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I’m a cutter. I cut because I find solace in it. I cut because it helps calm my frantic mind. I cut because the voices inside my head tell me to. I cut because this is the only way I know how to handle life.

324 pages, Paperback

First published February 28, 2018

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Margaret McHeyzer

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NEW YORK TIMES BEST SELLING AUTHOR OF UGLY AND MISTRUST

I’m a two-time New York Times bestselling author for my stand-alone books Ugly and Mistrust. To date I’ve published over 30 books!
I’m first generation Australian born and live in Sydney with my husband, two daughters and my rescue-dog, Kingston!
I love to write stories to connect my readers to my strong, courageous characters…with some spice sprinkled between the pages.
The characters I write about can pop into my mind anytime and anywhere. From the shower, to washing dishes, playing with my puppy or even in my dreams. My characters can sometimes be intrusive, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Thank you for taking this journey with me and I truly hope you love reading my stories as much as I love writing them.

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221 reviews139 followers
May 8, 2019
Disclaimer: This book was sent to me by the author, via NetGalley, for an honest review.

Opinion:

Look, I totally see where the author was trying to go with this.

To bring awareness to Mental Health issues, to give a voice to those who might not be able to speak about their struggles, to help the public understand what it means to have inner demons.

I can really appreciate all of that.

These are important topics that REALLY need to be talked about more.

But for me, the way this story was executed - how the characters were developed, their dialogue, reactions and problem solving – was cringe-worthy.

And not in a good way.

I’m obviously completely in the minority on this one, because this book has nothing but amazing reviews on Goodreads. If we’re talking about the message the author is trying to send to the reader, then hell yes, it’s a 5-star read. It covers several difficult topics that so many people can relate to. It gives a voice to those who are suffering from similar demons and traumatic experiences, and sheds light on situations that other people may not know a lot about. The book gets HEAVY with these topics, and it isn’t for the fainthearted.

But if we set that aside and talk about the writing, character development, dialogue, etc.

It’s just not done well.

It was SO hard to make a connection with any of the characters. Their struggles and personalities were voiced, but I didn’t have the chance to really KNOW any of them. The moments of Ivy cutting herself were the closest I could get to having a meaningful connection with her. They were detailed and really expressed the emotional terror that envelopes a person when they self-harm. In those instances, I could really feel her pain and confusion. The dark scenes translated well through the pages! But in every other aspect, Ivy’s character fell flat and seemed really all over the place in terms of her development.

Her character flips back and forth between being all-knowing and dishing out advice, to knowing nothing and not being able to practice any of the things she tells others to do.

That doesn’t make sense to me.

The dialogue felt awkward and forced, it didn’t have a nice flow, and I was cringing the entire time from how uncomfortable it kept making me. Some of the conversations run on for too long, and it causes a lot of repeated sentences and ideas. Every response is “nope” and every emotion that Ivy may feel is summed up with an “ugh” instead of being creatively described. Then when a REALLY serious moment is happening the characters can only come up with the same phrase to say over, and over, and over – “oh, man” or “It’s okay dad, tell me, I need to know dad”.

Can’t they say something else?

Tobias’s character is really frustrating to me too. He instantly latches onto Ivy with his INSTA-LOVE, and becomes REALLY controlling and possessive with her. Why do none of the other characters see an issue with this? He’s super pushy and aggressive. I KNOW HE’S WORKING THROUGH ISSUES, OKAY? But does that make it okay for his character to go around throwing punches and freaking out? AND WHY IS EVERY OTHER CHARACTER OKAY WITH HIS ATTITUDE?!
They all continually make excuses for out of control behavior.

Someone gets hit in the face – “here, have a soda”.

Ivy comes clean about her demons and opens up to her friends, and their response? “Yea let’s just drop it and talk about it some other time”.

WHAT?!

It seems to me that the author was so focused on shoving every “hot topic” into this book, that she forgot to put work into her characters and what they say. There isn’t any FEELING behind their thoughts and actions, it’s robotic, stiff and dull. It just feels like lazy writing.

