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Forsaken
Titus had lived and breathed religion his entire life, tucked away from the rest of the world in a compound in northern Wyoming. He’s destined to be the next leader of the church, deemed so by the Prophet. God spoke and with His word He created. But God made a mistake. Titus isn’t worthy. He was born sick and it’s solidified when he rescues the most beautiful man he’s ever seen. Torn between fidelity to his faith or his soul, Titus must reconcile the two parts of himself before he’s discovered hiding among the chosen.
266 pages, Kindle Edition
First published February 25, 2018
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J.R. Gray
59 books1,272 followersWhen not staying up all night writing, J.R. Gray can be found at the gym where it's half assumed he is a permanent resident to fulfill his self-inflicted masochism. A dominant and a pilot, Gray finds it hard to be in the passenger seat of any car. He frequently interrupts real life, including normal sleep patterns and conversations, to jot down notes or plot bunnies. Commas are the bane of his existence even though it's been fully acknowledged they are necessary, they continue to baffle and bewilder. If Gray wasn't writing…well, that's not possible. The buildup of untold stories would haunt Gray into an early grave, insanity or both. The idea of haunting has always appealed to him. J.R. Gray is genderqueer and prefers he/him pronouns.
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February 28, 2018
Throwing the towel at @47%
What to say about this?
Could a person, nowadays, have a life sheltered to this extent? Secluded from the rest of the world?
I don't really know.
Either way, the MC's naivety didn't work for me. It's surreal.
February 26, 2018
“The last thing he expected was to see the most beautiful man he’d ever laid eyes on…”
I was really intrigued by the blurb for this m/m romance. Sexual identity. Religion. Perhaps a cult? Definitely not light and fluffy but I was looking forward to a complicated read with a new author….
It was complicated. Yet it was not. I want to say it was simple, but it really was not. I definitely can’t categorize in just a few words so more will have to do. Titus was stuck. He had a role to play, now and in the future, and his personal feelings were taking last place to the wants and needs of his family, of his vocation, of his religious leader, and, of his God. A lot to reconcile and come to terms with and for Titus, that remained a work in progress…
“Titus wanted to be closer. Inside Angel’s skin. Fully absorbed in Angel, until there was nothing else.”
Angel was running. I want to say not from what he was, who he was, but from love gone wrong, from lies… When he met Titus, someone who – while being honest – wasn’t living true to himself, he didn’t know which was harder to deal with…
“How could God have made him wrong?”
I loved the honesty of both Titus and Angel. There were many conversations, as well as inner monologues, that slowly peeled away their thoughts, their hopes, their fears. Angel, for all his worldliness, was surprisingly more guarded than Titus. Not that Angel wasn’t up front about his sexuality, he was. He knew he was gay and wasn’t ashamed of it. He also understood not everyone was accepting of that. (Okay, I had to grimace a little at that sentence, given how the two men met….) Titus was beyond sheltered, again not surprising given where and how he was raised, what he was being groomed for. Despite their differences, their coming together felt real and very, very right.
This felt like a personal story. A journey of discovery, of realizations, of love found and treasured. Unexpectedly light-hearted in spots but with serious consideration for some not light topics, this was a unique love story to savour.
I have no idea if there will be more but if we heard more from these characters, especially finding out what happens to Paul, Titus’ brother, I would not be disappointed in the slightest. I want so much more for him too… ~Diane, 4.5 stars
I was really intrigued by the blurb for this m/m romance. Sexual identity. Religion. Perhaps a cult? Definitely not light and fluffy but I was looking forward to a complicated read with a new author….
It was complicated. Yet it was not. I want to say it was simple, but it really was not. I definitely can’t categorize in just a few words so more will have to do. Titus was stuck. He had a role to play, now and in the future, and his personal feelings were taking last place to the wants and needs of his family, of his vocation, of his religious leader, and, of his God. A lot to reconcile and come to terms with and for Titus, that remained a work in progress…
“Titus wanted to be closer. Inside Angel’s skin. Fully absorbed in Angel, until there was nothing else.”
Angel was running. I want to say not from what he was, who he was, but from love gone wrong, from lies… When he met Titus, someone who – while being honest – wasn’t living true to himself, he didn’t know which was harder to deal with…
“How could God have made him wrong?”
I loved the honesty of both Titus and Angel. There were many conversations, as well as inner monologues, that slowly peeled away their thoughts, their hopes, their fears. Angel, for all his worldliness, was surprisingly more guarded than Titus. Not that Angel wasn’t up front about his sexuality, he was. He knew he was gay and wasn’t ashamed of it. He also understood not everyone was accepting of that. (Okay, I had to grimace a little at that sentence, given how the two men met….) Titus was beyond sheltered, again not surprising given where and how he was raised, what he was being groomed for. Despite their differences, their coming together felt real and very, very right.
This felt like a personal story. A journey of discovery, of realizations, of love found and treasured. Unexpectedly light-hearted in spots but with serious consideration for some not light topics, this was a unique love story to savour.
I have no idea if there will be more but if we heard more from these characters, especially finding out what happens to Paul, Titus’ brother, I would not be disappointed in the slightest. I want so much more for him too… ~Diane, 4.5 stars
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March 14, 2018Reviewed for Sinfully.
3.5 stars
In a story that could have been full of angst, this is more a book about accepting yourself and having the strength to do what you need to live the life that is best for you.
When Titus, who has grown up as the heir to the Prophet (his grandfather) on an insular compound of a Wyoming cult, finds a beaten man on the side of the road, the decision he makes to help changes his life in an instant. The battered man appropriately named Angel, not only looks like one, but certainly must be a sign from God to Titus. He brings Angel back to the compound with the intention of getting him cleaned up and driving him to civilization, but soon that intention quickly changes.
Angel has misgivings about Titus, but has little choice and agrees to go with him. The two quickly open up to each other and he finds himself feeling bad for Titus and offering to help him. Angel is such a good soul. Although he has been betrayed by the last man he trusted with his heart, he can't help but want to help save Titus from the destiny set out for him and as much as he knows it can't possibly end well, he can’t help but fall for Titus.
Not unexpectedly, Titus seems to be oblivious to much of what’s really happening at the compound, but he is in tune with his own feelings that he is somehow wrong, broken, not fit for what he is told he is meant to be – the next Prophet. He feels like he doesn't belong there, he just really doesn't know what to do about it. He's been silently rebelling in small ways, but is resigned to fulfilling his role.
I’ve read stories dealing with cults before and one thing I always find is there is that underlying feeling of dread and the knowledge of the threat that looms over them for any perceived infraction or attempt to leave. I didn’t really get that here until very late in the story. Titus is not confined to the property. In fact much of the story takes place outside of the compound. He seems to have a lot of freedom when he routinely drives to Denver and other areas to do outreach and selling his furniture. Reading is encouraged, there is no television or internet, but he does have a cell phone. The few days Angel spends at the compound, there is very little interaction with any other members and I felt that I didn’t get a real feel for what life was like there. I would have liked to have seen more interaction with the Prophet earlier in the story. It’s only through Angel’s gut instinct after his very brief observation and off-page conversation with the Prophet that we know he feels there is something wrong. We also don’t meet Titus’ family until later in the book. His brother, Paul, is a wonderful character whose story left me with so many questions in the end. Unfortunately the rest of Titus’ family leave much to be desired.
In some respects Titus seems so naïve and in others, he isn’t and sometimes this felt odd. He is very well-read and there seems to be no real rhyme or reason to what he is aware of and what he is not. Angel's life and what he describes to Titus about being gay - a word Titus didn't have for what he knew he was - is a revelation he desperately wants to believe.
There were times where musings and questions got repetitive. I liked the trust the two men built with each other, though I thought Titus jumped into some physical aspects of the relationship rather quickly and without question. Angel’s background was vague, we know he had issues with his last relationship that broke his trust and led to him leaving his life behind and I was left wondering about that as well.
The story is not preachy. It’s mostly about Titus building a relationship with Angel and deciding what life he is going to live and how he can do it. His personal relationship with God has always been different than what the Prophet and his interpretation of religion told Titus it should be and after meeting Angel he is no longer certain what is right and wrong.
The tension does ratchet up in the last part of the book when Titus has his eyes opened and realizes that he cannot stay at the compound but struggles with leaving his brother and the only life he has known. This part of the story had me on the edge of my seat wondering just how things would work out.
This was a good story, though uneven at times and with a lighter than I expected based on the subject matter. I liked all of the characters and their different outlooks. The ending is HFN and I was glad to see mention of counselling. I was left with some questions about events in the story, but as far as Titus and Angel went, I was satisfied where we left them.
3.5 stars
In a story that could have been full of angst, this is more a book about accepting yourself and having the strength to do what you need to live the life that is best for you.
When Titus, who has grown up as the heir to the Prophet (his grandfather) on an insular compound of a Wyoming cult, finds a beaten man on the side of the road, the decision he makes to help changes his life in an instant. The battered man appropriately named Angel, not only looks like one, but certainly must be a sign from God to Titus. He brings Angel back to the compound with the intention of getting him cleaned up and driving him to civilization, but soon that intention quickly changes.
Angel has misgivings about Titus, but has little choice and agrees to go with him. The two quickly open up to each other and he finds himself feeling bad for Titus and offering to help him. Angel is such a good soul. Although he has been betrayed by the last man he trusted with his heart, he can't help but want to help save Titus from the destiny set out for him and as much as he knows it can't possibly end well, he can’t help but fall for Titus.
