartwarming. Not only he tries to help her and had been there for her in one way or another when she needed him, but he believes in her, which I loved tremendously. Mrs. Jenner did a great job with Ivy’s character. If you’ve read the first installment in the series, you already know she’s not the most likeable character. She’s broken and flawed, but here she was a great heroine. Her past broke my heart. I felt her pain, her fear, her despair and I wanted so badly for her to find the necessary strength to save herself.
The pace of the story was simply great and the writing as always was flawless.
All in all, “Tank” was a great addition to this series, gripping from the very beginning, an truly emotional rollercoaster that will blow your mind. I’m looking forward to read the third installment in the series - Jett's story, President of the Savage Saints MC. Can’t wait!
After reading “Kick” the first installment in the series I was more than eager to read Tank’s story, because honestly I found his character more intriguing than almost any other character I’ve met so far in this series. This second installment is as dark, gritty and f@cked-up as the first. Needless to say I enjoyed it very much. What was different from the first installment was the emotional aspect.
“Where are the faceless men of my dreams? The ones who slay beasts and dance in the ashes of the fallen? They’re not here. They’ll never come because they don’t exist.”
Ivy (character we’ve met in the previous book in the series) has been the club whore for almost four years. She agreed to be one for protection. She’s a drug addict and she will do anything to have a little more. She was always like that, just a simple junkie willing to whore herself for the next fix, forced in the beginning and then willingly. Drugs make her forget the pain, the monster who still visits her at night in her nightmares, the past. She’s broken, but maybe not broken beyond repair like she believes she is.
“…when those memories come creeping back in, I’m no longer whole. I’m no longer me. I’m just another victim…I’m just another little girl who was broken, who’s still broken. Who’ll always be broken.”
She whores herself to forget. She likes to be hurt, treated like the whore she thinks she is, she likes to be insulted, used and abused, because she thinks she’s not worthy.
“Let me be your drug. Let me help you forget.”
Tank is the hitman for Savage Saints MC. He kills without remorse, he’s dangerous and yet he wants to help the woman he loves so much. He knows Ivy longer than hiss club brothers, but he doesn’t know her story, at least not the entire story. He wants to save Ivy for everyone who wants to harm her and he wants to save her from herself.
Oh my…what a fantabulous read! Gripping, intense, action-packed and so heartbreaking at times. Exactly what I wanted! This one was really hard to read at times. Everything is f@cked-up in this story and I enjoyed every minute of it. Tank was such a great hero. In some way he truly was a HERO. He’s a killer without a conscience, but he’s a man who loves his woman with all his heart. And let me tell you, his love is all-consuming, palpable and it felt so damn real.
“No one has ever treated me like I’m the most important thing in their world, until now.
Until him. “
Tank’s character was fantastically portrayed. Despite the fact that he’s what he is, you will fall for him fast and hard. He believes he’s like his father – heartless, but he has such a big heart. He’s so caring, sweet, and attentive with Ivy and his love and tenderness were so real and heartwarming. Not only he tries to help her and had been there for her in one way or another when she needed him, but he believes in her, which I loved tremendously. Mrs. Jenner did a great job with Ivy’s character. If you’ve read the first installment in the series, you already know she’s not the most likeable character. She’s broken and flawed, but here she was a great heroine. Her past broke my heart. I felt her pain, her fear, her despair and I wanted so badly for her to find the necessary strength to save herself.
The pace of the story was simply great and the writing as always was flawless.
All in all, “Tank” was a great addition to this series, gripping from the very beginning, an truly emotional rollercoaster that will blow your mind. I’m looking forward to read the third installment in the series - Jett's story, President of the Savage Saints MC. Can’t wait!
September 18, 2015
5 Stars
After reading Kick, I already knew that Carmen's Savage Saints MC series was not for the faint of heart. Lucky for me I tend to lean towards those gritty, utterly fucked up reads. After reading her warning in Tank, I wish I can tell you that it prepared me for what was to come in this book. But here's the thing, nothing and I mean nothing could have prepared me for what this story did to me. NOTHING. If you think Kick was hard to read, think again, because Tank will break you. Have you ever read a book with your heart in your throat and your stomach in knots the entire time? I'm talking until the last fucking page here. This book owned me. It was devastatingly emotional, gritty as fuck, and harder to swallow than a shards of glass. This was undoubtedly the best MC book I have read all year. Period.
Admittedly I did not like Ivy when I first met her in Kick as his club whore. She was a strung out junkie and I found myself doubting how someone like that can be a heroine, much less deserve and balance out the intensity that is Tank. Wow oh wow, but I'll never doubt Carmen Jenner again. Not only did she pull that off, but she do flawlessly.
Ivy has been the Savage Saints club whore for as long as she's been there. She's the anything goes girl and the more you hurt her, the more she'll want you. Devastated at being cast aside by Kick, the man she believed herself in love with, she turns to the familiar numbness of drugs to make her forget.
Forget her pain, forget her present, and most definitely forget her past. Having lived through unimaginable horror at the hands of someone that should have protected her, she's a shell of the girl she once was and she doesn't see a road back to normal ever again. She's shattered and no one can help her pick up the pieces, especially the man that's determined to.
Tank is a man to be feared; a hitman for his MC, he's not afraid to get his hands dirty. He's also determined to be the hands that puts Ivy back together again, whether she wants it or not.
Tank was everything. Here you have a man that's a killer, but his love for this broken woman is a palpable thing. You feel it pulse with every one of his actions, words, and thoughts. It was heartbreakingly good. While Kick was more an MC read with a side of romance, I found Tank to be that perfect balance. It was still that gritty MC read but it was interwoven seamlessly into the romance. It's a story of pain and devastation, perseverance and strength. It was tragic and beautiful. But aside from anything else it was absolutely unputdownable.
It's not an easy read. Not even close. I felt this book on a visceral level and I still find myself unable to stop thinking about it days after finishing.
It was just that good.
This was without a doubt, Carmen Jenner's best book to date. The woman truly outdid herself with this incredible story. To take a heroine that's that broken and be able to solidify her strength with every page is no small feat. To be able to take a biker that deals in death but give him a heart of gold without taking anything away from his intensity is no small feat. To take a story that can gut you one minute and leave you a shattered mess, just to pick you up with a beautiful emotion the next is no small feat. To be able to give readers a truly gritty and violent world but without making it be gratuitously violent but just fit is no small feat. And yet Carmen managed to do all of it while captivating her readers with each devastating page. I won't lie, it was hard as fuck to read, but it just made it that much more beautiful to survive it at the end. I recommend this book for anyone that wants to experience a true MC read. One that will grab you by the throat and no let go until the end, and it's sure as fuck one you won't be forgetting any time soon. Bravo, Miss Jenner. Bra-fucking-vo.
ARC courtesy of author in exchange for an honest review
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That's the thing about the broken ones- they're never too far beyond repair, even though it might seem that way. They just need a little glue and the right pair of hands to stick 'em back together.
After reading Kick, I already knew that Carmen's Savage Saints MC series was not for the faint of heart. Lucky for me I tend to lean towards those gritty, utterly fucked up reads. After reading her warning in Tank, I wish I can tell you that it prepared me for what was to come in this book. But here's the thing, nothing and I mean nothing could have prepared me for what this story did to me. NOTHING. If you think Kick was hard to read, think again, because Tank will break you. Have you ever read a book with your heart in your throat and your stomach in knots the entire time? I'm talking until the last fucking page here. This book owned me. It was devastatingly emotional, gritty as fuck, and harder to swallow than a shards of glass. This was undoubtedly the best MC book I have read all year. Period.
Admittedly I did not like Ivy when I first met her in Kick as his club whore. She was a strung out junkie and I found myself doubting how someone like that can be a heroine, much less deserve and balance out the intensity that is Tank. Wow oh wow, but I'll never doubt Carmen Jenner again. Not only did she pull that off, but she do flawlessly.
Ivy has been the Savage Saints club whore for as long as she's been there. She's the anything goes girl and the more you hurt her, the more she'll want you. Devastated at being cast aside by Kick, the man she believed herself in love with, she turns to the familiar numbness of drugs to make her forget.
Forget her pain, forget her present, and most definitely forget her past. Having lived through unimaginable horror at the hands of someone that should have protected her, she's a shell of the girl she once was and she doesn't see a road back to normal ever again. She's shattered and no one can help her pick up the pieces, especially the man that's determined to.
Tank is a man to be feared; a hitman for his MC, he's not afraid to get his hands dirty. He's also determined to be the hands that puts Ivy back together again, whether she wants it or not.
Tank was everything. Here you have a man that's a killer, but his love for this broken woman is a palpable thing. You feel it pulse with every one of his actions, words, and thoughts. It was heartbreakingly good. While Kick was more an MC read with a side of romance, I found Tank to be that perfect balance. It was still that gritty MC read but it was interwoven seamlessly into the romance. It's a story of pain and devastation, perseverance and strength. It was tragic and beautiful. But aside from anything else it was absolutely unputdownable.
It's not an easy read. Not even close. I felt this book on a visceral level and I still find myself unable to stop thinking about it days after finishing.
It was just that good.
This was without a doubt, Carmen Jenner's best book to date. The woman truly outdid herself with this incredible story. To take a heroine that's that broken and be able to solidify her strength with every page is no small feat. To be able to take a biker that deals in death but give him a heart of gold without taking anything away from his intensity is no small feat. To take a story that can gut you one minute and leave you a shattered mess, just to pick you up with a beautiful emotion the next is no small feat. To be able to give readers a truly gritty and violent world but without making it be gratuitously violent but just fit is no small feat. And yet Carmen managed to do all of it while captivating her readers with each devastating page. I won't lie, it was hard as fuck to read, but it just made it that much more beautiful to survive it at the end. I recommend this book for anyone that wants to experience a true MC read. One that will grab you by the throat and no let go until the end, and it's sure as fuck one you won't be forgetting any time soon. Bravo, Miss Jenner. Bra-fucking-vo.
ARC courtesy of author in exchange for an honest review
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September 27, 2015
"Let me be your cocaine."
Readers of book one will remember Ivy, she’s the messed up club whore who had it bad for boy Kick. Through book one, we find that Tank has a real soft spot for the drug addicted, gorgeous Ivy. Tank takes her to his home to let her detox and among his club pals he has claimed her for his own.
”So why do I find it so fucking hard to tell her that I want to be the one to save her? Why can’t I tell her that she’s my weakness?
Still, Tank finds it hard to tell Ivy his true feelings since she has only ever saw him as another body to sleep with for drugs. Ivy stayed true to her character and her fall for Tank was well paced as was her slip ups and the impending visit from her Daddy. That guy's one scary SOB!!