I really wanted to like this, because I feel strongly about Mental Health Issues NEEDING to be talked about in society, and handled with compassion and care. As a society I think we shy away from these topics, or look down on people who think or behave differently.

I commend the author for giving Mental Health a voice.

But in terms of a great book, this isn’t it.
Profile Image for Laura Lee.
957 reviews174 followers
April 10, 2018
Drowning
By Margaret McHeyzer
5 Love You Stars!

This is a story that needs to be read by everyone. Doesn’t matter if you are a young adult or a seasoned adult. What an eye-opening story that gives you a better understanding behind what types of demons people battle with each and every day.

Ivy and Tobias both have demons they are battling with. Both embarrassed to open up to anyone about what they are going through. It’s a tough road that we see deeply inside of with Ivy. It’s not until a tragic event happens that causes Ivy to spiral into the spinning that you are unable to overcome.

With love and the aide of family and a wonderful psychiatrist, Ivy gets the help she much needs and is able to move on and attend college. But trust me in saying that getting to where she is today, hasn’t been an easy road to travel.

It’s when Tobias finally opens up and reveals his demons, my heart cracked. But finding out how his father was dealt with, I will admit, I fist bumped to my kindle!

Margaret McHeyzer can pen a book related to taboo situations that people steer clear of. She opens our eyes to see that even though mental illness is a disease, its one that there are resources available for all. Never think you are alone. It just takes the courage to have your voice be heard. Make that phone call, tell a loved one, talk to someone. Never try to battle the demons on your own. Everyone deserves to be loved!!

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5,035 reviews597 followers
March 19, 2018
Drowning is the first Margaret McHeyzer book I have read, and there is no doubt I will be back for more. This one hit me in all the right places, and I’m desperate to see what else Margaret McHeyzer can do to me.

Despite how intrigued I was by the notion of this book, there was some uncertainty in place. I’m always open to books dealing with heavy topics, but when it’s a topic I have personal experience with I find myself fearful of how well it will be done. Thus, I was both excited and nervous to read this one.

Quickly, I realised my fears were unfounded. There was no reason for my nervous, as this book does a wonderful job of dealing with many heavy topics. The self-harm element of the story is well done: it looks at more than just the act itself, dealing with all the fears that go with it (the fear someone will find out, the fear someone knows, the fears of what you will do when it comes to clothing, and so many other fears many may not realise are associated with the act), the individual feelings towards the act (the good and the bad), and the way in which others respond. The mental health element is also really well done: it is a central aspect to the story, and it has a large focus on bringing to light the stigma and fears surrounding mental health. There is another element that is really well done, but I’m not going to say what it is. You get hints of it throughout the story, so you can guess what is coming, but I’m not going to say what it is before you get the chance to dive in – just know, the heavy topic I have not mentioned is also dealt with really well. There’s also a part in the middle of the book that was completely unexpected and equally heavy – and again, it was done really well.

In fact, this is one of the best books I have read in a long time when it comes to dealing with heavy topics. It’s a diverse story – the characters and the events – and all is done really well. You’re sucked into the story, into the lives of the characters, and you cannot help but feel. It’s very much a character driven story, you spend a lot of time inside the head of our main character, coming to understanding how she is feeling. The events that do occur all hit hard, ensuring you’re sucked in deep.

There is no doubt this is a heavy read, that this is a book people should read. It deserves to consumed, it deserves attention, and the more people who read this the more eyes that can be opened. I’m not trying to preach here, I’m not suggesting the book is either, but it is one of those books that will make people sit back and think.

The only thing to stop me from giving a five-star rating was the romance. I enjoyed it a lot – the way the characters grew, the way they dealt with their problems – but I felt as though it wasn’t quite given the focus it could have been towards the end. There was such a connection between the characters early in the book, and I wished to see the same level of intensity at the point where fears were being faced. It was well done, but I would have liked more. Hence, this is more of a four-point-five-star read: I loved it, but it wasn’t quite enough for me to round up.

