✰ 3.75 stars ✰
“You’ve always known me. I was never able to hide the most important parts of myself from you.”
When Noah Landers woke up in that cabin in a whiteout, he had no recollection of who he was or how he ended up here. Suffering a slight case of amnesia, after a nasty fall, all he has is the love and care of the one sexy-as-hell man who is his companion in the cabin, Jason O'Reilly - someone he can't help but feel is hiding something from him. As their time confined to their lodging continues as the blizzard rages outside, Noah cannot deny how very affectionate and caring Jason is - how reassuring and comforting his presence is - a calming balm that makes him believe that this is a man I can trust my heart to. 🫂🫶🏻 But, as tentative memories start to burst forward in the crevices of Noah's memory - Noah starts to doubt the sincerity of their relationship - ones that make him question, who really is the one with the secrets here - and who really is the one who should really be trusted? 😔
“I didn’t know my own name, but I knew you cared for me. My heart knew you, even if my mind didn’t. In the end, you said that you didn’t know who I was. But you did.”
This was really lovely. 🌺 I don't know what it was about it that made it flow so smoothly and pull me in. Maybe because it was a mystery as to who Jason was to Noah that kept me going - the thrill of suspenseful anticipation of where the lies and the truths would converge. 'Can I even trust my own memories? There were too many questions.' Maybe it was the soft and gentle way their romance blossomed in that cabin that showed how deeply they felt for each other. Maybe it was the eventual reveal that turned the tables so shockingly so that I didn't quite know what to expect would happen next. 😥
But, the author showed that love truly has to be earned and deserved. 'I did fall in love with him.' That when the mistakes are made, it is up to each other to prove and fight for forgiveness and a shot at happiness again. What both of them had to overcome to get to that final stage of happiness was worth seeing, because it gave a steady growth to Noah's character. 'Someday. That implied a future and a chance. “Will you let me try to earn your forgiveness?' 💔💔 Once he emerged from that cabin - with all his memories restored... Yes, cutting myself off to say, that moment when he recalled how he ended up here - so well-done. The minute it hit, I was just - woah! And it worked! It worked and Jason's reaction and everything that transpired afterwards made Noah grow on me as a person, too. He made his mistakes and he was willing to work hard to make amends - even if it meant groveling and allowing Jason a reprieve from his presence, so he could prove that he was his - 'something tangible. Something sincere.' 👍🏻👍🏻
“I walked out earlier because I was afraid of being hurt. I didn’t want to risk my heart, because what if it was just another act?
But I didn’t realize until that moment, watching you falling apart when you thought you were alone, that you had put yourself at risk by doing this, even knowing that I could break your heart.”
There is also love - love in rediscovering it, too. Love that manifests in the memories Noah and Jason shared together - tender kisses and heartfelt hugs and gentle caresses that made me kinda melt at how consuming it was - the chance to reclaim those feelings again. For it is a second-chance romance - in more ways than one - one that is taking advantage of through deception and lies - 'do you remember when . . .' - and you don't know who to root for. 😟 And it hurt more, because they were both good people - who unintentionally hurt each other. Jason has suffered a deep loss - someone who is very close and dear to him. To meet Noah how he did, when he did, why he did - I felt his reaction was valid and deserving, especially with how much Noah meant to him. 'You’re the happiness and comfort and warmth in my life. I hope you remember that soon.' His love was taken for granted - his kind and compassionate heart felt betrayed and hurt, and I liked how the author steadily revealed all the hidden parts of their past. 🫂🫂
Noah working his way back to his heart, made me feel their love so much more. 💞 It is Noah's story, through and through, and how he had to earn his way back through his heart - his forgiveness and his trust. A path of self-discovery in attempting to rectify his past actions and also to live with the decisions he's made. How Noah recognized how much he cared for him - even when he knew that he didn't know who he was - to remind him of what they had together - it was heartbreaking, and yet at the same time, heartwarming, in seeing the two of them on the path of healing. 😢 'Romance isn’t about the big gestures,” he said. “It’s about the little moments. The connection. The intimacy.' It's that question, isn't it? Does the heart remember more or the mind? Where do the feelings of love really come from and what is it about the person that makes us feel so much is what is supposed to matter? When one doubts what is real and what is not, how do we decide if what we believed is worth fighting for? It sounds a lot more profound than I'm describing it, but I am trying to keep it intentionally vague, so as to not take away the actual outcome. 🥲
“You were there for me when I didn’t have any, so now I’m giving you mine in the hopes that you’ll see me for who I really am.”
I don't know what it was about it, but reading this felt so soothing. Even when everything fell apart - it made sense why it did. And the build-up to the final resolution was like a soft warmth that just felt so romantic. Hard to believe, but it was a solid conflict that resolved in a credible way that I cared enough to see their happiness. 💮 The supporting cast that was introduced along the way, never seemed to overtake the plot in any way - rather, they guided Noah in the right path. 'The heart doesn’t heal overnight. Just don’t let the pain consume you.' 🤧 Encouraged him to make amends for his actions and push him to see the untapped potential that he had within him. I don't know if I will consider reading their own stories, maybe one of theirs, but I liked them. They weren't duplicitous or hurtful or even spiteful - just good guys who were willing to help Noah learn from his mistakes, step forward in a clearer direction, and win the man of his dreams' heart back. ❤️🩹❤️🩹
Would it have helped to have Jason's POV, too? Hmmm... I don't think so; because, at the forefront was Noah's realization of what his life was before he lost his memory, to the ability to accept that part of him and work to be the kind of person that deserved Jason's love. 'Same body. Same mouth, same hands. This was never a lie.' 🥺 It was a character-driven story that felt the pull of showing the person you love how the love you have for them was always there - always real - never-changing, never-forgetting. And I was happy and satisfied with the ending; shocking, I know! It was beautifully built-up, believable and hard-earned and for the two of them to return to the place where their memories were first shattered - well, rather, reawakened, makes it all the more a wholesome win for me. 🤍🤍