Not unexpectedly, Titus seems to be oblivious to much of what’s really happening at the compound, but he is in tune with his own feelings that he is somehow wrong, broken, not fit for what he is told he is meant to be – the next Prophet. He feels like he doesn't belong there, he just really doesn't know what to do about it. He's been silently rebelling in small ways, but is resigned to fulfilling his role.
I’ve read stories dealing with cults before and one thing I always find is there is that underlying feeling of dread and the knowledge of the threat that looms over them for any perceived infraction or attempt to leave. I didn’t really get that here until very late in the story. Titus is not confined to the property. In fact much of the story takes place outside of the compound. He seems to have a lot of freedom when he routinely drives to Denver and other areas to do outreach and selling his furniture. Reading is encouraged, there is no television or internet, but he does have a cell phone. The few days Angel spends at the compound, there is very little interaction with any other members and I felt that I didn’t get a real feel for what life was like there. I would have liked to have seen more interaction with the Prophet earlier in the story. It’s only through Angel’s gut instinct after his very brief observation and off-page conversation with the Prophet that we know he feels there is something wrong. We also don’t meet Titus’ family until later in the book. His brother, Paul, is a wonderful character whose story left me with so many questions in the end. Unfortunately the rest of Titus’ family leave much to be desired.
In some respects Titus seems so naïve and in others, he isn’t and sometimes this felt odd. He is very well-read and there seems to be no real rhyme or reason to what he is aware of and what he is not. Angel's life and what he describes to Titus about being gay - a word Titus didn't have for what he knew he was - is a revelation he desperately wants to believe.
There were times where musings and questions got repetitive. I liked the trust the two men built with each other, though I thought Titus jumped into some physical aspects of the relationship rather quickly and without question. Angel’s background was vague, we know he had issues with his last relationship that broke his trust and led to him leaving his life behind and I was left wondering about that as well.
The story is not preachy. It’s mostly about Titus building a relationship with Angel and deciding what life he is going to live and how he can do it. His personal relationship with God has always been different than what the Prophet and his interpretation of religion told Titus it should be and after meeting Angel he is no longer certain what is right and wrong.
The tension does ratchet up in the last part of the book when Titus has his eyes opened and realizes that he cannot stay at the compound but struggles with leaving his brother and the only life he has known. This part of the story had me on the edge of my seat wondering just how things would work out.
This was a good story, though uneven at times and with a lighter than I expected based on the subject matter. I liked all of the characters and their different outlooks. The ending is HFN and I was glad to see mention of counselling. I was left with some questions about events in the story, but as far as Titus and Angel went, I was satisfied where we left them.
March 12, 2018
A Joyfully Jay review.
3.75 stars
In the Author’s Note at the beginning of Forsaken, author J.R. Gray shares a little about his own experiences growing up in a cult-like environment. Like Titus, it was a place where being gay or genderqueer was not only not accepted, it was something so out of the realm of their world as to be impossible. Gray does a really nice job taking that experience and building it into the story here, showing how Titus has grown up in an environment where he is not even aware of the concept of men being attracted to other men. He sees what he feels as wrong and different, but doesn’t even have the vocabulary to explain it. It is really rewarding here to see how Titus comes into his own, learns about himself, and takes steps to claim the life that he wants, versus the one that has been predetermined for him.
Titus and Angel are an enjoyable couple. Angel has a nice sassiness, but there is a sweetness to their interactions that I also enjoyed. Although at times Angel is quick to think the worst, he also is patient and accepting as Titus works through his new revelations and figures out how, and if, he can move forward with Angel. So I liked these guys together and was really rooting for them.
Read Jay’s review in its entirety here.
3.75 stars
In the Author’s Note at the beginning of Forsaken, author J.R. Gray shares a little about his own experiences growing up in a cult-like environment. Like Titus, it was a place where being gay or genderqueer was not only not accepted, it was something so out of the realm of their world as to be impossible. Gray does a really nice job taking that experience and building it into the story here, showing how Titus has grown up in an environment where he is not even aware of the concept of men being attracted to other men. He sees what he feels as wrong and different, but doesn’t even have the vocabulary to explain it. It is really rewarding here to see how Titus comes into his own, learns about himself, and takes steps to claim the life that he wants, versus the one that has been predetermined for him.
Titus and Angel are an enjoyable couple. Angel has a nice sassiness, but there is a sweetness to their interactions that I also enjoyed. Although at times Angel is quick to think the worst, he also is patient and accepting as Titus works through his new revelations and figures out how, and if, he can move forward with Angel. So I liked these guys together and was really rooting for them.
Read Jay’s review in its entirety here.
February 26, 2018
~ 3.5 Stars ~
Titus is doing penance—for whatever sin he’s been judged guilty of at the time—when he finds what he’s sure is an angel in a ditch near an isolated religious compound in rural Wyoming. The truth is, he has found an angel. Just not an angel of the heavenly variety.
Angel Rodriguez is a drifter. He’s a photographer by trade who left his job and home in San Francisco behind after a bad breakup, and has been wandering aimlessly since. Angel has never been a straight-passing guy, which is why he was targeted by his attackers and then robbed and left to face whatever God or Mother Nature decided his fate would be. Titus, being a good Samaritan and a good man in general, risks bringing Angel back to his house within the compound’s walls even though he didn’t gain permission to do so beforehand from the Prophet—the chosen one through whom the Almighty allegedly speaks.
The insularity of the cult and the brainwashing that causes its members to reject the outside world and accept the Prophet as supreme ruler and the word of law is portrayed well. It’s a productive commune that operates under the guise of normalcy—women are given permission to work (it irks me to even type that), the Prophet embraces his absolute power and covets it in what can only be called the most corrupt way, and the flock serves at his pleasure because they believe in his divinity. The community is self-sustaining, producing an income in part thanks to Titus, and as the chosen successor to the role of Prophet upon the current one’s passing, Titus has a duty and an obligation that will ultimately conflict with his sexuality and his feelings for Angel.
Because how can Titus be both Prophet and Human?
I had a great deal of empathy for Titus. He was such a sweet character who, despite his commitment to his faith, had also learned to lie by omission. His innocence, owed to the lack of real exposure to the secular world, was significant to his characterization as well as to his relationship with Angel, which made him all the more endearing. His individualism was in constant conflict with the Prophet’s twisted version of theology, and I related to the paradox of the divine gift of free will but not being permitted to use it to express his individuality. I couldn’t help but notice some slight inconsistencies in his knowledge base, however, that I hope were picked up on in final edits—Titus not knowing what certain words meant, despite being educated and apparently well-read, but then hearing other words that one could only describe as secular, without questioning their meaning. That aside, though, Titus’s struggle between what he’d been taught and what he felt in his heart and who he believed he was obligated to be was a pull that kept me emotionally invested in his story.
Angel was the perfect foil to Titus’s indoctrinated and isolated upbringing. Part temptation, part teacher, part savior, Angel awakens Titus to the desire for a life built on love rather than on sacrifice—Titus sacrificing himself and who he is based upon a sense of blind obligation and a perversion of biblical doctrine that has been used to imprison him rather than allowing him to celebrate his innate goodness. I was often impressed by Angel’s commitment to see Titus love freely despite how horribly his previous relationship ended. He put his heart on the line for a man who appeared, for all intents and purposes, to be a terrible risk, and I appreciated the very humanness of it. I bought into their budding romance and cheered them on, even if some of the relationship growth I like to see on page happened through telling rather than through dialogue and interaction.
A couple of the secondary characters stood out, one being Titus’s brother Paul, and the other, his neighbor David. David was a good friend, and while I don’t grasp on a personal level the sort of servitude Paul was committed to, there was never a question that he was a good and loving brother to Titus.
This novel could have been a lot more overwrought than it was, so kudos to Gray for not going over the top, but rather, keeping the conflict aligned with the setting and the premise. Christianity doesn’t look the same today as it did when I was a kid. The Jesus I grew up with was a hippie and a rebel who hung out with sinners; condemned the corrupt; preached peace, love, and understanding; and encouraged his followers to do for the least of these. Since my personal relationship with organized religion soured many years ago, I’m always careful about choosing books with a prominent religious overtone, but the author delivers the subject of this cult commune and the subjugation of its people in a way that didn’t overwhelm my ability to invest in the romance. Forsaken is a thoughtful and introspective look at free-will vs. blind faith, and I appreciated its message despite a slight reservation or two about its execution.
Reviewed by Lisa for The Novel Approach
Titus is doing penance—for whatever sin he’s been judged guilty of at the time—when he finds what he’s sure is an angel in a ditch near an isolated religious compound in rural Wyoming. The truth is, he has found an angel. Just not an angel of the heavenly variety.
Angel Rodriguez is a drifter. He’s a photographer by trade who left his job and home in San Francisco behind after a bad breakup, and has been wandering aimlessly since. Angel has never been a straight-passing guy, which is why he was targeted by his attackers and then robbed and left to face whatever God or Mother Nature decided his fate would be. Titus, being a good Samaritan and a good man in general, risks bringing Angel back to his house within the compound’s walls even though he didn’t gain permission to do so beforehand from the Prophet—the chosen one through whom the Almighty allegedly speaks.
