As always, no star review, but I like to chronicle the history of my work, especially since I sometimes tend to get my chronology mixed up when it comes to this book and Die Empty.
2014 was a good year in many ways. Journey to Abortosphere had come out. I believe that was the year I was working acquisitions for Rooster as well. But I was having a rough time coming up with something new to write. I was burned out on writing bizarro. I had Masturbatory Entropy from 2009, a book with a terrible legacy of being accepted by several small-press publishers before they inevitably collapsed. My publisher, Shamus, was only vaguely interested in Masturbatory Entropy. I can't fault him for that. Better books were coming out. Masturbatory Entropy barely qualified as bizarro. It definitely didn't align with what Rooster was pushing out at the time.
I kept pitching ideas to Kevin Donihe, my editor over at Eraserhead Press. I was met with similar reactions there. He was interested in looking at completed manuscripts, but nothing was particularly captivating to him.
I wrote 50 pages of two manuscripts, the latter of which he was interested in looking at . . . but none of it was particularly captivating to me either.
I still remember the night that I sought additional affirmation from Kevin for the second manuscript. I wanted to know if he was still willing to take a look at it. Of course he was. Why would this change?
I knew it wouldn't. Though I was unaware of it at the time, what I wanted was an immediate acceptance, to know that finishing this book I didn't want to write would result in publication. But some part of me knew it was irrational to ask such a thing.
So I gave up on the book.
Up to that point, I had grown rather accustomed to writing books I didn't want to write. I had grown accustomed to making them work. To shoehorning elements of story I wanted to write into concepts I didn't want to write.
It's how Uncle Sam was born. It's how Journey to Abortosphere was written.
Journey wasn't a labor of love. It was labor, like giving birth. I pushed like hell to get that thing out of me . . . then and only then did I learn to love that book. When Matt Revert added his cover art, and Art and Shamus added their enthusiasm to the process, that's when I learned to love Journey.
Anyway.
It had been at that point five years since I had written a book I genuinely loved writing from page one to finish. I stopped writing what I wanted to and tried to tailor my ideas to what I thought had the best chance of being published. But I had reached the breaking point.
I cut ties with all of my avenues of publication. Rooster switched hands . . . if you're reading this you likely know the story.
For a short while, I just stopped writing. Didn't want to do it anymore. I had a goddamned dissertation to write anyway. So I headed to the library . . . and began my foray into the world of constructive procrastination.
Did you know that the FCC's broadcasting regulations were held in place long after the advent of cable? I didn't, and so I kept reading these books on analog, radio towers, broadcasting, anything that didn't relate to my dissertation.
By the end of the week, I had a developed idea for Aetherchrist.
The first book in five years that I actually wanted to write.
I had a few ideas as to where I might be able to submit it, but I tried not to think about that too much. Because I didn't know exactly where the book would lead me. I just wanted to let it take me wherever that might be.
Aetherchrist was written from late 2014 to 2015. I submitted it to Shock Totem in August of 2015. By November, I got an e-mail. My e-mail account always shows the first few words of an inbound e-mail. This one read "Dear Kirk, We've received 187 submissio"
. . . I didn't want to open it. It looked like your standard rejection letter:
We had a lot of submissions.
Yours didn't make the cut.
Due to the number of submissions, we can't elaborate.
I took a deep breath, prepared myself for the inevitable rejection, and opened the e-mail:
Dear Kirk,
We've received 187 submissions since we opened to novels/novellas. "Aetherchrist" is the first we've wanted to accept.
Personally, I dug it right from the start and edited as I went. I've never done that before. I was really hoping it didn't turn out to be a waste of time! Haha.
Anyway, if you're still interested, let's talk. =)
Stay well,
Ken
Holy shit!
Writing what I wanted to had paid off.
That's when I realized why I had not been as successful with my previous endeavors: my heart wasn't 100% into it.
So I set out to write Die Empty, except I upped the ante for that one. For Die Empty I didn't know what genre I was dealing with, nor did I know where I was going to submit.
The fate of the book was completely formless.
In many ways, these two books are a bit self indulgent in that they were written with the intent of helping me grow as an author.
The big difference between Aetherchrist and Die Empty is that Die Empty was a story designed with the intent of expressing some message. Theme didn't come first with Die Empty, but it rises to the top rather early on and sustains its presence throughout.
Aetherchrist, on the other hand, is a story. Themes emerge organically. But concept comes first.
Aetherchrist is a psychodrama about a rapid descent into paranoid delusion, and the blurred line between madness and collective surreality. It endeavors to tap into nostalgia for a time when a quick adjustment to the television antenna might yield some new result, a time when you caught some obscure television show late at night or early in the morning on a station that never worked again.
Shock Totem planned on releasing the book in 2016, I believe. The release was delayed, and inevitably my publisher at Shock Totem, K Allen Wood, offered to pass Shock Totem's future releases to Apex, who would take the helm to ensure the books saw the light of day.
Once Aetherchrist found itself in the arms of Apex, some scheduling adjustments were made, with the inevitable delay until 2018.
It worked perfectly. It gave me time to put Die Empty out with Atlatl. It gave me time to plan out what I wanted to do for 2019 (which is right around the corner, mind you!).
I'm really excited for what's coming out then, but this entry has meandered enough already.
Thank you for reading through this.
And as always, thank you, all of you, for your support.