Tank not only helps Ivy get clean but he teaches her that sex doesn’t have to hurt.
” It doesn’t have to hurt to feel good, darlin’,” I whispered in her ear.”
Carmen Jenner delivered another intense read with my only wish that she would have incorporated Ivy and Kick having some sort of talk, I think Kick owed her at least that much (Especially now that she will be his best friend’s girl.) Nevertheless, this series is onto a great start and I’m excited at the possibility that a love triangle may occur in book three!!
"No one has ever treated me like I'm the most important thing in their world, until now. Until him."
Readers of book one will remember Ivy, she’s the messed up club whore who had it bad for boy Kick. Through book one, we find that Tank has a real soft spot for the drug addicted, gorgeous Ivy. Tank takes her to his home to let her detox and among his club pals he has claimed her for his own.
”So why do I find it so fucking hard to tell her that I want to be the one to save her? Why can’t I tell her that she’s my weakness?
Still, Tank finds it hard to tell Ivy his true feelings since she has only ever saw him as another body to sleep with for drugs. Ivy stayed true to her character and her fall for Tank was well paced as was her slip ups and the impending visit from her Daddy. That guy's one scary SOB!!
Tank not only helps Ivy get clean but he teaches her that sex doesn’t have to hurt.
” It doesn’t have to hurt to feel good, darlin’,” I whispered in her ear.”
Carmen Jenner delivered another intense read with my only wish that she would have incorporated Ivy and Kick having some sort of talk, I think Kick owed her at least that much (Especially now that she will be his best friend’s girl.) Nevertheless, this series is onto a great start and I’m excited at the possibility that a love triangle may occur in book three!!
"No one has ever treated me like I'm the most important thing in their world, until now. Until him."
September 25, 2015
★★★★★ 5 Stars ★★★★★
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Wow, I was not expecting this book to be so emotional! I got some serious butterflies whilst reading and after the pure darkness of book 1 Kick, I was pleasantly surprised to learn that even though Tank was a beast of a man he had a huge beautiful heart buried deep,
And who would have thought that I would come to fall in love with club whore and resident junkie Ivy? She was a mystery I never thought I could unravel but once you get past her outer walls, she is a broken and insecure woman who just needs a little TLC and the courage to be strong, because deep down she is a survivor.
This story runs parallel to book 1, where the Prez of the Savage Saints Motorcycle Club has ordered Tank to take Ivy to his cabin to help her detox. Ivy is in love with Kick, but Kick has a new woman to worry about now and is happy for his club brother to take Ivy off his hands. Ivy is so angry at her situation, and lashes out at the person closest to her, Tank. He is determined to get her clean and has vowed to stop at nothing to achieve it.
Tank and Ivy have always had a different relationship than what she has with the other members of the MC, he's almost like her guardian angel. He is always looking out for her, even though she has never really noticed before. He too has a disturbing past, and so the pair of them have more in common than they initially thought.
This book is about two people coming together and giving each other the strength to fight for a life, and for a life without fear or torment.
A dark and gritty, often brutal and heartbreaking story, it will definitely test your limits. But with the darkness comes the light and I fell in love with these two characters a million times more than I though I would.
There really isn't much more I can say, other than to tell you that is was an amazing addition to this series. Not for the feint hearted that's for sure, but above all it was the perfect example of a dark romance and definitely turning out to be one of the best biker series out there.
This is book 2 in the series, and although it is about a different couple, it is not advised to be read as a standalone as there is an underlying storyline which runs parallel to one another. Told in dual POV.
ARC gratefully received from the author in exchange for an honest review
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Wow, I was not expecting this book to be so emotional! I got some serious butterflies whilst reading and after the pure darkness of book 1 Kick, I was pleasantly surprised to learn that even though Tank was a beast of a man he had a huge beautiful heart buried deep,
And who would have thought that I would come to fall in love with club whore and resident junkie Ivy? She was a mystery I never thought I could unravel but once you get past her outer walls, she is a broken and insecure woman who just needs a little TLC and the courage to be strong, because deep down she is a survivor.
This story runs parallel to book 1, where the Prez of the Savage Saints Motorcycle Club has ordered Tank to take Ivy to his cabin to help her detox. Ivy is in love with Kick, but Kick has a new woman to worry about now and is happy for his club brother to take Ivy off his hands. Ivy is so angry at her situation, and lashes out at the person closest to her, Tank. He is determined to get her clean and has vowed to stop at nothing to achieve it.
"You're in my house now, Warrior Princess, and I rule here."
Tank and Ivy have always had a different relationship than what she has with the other members of the MC, he's almost like her guardian angel. He is always looking out for her, even though she has never really noticed before. He too has a disturbing past, and so the pair of them have more in common than they initially thought.
This book is about two people coming together and giving each other the strength to fight for a life, and for a life without fear or torment.
A dark and gritty, often brutal and heartbreaking story, it will definitely test your limits. But with the darkness comes the light and I fell in love with these two characters a million times more than I though I would.
"I don't feel, because feeling is weakness.
Love is weakness.
I've seen what it does to you when you have it and lose it, and I've seen them monster it can make of men who want to take it from you."
There really isn't much more I can say, other than to tell you that is was an amazing addition to this series. Not for the feint hearted that's for sure, but above all it was the perfect example of a dark romance and definitely turning out to be one of the best biker series out there.
This is book 2 in the series, and although it is about a different couple, it is not advised to be read as a standalone as there is an underlying storyline which runs parallel to one another. Told in dual POV.
ARC gratefully received from the author in exchange for an honest review
September 24, 2015
Tank is a story of sacrifice, and redemption…and love’s power to heal which was broken.
That's the thing about the broken ones- they're never too far beyond repair, even though it might seem that way. They just need a little glue and the right pair of hands to stick 'em back together.
To love is to hurt.
No truer words have ever been spoken when it comes to Ivy and Tank's story. These two have been through more pain in one lifetime than they could ever think to handle. Yet, they endured.
One day I'll be big.
One day I'll hurt him. I'll squeeze the life right out of him and I'll laugh when he begs and pleads for me to stop. One day I'll be big enough to protect the people I love from the monster, and from men just like him.
Tank and his mother has endured years of violence under the wrath of his father and her husband. Yet, even after years of enduring violence. Beatings, rapes, and emotional and mental abuse. Tank's mother, still weeps over the dead body of her murdered husband.
Ivy is broken beyond repair. Growing up the victim of child molestation, by the one man who is supposed to protect her. Became the one man who broke her before anyone else was able to. Her father was supposed to love her unconditionally, but he became sadistic in his affections. Ivy was forced into drugs by her father, while he passed her over to other child molesters. Pictures, touches, bruises and track marks. Death, blood, and murder. This has been the life handed to Ivy since she was a child into adolescence.
Tank has been in love with Ivy since the first day he met her. Under a bridge, as a starving coke-head while she sucked his cock. For years he hand't seen her, and then one day she shows up at the club. Making a deal with the Prez, in order to get club protection. She became a club whore, never knowing she would love it as much as she did. She ended up falling in love with Tank's club brother, Kick. The club gave her protection, pleasure with pain, and drugs galore.
Ivy uses drugs as an escape from her horrendous past. She only associates pleasure with pain. Being passed around from brother to brother is the only way she knows to live. Learning how to survive with the life she has been given, becomes the breaking point for Tank. He can't sit idly by and see Ivy self destruct, until she ends up over dosing.
Kidnapping Ivy and taking her away to detox and rid herself of not only her drug problem, but her own demons. Teaching her to live with herself, proves futile. Ivy fights Tank every step of the way. Battling him along with her encroaching demons, takes it toll on Ivy as she continues to lash out daily. Not understanding why? Why would Tank, a bad ass, biker care about her.
Finally, Tank is fed up with trying to clean Ivy up, while she simultaneously attempts to escape and get drugs. With this new revelation, Ivy please to stay and she will clean her act up. Because if Tanks kicks her out, and the club and Kick doesn't want her. Then she has no protection and HE will find her. He always does.
One thing's for sure-she may not like it, but I'll break that girl of more than just her drug habit by the time I done with her. Because there's nothing that I love more than a girl who needs savin' and someone telling me I can't.
Ivy likes control. She pushes herself to the limit; she likes to be used up. She wants to be hurt, and we've all just been happy to go along with it, because that's the way she controls what happens to her- that's the way she deals with what that sick fuck of a father did to her, and how it affected her.
Tank decides to take a different approach. He takes it slow, and Ivy doesn't know how to deal with pleasure without pain. She only knows painful pleasure.
"It doesn't have to hurt to feel good, darlin'," I whisper into her ear. - Tank
"..tenderness hurts someone like me far worse than pain." "I'm a junkie, Tank. All I do is hurt myself." - Ivy
Ivy hates him even more because of his cruelty. How dare him pleasure her with such passion. The intensity of the orgasm shattered her. Shattered her image of pleasure. Slowly she started to break free of her metaphorical chains.
With Tank and Ivy dancing around each other, each slowly learning to work together, unleashing their desires, a threat to both Ivy and the club is lurking. Situating themselves until they can each strike and gain a strong hold. over both Ivy and the club.
Tank is the club's hit man. Any vulnerability would be used against him. He never wanted to admit or let anyone know his feelings for Ivy. Too afraid it would be used against him. But with Ivy's change of mind and trying to detox and turn her life around. It seems as if the impossible is becoming possible for Tank.
Tank and Ivy's story was extremely difficult to read. Especially Ivy's part. Carmen Jenner made me emotional with the opening remarks, and Ivy's story - the gut wrenching pain, the abuse, all the details- pained me so much. Tank's name was synonymous with the type of man he was. Built like a tank, strong and solid. The rock, need to anchor Ivy and chase away her demons. Though they will never be gone, Ivy had learnt how to live without her past haunting her. Affection and tenderness isn't bad, and sometimes a little pain with pleasure isn't bad at all. *Wink wink*
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I haven't given him my heart. Up until now, I've been too stupid to see what I had right in front of me, but the fact that this big, stoic, scary-as-fuck biker has given me his heart completely? Well, you can be damned sure I'm going to take care of it, because no one has ever trusted me with that before. No one has ever treated me like I'm the most important thing in their world, until now.
Until him.
That's the thing about the broken ones- they're never too far beyond repair, even though it might seem that way. They just need a little glue and the right pair of hands to stick 'em back together.
To love is to hurt.
No truer words have ever been spoken when it comes to Ivy and Tank's story. These two have been through more pain in one lifetime than they could ever think to handle. Yet, they endured.
One day I'll be big.
One day I'll hurt him. I'll squeeze the life right out of him and I'll laugh when he begs and pleads for me to stop. One day I'll be big enough to protect the people I love from the monster, and from men just like him.