The insularity of the cult and the brainwashing that causes its members to reject the outside world and accept the Prophet as supreme ruler and the word of law is portrayed well. It’s a productive commune that operates under the guise of normalcy—women are given permission to work (it irks me to even type that), the Prophet embraces his absolute power and covets it in what can only be called the most corrupt way, and the flock serves at his pleasure because they believe in his divinity. The community is self-sustaining, producing an income in part thanks to Titus, and as the chosen successor to the role of Prophet upon the current one’s passing, Titus has a duty and an obligation that will ultimately conflict with his sexuality and his feelings for Angel.
Because how can Titus be both Prophet and Human?
I had a great deal of empathy for Titus. He was such a sweet character who, despite his commitment to his faith, had also learned to lie by omission. His innocence, owed to the lack of real exposure to the secular world, was significant to his characterization as well as to his relationship with Angel, which made him all the more endearing. His individualism was in constant conflict with the Prophet’s twisted version of theology, and I related to the paradox of the divine gift of free will but not being permitted to use it to express his individuality. I couldn’t help but notice some slight inconsistencies in his knowledge base, however, that I hope were picked up on in final edits—Titus not knowing what certain words meant, despite being educated and apparently well-read, but then hearing other words that one could only describe as secular, without questioning their meaning. That aside, though, Titus’s struggle between what he’d been taught and what he felt in his heart and who he believed he was obligated to be was a pull that kept me emotionally invested in his story.
Angel was the perfect foil to Titus’s indoctrinated and isolated upbringing. Part temptation, part teacher, part savior, Angel awakens Titus to the desire for a life built on love rather than on sacrifice—Titus sacrificing himself and who he is based upon a sense of blind obligation and a perversion of biblical doctrine that has been used to imprison him rather than allowing him to celebrate his innate goodness. I was often impressed by Angel’s commitment to see Titus love freely despite how horribly his previous relationship ended. He put his heart on the line for a man who appeared, for all intents and purposes, to be a terrible risk, and I appreciated the very humanness of it. I bought into their budding romance and cheered them on, even if some of the relationship growth I like to see on page happened through telling rather than through dialogue and interaction.
A couple of the secondary characters stood out, one being Titus’s brother Paul, and the other, his neighbor David. David was a good friend, and while I don’t grasp on a personal level the sort of servitude Paul was committed to, there was never a question that he was a good and loving brother to Titus.
This novel could have been a lot more overwrought than it was, so kudos to Gray for not going over the top, but rather, keeping the conflict aligned with the setting and the premise. Christianity doesn’t look the same today as it did when I was a kid. The Jesus I grew up with was a hippie and a rebel who hung out with sinners; condemned the corrupt; preached peace, love, and understanding; and encouraged his followers to do for the least of these. Since my personal relationship with organized religion soured many years ago, I’m always careful about choosing books with a prominent religious overtone, but the author delivers the subject of this cult commune and the subjugation of its people in a way that didn’t overwhelm my ability to invest in the romance. Forsaken is a thoughtful and introspective look at free-will vs. blind faith, and I appreciated its message despite a slight reservation or two about its execution.
Reviewed by Lisa for The Novel Approach
February 26, 2018
It has been a long time since I have struggled to write a review for a book. This is the third book by Gray that I have had the opportunity to read. Talk about an emotional, gut-wrenching read in my honest opinion. Part of me felt as if bits and pieces of this story were about the author's life as he was growing up, you will understand better once you pick up a copy and read the author's note at the front of the book. I am of the opinion that everyone is allowed to love who they want to love. I know I am one of the most open-minded people that I know. Who one chooses to love, has nothing to do with me and as long as all parties are happy and no one is harmed, then everyone should be allowed to find that one special someone that they want to spend their life with. I am by no means a spiritual person and this book delves into some aspects of the main characters spiritual life and how he has had to suppress what he feels and desires because he has to conform to what others want from him. No one should have to do this.
In today's day and age, the way people choose to live is literally that, their choice. But, there are times when people are brainwashed to believe and act in a certain way. This is something that Titus, the male lead character has had to deal with his entire life. Not all religious sects are bad, and not all of them practice in the same way (living isolated from the rest of the world). We are all allowed to choose our own spiritual and religious path, no one should force us or choose one for us. In Titus' case, he was born into the Lambs of God. He is to be the leader or Prophet when his grandfather passes. He will have to continue to live a life that he does not feel connected to. He has been taught to suppress the urges that he has and has to do penance for that. While out working one day he literally trips over a beaten and broken man, laying on the side of the road. Wanting to do the right thing and be a good Samaritan. He knows that taking Angel home to the compound is not the smartest move, but the man needs help and Titus feels drawn to him. Having Angel so close is going to test him more than he ever knew.
Can Titus find happiness, something that he has wanted for so long and still be able to keep his spiritual and religious beliefs intact? Can he find a way to free himself from the chains that hold him down? Will Angel be able to show him what it is that he has been missing in his life or with their lives be threatened by the mere fact that they have a bond so strong that it isn't what is considered normal?
I was sucked in from the blurb alone. Forsaken is a gut-wrenching, emotional, heartfelt read. I could not put it down. If you are looking for an amazing afternoon read that will have your heart and head running a marathon of emotions, then this is the book for you. My heart is still trying to recover from this one. J.R. Gray is an amazing writer, his characters come to life within the pages of the book and I felt like I was there with them. The storyline is very believable as are the characters...a must read in my opinion!
5+ iScream Cones!!!
In today's day and age, the way people choose to live is literally that, their choice. But, there are times when people are brainwashed to believe and act in a certain way. This is something that Titus, the male lead character has had to deal with his entire life. Not all religious sects are bad, and not all of them practice in the same way (living isolated from the rest of the world). We are all allowed to choose our own spiritual and religious path, no one should force us or choose one for us. In Titus' case, he was born into the Lambs of God. He is to be the leader or Prophet when his grandfather passes. He will have to continue to live a life that he does not feel connected to. He has been taught to suppress the urges that he has and has to do penance for that. While out working one day he literally trips over a beaten and broken man, laying on the side of the road. Wanting to do the right thing and be a good Samaritan. He knows that taking Angel home to the compound is not the smartest move, but the man needs help and Titus feels drawn to him. Having Angel so close is going to test him more than he ever knew.
Can Titus find happiness, something that he has wanted for so long and still be able to keep his spiritual and religious beliefs intact? Can he find a way to free himself from the chains that hold him down? Will Angel be able to show him what it is that he has been missing in his life or with their lives be threatened by the mere fact that they have a bond so strong that it isn't what is considered normal?
I was sucked in from the blurb alone. Forsaken is a gut-wrenching, emotional, heartfelt read. I could not put it down. If you are looking for an amazing afternoon read that will have your heart and head running a marathon of emotions, then this is the book for you. My heart is still trying to recover from this one. J.R. Gray is an amazing writer, his characters come to life within the pages of the book and I felt like I was there with them. The storyline is very believable as are the characters...a must read in my opinion!
5+ iScream Cones!!!
March 1, 2018
What to say … What to say … What to say …. Hmmmmmmmm
Okay, so one thing I can say for certain is that the story was beautiful and really well thought out. This story could have gone down a dark rabbit hole of religion and clouded the journey of Titus and Angel to HEA but it did not. Religion was very prominent in this story but it did not take over the story so much that the romance was overshadowed.
This is not a story that can be read in pieces so if you choose to one-click (which I highly recommend that you do), then know this is a story that will suck you in and will not let go. I felt so much for Titus throughout this entire journey. His turmoil became my turmoil and I just can’t see anyone trying to put this book down once they begin.
So that’s all I want to say about Forsaken because I don’t want to start giving away plot lines. This book is real you guys. Really real. You should give it a try. #TRUST
Copy provided for blog tour review
Okay, so one thing I can say for certain is that the story was beautiful and really well thought out. This story could have gone down a dark rabbit hole of religion and clouded the journey of Titus and Angel to HEA but it did not. Religion was very prominent in this story but it did not take over the story so much that the romance was overshadowed.
This is not a story that can be read in pieces so if you choose to one-click (which I highly recommend that you do), then know this is a story that will suck you in and will not let go. I felt so much for Titus throughout this entire journey. His turmoil became my turmoil and I just can’t see anyone trying to put this book down once they begin.
So that’s all I want to say about Forsaken because I don’t want to start giving away plot lines. This book is real you guys. Really real. You should give it a try. #TRUST
Copy provided for blog tour review
February 21, 2018
I finished reading Forsaken by J.R. Gray a week ago, since then I’ve been thinking how to write a review for this FANTASTIC, heartfelt book.
It is the kind of book that I need my time to read, and a special set of mind, it’s not a book that I could read “between doing other things”, it kept me awake until late because I needed to know what was going to happen.
It felt SO real, maybe because of “the author’s note” or because I’ve been following and reading the author's newsletters, I could relate to some parts of the book because of a friend’s personal experience.
“Not everyone who claims to love you has your best interest at heart
nor respects you. It’s okay to leave those people behind.”
It’s very difficult to write a review for this book without giving any spoilers, but I wanted to talk and hug Titus from the beginning until the end, Angel is a kind of person that if I was related to him he will be one of my favorite family members.
I LOVED it SO MUCH ! It made me mad, sad but also smile.
There were moments while reading this book in which I was waiting for the expected thing to happen as in a lot of romance books and I need to thank the author for making it a REAL friendship. (I’m almost sure that if you are reading this review you may be thinking “what is she talking about”?), but once you read this book you will understand my point.