Overall, this one hit me hard, in the best way possible, and it’s going to take a while for me to find my equilibrium again.
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1,908 reviews60 followers
May 8, 2018
Stay Strong

Margaret McHeyzer has written a book that is a raw and powerful read, and yes, there will be tears. This book is all about what society makes taboo subjects and she has written it in such a way that the characters make you fall in love with them and want to help them overcome their demons.
When you read this book, be ready for a heartfelt, and at times, gut wrenching, read.
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507 reviews32 followers
March 21, 2018
This is my first book by Margaret McHeyzer and I’m so glad it was this book. The words that were written flowed through my blood like oxygen to the brain. I couldn’t get enough.

This is Ivy’s story even though at times I wish we had Jared’s or Tobias’s POV thrown in every now and then. If we would’ve had that then I would’ve easily rated Drowning 5 stars but there were still some unanswered questions or WTF moments I still don’t understand.

Ivy is strong, independent, extremely stubborn but she’s also weak, codependent, and hides behind her stubbornness so no one can see her flaws or her demons. You can’t help but love her and even dislike her at times. She carried so much pain and thought everything was constantly her fault. Taking the blame for everyone’s actions wears a girl down. I would know. You can only hold that guilt for so long before you break.

It didn’t help that the one man she was actually starting to like outside of friendship had his own demons. Tobias, her protector, her confidante, her boyfriend. He recognized her demon and was instantly connected to her. It would’ve helped if she felt the same way. Lol

Ms. McHeyzer tackles some hard real life issues. From depression, cutting to suicide and even a shocking twist that I never seen coming. She does so with tact and doesn’t gloss over the issues. Drowning is a book everyone needs to read.
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35 reviews7 followers
March 21, 2018
Margaret never fails to write a story that is powerful and meaningful. Her characters are always so strong and relatable. The topics are never sugar coated. They are always raw and full of emotion, while for some- hitting personally.
Ivy and Tobias are both struggling with their own separate demons. Their connection is instant and intense, even with their secrets, they are exactly what each other needs. Ivy's friendship with Jared is the best and he is just so sweet. They are always their for each other, and they tell each other everything besides for Ivy's secret. Then, there is Ivy's dad, who is trying so hard to keep it all together while he is carrying his own secret!
The entire book is just so perfect and Ivy's story is one that needs to be told because mental health isn't something that people talk about to often. It's labeled and has stigmas attached. But this book, brings awareness to it and just what goes on in a person's head. It makes it known that you're not "crazy" and their isn't something wrong with YOU.

This story hits a big subject, hard! It wouldn't be a Margaret story if it didn't. Definitely a must read for everyone, esp to bring awareness to this subject.

#StayStrong
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4,018 reviews432 followers
March 18, 2018
Wow what a story. Usually I inhale a book but this wasn’t a one sitting kinda read for me. I found myself taking time to absorb and feel this story. There’s really no other way to read it.

Ivy and Tobias are two real and relatable characters. I absolutely loved them. They are two broken characters trying to live day by day. Ivy’s a cutter. Tobias has his own secrets. I was really hoping they’d talk to each other about their secrets but that’s never an easy thing to do is it?

A special shout out to some wonderful secondary characters including Tobias grandmother. She rocks.

Great praise to the author on writing about topics that aren’t that easy to write about. Mental issues isn’t an easy topic to read or write about. However the author did a superb job and I’m so glad I read Drowning.
I’m really looking forward to reading more from this author.
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17 reviews2 followers
March 22, 2018
A Must Read!!!!

Whenever I read a book by Margaret, I know the topic is going to be rough and the characters are going to be strong. Margaret tackles on subjects that mean so much and hits close to home for many. Drowning was completely different and full on. It is a story about mental health, a topic that is so important.
Ivy is a teenage girl who has been living with a secret for most of her life. A secret she won’t tell anyone because she is afraid of what people will think of her. Not even her best friend, Jared, even though they tell each other everything. Then she meets Tobias. Tobias has an instant connection to Ivy and sees right through her. But, like Ivy, Tobias has a secret of his own. One that he isn’t ready to let anyone in on. The love Ivy’s father has for her is one of the biggest feels in this book. He is just so good, and he tries so hard!
You will feel all the feels in this book. It is intense, but so good, and it was so needed to be told.

