I did not think that this love story could any more complicated or intense- anymore intoxicatingly angsty and conflicting, but CL has supercharged this sequel, and my brain and heart are at battle with one another, tearing me apart when it comes to just how I want, need, or think this story will all play out. Be warned though, despite this title, this is not the last of these characters that has left me thirst for the finale (yet to be written) of this chaotic, heart wrenching journey.
What I love most about this series is just how on my toes it keeps me- everything is surprising, everything is conflicting. Our characters keep shedding their layers, becoming increasingly complicated, increasingly dynamic. And the story just keeps twisting- the motives, the intentions, the true feelings- always opaque and always evolving. Just when you think they’ve found an understanding, that everyone has come clean, more twists, more turns, more questions come to light. Parts of this story were sweet and touched my soul, others heart touching and painful, and some just so jaw dropping that I’m still trying to dig my heart out from somewhere in my stomach.
I really loved the side of Silas we got to experience in this book- allowing us to see a bit more into his intentions, his experiences, what led him to this place. Which only made me even more conflicted- this whole Brax vs. Silas challenge is SO well done- and I love how CL toys with the idea that you can have more than one match, love more than one person, because each represents a different aspect of yourself and what you need. And Leia is still so young, at times she doesn’t know what she needs, which makes this dynamic that much more rich, that much more dramatic
CL continues to be a new and inspired voice- her characters are unapologetically flawed, relationships and feelings aren’t clear cut, and the emotions inspired are viscerally raw. This is a series that you have to go into with an open mind- with the understanding that love can not be contained, that love is complex and unpredictable, and that sometimes love is found in the exact place it shouldn’t- making the more dynamic human emotion in our arsenal even more challenging. These characters are living that reality- and they can only control the way they lean in, or out, of the love they share- but they can’t stifle its existence, and the more you try to control your love, the more it tries to control you.
This book continues to challenge me and my conception of romance and love- CL shows us how falling in love can be effortlessly easy but LIVING in love, GIVING into that love can be excruciatingly hard, because love can be ugly and toxic at the same time love can be beautiful and restorative. Seemingly contradictory truths coexist when it comes to loving someone, and that- that exploration, has me turning these pages, has my heart in knots, and has me so very perplexed at just what I want for Leia. But what I want, hell what she wants, won’t be the victor in the end- because CL shows us that the heart can not be tamed, even if the path it is leading you on is painful and unclear.