“I’d prefer not to have anyone including God watching while I’m getting
mine.”
“Am I next in line for the Kool-Aid if I don’t assimilate?” “I don’t know
why you keep bringing up fruit juice, but it’s not really a big deal.”
THANK YOU J.R. Gray for you honest and beautiful writing, looking forward to David's book.
It is the kind of book that I need my time to read, and a special set of mind, it’s not a book that I could read “between doing other things”, it kept me awake until late because I needed to know what was going to happen.
It felt SO real, maybe because of “the author’s note” or because I’ve been following and reading the author's newsletters, I could relate to some parts of the book because of a friend’s personal experience.
“Not everyone who claims to love you has your best interest at heart
nor respects you. It’s okay to leave those people behind.”
It’s very difficult to write a review for this book without giving any spoilers, but I wanted to talk and hug Titus from the beginning until the end, Angel is a kind of person that if I was related to him he will be one of my favorite family members.
I LOVED it SO MUCH ! It made me mad, sad but also smile.
There were moments while reading this book in which I was waiting for the expected thing to happen as in a lot of romance books and I need to thank the author for making it a REAL friendship. (I’m almost sure that if you are reading this review you may be thinking “what is she talking about”?), but once you read this book you will understand my point.
“I’d prefer not to have anyone including God watching while I’m getting
mine.”
“Am I next in line for the Kool-Aid if I don’t assimilate?” “I don’t know
why you keep bringing up fruit juice, but it’s not really a big deal.”
THANK YOU J.R. Gray for you honest and beautiful writing, looking forward to David's book.
March 2, 2018
4.25 stars.
This book was real. It made my heat bleed and made me cry for everything Titus had been through and has to figure out in order to be happy in the future. While religion has a huge part in the book it does not take over Titus and Angel's story.
Forsaken was by no means light and fluffy. It was a journey of sorts. Titus finding his place in the world, while also trying to overcome that it was okay to be attracted to men while he's been told otherwise his entire life. Same goes for Angel. He might have been out and proud but he was also looking for someone to be with. To be happy with and find his own happiness again. To be free.
Reading this book was like peeling off a layer by layer of what made them, them. The more we read, the more they were open and vulnerable to each other. I really enjoyed it and I wouldn't mind if we end up getting more books by JR. I would love to know more about Titus' brother.
An arc was provided in exchange for an honest review.
"...but just for once he wanted to be that important to someone. He wanted to come first. He wanted to be picked."
This book was real. It made my heat bleed and made me cry for everything Titus had been through and has to figure out in order to be happy in the future. While religion has a huge part in the book it does not take over Titus and Angel's story.
Forsaken was by no means light and fluffy. It was a journey of sorts. Titus finding his place in the world, while also trying to overcome that it was okay to be attracted to men while he's been told otherwise his entire life. Same goes for Angel. He might have been out and proud but he was also looking for someone to be with. To be happy with and find his own happiness again. To be free.
Reading this book was like peeling off a layer by layer of what made them, them. The more we read, the more they were open and vulnerable to each other. I really enjoyed it and I wouldn't mind if we end up getting more books by JR. I would love to know more about Titus' brother.
An arc was provided in exchange for an honest review.
September 5, 2019
Poor Titus :/
Well, for me the relationship between Titus and Angel seemed one sided. We are never given the truth about Angel’s past relationship that made him move cross country. I understand he was treated wrong in some way, but then it seems he takes out all his hang ups on poor Titus. Titus then comes from a cult to Angel, whom seems not to be all that into him; keeping him at arms length. So yeah this one was meh for me :/
Well, for me the relationship between Titus and Angel seemed one sided. We are never given the truth about Angel’s past relationship that made him move cross country. I understand he was treated wrong in some way, but then it seems he takes out all his hang ups on poor Titus. Titus then comes from a cult to Angel, whom seems not to be all that into him; keeping him at arms length. So yeah this one was meh for me :/
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August 9, 2018
This book had a ton of potential, but just didn't live up to that potential, in my opinion. It really could have been something special for me. The development of this story was just off, and while the book was OK for me, I finished it feeling unfulfilled.
I really really wanted to love this one, and am sad that I didn't.
I really really wanted to love this one, and am sad that I didn't.
April 3, 2018
♥.•*¨)☆♡¸.•*´¨)☆♡¸.•♥*´¨)☆♡♥
♡☆(¸.•♥´4 more than forsaken stars
"I thought I was rescuing an Angel, and then I thought you were a temptation put in front of me by the devil himself, who by the way is lovely because he’s a fallen angel." ~Titus
Angel happened in Titus's life and opened a Pandora's box. To say that Titus was an innocent was like saying life didn't have meaning.
All my mind kept going to was, there was really people in the world who loved by such beliefs and followed such teachings. Am I glad I have my freedom!!
I am stomped for words now.
"I've never felt like I belonged here."
"Then why aren't you doing something about it?"
"I don't know how."
I absolutely thought I would not get this book, but surprisingly, it turned out to be too much for words. The song said "don't cry for me Argentina. Well, don't cry for Titus. I raged war on the ending and it did not disappoint. The slow growth in Titus was amazballs, and I wished we would have gotten much, much more.
Angel, was wow, an angel. Even through his suffering, he was able to fight through the pain and misery and still come out on top, being the hero that the younger Titus needed.
The secondary characters enhanced this story and I am hoping that the author looks into bringing us more, because both David, the neighbour and Paul, Titus's brother, have a voice that is screaming to be heard. This story is incomplete and I demand more, LOL. Hey, I am just saying what I feel others are thinking.
This one is going on the top 20 of the year...so far.
I voluntarily and honestly reviewed this book without bias or persuasion from the author.
Reviewed by Cee from Alpha Book Club
♡☆(¸.•♥´4 more than forsaken stars
"I thought I was rescuing an Angel, and then I thought you were a temptation put in front of me by the devil himself, who by the way is lovely because he’s a fallen angel." ~Titus
Angel happened in Titus's life and opened a Pandora's box. To say that Titus was an innocent was like saying life didn't have meaning.
All my mind kept going to was, there was really people in the world who loved by such beliefs and followed such teachings. Am I glad I have my freedom!!
I am stomped for words now.
"I've never felt like I belonged here."
"Then why aren't you doing something about it?"
"I don't know how."
I absolutely thought I would not get this book, but surprisingly, it turned out to be too much for words. The song said "don't cry for me Argentina. Well, don't cry for Titus. I raged war on the ending and it did not disappoint. The slow growth in Titus was amazballs, and I wished we would have gotten much, much more.
Angel, was wow, an angel. Even through his suffering, he was able to fight through the pain and misery and still come out on top, being the hero that the younger Titus needed.
The secondary characters enhanced this story and I am hoping that the author looks into bringing us more, because both David, the neighbour and Paul, Titus's brother, have a voice that is screaming to be heard. This story is incomplete and I demand more, LOL. Hey, I am just saying what I feel others are thinking.
This one is going on the top 20 of the year...so far.
I voluntarily and honestly reviewed this book without bias or persuasion from the author.
Reviewed by Cee from Alpha Book Club
March 4, 2018
I found it interesting and sad. The ending was surely abrupt.
Around the middle of the book I was not that into it, I expected them to take it slower, to figure things out. It felt rushed.
Most importantly
Around the middle of the book I was not that into it, I expected them to take it slower, to figure things out. It felt rushed.
Most importantly
March 9, 2018
Labels. Everything in our world has a label. Our society thrives on putting a label on us.
Victim
Criminal
Straight
Gay
Short
Tall
Beautiful
Ugly
Words have power. They have the power to destroy or to heal.
Forsaken is a powerful word. It leaves one feeling bereft and alone but it also invokes many more emotional responses. This book does exactly the same.
Forsaken is Titus' journey. His life. It's complicated and filled with labels. Forsaken is a trip that will make plenty of people uncomfortable. It's visceral and raw. It is filled with doubt, helplessness, and real life situations. It also has hope; a four letter word that even the smallest piece of it can bring joy in the worst of circumstances.
You don't have to like M/M to be infatuated with this story. I believe most readers will connect on a personal level to Titus' story. It's a reminder that labels don't define us unless you allow it. You aren't a label. You are a person.
Forsaken is very personal. It's intense and filled with confusion, longing, and hope. It's love, chaos, and a lifetime of faith. It's making a choice. Whether to fight all you've ever know or to ignore your heart...
Choose wisely.
Victim
Criminal
Straight
Gay
Short
Tall
Beautiful
Ugly
Words have power. They have the power to destroy or to heal.
Forsaken is a powerful word. It leaves one feeling bereft and alone but it also invokes many more emotional responses. This book does exactly the same.
Forsaken is Titus' journey. His life. It's complicated and filled with labels. Forsaken is a trip that will make plenty of people uncomfortable. It's visceral and raw. It is filled with doubt, helplessness, and real life situations. It also has hope; a four letter word that even the smallest piece of it can bring joy in the worst of circumstances.
You don't have to like M/M to be infatuated with this story. I believe most readers will connect on a personal level to Titus' story. It's a reminder that labels don't define us unless you allow it. You aren't a label. You are a person.
Forsaken is very personal. It's intense and filled with confusion, longing, and hope. It's love, chaos, and a lifetime of faith. It's making a choice. Whether to fight all you've ever know or to ignore your heart...
Choose wisely.