Drowning is a must read book for everyone, and to understand what goes on in a persons head!
Profile Image for Carolina Godinho.
306 reviews
April 23, 2018
I was given an ARC in exchange of an honest review.





I’m a cutter.
I cut because I find solace in it.
I cut because it helps calm my frantic mind.
I cut because the voices inside my head tell me to.
I cut because this is the only way I know how to handle life.



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Mental health issues in youth is growing alarmingly. An early diagnosis can be the difference between life and death.



Is good to have books written to young adults approaching this theme, so commonly avoided in family and school conversations.



I think it was great that they both Ivy and Tobias had problems to overcome. Most books that address the issue, only one of the characters has it, so to both of them struggle with it, and learn how to not trigger the other one crisis its a learning in itself.



Though I didn´t liked it how Tobias just left, I can understand and respect why he did it. He want it to be a better version of himself to be with Ivy.



Kudos to Miss McHeyzer for handle it so perfectly.



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Problemas de saúde mental na juventude estão crescendo de forma alarmante. Um diagnóstico precoce pode ser a diferença entre a vida e a morte.



É bom ter livros escritos para jovens adultos que abordam esse tema, tão comumente evitados em conversas em família e na escola.



Acho ótimo que ambos os personagens tenham problemas para superar, então, ambos lutam com ele, e aprendem como não desencadear uma crise no outro, é um aprendizado em si. A maioria dos livros que tratam do assunto, apenas um dos personagens o tem.



Embora eu não tenha gostado de como Tobias foi embora, posso entender e respeitar por que ele fez isso. Ele queria se tornar uma versão melhor de si mesmo para estar com Ivy.



Parabéns à senhorita McHeyzer por saber abordar o assunto tão perfeitamente.
46 reviews
October 12, 2022
This book just gives such awesome insight into teens struggles with mental health and how they try to deal with it on their own. They are so concerned with what people think or letting down their families that they feel isolated and so alone and that just compounds everything. “Mental health is real”, direct quote from author, and needs to be destigmatized. This is my third book by this author and each one gets me every time.
Profile Image for Carolina Godinho.
306 reviews
April 23, 2018
I was given an ARC in exchange of an honest review.

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I’m a cutter.
I cut because I find solace in it.
I cut because it helps calm my frantic mind.
I cut because the voices inside my head tell me to.
I cut because this is the only way I know how to handle life.



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Mental health issues in youth is growing alarmingly. An early diagnosis can be the difference between life and death.



Is good to have books written to young adults approaching this theme, so commonly avoided in family and school conversations.



I think it was great that they both Ivy and Tobias had problems to overcome. Most books that address the issue, only one of the characters has it, so to both of them struggle with it, and learn how to not trigger the other one crisis its a learning in itself.



Though I didn´t liked it how Tobias just left, I can understand and respect why he did it. He want it to be a better version of himself to be with Ivy.



Kudos to Miss McHeyzer for handle it so perfectly.



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Problemas de saúde mental na juventude estão crescendo de forma alarmante. Um diagnóstico precoce pode ser a diferença entre a vida e a morte.



É bom ter livros escritos para jovens adultos que abordam esse tema, tão comumente evitados em conversas em família e na escola.



Acho ótimo que ambos os personagens tenham problemas para superar, então, ambos lutam com ele, e aprendem como não desencadear uma crise no outro, é um aprendizado em si. A maioria dos livros que tratam do assunto, apenas um dos personagens o tem.



Embora eu não tenha gostado de como Tobias foi embora, posso entender e respeitar por que ele fez isso. Ele queria se tornar uma versão melhor de si mesmo para estar com Ivy.



Parabéns à senhorita McHeyzer por saber abordar o assunto tão perfeitamente.