Tank and his mother has endured years of violence under the wrath of his father and her husband. Yet, even after years of enduring violence. Beatings, rapes, and emotional and mental abuse. Tank's mother, still weeps over the dead body of her murdered husband.
Ivy is broken beyond repair. Growing up the victim of child molestation, by the one man who is supposed to protect her. Became the one man who broke her before anyone else was able to. Her father was supposed to love her unconditionally, but he became sadistic in his affections. Ivy was forced into drugs by her father, while he passed her over to other child molesters. Pictures, touches, bruises and track marks. Death, blood, and murder. This has been the life handed to Ivy since she was a child into adolescence.
Tank has been in love with Ivy since the first day he met her. Under a bridge, as a starving coke-head while she sucked his cock. For years he hand't seen her, and then one day she shows up at the club. Making a deal with the Prez, in order to get club protection. She became a club whore, never knowing she would love it as much as she did. She ended up falling in love with Tank's club brother, Kick. The club gave her protection, pleasure with pain, and drugs galore.
Ivy uses drugs as an escape from her horrendous past. She only associates pleasure with pain. Being passed around from brother to brother is the only way she knows to live. Learning how to survive with the life she has been given, becomes the breaking point for Tank. He can't sit idly by and see Ivy self destruct, until she ends up over dosing.
Kidnapping Ivy and taking her away to detox and rid herself of not only her drug problem, but her own demons. Teaching her to live with herself, proves futile. Ivy fights Tank every step of the way. Battling him along with her encroaching demons, takes it toll on Ivy as she continues to lash out daily. Not understanding why? Why would Tank, a bad ass, biker care about her.
Finally, Tank is fed up with trying to clean Ivy up, while she simultaneously attempts to escape and get drugs. With this new revelation, Ivy please to stay and she will clean her act up. Because if Tanks kicks her out, and the club and Kick doesn't want her. Then she has no protection and HE will find her. He always does.
One thing's for sure-she may not like it, but I'll break that girl of more than just her drug habit by the time I done with her. Because there's nothing that I love more than a girl who needs savin' and someone telling me I can't.
Ivy likes control. She pushes herself to the limit; she likes to be used up. She wants to be hurt, and we've all just been happy to go along with it, because that's the way she controls what happens to her- that's the way she deals with what that sick fuck of a father did to her, and how it affected her.
Tank decides to take a different approach. He takes it slow, and Ivy doesn't know how to deal with pleasure without pain. She only knows painful pleasure.
"It doesn't have to hurt to feel good, darlin'," I whisper into her ear. - Tank
"..tenderness hurts someone like me far worse than pain." "I'm a junkie, Tank. All I do is hurt myself." - Ivy
Ivy hates him even more because of his cruelty. How dare him pleasure her with such passion. The intensity of the orgasm shattered her. Shattered her image of pleasure. Slowly she started to break free of her metaphorical chains.
With Tank and Ivy dancing around each other, each slowly learning to work together, unleashing their desires, a threat to both Ivy and the club is lurking. Situating themselves until they can each strike and gain a strong hold. over both Ivy and the club.
Tank is the club's hit man. Any vulnerability would be used against him. He never wanted to admit or let anyone know his feelings for Ivy. Too afraid it would be used against him. But with Ivy's change of mind and trying to detox and turn her life around. It seems as if the impossible is becoming possible for Tank.
Tank and Ivy's story was extremely difficult to read. Especially Ivy's part. Carmen Jenner made me emotional with the opening remarks, and Ivy's story - the gut wrenching pain, the abuse, all the details- pained me so much. Tank's name was synonymous with the type of man he was. Built like a tank, strong and solid. The rock, need to anchor Ivy and chase away her demons. Though they will never be gone, Ivy had learnt how to live without her past haunting her. Affection and tenderness isn't bad, and sometimes a little pain with pleasure isn't bad at all. *Wink wink*
*ARC provided by Give Me Books Promotions on behalf of the author for an honest review* Thanks!!!!
I haven't given him my heart. Up until now, I've been too stupid to see what I had right in front of me, but the fact that this big, stoic, scary-as-fuck biker has given me his heart completely? Well, you can be damned sure I'm going to take care of it, because no one has ever trusted me with that before. No one has ever treated me like I'm the most important thing in their world, until now.
Until him.
October 5, 2015
5++ love is a liability stars
"I'm not a hero, I've never saved a life, but I saved my own, and that's enough. We're enough."
HOLY SHIT. After reading Kick (Savage Saints ), I thought to myself- "hmm there is NO WAY Carmen Jenner could top this book", along comes TANK,,,and I am completely BLOWN AWAY by it!
This book was AMAZING, HEARTBREAKING, SEXY, VIOLENT, COMPLETELY FUCKED UP && yet, omg I loved it.
If you have yet to check out the Savage Saints MC series, I suggest you do so, RIGHT NOW!
"I'm not a hero, I've never saved a life, but I saved my own, and that's enough. We're enough."
HOLY SHIT. After reading Kick (Savage Saints ), I thought to myself- "hmm there is NO WAY Carmen Jenner could top this book", along comes TANK,,,and I am completely BLOWN AWAY by it!
This book was AMAZING, HEARTBREAKING, SEXY, VIOLENT, COMPLETELY FUCKED UP && yet, omg I loved it.
If you have yet to check out the Savage Saints MC series, I suggest you do so, RIGHT NOW!
September 17, 2015
☆ I received an ARC via Give Me Books in exchange for an honest review. Thank you! ☆
Tank, much like Kick, is not for the faint of heart. Your limits will be pushed and your illusions of a knight in shining armor will be construed…a whole lot.
Tank will do anything for his club and his brothers. That includes being ruthless and being a cold blooded killer and lethal murderer.
Ivy is one of the club whores who is drowning in her old demons. With a heavy past filled with nothing but heartbreak and misery, she submits herself to the bleak succumbing that there is no light at the end of the tunnel for her.
That is, until, Tank comes along and gives her (and himself) another sense of reality and shot at life.
Both of these characters are very troubled and conflicted as each don’t come from humble abodes. They’re raw, gritty, tainted, and sometimes make irrational decisions; but somehow, this is how they form this irreparable bond that completes one another in an off seen way.
This book isn’t a walk in the park. It has graphic and unseemly situations that may turn your head and your moral compass.
I was definitely enthralled and taken aback by the no holds barred nature of it and the emotional integrity it invoked in it!! Riveting stuff, this Carmen Jenner creates in that crafty head of hers!!
So glad that this book did not ‘tank’ in my expectations of it!!
Tank, much like Kick, is not for the faint of heart. Your limits will be pushed and your illusions of a knight in shining armor will be construed…a whole lot.
Tank will do anything for his club and his brothers. That includes being ruthless and being a cold blooded killer and lethal murderer.
Ivy is one of the club whores who is drowning in her old demons. With a heavy past filled with nothing but heartbreak and misery, she submits herself to the bleak succumbing that there is no light at the end of the tunnel for her.
That is, until, Tank comes along and gives her (and himself) another sense of reality and shot at life.
Both of these characters are very troubled and conflicted as each don’t come from humble abodes. They’re raw, gritty, tainted, and sometimes make irrational decisions; but somehow, this is how they form this irreparable bond that completes one another in an off seen way.
This book isn’t a walk in the park. It has graphic and unseemly situations that may turn your head and your moral compass.
I was definitely enthralled and taken aback by the no holds barred nature of it and the emotional integrity it invoked in it!! Riveting stuff, this Carmen Jenner creates in that crafty head of hers!!
So glad that this book did not ‘tank’ in my expectations of it!!
September 26, 2015
Tank by Carmen Jenner
1. Storyline & Plot 4.5 Stars
2. Steamy pleasy sex scenes 3.0 Stars
3. MC feel & brotherhood 0.0 Stars
Just didn't feel it, there were glimpse of the club and its members but nothing solid. For that matter there wasn't much kicking ass or jealous club bunnies. The story in itself mainly contained of Ivy's ghosts, Tank, the Prez here and there, Crazy and Killer, but no real interactions. Is it good, my answer is yes...enjoy!
1. Storyline & Plot 4.5 Stars
2. Steamy pleasy sex scenes 3.0 Stars
3. MC feel & brotherhood 0.0 Stars
Just didn't feel it, there were glimpse of the club and its members but nothing solid. For that matter there wasn't much kicking ass or jealous club bunnies. The story in itself mainly contained of Ivy's ghosts, Tank, the Prez here and there, Crazy and Killer, but no real interactions. Is it good, my answer is yes...enjoy!
September 12, 2015
EMOTIONAL. GUT-TWISTING. SEXY. DEEP. DARK.
These are few of the words that can describe this amazing book. I have not read the first book but the way the characters were written makes me desperate to start Kick now.
Tank and Ivy were a very complicated couple. Both tormented and with demons to fight, they form a very unique bond.
Tank is hard, ruthless and cold. He is strong and does not hesitate to kill for his club or the ones he loves. Ivy is a woman who brings him to his knees. She has been in the club a long time and has warmed Tank's club brothers' beds for years now. Pushing aside the fact that she is in love with Kick, his closest friend and club brother, he takes it upon himself to save her when no one else will.
Ivy is lost. She is a junkie and has been for years. Abused by her own father, she is happy to rely on drugs for happiness until someone steps in and changes everything. For a while she cannot see past Kick and her penchant for pain. She is blinded by the years of neglect and abuse.
Tank is her anchor but will she let him help her? And what of his own demons?Their story is explosive and amazing. They are not perfect but they are perfect together. They make mistakes, they get into twisted situations but they are real.
The writing sucked me in from the first page and I have to say some of the things the characters had to endure had my gut twisting painfully. One of the hardest books I've ever read but one of the most fantastic ones as well. Excellent work.
If you want something dark, gritty but emotional too, then this is for you.
5 Stars from me.
Coming on September 24th....
ARC provided in exchange for an honest review.
These are few of the words that can describe this amazing book. I have not read the first book but the way the characters were written makes me desperate to start Kick now.
Tank and Ivy were a very complicated couple. Both tormented and with demons to fight, they form a very unique bond.
Tank is hard, ruthless and cold. He is strong and does not hesitate to kill for his club or the ones he loves. Ivy is a woman who brings him to his knees. She has been in the club a long time and has warmed Tank's club brothers' beds for years now. Pushing aside the fact that she is in love with Kick, his closest friend and club brother, he takes it upon himself to save her when no one else will.
Ivy is lost. She is a junkie and has been for years. Abused by her own father, she is happy to rely on drugs for happiness until someone steps in and changes everything. For a while she cannot see past Kick and her penchant for pain. She is blinded by the years of neglect and abuse.