February 20, 2018
I have been waiting for this brilliant book...JR Gray did an amazing job on this one. Titus is a repressed religious man who only knows one way of life. He stumbles upon Angel and Titus's life is forever changed.
I loved the struggle and the sweet silence that Titus lived with. He was kind and gentle. He was was pure and precious. He was stuck in a world...a life he shouldn't have been in.
Angel was the bright light at the end of the tunnel. He was the happiness that Titus needed. He was understanding and loving. Angle and Titus were fated to find each other.
#HolyHipsterHell #Posthaste #Bumble #Cult #KoolAid #ShelteredBoy
I loved the struggle and the sweet silence that Titus lived with. He was kind and gentle. He was was pure and precious. He was stuck in a world...a life he shouldn't have been in.
Angel was the bright light at the end of the tunnel. He was the happiness that Titus needed. He was understanding and loving. Angle and Titus were fated to find each other.
#HolyHipsterHell #Posthaste #Bumble #Cult #KoolAid #ShelteredBoy
February 22, 2018
I really feel a bunch of turmoil at the end of this book. This story just stirred up a whole lot of emotions in me with everything Titus goes through. His sheltered upbringing and way his identity is suppressed just about killed me. I loved how when he met Angel...his “angel” pretty much helped to save him. Definitely loved the message of acceptance needing to be given in this book.
March 5, 2018
*~~*ARC kindly provided by the author to me in exchange for an honest review *~~*
This book was honestly not the easiest to read & review because of the heavy topic and the things Titus has to deal with.
With Titus we have a main character who lived his whole life in a toxic community, one which told him to be faithful and serve & worship God. As being chosen to be the next Prophet he as a special treatment in the compound, but when he met Angel, who he thought first about a fallen angel from heaven, he comes across that his sheltered life isn't that happy as it seems. More and more Titus sees the ugly sides, the manipulation and what the current Prophet is doing.
I really can't grab the feelings I had while reading. Titus is such a warm, caring soul, he is really believing he is doing the right thing, was tought and told this his whole life but was also okay with it to a certain point. His faith is still there during the book, he really searches for a balance between his faith, his beliefs and his "broken" part, how he calls being gay. It's heartbreaking how he endured the things, how he is well-aware that he is different but is feeling guilty because he doesn't know anything else.
I was impressed by some of the side-characters, like Titus' brother Peter and Angels neighbour and friend David. They had sometimes strong appearances and I would really hope to see them further.
There were a few surprising elements with Peter and how it was woven into the storyline and seeing what he is dealing with is as heartbreaking as Titus' harm.
Although the book has a HEA for Angel and Titus the whole compound isn't magically disappearing and that's what was struck most when I finished the book. The thought about how the Prophet and all the others in the compound going on, still believing they are doing the right thing, and even if Titus is living his life, it's actually still the same. It was honestly a bit disheardening and I'm not sure how to deal with the end. The author's preface was also pretty telling and very honest, adressed the book's topic and actually it helped me for getting a better understanding, still my heart is hurting, thinking that this book is a pretty good display of how those compounds are working, what expectations the members have to fulfill & that even reporting some crimes doesn't help because they aren't seen as such.
The book had it's lighter parts - and they were like small silver linings shining through dark clouds - and the emotions between Angel and Titus were there, but sometimes it felt a bit surreal, the connection was a bit blurry but on the other hand, their two lives are total polar opposites and this way J.R. Gray did a great job in actually displaying this. Angel is aware of Titus' toxic environment, but he is also living his life to certain aspects and can't really understand - having sympathy, yes, but not totally get it - what Titus has to endure.
The sensual parts were there, pretty good delivered but sometimes blacked out and kept vague. I was a bit surprised at first but it was also fitting, because the intimacy is palpable and it isn't actually totally necessary to "be there" all the time. It was definitely a nice suprise and also gave a different display of Titus and his lust, his passion and his feelings.
I really want to recommend the book to those who want to read an honest book about faith, what it means to live in a cmpound, where brainwashing is the daily routine, where the lives are dictated by the words of the Bible and used as weapons by the leaders, without actually seeming the harm & hartred they spread. The book gets 5 out of 5 stars and I really keep this a long time in mind. A remarkable book, with an HEA, and even with some delightful scenes, a heartclenching and heavy book.
Review originally posted on my blog with added content Mikku-chan / A world full of words
This book was honestly not the easiest to read & review because of the heavy topic and the things Titus has to deal with.
With Titus we have a main character who lived his whole life in a toxic community, one which told him to be faithful and serve & worship God. As being chosen to be the next Prophet he as a special treatment in the compound, but when he met Angel, who he thought first about a fallen angel from heaven, he comes across that his sheltered life isn't that happy as it seems. More and more Titus sees the ugly sides, the manipulation and what the current Prophet is doing.
I really can't grab the feelings I had while reading. Titus is such a warm, caring soul, he is really believing he is doing the right thing, was tought and told this his whole life but was also okay with it to a certain point. His faith is still there during the book, he really searches for a balance between his faith, his beliefs and his "broken" part, how he calls being gay. It's heartbreaking how he endured the things, how he is well-aware that he is different but is feeling guilty because he doesn't know anything else.
I was impressed by some of the side-characters, like Titus' brother Peter and Angels neighbour and friend David. They had sometimes strong appearances and I would really hope to see them further.
There were a few surprising elements with Peter and how it was woven into the storyline and seeing what he is dealing with is as heartbreaking as Titus' harm.
Although the book has a HEA for Angel and Titus the whole compound isn't magically disappearing and that's what was struck most when I finished the book. The thought about how the Prophet and all the others in the compound going on, still believing they are doing the right thing, and even if Titus is living his life, it's actually still the same. It was honestly a bit disheardening and I'm not sure how to deal with the end. The author's preface was also pretty telling and very honest, adressed the book's topic and actually it helped me for getting a better understanding, still my heart is hurting, thinking that this book is a pretty good display of how those compounds are working, what expectations the members have to fulfill & that even reporting some crimes doesn't help because they aren't seen as such.
The book had it's lighter parts - and they were like small silver linings shining through dark clouds - and the emotions between Angel and Titus were there, but sometimes it felt a bit surreal, the connection was a bit blurry but on the other hand, their two lives are total polar opposites and this way J.R. Gray did a great job in actually displaying this. Angel is aware of Titus' toxic environment, but he is also living his life to certain aspects and can't really understand - having sympathy, yes, but not totally get it - what Titus has to endure.
The sensual parts were there, pretty good delivered but sometimes blacked out and kept vague. I was a bit surprised at first but it was also fitting, because the intimacy is palpable and it isn't actually totally necessary to "be there" all the time. It was definitely a nice suprise and also gave a different display of Titus and his lust, his passion and his feelings.
I really want to recommend the book to those who want to read an honest book about faith, what it means to live in a cmpound, where brainwashing is the daily routine, where the lives are dictated by the words of the Bible and used as weapons by the leaders, without actually seeming the harm & hartred they spread. The book gets 5 out of 5 stars and I really keep this a long time in mind. A remarkable book, with an HEA, and even with some delightful scenes, a heartclenching and heavy book.
Review originally posted on my blog with added content Mikku-chan / A world full of words
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March 6, 2018I did not give this a star rating as I’m not sure where I stand on this book. I’m a bit torn and confused and I didn’t want to be unfair to the author. I have read several books by the author and I AM a fan of his however as I was writing my review it seemed less than positive.
I usually stay away from religiously themed books. I have strong opinions about faith and typically find exception to what is included in those stories. I often find them preachy as well which I don’t care for either. This book is NOT about religion per se but more about the hypocrisy and controlling nature of religious cults and their effect on those living in one. While I’ve never been in a cult, the things that were happening in this one are very believable (unfortunately) and hard to read. That is not my problem with this book…those scenes were well written and realistic which made me hate the situation Titus was in even more.
So here are my conflicts/issues with the story.
The scene transitions were awkward at times and hard to follow. I had to re-read a couple of paragraphs because I thought I missed something. (not sure if this was because I had an unedited ARC and was caught by an editor or if this is just Gray’s writing style)
There was a lot of detail in some areas and in others the story felt rushed. Titus struggling with his ‘two sides’ was repetitive and extraneous considering there was (I felt) missing or shortened parts to the story.
Titus was ‘naive’ to the ways of the world even after reading a TON of books; he hardly knew anything about the ‘real world’ but then would know something that contradicted that notion and surprised me with his knowledge.
Either this book is the start of a series or is missing some vital details (or both).
- How did Angel end up beaten and on the grounds of the compound? If the speculation about who did it was true, how did he encounter those guys and why did they attack him and steal his stuff?
- The instalove KILLED me. Angel is the first gay man Titus has ever met. They’ve known each other for 3 days (and they honestly didn’t learn that much about each other). They spend more time apart than together but are willing to risk everything to be together. Did NOT work for me. They did have fantastic sexual chemistry but was that because Titus was so sexually repressed or are they really meant to be?
- Toward the end, Titus mentions ‘sticking with his workshop’ which to me means he has one setup outside the compound. Where is that workshop – is it at the house or freestanding? How did he purchase the tools and materials to start the workshop?
- Titus was the ‘chosen one’ to follow in the footsteps of his grandfather…so they just let him go after what was done to him? Never tried to find him?
- What’s the real story with Titus’ dad? Was he genuine or did he betray him? Was he coerced somehow in doing what he did?
- What is Angel’s back story? Are we just supposed to fill in the blanks about what really happened?