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644 reviews33 followers
March 12, 2018
Drowning was very personal for me, as someone who struggled with cutting throughout my life. The struggle shown for Ivy is a terribly accurate account. Margaret McHeyzer shined light on this in the most beautiful way. I feel for Ivy. I was screaming at her a few times. Screaming 'it's ok', yet also cringing from the struggle. Stay strong. It's more than two words for some, it's a mantra for some. I cried, I yelled, I broke. I just wanted to take Ivy in my arms and tell her it does get better. It's hard work but it does get better. This book will suck every emotion from you. It will leave you completely opened and raw. Make you feel as if you're broken too. Until we see the light. Until Ivy shows us how not to win the battle, but how to win the war.

Drowning is an emotional ride that I hope opens someone's eyes and let's them get help. Ivy and Tobias both have demons. They recognize the demons in each other's eyes and fall for each other at the tender age of 18. Both of them struggle through embarrassment and lies. Both come through it. This is a story of strife, heartbreak, and mental illness. It's also a story of hope and surviving and staying strong.

I loved every piece of this book. I loved the message and I also loved having someone speak out on cutting and open some eyes on it. I honestly think I'd have made my own mother read this if it was around when I started cutting. The shame and embarrassment lead to hope and strength. Ivy and Tobias fought their demons hard and came out stronger.
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418 reviews42 followers
March 16, 2018
I received an ARC of this book from the author and I voluntarily reviewed it. Thank you Margaret McHeyzer!

Wow wow wow. This book is... I can’t find the right word so I’m going to say “everything”. Oh man, the highs, the lows, and the rock bottoms will pull at your heart strings. Sometimes, McHeyzer’s writing pulled at them so hard, my heart broke.

I rarely cry when I read books, and by rarely, I mean three books in the over 500 I’ve read. Now it’s four books. I’m not surprised though, because one of the initial three was Dying Wish by Margaret McHeyzer. I had to stop reading and compose myself before I kept going. This book has the power to destroy you, but also shows you that there is light at the end of the tunnel - for everyone.

This book deals with so many important themes, and when I start listing them, you’ll wonder how McHeyzer was able to fit those all into a singular book while doing justice to each one; self-harm, homosexuality and homophobia, suicide, mental health, abuse, and a few more I will not mention for spoiler purposes. Honestly, there are very few authors who can pull off a book like this, and McHeyzer is one of them.

I truly think this is a book that should be read by everyone. It’s not just a YA book. It’s much bigger than that. It’s a book about acceptance, a book than can teach everyone how to be more open minded. It’s about removing the stigma around the words “mental health” and disassociating them from the terrible word “crazy”.

Thank you, Margaret McHeyzer, for writing this masterpiece.

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80 reviews4 followers
April 30, 2018
When I started this book I was not so sure if I will be able to love it or not. Truth to be said, I am also living with my demons, and more than one time in my life they made my life almost impossible. I had to make choices that would also help me keep my weakness a secret, plus drove important people away from me.
Stay Strong.
I also have a tattoo to remind me to stay strong when I am again close to breaking. I know what that means. So, in a way, I have to say this book was amazing. A perfect insight into the soul of someone battling with constant darkness. Although it was hard on the other hand.
I promise you, If you fight through this book, you will be in for a beautiful journey. Amazing characters and an amazing story of coming-of-age and winning over your demons.

You can read a full review on my website:
https://dreamsnbooks.wordpress.com/
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2,346 reviews225 followers
March 18, 2018
Drowning is the kind of book that takes awhile to read because it’s filled with heavier, emotional content. Ivy is a cutter and though I have read a few books with characters who cut at times, this is one of the few books I’ve read that selves so deeply into that mental condition. My heart broke for Ivy as I read her story. She was extremely relatable I just wanted to reach into the book and save her. Tobias was fighting his own demons, but these two found a way to help each other overcome their pain and the darkness they fought. I also greatly enjoyed the secondary characters. Tobias’ grandmother stole my heart. This was a difficult, but rewarding read because of the content and the emotions McHeyzer managed to stir up.
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406 reviews19 followers
December 28, 2018
I received an ARC copy from netgalley for my honest review, so thank you netgalley and publishers for offering me this book! ♡
The cover and title is what originally drew me to this book.
I’m a cutter.
I cut because I find solace in it.
I cut because it helps calm my frantic mind.
I cut because the voices inside my head tell me to.
I cut because this is the only way I know how to handle life.
This was my first book by this author. It was alltogether an easy read. ♡ I give this book a
4.5 star rating!
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75 reviews9 followers
April 27, 2023
Touched my heart…