Tank is her anchor but will she let him help her? And what of his own demons?Their story is explosive and amazing. They are not perfect but they are perfect together. They make mistakes, they get into twisted situations but they are real.
The writing sucked me in from the first page and I have to say some of the things the characters had to endure had my gut twisting painfully. One of the hardest books I've ever read but one of the most fantastic ones as well. Excellent work.
If you want something dark, gritty but emotional too, then this is for you.
5 Stars from me.
Coming on September 24th....
ARC provided in exchange for an honest review.
September 12, 2015
Wow...I'm kind of lost for words right now, I feel like I should take a step back and tell you why writing this review right now is so strange for me, it's not because I'm reviewing an MC book, which I rarely do, but because I've just finished my first beta read through of Tank, I usually beta read, then send back feedback, then changes may be made and I read it again, I'll usually talk through scenes with the author until everything makes sense...but that's why this is so different, because this review is my feedback, and I need to talk it out.
Ivy is, well we know she's messed up, when we meet her in Kick we know that she's lived through some pretty bad stuff, we know she's a club whore for Savage Saints MC, we know that she lives her life coked off her face, high as a kite, being passed around the club brothers, we know she likes rough sex, rougher than slightly kinky stuff we all like to read about in our books, and we know that her father sexually abused her as a child. The sheer pain and agony that lanced through me reading that in Kick...I have no words for it, father's are supposed to protect their children, they are the first man a little girl will love, and they are the man that should teach a girl how she deserves to be treated, and I guess in some ways he did do that, he taught her the way a girl should be treated by men, but worse than that he succeeded in instilling in her the belief that she was worthless.
When I first met Ivy I didn't want to like her, the idea of MC clubs and old ladies, and club whores is why I don't read this genre, I don't want read about women who willingly sleep with married men, or men who can't keep it in their pants, I don't want to read about coked up junkies, or women who willingly allow themselves to be shared between a clubhouse full of men, I honestly didn't see how I could possibly understand why Ivy was okay with the way she lived, the way she seemed to relish and revel in club life, but from the very first page in Tank my heart broke for her, as her past is revealed piece by horrifying piece I wanted to climb into the pages and wrap my arms around her, I wanted to dry her eyes, and tell her everything would be alright, I wanted to tell her that she was a warrior, that she had lived through more than she should ever have had to endure, I wanted to slay her dragons and fight her demons, but more than anything I wanted someone else to stand up for her, I wanted someone to prove to her that she wasn't useless, she wasn't worthless.
Tank is...Tank is strong, and tough, he's scary as hell, he's a cold blooded killer, and yet he would lay down his life for those close to him, he see's something in Ivy almost immediately, he knows enough about her past to want to protect her and help her heal, he wants her to want to live out of the shadows of drug abuse and sexual servitude, he wants to break down her walls, tear away the grief of a shattered childhood that's held her hostage for so many years, to give her a chance to believe in something more than pain and destruction.
"Talk to me. Use me as your fuckin' punchin' bag. Let me be your drug. Let me help you forget."
I feel like I'm rambling, but there's so much emotion floating around in my head, my stomach is still churning and my hands are still jittery, Ivy and Tank are so fully embedded in my heart that I can't shake them free, words and lines are floating through my mind, this is not a story for the faint hearted, its graphic at times, we see the real side of drug use, not the fun party side of it that so many of us have dabbled in at some point in our lives, there are moments that are so torturous, so painful, so raw that I wanted to walk away, I wanted to shut my mind to the pain Ivy has endured, I wanted to pretend it wasn't real, that people don't really go through this in real life, but the problem is, it does happen, I've seen the kind of destruction a man who "loves" his children to much can do. Despite the sheer agony that Carmen Jenner portrays in Tank, it never felt forced, it never felt overly done, there were moments where the author pulled back from being graphic for the sake of shock value, there's still explicit sex, and there's a level of filthiness to their frank conversations that once upon a time would of shocked me but instead felt natural here.
For me there were so many moments that Jenner could of pushed the envelope more trying to cash in on the bad boy biker MC train but nothing about Tank felt forced, nothing felt stilted, it was raw and explicit and at times graphic, it was absolutely gut wrenching to read and take in, it pushed me past my limits and made me feel every kind of emotion from sickened to overjoyed to hot under the collar, Jenner has a knack for writing tough as nails alpha males, but what I adore is that her heroines are survivors, warriors, women who have lived through the worst life can throw at them, through heartbreak, mental illness, sexual abuse, infidelity, drug use, self harm, Ivy has seen the very worst side of society and has found her way to live in that world, she's found a way to quell the rising water that threatens to drown her, she's found a way to escape the pain of her past, drugs and sex have become her floatation device, pleasure to bury the pain, drugs to make her forget, she's damaged and broken and she's taped herself back together the only way she can live with and despite her belief that she's weak she's so much stronger than she realises, this book may be called Tank, but for me Ivy is very much the hero, he can't heal her, but he gives her the strength to fight her way out of the darkness and into the light.
Tank reminded me why I read, to step outside of my comfort zone, to be challenged, to live someone else's life if only for a moment in time, even if it breaks my spirit and my heart in the process, Carmen Jenner writes these kinds of stories, she takes me on a journey I don't always want to go on, her words wrap themselves around my heart and hold it tight, every nuance acts as a salve to my broken and battered soul, Tank is dark and heartbreaking and yet simultaneously uplifting, it's a reminder that even during the darkest moments, the moments that threaten to annihilate you, to drag you under that there's light, there's beauty, there's hope.
Ivy is, well we know she's messed up, when we meet her in Kick we know that she's lived through some pretty bad stuff, we know she's a club whore for Savage Saints MC, we know that she lives her life coked off her face, high as a kite, being passed around the club brothers, we know she likes rough sex, rougher than slightly kinky stuff we all like to read about in our books, and we know that her father sexually abused her as a child. The sheer pain and agony that lanced through me reading that in Kick...I have no words for it, father's are supposed to protect their children, they are the first man a little girl will love, and they are the man that should teach a girl how she deserves to be treated, and I guess in some ways he did do that, he taught her the way a girl should be treated by men, but worse than that he succeeded in instilling in her the belief that she was worthless.
When I first met Ivy I didn't want to like her, the idea of MC clubs and old ladies, and club whores is why I don't read this genre, I don't want read about women who willingly sleep with married men, or men who can't keep it in their pants, I don't want to read about coked up junkies, or women who willingly allow themselves to be shared between a clubhouse full of men, I honestly didn't see how I could possibly understand why Ivy was okay with the way she lived, the way she seemed to relish and revel in club life, but from the very first page in Tank my heart broke for her, as her past is revealed piece by horrifying piece I wanted to climb into the pages and wrap my arms around her, I wanted to dry her eyes, and tell her everything would be alright, I wanted to tell her that she was a warrior, that she had lived through more than she should ever have had to endure, I wanted to slay her dragons and fight her demons, but more than anything I wanted someone else to stand up for her, I wanted someone to prove to her that she wasn't useless, she wasn't worthless.
Tank is...Tank is strong, and tough, he's scary as hell, he's a cold blooded killer, and yet he would lay down his life for those close to him, he see's something in Ivy almost immediately, he knows enough about her past to want to protect her and help her heal, he wants her to want to live out of the shadows of drug abuse and sexual servitude, he wants to break down her walls, tear away the grief of a shattered childhood that's held her hostage for so many years, to give her a chance to believe in something more than pain and destruction.
"Talk to me. Use me as your fuckin' punchin' bag. Let me be your drug. Let me help you forget."
I feel like I'm rambling, but there's so much emotion floating around in my head, my stomach is still churning and my hands are still jittery, Ivy and Tank are so fully embedded in my heart that I can't shake them free, words and lines are floating through my mind, this is not a story for the faint hearted, its graphic at times, we see the real side of drug use, not the fun party side of it that so many of us have dabbled in at some point in our lives, there are moments that are so torturous, so painful, so raw that I wanted to walk away, I wanted to shut my mind to the pain Ivy has endured, I wanted to pretend it wasn't real, that people don't really go through this in real life, but the problem is, it does happen, I've seen the kind of destruction a man who "loves" his children to much can do. Despite the sheer agony that Carmen Jenner portrays in Tank, it never felt forced, it never felt overly done, there were moments where the author pulled back from being graphic for the sake of shock value, there's still explicit sex, and there's a level of filthiness to their frank conversations that once upon a time would of shocked me but instead felt natural here.
For me there were so many moments that Jenner could of pushed the envelope more trying to cash in on the bad boy biker MC train but nothing about Tank felt forced, nothing felt stilted, it was raw and explicit and at times graphic, it was absolutely gut wrenching to read and take in, it pushed me past my limits and made me feel every kind of emotion from sickened to overjoyed to hot under the collar, Jenner has a knack for writing tough as nails alpha males, but what I adore is that her heroines are survivors, warriors, women who have lived through the worst life can throw at them, through heartbreak, mental illness, sexual abuse, infidelity, drug use, self harm, Ivy has seen the very worst side of society and has found her way to live in that world, she's found a way to quell the rising water that threatens to drown her, she's found a way to escape the pain of her past, drugs and sex have become her floatation device, pleasure to bury the pain, drugs to make her forget, she's damaged and broken and she's taped herself back together the only way she can live with and despite her belief that she's weak she's so much stronger than she realises, this book may be called Tank, but for me Ivy is very much the hero, he can't heal her, but he gives her the strength to fight her way out of the darkness and into the light.
Tank reminded me why I read, to step outside of my comfort zone, to be challenged, to live someone else's life if only for a moment in time, even if it breaks my spirit and my heart in the process, Carmen Jenner writes these kinds of stories, she takes me on a journey I don't always want to go on, her words wrap themselves around my heart and hold it tight, every nuance acts as a salve to my broken and battered soul, Tank is dark and heartbreaking and yet simultaneously uplifting, it's a reminder that even during the darkest moments, the moments that threaten to annihilate you, to drag you under that there's light, there's beauty, there's hope.
September 24, 2015
Oh my fucking GOD. This book, this dark, dirty, depraved book, was brutal, angry and utterly captivating. I knew I wanted to read it, as I do anything Carmen Jenner writes, but what I didn't know was that in amongst the violence, the pain and the blood, I'd find a book that just spoke to me. A book that, beyond the crazy, was hopeful and really quite beautiful.
Ivy is a strung-out, messed-up, broken-down whore, and the only one that can make Savage Saints MC assassin, Tank feel. She can't, or won't, save herself, which leaves him in charge...and he'll do whatever is takes to save her.
No matter who gets hurt in the process.