- What about Paul? What happens with him? Titus wanted to stay close because of him so does that mean more is coming about him? I felt like David and Paul might have something...a possible story there was maybe a little bit hinted about (or maybe not and I’m just reading too much into their interaction).
- The ending felt abrupt. Titus is still struggling with his conflicting emotions. Does he ever get help with that?
I always try to balance the positive and negative in my reviews but I’m having a tough time finding the positive. Their banter was cute. I liked Titus started to see the cult for what it is. David and Paul were good guys. That’s pretty much all I could come up with on the positive, so take my review as you will and decide for yourself whether to read this one.
I usually stay away from religiously themed books. I have strong opinions about faith and typically find exception to what is included in those stories. I often find them preachy as well which I don’t care for either. This book is NOT about religion per se but more about the hypocrisy and controlling nature of religious cults and their effect on those living in one. While I’ve never been in a cult, the things that were happening in this one are very believable (unfortunately) and hard to read. That is not my problem with this book…those scenes were well written and realistic which made me hate the situation Titus was in even more.
So here are my conflicts/issues with the story.
The scene transitions were awkward at times and hard to follow. I had to re-read a couple of paragraphs because I thought I missed something. (not sure if this was because I had an unedited ARC and was caught by an editor or if this is just Gray’s writing style)
There was a lot of detail in some areas and in others the story felt rushed. Titus struggling with his ‘two sides’ was repetitive and extraneous considering there was (I felt) missing or shortened parts to the story.
Titus was ‘naive’ to the ways of the world even after reading a TON of books; he hardly knew anything about the ‘real world’ but then would know something that contradicted that notion and surprised me with his knowledge.
Either this book is the start of a series or is missing some vital details (or both).
- How did Angel end up beaten and on the grounds of the compound? If the speculation about who did it was true, how did he encounter those guys and why did they attack him and steal his stuff?
- The instalove KILLED me. Angel is the first gay man Titus has ever met. They’ve known each other for 3 days (and they honestly didn’t learn that much about each other). They spend more time apart than together but are willing to risk everything to be together. Did NOT work for me. They did have fantastic sexual chemistry but was that because Titus was so sexually repressed or are they really meant to be?
- Toward the end, Titus mentions ‘sticking with his workshop’ which to me means he has one setup outside the compound. Where is that workshop – is it at the house or freestanding? How did he purchase the tools and materials to start the workshop?
- Titus was the ‘chosen one’ to follow in the footsteps of his grandfather…so they just let him go after what was done to him? Never tried to find him?
- What’s the real story with Titus’ dad? Was he genuine or did he betray him? Was he coerced somehow in doing what he did?
- What is Angel’s back story? Are we just supposed to fill in the blanks about what really happened?
- What about Paul? What happens with him? Titus wanted to stay close because of him so does that mean more is coming about him? I felt like David and Paul might have something...a possible story there was maybe a little bit hinted about (or maybe not and I’m just reading too much into their interaction).
- The ending felt abrupt. Titus is still struggling with his conflicting emotions. Does he ever get help with that?
I always try to balance the positive and negative in my reviews but I’m having a tough time finding the positive. Their banter was cute. I liked Titus started to see the cult for what it is. David and Paul were good guys. That’s pretty much all I could come up with on the positive, so take my review as you will and decide for yourself whether to read this one.
February 27, 2018
ARC REVIEW
RELEASE DATE: 26 February 2018
Please note that this book was provided for free by the author's publishing PR in exchange for an honest review. Feel free to check out my full book review policy here for more details.
This book took me a little while to settle into- I read it during one of the busiest weekends of my life- but it still managed to get me hooked and ready for a sequel (please say you’re reading this J.R Gray?!)
First off, the fact that the author himself grew up in a cult-like environment made this story so much more meaningful to me. It made me feel like in reading about Titus and Angel I was getting a little glimpse into how his life could have gone. I just kept imagining how much such an upbringing could affect someone and I was really glad he made it out and was able to share this story with us, even if it might not necessarily have been fully autobiographical.
Titus and Angel. Two more adorable and lovable characters I have never met! I really felt for Titus in the beginning when he met Angel and was immediately drawn to him but at the same time wasn’t at all aware of the fact that what he was feeling was attraction. Titus’s character was so unaffected, so innocent that I found myself falling for him right at the beginning. The fact that he was this tall, strong man who made things with his hands for a living obviously didn’t hurt but it was his openness and pure nature that had me desperate to see if he figured out how to balance the plans the Prophet had for him and the desires of his heart.
Angel. What a sassy, funny, loving character! I loved him from the first moment I read about his long hair and tall frame. More than anything I loved how patient and gentle he was with Titus and how he was aware that his actions could put pressure on Titus and make him do something he wasn’t ready for. It’s rare to read about characters who are so kind to one another and whose affection for one another practically leaps off the page.
The character of the Prophet was well written although I honestly expected him to be a bit more...well, more really. He sort of seemed more like a boogeyman than a person with any real power but that might have been in keeping with the author’s own experience and/or his desire to show that people only have as much power over us as we give them. I respect that even though I would have preferred a little more drama where the Prophet and the cult community was concerned.
I loved Paul, Titus’s brother and how calm, measured and considerate he was. I think he brought some much needed wisdom into Titus’s life and I am hoping for some sort of resolution to his own story soon (please Mr Gray, say you are reading this review?!)
Finally, the writing style was great, easy to sink into and humorous at times. That being said I was hoping for more steamy bits but was happy overall with how touching and well written this book was.
I gave it a well earned rating of: 4 I'm a big softy and this was right up my ally stars!
RELEASE DATE: 26 February 2018
Please note that this book was provided for free by the author's publishing PR in exchange for an honest review. Feel free to check out my full book review policy here for more details.
This book took me a little while to settle into- I read it during one of the busiest weekends of my life- but it still managed to get me hooked and ready for a sequel (please say you’re reading this J.R Gray?!)
First off, the fact that the author himself grew up in a cult-like environment made this story so much more meaningful to me. It made me feel like in reading about Titus and Angel I was getting a little glimpse into how his life could have gone. I just kept imagining how much such an upbringing could affect someone and I was really glad he made it out and was able to share this story with us, even if it might not necessarily have been fully autobiographical.
Titus and Angel. Two more adorable and lovable characters I have never met! I really felt for Titus in the beginning when he met Angel and was immediately drawn to him but at the same time wasn’t at all aware of the fact that what he was feeling was attraction. Titus’s character was so unaffected, so innocent that I found myself falling for him right at the beginning. The fact that he was this tall, strong man who made things with his hands for a living obviously didn’t hurt but it was his openness and pure nature that had me desperate to see if he figured out how to balance the plans the Prophet had for him and the desires of his heart.
Angel. What a sassy, funny, loving character! I loved him from the first moment I read about his long hair and tall frame. More than anything I loved how patient and gentle he was with Titus and how he was aware that his actions could put pressure on Titus and make him do something he wasn’t ready for. It’s rare to read about characters who are so kind to one another and whose affection for one another practically leaps off the page.
The character of the Prophet was well written although I honestly expected him to be a bit more...well, more really. He sort of seemed more like a boogeyman than a person with any real power but that might have been in keeping with the author’s own experience and/or his desire to show that people only have as much power over us as we give them. I respect that even though I would have preferred a little more drama where the Prophet and the cult community was concerned.
I loved Paul, Titus’s brother and how calm, measured and considerate he was. I think he brought some much needed wisdom into Titus’s life and I am hoping for some sort of resolution to his own story soon (please Mr Gray, say you are reading this review?!)
Finally, the writing style was great, easy to sink into and humorous at times. That being said I was hoping for more steamy bits but was happy overall with how touching and well written this book was.
I gave it a well earned rating of: 4 I'm a big softy and this was right up my ally stars!
February 26, 2018
Angel Rodriguez was running from heartbreak when he was left for dead in the middle of the vast Wyoming landscape. And if by a miracle, he's somehow rescued by a man who is trying desperately to flee from some pain of his own.
Titus was born and raised in a religious cult that held themselves separate from the rest of the world. He always felt just a bit out of place and he never really knew why. Until he found his Angel.
"Are you okay?" Angel put his hand on Titus' shoulder. Titus' eyes snapped open, and he made himself stop before he threw Angel's hand off. He'd moved from where he leaned on the counter and now stood much too close to Titus.
Just the barest hint of a touch had Titus' heart racing. A feeling no woman, or man, for that matter, had ever given him.
"I've spent so long feeling broken."
Angel has never met anyone who deserves to be happy more than Titus. With his pure heart, honesty and unassuming beauty, he's finding it virtually impossible not to fall head over heels in love with him.
He knows that he can show Titus a brand-new world where they are free to love as they choose. But it will mean leaving behind everything that he's ever known and forsaking his duty as the next Prophet.
"Do you really believe I don't want you? Or that I'm not attracted to you?" Titus said in a whisper.
"Of course I do."
Titus looked like he was about to lose it hard. He did the staring at the sky thing and pressed his lips together. "I couldn't do that to you."
"Couldn't do what to me? You were not taking advantage. Don't even go there. You know you weren't."
"That's not what I mean."
"Then what?"
"I couldn't do those things with you and then let you leave. I couldn't touch you like I wanted to and go back to my life. It would ruin me."
With Forsaken, J. R. Gray delivers an unexpected tale of love with a delicate balance of both surprising candor and sincerity.