Margaret McHeyzer is an author who books touch my heart. Drowning is the second book I have read by her and I plan to read plenty more. I feel like her books our beneficial for people that are trying to deal with trauma and trying to figure out how to cope with issues that occur in every day life. Ivy and Tobias story was beautiful, they both had to learn how to overcome personal trauma to become better people not only for society, but for each other.
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456 reviews8 followers
March 19, 2018
Absolutely beautifully written

Words can not describe the beauty of this book. You will feel lime you are right there with Ivy. Feeling her demons, seeking her relief. The dynamic between her and Jared is heart felt and beautiful. Their friendship is something we strive for growing up. Tobias is so tragically broken you want to pull him on for a hug. His love for Ivy is beyond words. This is a hard subject to read about, however Margret handled amazingly.
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123 reviews1 follower
May 3, 2018
Stay Strong

Ivy has a demon who tells her to cut, makes her think that it's the solution to her problems... noone knows of her cutting she keeps it hidden safely. Tobias walks in her life who has his own demons of his own and helps her through her own demon but his demons are too powerful for him to control so he leaves so he leaves and then 3 years later they see eachother again and that connection they had never went away. I loved this story it got to me in more ways than one. I struggled with depression so this story touched my heart this was beautifully written I highly reccomend this book.
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115 reviews
April 30, 2018
I received this from net galley for an honest review!!