From the flames, comes life, right? That's TANK. That is Tank and Ivy. Down to my bones, in my pounding heart, through my shaking fingers (broken thumbs...the only thing that made me really want to draw back, surprisingly), I felt this couple; these two broken, beaten, fucked-up mother(father?)-fuckers, who went at each other and weren't nice about it.
I can't, in all honesty, say that Tank was a good guy. Criminal, killer, all-around arsehole, definitely. But hidden under that beard and that cut, is a man that made me want him—a fighter, who may be gruff, rough and tough, but who finds in abused whore someone to save; someone to love. He's an anti-hero with a hero complex and I fucking loved everything about him.
Ivy is much the same. Inside of her might be a little girl lost and hurting, and that is all together heart-breaking, but she's no good girl, no princess. No matter what Tank might call her. She is filthy, (mostly) unapologetic, downright mean and unrelenting at times, but I wanted to save her as much as Tank did. God, I wanted to save her.
And therein lies the hope. The hope that, no matter what is thrown at them—by each other or the outside world—two not-good-but-not-wholly-bad people can save each other and forge something strong. Something that can weather the shitstorm that is life.
TANK may be dark, but there's a crack of light under the door. And it's enough to allow me to see that this book is fucking brilliant. ~ Beth, 5 stars
~~~
Brutal and violent, it is still a love story at the heart of it…
“I use to forget.”
And that, THAT, is at the heart of it. On the surface this may not be a Cinderella story but once I started reading and understanding the characters more—theiremotions and actions—I began to change my mind.
The beginning warned me and the author is not messing around! From the first chapter, sweet and gentle was put on the backburner as the human condition, at its most raw and elemental, was exposed. If you have read Kick then this is not a surprise, as Tank and Ivy’s story is laid out in a similar no-holds-barred fashion. With the point of view flipping from one to the other, each scene is described in many layers—what you see, and what is actually felt beneath their facades.
“I’m just another little girl who was broken, who’s still broken. Who’ll always be broken.”
Ivy is struggling for survival as she runs from her past with her defensive weapon of choice being drugs—whatever she needs to do to get it. Tank is equally determined to stop her downward spiral and he was going to do it with or without her help.
“Wasn’t supposed to fall in love with her, though.”
A druggie and a criminal? Maybe so, but labels are a dangerous thing, aren’t they? I know that these characters are ones I really care about, and want to see have a happy ending despite the incredible odds. I had my heart in my throat more than once, and when you read this you will quickly recognize those “no frickin’ way can this be true” moments.
Pulling me from the edge more than once, this author takes me places I never thought I would go, willingly and oh so joyfully. Another ‘one sitting read’ has me eagerly haunting the shelves for the next one! ~ Diane, 5 stars
~~~
Jenner and I seriously need to have some words. I don't know what goes on in that pretty head of hers, but what she's able to put on paper is always a masterpiece, Tank being no different.
I knew going into this that Tank would be a dark book. It ended up not only being dark but such a beautiful disaster. Each horrific word was like a punch to the gut but there was so much hope. Hope for love. Hope for redemption. Hope for freedom.
This story was titled Tank but I don't think that that does this book justice. It wasn't just Tank's story, it was Ivy's as well. It was Ivy's horrific history and Tank's determination to free her from her past that made this story breathtaking. It was Ivy's need to forget and Tank's need to feel. It was the stubbornness of two equally screwed up people that found a bit of comfort in their broken pieces.
This story was grotesque, gruesome, repulsive and shocking but because of that darkness, this story was equally stunning, magnificent, freeing and astonishing. ~ Kelly, 4 stars
Ivy is a strung-out, messed-up, broken-down whore, and the only one that can make Savage Saints MC assassin, Tank feel. She can't, or won't, save herself, which leaves him in charge...and he'll do whatever is takes to save her.
No matter who gets hurt in the process.
From the flames, comes life, right? That's TANK. That is Tank and Ivy. Down to my bones, in my pounding heart, through my shaking fingers (broken thumbs...the only thing that made me really want to draw back, surprisingly), I felt this couple; these two broken, beaten, fucked-up mother(father?)-fuckers, who went at each other and weren't nice about it.
I can't, in all honesty, say that Tank was a good guy. Criminal, killer, all-around arsehole, definitely. But hidden under that beard and that cut, is a man that made me want him—a fighter, who may be gruff, rough and tough, but who finds in abused whore someone to save; someone to love. He's an anti-hero with a hero complex and I fucking loved everything about him.
Ivy is much the same. Inside of her might be a little girl lost and hurting, and that is all together heart-breaking, but she's no good girl, no princess. No matter what Tank might call her. She is filthy, (mostly) unapologetic, downright mean and unrelenting at times, but I wanted to save her as much as Tank did. God, I wanted to save her.
And therein lies the hope. The hope that, no matter what is thrown at them—by each other or the outside world—two not-good-but-not-wholly-bad people can save each other and forge something strong. Something that can weather the shitstorm that is life.
TANK may be dark, but there's a crack of light under the door. And it's enough to allow me to see that this book is fucking brilliant. ~ Beth, 5 stars
~~~
Brutal and violent, it is still a love story at the heart of it…
“I use to forget.”
And that, THAT, is at the heart of it. On the surface this may not be a Cinderella story but once I started reading and understanding the characters more—theiremotions and actions—I began to change my mind.
The beginning warned me and the author is not messing around! From the first chapter, sweet and gentle was put on the backburner as the human condition, at its most raw and elemental, was exposed. If you have read Kick then this is not a surprise, as Tank and Ivy’s story is laid out in a similar no-holds-barred fashion. With the point of view flipping from one to the other, each scene is described in many layers—what you see, and what is actually felt beneath their facades.
“I’m just another little girl who was broken, who’s still broken. Who’ll always be broken.”
Ivy is struggling for survival as she runs from her past with her defensive weapon of choice being drugs—whatever she needs to do to get it. Tank is equally determined to stop her downward spiral and he was going to do it with or without her help.
“Wasn’t supposed to fall in love with her, though.”
A druggie and a criminal? Maybe so, but labels are a dangerous thing, aren’t they? I know that these characters are ones I really care about, and want to see have a happy ending despite the incredible odds. I had my heart in my throat more than once, and when you read this you will quickly recognize those “no frickin’ way can this be true” moments.
Pulling me from the edge more than once, this author takes me places I never thought I would go, willingly and oh so joyfully. Another ‘one sitting read’ has me eagerly haunting the shelves for the next one! ~ Diane, 5 stars
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Jenner and I seriously need to have some words. I don't know what goes on in that pretty head of hers, but what she's able to put on paper is always a masterpiece, Tank being no different.
I knew going into this that Tank would be a dark book. It ended up not only being dark but such a beautiful disaster. Each horrific word was like a punch to the gut but there was so much hope. Hope for love. Hope for redemption. Hope for freedom.
This story was titled Tank but I don't think that that does this book justice. It wasn't just Tank's story, it was Ivy's as well. It was Ivy's horrific history and Tank's determination to free her from her past that made this story breathtaking. It was Ivy's need to forget and Tank's need to feel. It was the stubbornness of two equally screwed up people that found a bit of comfort in their broken pieces.
This story was grotesque, gruesome, repulsive and shocking but because of that darkness, this story was equally stunning, magnificent, freeing and astonishing. ~ Kelly, 4 stars
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October 9, 2015“Think about this, man,” Tank whispers. “You gonna go up against the prez over some bitch you don’t know?”
I don’t answer, I lunge instead, but Tank is a better fighter than me—he always has been. He’s bigger and better in every way, and I’m caught up in his huge arms as he holds me back and forces me to watch my prez, the man who is supposed to lead us, the man who has been a better father to me than my own, shoving himself inside an innocent girl. A girl I wanted"
Tank is an evil monster who organises for the brutal multiple gang rape and mutilation of an innocent young girl (in the previous book), not to mention everything else. He better not get a happy ending but the punishment he deserves.
I don’t answer, I lunge instead, but Tank is a better fighter than me—he always has been. He’s bigger and better in every way, and I’m caught up in his huge arms as he holds me back and forces me to watch my prez, the man who is supposed to lead us, the man who has been a better father to me than my own, shoving himself inside an innocent girl. A girl I wanted"
Tank is an evil monster who organises for the brutal multiple gang rape and mutilation of an innocent young girl (in the previous book), not to mention everything else. He better not get a happy ending but the punishment he deserves.
September 9, 2016
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Before I start my review I just want to double emphasize the warning in the synopsis – this book is all kinds of dark and not for anyone sensitive to topics such as gangbang sex, violence, murder, rape, incest, profanity, and disturbing dialogue(described in a very detailed way). This book really did a number on me and completely f***ed with my head. At times, more so than not, I felt terribly uncomfortable,I pushed myself to finish this book. I was ready to stop reading it before hitting the halfway mark but then the writing just kept drawing me in deeper and deeper until I didn't know which way was up. I'll go watch a Cinderella movie now, i need it really bad!
Tank
Ivy
hell-fucking-no
September 24, 2015Apparently the "hero" organizes a gang rape in book 1. This book can go fuck itself. Cya.
September 1, 2016
I shoud say i had issues with Tank, after how he treated wouman in Kick moor specificaly kidnapped Laura, knowing, what Prez woud do to her and wanted to kill Indie and, though i cant say i forgive him for it, i did admire how he fought tooth and nail for Ivy, when no one else woud and how he cared and protected her and his treatment of other wouman specificaly club whores is way better in this book, which i also liked. Ivy seemed very brocken and like she wasnt able to fight and survive at first after all she was put thrue, but i loved that she was the one to save the day, while Tank lay bleeding, proves just how much she grew, abought secondery charecters it set at the time things from Kick are hapenning, so we here abought the three Sickos from there and Kick and Indie. Theres also a flashing out of Crazy's charecter and a glimpse into his past, which is sad, hope he gets a book sometime too, we also see Jett and Rein and i see a story coming there
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
September 20, 2015
Title: Tank
Author: Carmen Jenner
Genre: Contemporary Romance, Psychological, Suspense
Series or Standalone: Series (Savage Saints MC #2)
Rating: 5 Stars ★★★★★
Review
This book might just be the darkest MC book I’ve ever had the pleasure of reading…and I have no regrets.
The author warns of this in the synopsis and anywhere else she possibly can, but for the sake of making sure that people that may not have seen that come across it here, this is not your typical MC read. It’s also not your conventional romance and does contain scenes that are not for the weak of heart. So if you have rape, drug and physical abuse triggers, this book may not be for you.
There used to be a time, based on my own personal history where a book of this nature wouldn’t have even been on my radar, but as it appears, I’ve come a long way because while my damn heart spent ninety percent of this book breaking over what Ivy was forced to endure (and then Tank by association later on), I didn’t trigger here.
