Reading is physical. I put my head on the pillow, my cheek against the cool cotton, I turn the book in my arms from one side to the other and see how the silver bubbles on the cover shine like fish scales or tiny stars. I open the first page, fingertips slide over it, paper as soft as my bed, and I slowly sink in like a stranded whale in sand. My body feels heavy, I am ready to enter another world, I am ready to roll back in the sea and swim away. Reading is crossing a threshold.
“It forgot what being a dolphin was, until the tide came back in and it swam away and remembered,” Lucy Wood wrote in "The Sing of The Shore". I need to read to remember, and I need to be close to the sea, or even better in it, to become me. With first read lines a voice appears. Long and lulling like flapping waves are British writer Charlotte Runcie’s sentences in her beautiful debut book "Salt on Your Tongue: Women and the Sea".
It’s a book of stories, legends, myths and songs about the sea, and about women who are left on the shore to take care of the life on land, to wait and hope, while men are in the sea, and about women, who are as dangerous, powerful and mysterious as the sea itself, the mermaids, selkies, sea goddesses and witches. There’s something in Charlotte Runcie’s voice of late night gatherings around a fireplace to tell tales, while wind rattles windows. Something safe and inspiring like a voice of a loved one who reads you a bedtime story.
Mothers, wives, daughters and grandmothers, a kinship through womb and blood, and milk, and sweat, and tears, and songs, and family recipes. It’s all there. Charlotte Runcie has lost her beloved Granny, and becomes pregnant for the first time in her life. “Odysseus was blown off course on his way home from Troy. He wanted to get home. I wanted to have an adventure. But I’m going to have a baby.” Throughout the book memories about grandmother are woven together with her own slow becoming a mother.
Charlotte Runcie is a poet. Many sentences pierce the layers of the sea like pebbles thrown into the water. In some parts her writing thickens in a visceral reading experience, for example, in chapter about drowning in freshwater and saltwater, and about giving a birth.
Descriptions of pregnancy are vivid and honest, and blend with lines about the sea like cut from the same fabric. Women bodies are so close to the sea, both ruled by the Moon in the sky. Not only women. Each of us spends nine months under water in an inner sea in our mother’s belly. This book can help to regrow our lost umbilical cord with the sea.
When Charlotte gives birth to her daughter (chapter about labour is an absolute gem, it feels like a trance when you read it and it strongly evoked the feelings I had, giving birth to both my sons), her fear to lose freedom by becoming a parent has disappeared completely. She is filled with “deep blue love” towards the pink being, her little starfish.