This book for me was a book that hit home on lots of levels. I worry when an author tackles heavy subjects because a lot could go wrong...not so with Drowning. Margaret McHeyzer wrote a compelling story of mental illness that will resonate and touch you for years to come. She handled the topic with a beauty and a grace I'm not sure most would be able to do. This book is a 10 star read although I can only give it 5 here. I will be buying this book and looking for more by Margaret as she is an author who knows how to capture you heart and soul!!
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5,399 reviews119 followers
March 18, 2018
Spunky N Sassy Rating: 5.0

~~~~~~~~~~Lindsey's ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ Review~~~~~~~~~~

This book is heartbreaking and beautiful. It puts a spotlight on mental health in a way that everyone should understand. This is going to be one of the most talked-about books of 2018.
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235 reviews11 followers
April 10, 2018
I loved this story so much, I always love reading good mental health books and this is definitely one. The story is about Ivy and Tobias who both have demons they are battling with and struggle to deal with their issue
and we follow them as they gets the help they need. Overall I highly recommend this book and really enjoyed the read.
96 reviews1 follower
May 11, 2018
Very good book about what some people face with mental illness. It is very well written and pulls at your heart strings.
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421 reviews30 followers
April 21, 2018
Without getting to personal ad I've already spoke with the author this book helped me more than anyone besides her will ever know. Thank you so very much so writing this and talking about this very touchy subject. I hope this book brings peace to people who are struggling. To know that their not alone and that they too can overcome being a cutter. Thank you for this book. I would like to personally thank the author again for emailing me back. Thank you.
This book was given to me as an arc from netgalley in exchange for an honest review.
307 reviews
March 18, 2018
Let me start off by saying that I love what this author did. I love that she brought issues that are difficult to discuss to light in this story. The cutting, suicide attempts and sexual abuse. I hope that when people read this book, if they know someone suffering from any of those things, they make it a point to reach out and help. It’s just like the author stated in her note at the end. “How many suffer in silence?” You never know what someone is going through. You might not relate to someone or maybe not even like them. Maybe they’re rude to you or maybe they pick on you. But you don’t know what they’re going through. Are there terrible people in the world who are mean just to be mean? Absolutely. But remember there also are not. There are people struggling with things that we may know nothing of. Mental health is a huge part of life. Everyone is always so focused on exercising and staying fit for he physical aspect of looking good in a swim suit but it should be so much more than that. It should be about mental well-being as well. Mental health is just as important as physical health because it’s your life, it’s your head and your body. It’s what you live in every day. Enough rambling, but I love that the author brought these issues to light because it’s shedding awareness that maybe not everyone has.
On the more technical side of things there were a lot of repetitive sentences. For the most part they were worded a bit differently but it was the same sentence or question being put out there more than once and it happened quite a few times. It happened enough to where I noticed and decided to take note of it. Another sticky spot for me is the I love you’s seem to happen really fast, at least on his end. I didn’t feel much for a romantic connection between these two. I actually felt they would have been better as friends. In the end I felt a little more of a romantic pull but for most of the story I just didn’t. Maybe that’s because the main points were very serious and were more the focal point than the actual romance between the two characters. Either way the romance was lacking and I love my romance. I actually didn’t feel much of a connection to Ivy at all. I totally get she’s going through some major conflict. Of course I felt for her but there were times that I actually didn’t like her and found her to be selfish. I suppose it’s hard to relate to that mind-set if you’ve never been in that same position personally.
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Author 69 books49 followers
April 9, 2018
Ivy is a self harmer and lives with her dad, her best friend is Jared and on their day back at school after break, there's a mysterious new guy sat by them called Tobias. She feels a darkness around him alike her own where as he later says the same to her.



They get off to a rocky start as he tries asking her to the cinema and she turns him down assuming he just wants sex until they talk later and get along better when Ivy confides her Mum is dead from being caught out in the sea, after he tells her his dad left them. What she doesn't tell him is that's she has nightmares about drowning in the sea herself while in a white prom dress.




Soon enough Tobias and Ivy are dating after meeting each others relatives and sharing some sweet and hilarious moments together but they then get caught up in an ex student's shooting antics at their school as he opens fire on the teacher who caught him when he was doing something disgusting in school. After this event, Ivy tries to give in to her self harm completely and makes a suicide attempt. While she battles with that, Tobias battles with not dosing himself up on pills.



Everything gets too much for the pair but Ivy attends counselling whilst Tobias suddenly disappears out of the blue and is untraceable after a violent anger fuelled outburst.



The novel then flashes through years after Tobias fleeing and what life entailed for keen photographer Ivy and Jared as well as finally getting answers about Tobias and the mystery surrounding his big dark secret from his past.