I think what set this book apart for me and why I enjoyed it so much was because it is so different than a lot of the MC books I’ve come across. I’m sure there are other ones out there equally as dark (I mean, I know now that the author has another one right before this), but until now I haven’t come across it. So this book stood out.
A story about two people with their own set of demons being thrown together in the most unconventional way and somehow finding a bit of beauty in the destruction. Two people that despite the ways they shouldn’t work, worked tremendously well and made me a believer in them.
Tank is the guy you call when you want someone gone. The one that the MC depends on to get the job done and eradicate someone completely. And as you learn, he’s been doing it a lot longer than his time with the MC. Though, with everything I read from his past, and what would turn out to be the event that started him down this path, everything was more than well deserved. No matter how twisted it might make me, and even if I wouldn’t do the same things he did, I understood him.
He’s not an easy guy to take. He’s brash and mouthy and rough around the edges, but there are these shades of something more in him and it was those shades that despite how often I felt the need to backhand him for some of his comments, bonded me to him. He had heart. He cared. Even if the poor guy didn’t exactly have the best way of showing it.
And Tank cares about nothing more than Ivy.
Good lord. What can I say about this woman? Ivy isn’t your typical heroine. She’s not meek and mild. She’s not soft and tender. She’s a broken and bruised woman with a drug addiction that she’s so immersed in because for her, it’s easier to forget when she’s high. She’s been through a whole lot of crap and despite wishing at times she’d be better off dead, she’s still going despite it. She’s got a fighters spirit in her despite the horrible hand she’s dealt and I liked her pretty much instantly.
I didn’t expect to, but there was just something I saw in her even before you really see the stuff she’s been through that has brought her where she is (nothing more than a club whore) that endeared me to her. Invested me in her healing (whether with Tank or without).
As the story goes on, you learn just what kind of life she’d been thrown into and just what Tank is having to fight against as he attempts to not only save her life, but get her to want to save her own life. Swallowing down as he goes, the feelings he knows he has for her. One’s he’s had long before they’re thrown together here.
This being the second book in the series, there is background here between these two, but since I didn’t take on the first book, I went in blind to a lot of it. While I’m sure the background information would have been good to know before delving in here, I didn’t feel as if I missed anything by not having it. The author did a wonderful job of just giving you enough information so that you understood. At least she did for me.
These two were like fire and ice. Similar yet different and explosive as hell whenever they interacted (which given their close quarters due to Ivy’s detoxing situation) was a lot. But they were also entertaining in these moments as well. Despite the seriousness of the story, I found myself laughing quite a bit with their banter back and forth. It was a refreshing change after being swept up into their individual darkness right away.
The road this story took, how intense and dark this really got as time went on, I have to admit I wasn’t expecting it even with everything I’d read up until that point, but with the way it all played out, the just desserts I feel happened here for more than one character, I have to say in the end, it was worth every second of the torture that my heart felt.
This is a couple that in all of their brokenness, somehow found a way to heal both together and apart. Ivy’s moment of clarity after coming home from Tank’s mothers probably still one of my favorite parts in this book. It was a beautiful thing to witness, even if Tank in true alpha jerk form had to get her worked up first lol.
If you’re looking for an easy read, you’re not gonna get it here. If you’re looking for a peaceful and love filled HEA, again, this isn’t the book for you, but if you’re a fan of two broken people coming into their own and finding a small sliver of light in the dark and turning it into something pretty epic, this will work. Carmen Jenner did a fantastic job giving these two people that the rest of world might deem lost causes (because of life choices and things they’ve been through), one hell of a rewarding HEA.
This book was violent, brutalizing, and downright heart wrenching, but it was also healing. A story of growth from both characters that was equal parts moving and beautiful.
My thanks to the author and all others involved for allowing my blog the chance to read and review. It’s a ride I’m glad that I was a part of.
October 3, 2015
Reviewed @ Confessions From Romaholics
Review copy kindly provided by Give Me Books in exchange for a honest review
Ever since I finished the first book, I have wonder about these two characters. Tank and Ivy and was hoping to read the book when it came out thinking that I wouldn’t have time to read this book before release . However Jenner's brand of MC calls to me and I couldn’t wait to dive in so I bit the bullet and took this book on into my busy schedule.
Savage Saints series isn’t for those who don’t like gripping dark romances. Jenner has clear distinct style and I love in the first book Kick so I was more then ready for the return to this world and braced myself for impact. As Tank could be constituted as anti-hero as he is the enforcer of the club. A man who will protect his club at any cost and carries out killings meticulously. He isn’t a man who you want to cross.
Tank seemed to live up to his name in the first book when I first dove in but I knew there was more to him and I wonder who would be the woman for him to unlock this man . Never expecting it to be Ivy considering who was a club whore and was always high as kite . However there was more the story and her reaching the end of her tether unable to deal with any more heartbreak and misery now that she didn’t have Kick as crutch. Gave way to a new chapter in life and hence the story we get now.
Going it I knew it was going to be tough as behind the exterior that they present to the world both of them are carrying scars of childhood that have shaped them to become the people that they are. A murderer and a whore unable to shake their pasts completely and completely conflicted over those said pasts. Scattering the pieces of their problems over the course of the Tank is t old from both their Pov’s of views as the book filters from the past to the present Gut wrenching to the point that you wonder is there going to be any breaks for two these when your discover why they became who they are. As whilst it was never going to be black and white knowing who these people are, you can’t help think how close their lives mirror dealing with their crap that stems from two crazy childhoods they had no control over.
It is a constant battle with this story as there is never a moment to take a breath and desperately suck air that you need. As this story is so intense to the point that you wonder is a bond enough to give them a chance. Will the past always constantly haunt them?
I thought Kick was devastating hardcore gritty. I was wrong, Tank was worse. Their individual stories and combined story together blew the roof off and let me nearly feeling sick of the horror these two went through.
It takes a lot for me to connect to a book like this and I can’t wait for more .
5 couples
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Review copy kindly provided by Give Me Books in exchange for a honest review
Ever since I finished the first book, I have wonder about these two characters. Tank and Ivy and was hoping to read the book when it came out thinking that I wouldn’t have time to read this book before release . However Jenner's brand of MC calls to me and I couldn’t wait to dive in so I bit the bullet and took this book on into my busy schedule.
Savage Saints series isn’t for those who don’t like gripping dark romances. Jenner has clear distinct style and I love in the first book Kick so I was more then ready for the return to this world and braced myself for impact. As Tank could be constituted as anti-hero as he is the enforcer of the club. A man who will protect his club at any cost and carries out killings meticulously. He isn’t a man who you want to cross.
Tank seemed to live up to his name in the first book when I first dove in but I knew there was more to him and I wonder who would be the woman for him to unlock this man . Never expecting it to be Ivy considering who was a club whore and was always high as kite . However there was more the story and her reaching the end of her tether unable to deal with any more heartbreak and misery now that she didn’t have Kick as crutch. Gave way to a new chapter in life and hence the story we get now.
Going it I knew it was going to be tough as behind the exterior that they present to the world both of them are carrying scars of childhood that have shaped them to become the people that they are. A murderer and a whore unable to shake their pasts completely and completely conflicted over those said pasts. Scattering the pieces of their problems over the course of the Tank is t old from both their Pov’s of views as the book filters from the past to the present Gut wrenching to the point that you wonder is there going to be any breaks for two these when your discover why they became who they are. As whilst it was never going to be black and white knowing who these people are, you can’t help think how close their lives mirror dealing with their crap that stems from two crazy childhoods they had no control over.
It is a constant battle with this story as there is never a moment to take a breath and desperately suck air that you need. As this story is so intense to the point that you wonder is a bond enough to give them a chance. Will the past always constantly haunt them?
I thought Kick was devastating hardcore gritty. I was wrong, Tank was worse. Their individual stories and combined story together blew the roof off and let me nearly feeling sick of the horror these two went through.
It takes a lot for me to connect to a book like this and I can’t wait for more .
5 couples
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September 21, 2015
This is probably one of the hardest reviews I've ever tried writing, there are so many things I want to say, but I've been struggling to find the right words, Carmen Jenner has created a story that left me speechless. Normally I'm able to write my reviews as soon as I finish reading or at least parts of it, but every time over the last hours, since finishing Tank, that I've tried writing something, nothing came out, except crying and small smiles.
The crying was for all the ugliest most disgusting of tortures that Ivy and Tank each relived of their separate pasts, for the cruelest moments they experienced at the hands of monsters. What each of them went through, was pain more terrifying and cutting than any other, I found myself wanting to switch off my own emotions so that the weight of what was happening to them would stop breaking my heart as well. However it was impossible not to feel it, to want to smash and scream and break everything in site, to want to stop the excruciating stab of darkness that was threatening to swallow everything in a sea of tears. The only anchor in all of it the bond between Ivy and Tank, that had them fighting to save each other and themselves. Their moments of joy, that gave them a distraction from the horror, was what made me smile. Every time Ivy gave Tank sass and he was a cocky smart ass in return, when he fought for her to let him in and she did, when they realised what they were to the other, I felt it, all of the warmth and the strength that they deserved.
Ivy had been a woman that would have done anything for a fix, the sweet numbing release that could help her for a while to forget everything else that had destroyed her. Tank was a hardened beast of a man, that never wanted to fall in love, love was a weakness. Together they changed so much. They may have gone through hell, but their shattered pieces were glued back together with only the smallest of cracks left that would no longer define their weaknesses but remind them all of their strength.
This book was dark, it was terrifying and the characters Ivy and Tank are what made it beautiful. Carmen Jenner told their story with such depth that she didn't just give us a look into their haunted memories, she gave us all of who they became. A truly phenomenal read, that will break readers in the most agonising of ways and then give them just enough to overcome it.
5/5 ❤️s
A story I'll never forget.
The crying was for all the ugliest most disgusting of tortures that Ivy and Tank each relived of their separate pasts, for the cruelest moments they experienced at the hands of monsters. What each of them went through, was pain more terrifying and cutting than any other, I found myself wanting to switch off my own emotions so that the weight of what was happening to them would stop breaking my heart as well. However it was impossible not to feel it, to want to smash and scream and break everything in site, to want to stop the excruciating stab of darkness that was threatening to swallow everything in a sea of tears. The only anchor in all of it the bond between Ivy and Tank, that had them fighting to save each other and themselves. Their moments of joy, that gave them a distraction from the horror, was what made me smile. Every time Ivy gave Tank sass and he was a cocky smart ass in return, when he fought for her to let him in and she did, when they realised what they were to the other, I felt it, all of the warmth and the strength that they deserved.
