This felt like two books rolled into one - part memoir on Scott Kelly’s year in space, and part autobiography about his life and astronaut journey. It took me a while to get into this. Chapters alternate between the year in space and his life and career. Some chapters were more interesting than others.
To begin with, I found Endurance a little dry and textbook-like. It has an astounding level of detail. While strong attention to detail is necessary in Kelly’s career and survival, it doesn’t always make for a gripping read. Want to know what to do if your T-34 loses an engine?
“Put the ICL idle, T-handle down clip in place, standby fuel pump on, started on, monitor N1 and ITT for start indications, starter off when ITT peaks or no indication of start.”
Yeah, me neither.
When some of this monotonous detail was mixed with animal cruelty, I found my interest waning (a mouse is so distressed in space it chews off its own limbs). It was the chapter on flying F-14 Tomcats that drew me back in. Growing up in the 90s, I was obsessed with the likes of Harmon Rabb in JAG and Top Gun, so it was great to read an insider perspective on life as a Tomcat pilot. Trying to land an F-14 on a storm-tossed carrier at sea will always make for gripping reading.
The space chapters would sometimes descend into a slow DIY project. I had no idea how much maintenance and mechanical repairs take up the life of an astronaut. Still, I came for space facts, and these were some of the strongest parts of the book:
- FBI style wanted posters adorn walls of the ISS for objects that have floated away on the station and gone missing. 8 years is the record for an object reappearing!
- A space shuttle launch feels like being: “strapped into a freight train gone off the rails and accelerating out of control, shaken violently in every direction.”
- Space smells “slightly burnt, slightly metallic”
- The sun rises and sets every 90 minutes on the ISS.
- They watched the film Gravity while in space.
- They all miss nature while in space (Russian cosmonaut, Misha, even played the sounds of mosquitoes to help him fall asleep).
- Lots of wearing diapers.
I also have something in my notes mentioning “community ass brush”, but can’t recall what that’s about (and not sure I want to).
The book isn’t without tense moments; whether it be spacewalks, rogue satellites, launches and re-entries. The humour was welcome relief from the dry-feel (Kelly and his gorilla suit). Many of the funniest moments come from Kelly’s’ Russian cosmonaut colleagues. International solidarity is a key theme of the book. It's impressive what the human race can achieve when it works together and puts differences aside.
I loved how honest Kelly is about mistakes and things he finds difficult. He’s not afraid to admit his failures, moments of self-doubt or when he lacks knowledge. It’s inspiring that someone who has accomplished so much can admit these things – it gives hope for us all and is great reminder that we can achieve anything if we’re willing to work hard and dedicate ourselves.
I started reading this book to learn about life in space, but it ended up being as much an inspiring tale of hard work, never giving up, owning our mistakes and chasing dreams. Through his year in space, Scott Kelly came to appreciate life on a greater scale than ever before. While the book touches on the fragility of life, it also made me notice little things a lot more - nature, water, the wind blowing in trees. Endurance made me want to return to journal writing and documenting my life, just like Kelly did with his year in space. It made me appreciate the seemingly mundane for how special it really is.
“This is a really dumb thing to be doing.” – Scott Kelly, upon launching into space for the first time.