Ivy personifies the voice in her head forcing her to harm herself and calls him Azael. This isn't uncommon in mental health real and novel life as it's often depicted as a person there telling them or us what to do and lose control because they tell them or us to act on the thought. The book was a very deep read and touched on so many important issues from gun crime, bipolar, self harm, being gay, schizophrenia, grooming, teen angst and relationships. However the relationship between Tobias and Ivy showed a raw look at many couple's real life day to day struggle with them and their partners mental wellbeing. Overall it was dramatic, touching and shocking in the books events but it was a stunning read from an author new to me.



Many thanks to the publishers for allowing me to review this book for them!
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March 17, 2018
Drowning is Margaret’s next emotional read. I know before I even open one of her books that I will need tissues, a warm blanket, and some silence. I don’t read many YA novels but Margaret’s are deep and the characters are mature.

Ivy is seventeen. A great student. An amazing friend. One hellava daughter. She is also beautiful and strong. She loves to people watch and photography. She doesn’t party. She would rather stay home and watch a movie with her best friend, Jared. She is also a cutter. It calms her. It keeps her demon quiet. Until he shows up again. Ivy has hidden her secret from the ones she loves. She doesn’t want them to think she is crazy. So she fights her demon alone.

Tobias is a new student. He is mysterious. Rides a motorcycle. All the girls want him. He only wants one. Ivy. The girl who doesn’t want his attention. But all he wants is hers. He sees through her. He has his own secrets. He knew he loved her from the moment he saw her. She was different. She was beautiful. She calmed him. But what would happen if he let his secrets out?

Tobias and Ivy’s relationship is beautiful. Heartbreaking. Complex. Fun. They go through so much together. But it’s not all about their love story. There is so much more to this story. It’s not an easy read and has triggers. Mental Health is a very important issue all around the world.

Overall...This was a story that needed to be told. I have been following Margaret for the last few years and I know she had a hard time writing this story but she kept at it. Tobias and Ivy’s story needed to be written. I feel it will help people. It will help them think about others. It will help people get the help they need. It has very serious issues throughout the books but I also laughed and felt the love.

Quotes:

“Because our darkness belongs together.”

Ivy, come play with me.

“Normal is subjective. What’s normal for you, may not be normal for me.”


Profile Image for Julie Reveles (Juls ~ ILST BLOG).
852 reviews11 followers
March 18, 2018
5 Stars!!

Whenever I see a book by Margaret McHeyzer show up on my kindle, I get so excited! I just know I’m about to indulge into something so amazing. Every book I’ve read by her has been nothing less than a five star read. I must say, Drowning has now been added to that list. It amazes me how Margaret can write about such emotional situations that can be so personal to many of her readers. I honestly believe that if any of her stories have hit close to home with her readers they’d agree that she writes so respectfully and beautifully about sensitive situations. Unfortunately, everything about this story is something that I’m sure many can relate to. Thankfully, I am not one of them. If there is ever a time in my life that I happen to meet someone with these “demons”, I hope I can be there for them just as Ivy was there for Tobias, or the way Jared was there for Ivy, and the way the three of them got each other through it all.. together.

My heart was heavy throughout this story. My tears fell for Tobias, Jared and Ivy. Their stories were all so different, but all so heartbreaking. All I can say, before you start reading, grab a box of tissues. Whether it’s the beginning...the middle...or the end, you will be reaching for them at some point. I feel weird saying that I loved it because the story-line is so intense but, I loved it! I also know this will be another story by Margaret that will not be forgotten! More importantly, if there is anyone reading this review and can relate to the situations in this story, please listen to Margaret McHeyzer’s words and know....

"The hour will come when we all must face our demons. Sometimes those demons are real, and sometimes only you can see and hear them. Strength will prevail, as long as you can hold on for one more moment. Because it’s in these moments when courage, loyalty, love, and strength triumph...

STAY STRONG.

-Juls
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863 reviews12 followers
March 18, 2018

5 Stars!!

Whenever I see a book by Margaret McHeyzer show up on my kindle, I get so excited! I just know I’m about to indulge into something so amazing. Every book I’ve read by her has been nothing less than a five star read. I must say, Drowning has now been added to that list. It amazes me how Margaret can write about such emotional situations that can be so personal to many of her readers. I honestly believe that if any of her stories have hit close to home with her readers they’d agree that she writes so respectfully and beautifully about sensitive situations. Unfortunately, everything about this story is something that I’m sure many can relate to. Thankfully, I am not one of them. If there is ever a time in my life that I happen to meet someone with these “demons”, I hope I can be there for them just as Ivy was there for Tobias, or the way Jared was there for Ivy, and the way the three of them got each other through it all.. together.

My heart was heavy throughout this story. My tears fell for Tobias, Jared and Ivy. Their stories were all so different, but all so heartbreaking. All I can say, before you start reading, grab a box of tissues. Whether it’s the beginning...the middle...or the end, you will be reaching for them at some point. I feel weird saying that I loved it because the story-line is so intense but, I loved it! I also know this will be another story by Margaret that will not be forgotten! More importantly, if there is anyone reading this review and can relate to the situations in this story, please listen to Margaret McHeyzer’s words and know....

"The hour will come when we all must face our demons. Sometimes those demons are real, and sometimes only you can see and hear them. Strength will prevail, as long as you can hold on for one more moment. Because it’s in these moments when courage, loyalty, love, and strength triumph...

STAY STRONG.

-Juls
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