Ivy had been a woman that would have done anything for a fix, the sweet numbing release that could help her for a while to forget everything else that had destroyed her. Tank was a hardened beast of a man, that never wanted to fall in love, love was a weakness. Together they changed so much. They may have gone through hell, but their shattered pieces were glued back together with only the smallest of cracks left that would no longer define their weaknesses but remind them all of their strength.
This book was dark, it was terrifying and the characters Ivy and Tank are what made it beautiful. Carmen Jenner told their story with such depth that she didn't just give us a look into their haunted memories, she gave us all of who they became. A truly phenomenal read, that will break readers in the most agonising of ways and then give them just enough to overcome it.
5/5 ❤️s
A story I'll never forget.
September 1, 2016
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Writing: ★★★★★
Story: ★★★★★
Characters: ★★★★★
Overall rating: 5.0
Ivy - club whore, junkie, lost girl... victim. And she wants nothing to do with that caring and loving side of Tank. Ivy needs to be abused to "feel"... well anything. She doesn't do "pleasure".
Tank is going to try and show her just how wrong she is on that front. And he does it damn well, too!
But she's going to get it, whether she likes it or not!
Writing: ★★★★★
Story: ★★★★★
Characters: ★★★★★
Overall rating: 5.0
*****5 "I love you enough to put you on the back of my bike and keep you there for good." Stars*****Okay. Just. Wow. What a wild ride! I have to say that from book 1, Kick, to this book, the author's writing style grew by leaps and bounds. This book kept me on the edge of my seat, gripping my Kindle, and more than once whispering, "nooooo...!"
Tank - a.k.a. Death, a.k.a. Jonah Whitecross, he's not your typical biker that you read about in most MC books. Even though he's a killer, and has no qualms about it. He can be demanding, overbearing, a complete "arsehole" at times... but he can also be gentle, caring, and loving, much to Ivy's surprise and dismay.
"I want her submission. I want her heart. I want her to look at me and not wish I were someone else. More than anything though, I want to rid her of the belief that to love is to hurt to feel pleasure is to hurt."
Ivy - club whore, junkie, lost girl... victim. And she wants nothing to do with that caring and loving side of Tank. Ivy needs to be abused to "feel"... well anything. She doesn't do "pleasure".
Tank is going to try and show her just how wrong she is on that front. And he does it damn well, too!
Tank has been in love with Ivy since he first met her, but Ivy's not in love with Tank, far from it, and to make matter's worse, he's taken her to his cabin and "held her prisoner"... her words, not his. He's taken her away from the club, away from Kick, and away from any way to get her drugs. He wants to help her get clean and she doesn't want any part of Tank's help.
But she's going to get it, whether she likes it or not!
September 28, 2015
3.5 - 4 Stars
This book started off slow. The majority of the book, literally until about 70%, was Ivy in detox (or trying to be) at Tank's cabin. Not a lot really happened except for some misadventures here and there as she tried to get free from Tank's care.
We learn a lot about Ivy's past and the horrific things that happened to her at the hands of her father. We also get some insight into Tank's past and his childhood at the hands of an abusive father as well.
Tank and Ivy's demons and pasts brought them closer together, although both fought the connection (Ivy more so than Tank). We get to see beneath Tank's hard assassin exterior and into his heart, which has loved Ivy since day one. Ivy was a hot, drug addicted mess, and yet no matter how hard she fought him, Tank never gave up on her. He was willing to sacrifice everything to keep her safe and get her clean and realize what he saw in her, even if she fought him tooth and nail every step of the way. Although Ivy had misplaced feelings for Kick, they weren't based in love, they were based in pain, and she never acknowledged her feelings for Tank because she never felt like she was worthy of him. Although her past and her behavior as a club whore made me cringe, I was able to finally connect with Ivy by the end of this book, and the internal strength she was able to realize as a result of Tank's love had me rooting for this couple to make it and find happiness with each other.
While I enjoyed reading this story, I found myself wishing more would happen. I don't typically like it when all of the drama unfolds at the end. The majority of this story was spent in Tank's cabin, so we see very little of MC life, and at times the plot seemed one-dimensional because of this. As was a criticism of mine with Kick, the first book in this series, there were opportunities to develop the plot a bit more, (more about Kick, Ivy's father, the Russians, club life, etc.) that would have made for a more robust storyline. Nonetheless, I do appreciate getting to be front and center into Ivy and Tank's pasts and how their relationship developed. This story did set up a foundation for future stories with Jett and Raine, Killer and Crazy, and I will look forward to reading their stories and seeing how everything progresses with the Savage Saints MC.
This book started off slow. The majority of the book, literally until about 70%, was Ivy in detox (or trying to be) at Tank's cabin. Not a lot really happened except for some misadventures here and there as she tried to get free from Tank's care.
We learn a lot about Ivy's past and the horrific things that happened to her at the hands of her father. We also get some insight into Tank's past and his childhood at the hands of an abusive father as well.
Tank and Ivy's demons and pasts brought them closer together, although both fought the connection (Ivy more so than Tank). We get to see beneath Tank's hard assassin exterior and into his heart, which has loved Ivy since day one. Ivy was a hot, drug addicted mess, and yet no matter how hard she fought him, Tank never gave up on her. He was willing to sacrifice everything to keep her safe and get her clean and realize what he saw in her, even if she fought him tooth and nail every step of the way. Although Ivy had misplaced feelings for Kick, they weren't based in love, they were based in pain, and she never acknowledged her feelings for Tank because she never felt like she was worthy of him. Although her past and her behavior as a club whore made me cringe, I was able to finally connect with Ivy by the end of this book, and the internal strength she was able to realize as a result of Tank's love had me rooting for this couple to make it and find happiness with each other.
While I enjoyed reading this story, I found myself wishing more would happen. I don't typically like it when all of the drama unfolds at the end. The majority of this story was spent in Tank's cabin, so we see very little of MC life, and at times the plot seemed one-dimensional because of this. As was a criticism of mine with Kick, the first book in this series, there were opportunities to develop the plot a bit more, (more about Kick, Ivy's father, the Russians, club life, etc.) that would have made for a more robust storyline. Nonetheless, I do appreciate getting to be front and center into Ivy and Tank's pasts and how their relationship developed. This story did set up a foundation for future stories with Jett and Raine, Killer and Crazy, and I will look forward to reading their stories and seeing how everything progresses with the Savage Saints MC.
September 27, 2015
Raw,gritty,dark,with lot's of omg! moments. 4.5 stars
Can two people with abused damaged pasts find love in the midst of all the darkness that follows them beyond their nightmares
Ivy is a drug addict that Tank wants to save, but how do you do that when someone doesn't want to be saved.
Will all the agony and hard work pay off, Can Tank open the eyes of the girl that has got his heart
I Loved this this book, I have read the previous book wasn't sure couldn't gel with the characters but this, I loved!
I actually got the characters,sympathized,felt empathy, knew where they had come from, what each had been through and felt the frustration of Tank and agony each of them went through each day. So yes to bring out emotion is a sign of a brilliantly written plot.
Its not a light hearted read by any means, there's scenes of rape,violence and cruelty unimaginable to another human being but oh so good if this is what you like in a read, Yes the series just got better in my eyes.
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Can two people with abused damaged pasts find love in the midst of all the darkness that follows them beyond their nightmares
Ivy is a drug addict that Tank wants to save, but how do you do that when someone doesn't want to be saved.
Will all the agony and hard work pay off, Can Tank open the eyes of the girl that has got his heart
I Loved this this book, I have read the previous book wasn't sure couldn't gel with the characters but this, I loved!
I actually got the characters,sympathized,felt empathy, knew where they had come from, what each had been through and felt the frustration of Tank and agony each of them went through each day. So yes to bring out emotion is a sign of a brilliantly written plot.
Its not a light hearted read by any means, there's scenes of rape,violence and cruelty unimaginable to another human being but oh so good if this is what you like in a read, Yes the series just got better in my eyes.
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February 20, 2016
3.5 ~ 4.25 Stars!
Actually the first 60 % mark I felt bored, there was no urge to turn the pages faster, so that was why it took me days to finish this book (besides my frenzied activities recently which force me to read much slower). But, the last 30 % of the book was .... so great! Heart-gripping! Mind-blown! Yeah, this is not an easy read (at least for me), but really worth a read! Especially for you who love dark and gritty reads!
All in all, I really enjoyed this book!
Actually the first 60 % mark I felt bored, there was no urge to turn the pages faster, so that was why it took me days to finish this book (besides my frenzied activities recently which force me to read much slower). But, the last 30 % of the book was .... so great! Heart-gripping! Mind-blown! Yeah, this is not an easy read (at least for me), but really worth a read! Especially for you who love dark and gritty reads!
All in all, I really enjoyed this book!
June 9, 2016
Tank Stole my heart
I thought I loved Kick but then Carmen gave us Tank and blew me away. I loved the badass biker with the heart of gold. It amazes me how the author gets me to completely drop everything I'm doing and binge on her books. I started Tank latest night and stayed up u til 3 am because he and Ivy captivated me. Their connection was amazing and their struggle real and heartbreaking. Man that ending just flawless!
I thought I loved Kick but then Carmen gave us Tank and blew me away. I loved the badass biker with the heart of gold. It amazes me how the author gets me to completely drop everything I'm doing and binge on her books. I started Tank latest night and stayed up u til 3 am because he and Ivy captivated me. Their connection was amazing and their struggle real and heartbreaking. Man that ending just flawless!
September 29, 2019
I absolutely loved Kick, the first in the Savage Saints series and couldn't wait to hear Tanks story. This book followed suit; it was dark, intense, twisted, full of angst and the past history of the 2 MCs was so messed up it was disturbing. OMG!! this book was immense, I loved every single page!
Carmen Jenner is fast becoming a one click author for me. This is the third book of hers I have now read and she really pulls you in to the story. Before you realise the day has passed you by and you haven't accomplished a thing other than read the book! The story flows, no part of it feels like a filler. The plot is developed and I was always waiting for something bad to happen... because you just know from the onset that it will!
Her characters are developed, I was truly invested in their lives and hope of an HEA. She is very descriptive which serves to increase the intensity. You could feel their anguish, despair, hopelessness. My nerves were in pieces by the end of the book! There is always a little humour woven into her characters, which just make them seem all the more real. I love sarcastic and sassy female characters. AND Ms Jenner can certainly write a sex scene... Phew! I needed a few cold showers throughout this book. I loved Kick until I read Tank... now I'm just torn as they were both off the charts, panty melting, sexy as fucking hell, hot!