Against a backdrop of colorless conformity, his characters light up the page with the kind of hope and resilience that will have you believing that love does indeed overcome all hate and fear.
And that's a beautiful thing…
Titus was born and raised in a religious cult that held themselves separate from the rest of the world. He always felt just a bit out of place and he never really knew why. Until he found his Angel.
"Are you okay?" Angel put his hand on Titus' shoulder. Titus' eyes snapped open, and he made himself stop before he threw Angel's hand off. He'd moved from where he leaned on the counter and now stood much too close to Titus.
Just the barest hint of a touch had Titus' heart racing. A feeling no woman, or man, for that matter, had ever given him.
"I've spent so long feeling broken."
Angel has never met anyone who deserves to be happy more than Titus. With his pure heart, honesty and unassuming beauty, he's finding it virtually impossible not to fall head over heels in love with him.
He knows that he can show Titus a brand-new world where they are free to love as they choose. But it will mean leaving behind everything that he's ever known and forsaking his duty as the next Prophet.
"Do you really believe I don't want you? Or that I'm not attracted to you?" Titus said in a whisper.
"Of course I do."
Titus looked like he was about to lose it hard. He did the staring at the sky thing and pressed his lips together. "I couldn't do that to you."
"Couldn't do what to me? You were not taking advantage. Don't even go there. You know you weren't."
"That's not what I mean."
"Then what?"
"I couldn't do those things with you and then let you leave. I couldn't touch you like I wanted to and go back to my life. It would ruin me."
With Forsaken, J. R. Gray delivers an unexpected tale of love with a delicate balance of both surprising candor and sincerity.
Against a backdrop of colorless conformity, his characters light up the page with the kind of hope and resilience that will have you believing that love does indeed overcome all hate and fear.
And that's a beautiful thing…
March 14, 2018
4 Stars
The first thing that grabbed my attention about this book was the gorgeous cover, it's breathtaking in its simplicity. Then the blurb, which is direct and to the point. I've read other books with a similar theme and I really enjoyed this one.
Titus lives in a compound and he's being groomed to take over after the Prophet in the religious community he's lived in all his life. However, when he finds an injured man outside their compound, his beliefs are put to the test.
Angel is a drifter/photographer who is hurt and robbed by some rednecks in a bar and left miles away from the place he was in. He isn't all that happy to go with Titus into the compound, but he has no other choice at the moment. The longer he is with Titus, the longer he's attracted to the sweet man, especially once he realizes Titus is gay as well.
I absolutely adored Titus, he was such a lovely character. Perhaps due to his upbringing, he was innocent and naive, very hardworking and willing to believe the best of everyone else. I really liked that Titus's realization that not all things were as they appeared in the cult was progressive, little bits here and there that led him to question some of the things he'd been taught since he was a child. It made the process more believable.
I really liked Angel. Although it got on my nerves that he would compare Titus with his ex or anyone else, when there was no comparison. However, he pulled through when Titus really needed him, so bonus points. And really, the chemistry between them was out of this world.
While the ending was a bit rushed, especially considering the length of the book, it's still a very good read. I would've liked a bit more closure regarding the bad guys, although it left the door open for more stories in this 'verse, which is something I hope happens, especially since I'd love to read more about Paul and David, and of course, catch up with Titus and Angel.
All in all, Forsaken is a book I'd highly recommend!
*** Copy provided to Bayou Book Junkie for my reading pleasure, a review wasn't a requirement. ***
The first thing that grabbed my attention about this book was the gorgeous cover, it's breathtaking in its simplicity. Then the blurb, which is direct and to the point. I've read other books with a similar theme and I really enjoyed this one.
Titus lives in a compound and he's being groomed to take over after the Prophet in the religious community he's lived in all his life. However, when he finds an injured man outside their compound, his beliefs are put to the test.
Angel is a drifter/photographer who is hurt and robbed by some rednecks in a bar and left miles away from the place he was in. He isn't all that happy to go with Titus into the compound, but he has no other choice at the moment. The longer he is with Titus, the longer he's attracted to the sweet man, especially once he realizes Titus is gay as well.
I absolutely adored Titus, he was such a lovely character. Perhaps due to his upbringing, he was innocent and naive, very hardworking and willing to believe the best of everyone else. I really liked that Titus's realization that not all things were as they appeared in the cult was progressive, little bits here and there that led him to question some of the things he'd been taught since he was a child. It made the process more believable.
I really liked Angel. Although it got on my nerves that he would compare Titus with his ex or anyone else, when there was no comparison. However, he pulled through when Titus really needed him, so bonus points. And really, the chemistry between them was out of this world.
While the ending was a bit rushed, especially considering the length of the book, it's still a very good read. I would've liked a bit more closure regarding the bad guys, although it left the door open for more stories in this 'verse, which is something I hope happens, especially since I'd love to read more about Paul and David, and of course, catch up with Titus and Angel.
All in all, Forsaken is a book I'd highly recommend!
*** Copy provided to Bayou Book Junkie for my reading pleasure, a review wasn't a requirement. ***
February 26, 2018
In case you don't know, I am a HUGE fan of J.R. Gray. I've loved every book he's written and Forsaken is no different. This book drew me in from the first page and kept me completely immersed until the last page...and then I was left wanting more. I believe one sign of a great book is when it leaves you wanting more. I need to know what happens to Paul. I would love to know where life takes Titus and Angel. Does David find his HEA?
I'm getting ahead of myself. When Titus stumbles upon a man who has been beaten and is unconscious, he sees an angel. Even through the dirt and grime, through the bruises, Angel is the most beautiful man Titus has ever seen. Angel is such a joy. He's feisty and sassy. He's been hurt, but he is willing to take a chance on Titus even if it means more pain.
I love how innocent Titus is and how gentle Angel is with him. I love the way Titus speaks, how curious he is, how easily he trusts Angel. At the same time, my heart broke for Titus and the life he grew up in. From the outside, one could possibly think that way of life is simple, but reading about how Titus was punished and the horrible things that happened at the compound made me ache for Titus and his brother Paul. They deserve so much more. Thankfully Angel came along to rescue Titus and in return Titus rescued Angel's heart. I loved this book. Loved it!
I'm getting ahead of myself. When Titus stumbles upon a man who has been beaten and is unconscious, he sees an angel. Even through the dirt and grime, through the bruises, Angel is the most beautiful man Titus has ever seen. Angel is such a joy. He's feisty and sassy. He's been hurt, but he is willing to take a chance on Titus even if it means more pain.
I love how innocent Titus is and how gentle Angel is with him. I love the way Titus speaks, how curious he is, how easily he trusts Angel. At the same time, my heart broke for Titus and the life he grew up in. From the outside, one could possibly think that way of life is simple, but reading about how Titus was punished and the horrible things that happened at the compound made me ache for Titus and his brother Paul. They deserve so much more. Thankfully Angel came along to rescue Titus and in return Titus rescued Angel's heart. I loved this book. Loved it!
March 2, 2018
In general, I try to stay away from books with a religious theme because I just feel sorry for the people, who, IRL, live that way. Not the normal, religious way. I am talking cult like religion. That's the type of things that I shy away from because to know that it exists and that people suffer, it's disturbing.
However, I love me some JR Gray. So when I saw the blurb and then the cover, I was like sign me up for THAT!
So, what I will tell you is, Angel and Titus....innocence, love, trust, pain, lust. These two men are thrown together, quite frankly, by some twist of fate. Angel knows who he is, Titus is sheltered. He knows he has feelings, but, he has been taught that it is wrong. So, he resists. He has known nothing but his religion and their way of life. Will Angel be able to help him learn and understand that there is more to life out there?
This is the story of these two men getting to know each other, coming to terms with who and what they are, self discovery. It's not a story for everyone, but, I think if you find the blurb interesting, give it a go. You won't be disappointed.
However, I love me some JR Gray. So when I saw the blurb and then the cover, I was like sign me up for THAT!
So, what I will tell you is, Angel and Titus....innocence, love, trust, pain, lust. These two men are thrown together, quite frankly, by some twist of fate. Angel knows who he is, Titus is sheltered. He knows he has feelings, but, he has been taught that it is wrong. So, he resists. He has known nothing but his religion and their way of life. Will Angel be able to help him learn and understand that there is more to life out there?
This is the story of these two men getting to know each other, coming to terms with who and what they are, self discovery. It's not a story for everyone, but, I think if you find the blurb interesting, give it a go. You won't be disappointed.
March 30, 2018
(Originally reviewed for Love Bytes Reviews. Rated 3.5 out of 4.0 Love Bytes)
This was one of those stories that I read straight through. I was trapped in a country inn in New Hampshire in the middle of a blizzard and I read it cover to cover. I enjoyed it, but found myself constantly hoping for a little more. Let me explain.
The story revolves around two main characters. The first is Titus, a young man who has been raised for most of his life in a remote religious compound in Wyoming. His grandfather is the founder of the compound, or more aptly named cult, and Titus is to be his heir. Then Titus, while on a trip outside the compound for some undisclosed reason, finds a young man who looks like an angel lying in a roadside ditch. The man has been beaten and robbed.
The other main character is that beaten man, Angel. Right from the start I had questions. Who beat him and why? Why, if the compound had phones, was no report ever done? I got that Titus was kind of hiding Angel, but it left me confused.
