This was too long. I was bored half the time and annoyed for the other half.
Sure, there were some nice moments, but really there were only like 3 moments I actually liked, and this book is ridiculously long. I want to say that for about 75% of it, nothing actually happened, besides them meeting and deciding they're in love all of a sudden. I was actually happy when Gil showed up to stir the pot a little bit, but he was such an asshole and Harp was just taking it and then that turned into something annoying as well.
Because this book was so long, I expected this to be a slow burn. Well, I was dead wrong and that made me sad, because now I was stuck reading about a couple who kept saying the same things (in their head) and kept dealing with the same issues without realising that they weren't going to go away with time and that they needed professional help. Actually, that's a lie, one of them did realise, but that was at like 85% into the book and we don't get to see them actually working on it. We just jump to an epilogue, which is about the length of 3 chapters and according to my kindle took about an hour to read. It's too fucking long and it doesn't feel like an epilogue, because there's still, like, story happening? I'm sorry, but to me, just because you're jumping 5 months into the future near the end of your book, doesn't mean everything after that is epilogue.
Like I said, it's much of the same over and over again for 75% of the book, and that's really sad, because what would have been interesting is the period of time in between the last chapter and the "epilogue". That's were all the deep diving character growth is, and we don't get to see it unfold, we just see them with a lot of issues and the same insecurities (which are valid, but literally sometimes feel like I'm reading the exact same sentences, it feels like they're not learning anything, which is why them seeing therapists would have been interesting) and then we jump to when they've grown a lot.
Some parts of the story also just didn't really make sense to me, like the whole sex thing where Harp was refusing, when they both actually wanted to, for reasons. It's very unclear. In the beginning he made it out like there was this huge reason why, but there actually wasn't? Also, I like some sexy scenes as much as the next person, but I don't need 3 full chapters (that each take like 30 minutes to read) where nothing else happens besides them having sex, constantly switching p.o.v.'s, saying the same thing in their heads (again) over and over. I get it, he's hot and he makes you hot and it's unbelievable and oh my god. I was going to say "Get on with the story", but there actually isn't really one interesting enough to get back to.
It just saddens me how many lost opportunities there are in this book. I mean, it's so long, and I like long books, but not like this. It took me forever to read and I'm not really one to give up one something, but I'm glad it's over.