I can't recommend this series highly enough. Although the books do come with a warning. They contain violence, abuse, drug use, profanity and sexual situations. Take note, if they are not your thing please don't read!
Carmen Jenner is fast becoming a one click author for me. This is the third book of hers I have now read and she really pulls you in to the story. Before you realise the day has passed you by and you haven't accomplished a thing other than read the book! The story flows, no part of it feels like a filler. The plot is developed and I was always waiting for something bad to happen... because you just know from the onset that it will!
Her characters are developed, I was truly invested in their lives and hope of an HEA. She is very descriptive which serves to increase the intensity. You could feel their anguish, despair, hopelessness. My nerves were in pieces by the end of the book! There is always a little humour woven into her characters, which just make them seem all the more real. I love sarcastic and sassy female characters. AND Ms Jenner can certainly write a sex scene... Phew! I needed a few cold showers throughout this book. I loved Kick until I read Tank... now I'm just torn as they were both off the charts, panty melting, sexy as fucking hell, hot!
I can't recommend this series highly enough. Although the books do come with a warning. They contain violence, abuse, drug use, profanity and sexual situations. Take note, if they are not your thing please don't read!
September 24, 2015
Ever since I read this book I have been contemplating how I was suppose to put into words just how fantastic this book is. Even like 10 days on, I am still struggling to make any sense in my head to what I read.
There will never be any review that could possibly do this book justice and Ms Jenner should be so proud of herself for writing this masterpiece.
The story of Tank & Ivy wasn't your usual love story, oh no - their journey to reach HEA status is just so heart breakingly amazing. Some parts of the book made me chuckle and then other parts made me feel terrible - it really was a book that will stick with you for a long time and it up there in my top 10 books i have read so far this year.
Bravo Carmen, Bravo.
There will never be any review that could possibly do this book justice and Ms Jenner should be so proud of herself for writing this masterpiece.
The story of Tank & Ivy wasn't your usual love story, oh no - their journey to reach HEA status is just so heart breakingly amazing. Some parts of the book made me chuckle and then other parts made me feel terrible - it really was a book that will stick with you for a long time and it up there in my top 10 books i have read so far this year.
Bravo Carmen, Bravo.
October 3, 2018
2.5 stars
October 7, 2015
these books are so amazing and amazingly disturbing that I cant wait for more!!!
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September 25, 2015
I was not expecting that!
Totally glued all the way through
Totally glued all the way through
September 25, 2015
I'm having a really hard time writing this review because I know no matter what I say, it's not going to reveal just how much this book got to me. For the first time, I wish I was a writer and could use the precise words to make you feel what I'm feeling, but I'm not. I'm just an avid reader who devoured this book like it was my last meal on this earth. From the first page, the rest of the world I live in fell away and all that existed was Tank and Ivy's world. I couldn't stop reading until it was over, and even then I was left wanting more.
You have to read Kick before Tank, because that's where you first start getting to know who Tank and Ivy are. Anyone who knows me knows that I'm extremely difficult on female heroines. I can say with all honesty that Ivy is the strongest female character ever created by an author that I've read. She's far from perfect, but she's REAL. Too real, sometimes for me. I don't want to make this book a crusade for recovering addicts because that's not it's purpose. However, it's very rare to read a book that has a drug addict in it that gives the true, dark and gritty reality that is the disease. Carmen obviously put her entire self into researching this novel, not only about drugs but also other painful subjects like rape and other forms of sexual abuse. You'll be carried to the darkest depths possible in the human psyche by the subject matter in this story and it will leave you feeling haunted by the fact that things like this really do take place, and not everyone has the strength of these characters to overcome their battles.
Ivy has been a "club whore" for several years. I put it in quotes because no matter how many men she fucked I truly don't think that makes her a whore. There's a difference between someone who just loves sex anytime with anyone and anywhere, and a girl who is lost and searching every available outlet known to her for a relief to her suffering. The only pleasure she can derive is from both physical and emotional pain. Being sexually, physically and emotionally abused by her father has caused her to have a fucked up sense of love and happiness. The drugs she is constantly pumping into her body and the painful sex she craves are the only things that help her forget her past. When the drugs start wearing off, the memories return and the misery and despair become too much, along with the fear that her father will find her one day and never let her escape again.
Tank met Ivy even before she showed up at the club. She was a street prostitute living under a bridge and he immediately felt somewhat responsible and protective. He tells her later, "I've wanted you in one way or another ever since I laid eyes on you, babe. You sucked my cock and stole my goddamn heart, and I don't even want the fuckin' thing back. Keep it, 'cause I ain't got no use for it without you in my arms, and in my bed, and on the back of my bike." Romantic words? Maybe not, but it's pure Tank and he means every word that comes out of his mouth. After that first encounter with her he brought her back a sandwich to eat, which isn't anything anyone had ever done for her before and expresses just the kind of person he is. All the years Ivy's been at the club, he's always kept his feelings for her hidden. He didn't think he had anything to offer her anyway, not to mention she thought she was in love with his best friend, Kick. It takes Ivy hitting rock bottom by having a complete emotional breakdown and attempting to OD for him to decide that if she can't save herself, then he's going to have to do it for her. He takes her to his home and endures his own version of hell while trying to get her dried out. The descriptions of the drug withdrawal and her actions toward Tank and others during this time are so authentic that it's agonizing for the reader as well as the characters. When addiction is what leads a person's thoughts and actions, they say and do things they never would normally do and it hurts everyone involved. My heart grieved for the both of them during that awful period of time.
Tank isn't someone who gives up though, and neither is Ivy. It takes incredible fortitude to overcome the obstacles set before them, but after awhile Ivy stops fighting against Tank and start fighting WITH him to conquer her past. It's an uphill battles and sometimes it seems like they can't ever catch a break, taking one step forward and three steps back.
Sometimes, though not very often, you read a book that impacts you down to your very soul. Something inside of you is forever changed after reading it. Tank is one of those books. I tried to immediately start another book when I finished (just like I always do), and just couldn't. I had to take the time and let it process and sink in. Even though I'm now reading something else, pieces of Tank keep fluttering into my thoughts randomly throughout the day. I can't help but be proud of them and wonder how they're doing. I know they're not real, but tell my heart that because it's having a hard time believing it. Tank and Ivy may not exist, but I guarantee you there are people out there living something very similar to their story. I can only hope they'll keep fighting for the victory over their demons just as Tank and Ivy did.
You have to read Kick before Tank, because that's where you first start getting to know who Tank and Ivy are. Anyone who knows me knows that I'm extremely difficult on female heroines. I can say with all honesty that Ivy is the strongest female character ever created by an author that I've read. She's far from perfect, but she's REAL. Too real, sometimes for me. I don't want to make this book a crusade for recovering addicts because that's not it's purpose. However, it's very rare to read a book that has a drug addict in it that gives the true, dark and gritty reality that is the disease. Carmen obviously put her entire self into researching this novel, not only about drugs but also other painful subjects like rape and other forms of sexual abuse. You'll be carried to the darkest depths possible in the human psyche by the subject matter in this story and it will leave you feeling haunted by the fact that things like this really do take place, and not everyone has the strength of these characters to overcome their battles.
Ivy has been a "club whore" for several years. I put it in quotes because no matter how many men she fucked I truly don't think that makes her a whore. There's a difference between someone who just loves sex anytime with anyone and anywhere, and a girl who is lost and searching every available outlet known to her for a relief to her suffering. The only pleasure she can derive is from both physical and emotional pain. Being sexually, physically and emotionally abused by her father has caused her to have a fucked up sense of love and happiness. The drugs she is constantly pumping into her body and the painful sex she craves are the only things that help her forget her past. When the drugs start wearing off, the memories return and the misery and despair become too much, along with the fear that her father will find her one day and never let her escape again.
Tank met Ivy even before she showed up at the club. She was a street prostitute living under a bridge and he immediately felt somewhat responsible and protective. He tells her later, "I've wanted you in one way or another ever since I laid eyes on you, babe. You sucked my cock and stole my goddamn heart, and I don't even want the fuckin' thing back. Keep it, 'cause I ain't got no use for it without you in my arms, and in my bed, and on the back of my bike." Romantic words? Maybe not, but it's pure Tank and he means every word that comes out of his mouth. After that first encounter with her he brought her back a sandwich to eat, which isn't anything anyone had ever done for her before and expresses just the kind of person he is. All the years Ivy's been at the club, he's always kept his feelings for her hidden. He didn't think he had anything to offer her anyway, not to mention she thought she was in love with his best friend, Kick. It takes Ivy hitting rock bottom by having a complete emotional breakdown and attempting to OD for him to decide that if she can't save herself, then he's going to have to do it for her. He takes her to his home and endures his own version of hell while trying to get her dried out. The descriptions of the drug withdrawal and her actions toward Tank and others during this time are so authentic that it's agonizing for the reader as well as the characters. When addiction is what leads a person's thoughts and actions, they say and do things they never would normally do and it hurts everyone involved. My heart grieved for the both of them during that awful period of time.
Tank isn't someone who gives up though, and neither is Ivy. It takes incredible fortitude to overcome the obstacles set before them, but after awhile Ivy stops fighting against Tank and start fighting WITH him to conquer her past. It's an uphill battles and sometimes it seems like they can't ever catch a break, taking one step forward and three steps back.
Sometimes, though not very often, you read a book that impacts you down to your very soul. Something inside of you is forever changed after reading it. Tank is one of those books. I tried to immediately start another book when I finished (just like I always do), and just couldn't. I had to take the time and let it process and sink in. Even though I'm now reading something else, pieces of Tank keep fluttering into my thoughts randomly throughout the day. I can't help but be proud of them and wonder how they're doing. I know they're not real, but tell my heart that because it's having a hard time believing it. Tank and Ivy may not exist, but I guarantee you there are people out there living something very similar to their story. I can only hope they'll keep fighting for the victory over their demons just as Tank and Ivy did.
October 7, 2015
4—4.5 stars
This is the love story between a club hitman and a club whore, and it's a fairly dark tale full of pain in many forms including rape, drug addiction, incest, murder and major violence. Tank is about two broken people finding someone who can look past all of their faults and love the person underneath.
Both Tank and Ivy grew up with abuse beyond measure. The things they've seen and lived through are heartbreaking. Because of their experiences, both are able to see through the characteristics in each other which would cause society to put them in the useless or better off dead category.
Most of the storyline is deep and dark, requiring bravery to read, some parts bleeding over into horror, but going through this journey with the characters eventually leads to an uplifting feeling. If they can still get up in the morning, most of us should be able to conquer the world.
If you read book one, you know it wasn't a light read. This was even heavier but better in my opinion.
***Copy given in exchange for an honest review***
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