Once the story moved on, I found myself invested in the story and wondering how the two men could work out their differences. I struggled a little bit with the unlikelyhood that someone in Titus’ position could have possibly gotten to twenty years old or thereabouts and never learned that there were gay people. If he were confined to the compound…maybe, but he traveled to the city regularly to sell the furniture he and his crew made in their wood shop on the grounds of the compound. But, for the sake of the story, I went along with it and suspended my disbelief. From there on the story developed as I expected, building steadily to the end.
For myself, I would have liked a little more angst and a little more cult drama. There was the surprising scene with Titus’ dad near the end, which I was totally not expecting, but I did expect more along those lines based on the blurb.
Overall, I would say that I liked the story. I would have to rate it as “Liked it/Above Average” on our Love Bytes rating scale.
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This was one of those stories that I read straight through. I was trapped in a country inn in New Hampshire in the middle of a blizzard and I read it cover to cover. I enjoyed it, but found myself constantly hoping for a little more. Let me explain.
The story revolves around two main characters. The first is Titus, a young man who has been raised for most of his life in a remote religious compound in Wyoming. His grandfather is the founder of the compound, or more aptly named cult, and Titus is to be his heir. Then Titus, while on a trip outside the compound for some undisclosed reason, finds a young man who looks like an angel lying in a roadside ditch. The man has been beaten and robbed.
The other main character is that beaten man, Angel. Right from the start I had questions. Who beat him and why? Why, if the compound had phones, was no report ever done? I got that Titus was kind of hiding Angel, but it left me confused.
Once the story moved on, I found myself invested in the story and wondering how the two men could work out their differences. I struggled a little bit with the unlikelyhood that someone in Titus’ position could have possibly gotten to twenty years old or thereabouts and never learned that there were gay people. If he were confined to the compound…maybe, but he traveled to the city regularly to sell the furniture he and his crew made in their wood shop on the grounds of the compound. But, for the sake of the story, I went along with it and suspended my disbelief. From there on the story developed as I expected, building steadily to the end.
For myself, I would have liked a little more angst and a little more cult drama. There was the surprising scene with Titus’ dad near the end, which I was totally not expecting, but I did expect more along those lines based on the blurb.
Overall, I would say that I liked the story. I would have to rate it as “Liked it/Above Average” on our Love Bytes rating scale.
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January 14, 2020
Omg editing please!
So, first I really enjoyed the storyline. Man meets man under strange circumstances, love blooms. Cults, MM, love is love. All that. Here’s my problem... editing. Dear lord I’m heaven (no pun intended) this was a mess around the halfway point on. Words out of order, extra ones thrown in. Hire me! Cheap, meticulous labor here! Also, this innocent, naive, religious, sheltered man started cursing suddenly. I don’t care, but it just struck me as Inconsistent. Other reviews were correct about the lack of Angel’s back story. At first I thought it unnecessary. But as the story went on, and the mention of life altering events without elaboration became more frequent, I have to admit it was slightly frustrating. Also, the ending seemed slightly abrupt. Strange. And if someone is held against their will, and local help is not an option.... why are these seemingly intelligent men looking for another obvious source for assistance? Ok sorry. I’m giving too much away. This could have been an awesome story, but it “lost it’s way” so to speak.
So, first I really enjoyed the storyline. Man meets man under strange circumstances, love blooms. Cults, MM, love is love. All that. Here’s my problem... editing. Dear lord I’m heaven (no pun intended) this was a mess around the halfway point on. Words out of order, extra ones thrown in. Hire me! Cheap, meticulous labor here! Also, this innocent, naive, religious, sheltered man started cursing suddenly. I don’t care, but it just struck me as Inconsistent. Other reviews were correct about the lack of Angel’s back story. At first I thought it unnecessary. But as the story went on, and the mention of life altering events without elaboration became more frequent, I have to admit it was slightly frustrating. Also, the ending seemed slightly abrupt. Strange. And if someone is held against their will, and local help is not an option.... why are these seemingly intelligent men looking for another obvious source for assistance? Ok sorry. I’m giving too much away. This could have been an awesome story, but it “lost it’s way” so to speak.
September 8, 2019
Thank you, Gray
I've had Forsaken in my TBR for quite some time. I think I hesitated starting Forsaken knowing the impact Gray has on me with his words and anticipating the journey of self acceptance that I assumed was the focus of this story. I just wasn't ready to face how the story would resonate. I wish I braved it sooner. The chemistry between Titus and Angel is a living, breathing force. Gray has brilliantly written these characters, invoking strong emotions in their interactions with each other as well as the supporting characters. I found myself rooting for Titus to overcome his circumstances and embrace love, not for Angel but for himself and what was right. For me, this was a story of love rather than just another love story. Love yourself and love others the same.
Thank you for sharing this story, Gray, and with it a part of yourself.
I've had Forsaken in my TBR for quite some time. I think I hesitated starting Forsaken knowing the impact Gray has on me with his words and anticipating the journey of self acceptance that I assumed was the focus of this story. I just wasn't ready to face how the story would resonate. I wish I braved it sooner. The chemistry between Titus and Angel is a living, breathing force. Gray has brilliantly written these characters, invoking strong emotions in their interactions with each other as well as the supporting characters. I found myself rooting for Titus to overcome his circumstances and embrace love, not for Angel but for himself and what was right. For me, this was a story of love rather than just another love story. Love yourself and love others the same.
Thank you for sharing this story, Gray, and with it a part of yourself.
February 26, 2018
Storyline: 5
Angst: 3
Tissue: 2
Value: 5
Panty Scorching: 5
Over All Rating: 4.5 Stars
Kindle eArc provided by Author
Reviewed by Robin
Raised strongly in a religious compound, Titus was training to face his destiny as the next leader of the church as proclaimed by the Prophet. But he doesn’t feel worthy since he feels like such a sinner. When he rescues an angel, Titus is torn in two. Should he be faithful to his faith or the hidden part of him that he can never show?
“He wanted to come first. He wanted to be picked.
But that’s not how life was. People did what was best for them and that seldom included what their partner wanted or needed. It’s why there was such a cheating epidemic. Angel needed to be alone. His expectations of monogamy were too high in this hook up culture and the one damn guy who would probably be faithful was trapped in a cult. How was this real life?”
I really feel a bunch of turmoil at the end of this book. This story just stirred up a whole lot of emotions in me with everything Titus goes through. His sheltered upbringing and the way his identity is suppressed just about killed me. I loved how when he met Angel...his “angel” pretty much helped to save him. I definitely strongly identified with the message of acceptance needing to be given in this book.
The relationship between Angel and Titus just about broke my heart and when I read the author’s foreword, it added right to it. I have never experienced the same type of rejection as is in the story and it really makes you think about what some people have to face in this world and the real meaning of family and love.
Angst: 3
Tissue: 2
Value: 5
Panty Scorching: 5
Over All Rating: 4.5 Stars
Kindle eArc provided by Author
Reviewed by Robin
Raised strongly in a religious compound, Titus was training to face his destiny as the next leader of the church as proclaimed by the Prophet. But he doesn’t feel worthy since he feels like such a sinner. When he rescues an angel, Titus is torn in two. Should he be faithful to his faith or the hidden part of him that he can never show?
“He wanted to come first. He wanted to be picked.
But that’s not how life was. People did what was best for them and that seldom included what their partner wanted or needed. It’s why there was such a cheating epidemic. Angel needed to be alone. His expectations of monogamy were too high in this hook up culture and the one damn guy who would probably be faithful was trapped in a cult. How was this real life?”
I really feel a bunch of turmoil at the end of this book. This story just stirred up a whole lot of emotions in me with everything Titus goes through. His sheltered upbringing and the way his identity is suppressed just about killed me. I loved how when he met Angel...his “angel” pretty much helped to save him. I definitely strongly identified with the message of acceptance needing to be given in this book.
The relationship between Angel and Titus just about broke my heart and when I read the author’s foreword, it added right to it. I have never experienced the same type of rejection as is in the story and it really makes you think about what some people have to face in this world and the real meaning of family and love.
March 3, 2018
In J.R. Gary's latest book we are introduced to polar opposite's who magnetic attraction can not be denied. Angel comes from a world of acceptance where Titus is bound to a world of strict rules and absolute devotion and blind obedience. J.R. has done an amazing job writing a story that is so true and heartfelt that you won't want to put it down, but anyone that has deltmwith religious persecutions will be forced to stop and examine how it has effected their own lives.
There will be tears, laughter, contiplation and finally relive to learn Love does concure anything. This is a MUST READ for anyone who belives in the power or love.
There will be tears, laughter, contiplation and finally relive to learn Love does concure anything. This is a MUST READ for anyone who belives in the power or love.
March 1, 2018
Absolutely Brilliant
This book is a must read. I went through lots of emotions whilst reading this book. It made be laugh, it made me cry, both with happiness and sadness, it made be groan, it made me want to wrap Titus up in bubble wrap. He is adorable. Angel is an Angel. Just loved them both. I don't want to put out spoilers but it left me wanting to know more. I need to know more. What happens to Paul. What happens with David. There must be a story there too. Please I need book 2!
This book is a must read. I went through lots of emotions whilst reading this book. It made be laugh, it made me cry, both with happiness and sadness, it made be groan, it made me want to wrap Titus up in bubble wrap. He is adorable. Angel is an Angel. Just loved them both. I don't want to put out spoilers but it left me wanting to know more. I need to know more. What happens to Paul. What happens with David. There must be a story there too. Please I need book 2!
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