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How Sweet the Sound
You never forget your first love…or do you?
From the moment five-year-old Kat met seven-year-old Sienna, she knew they were destined to be best friends forever. After a summer spent connected at the hip, a trauma in Sienna’s home life separates the two. Twelve years later, their lives cross paths again, but the memory of their childhood friendship has long since faded. As the two teens get to know one another, they are struck by an unexplainable familiarity, and as their friendship deepens, something else also begins to blossom…
From the moment five-year-old Kat met seven-year-old Sienna, she knew they were destined to be best friends forever. After a summer spent connected at the hip, a trauma in Sienna’s home life separates the two. Twelve years later, their lives cross paths again, but the memory of their childhood friendship has long since faded. As the two teens get to know one another, they are struck by an unexplainable familiarity, and as their friendship deepens, something else also begins to blossom…
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Published April 12, 2018
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December 29, 2019
What an incredible read! And totally unexpected! This isn’t my “go to” genre but damn this book surprised me! In a good way :)
This is not a fluffy read like I expected! It actually deals with some very intense topics.. I’m so happy I picked this and it’s even on KU :)
I totally recommend it ..
This is not a fluffy read like I expected! It actually deals with some very intense topics.. I’m so happy I picked this and it’s even on KU :)
I totally recommend it ..
April 23, 2018
A worthy read to pull at heartstrings
If the prologue doesn't get you teary-eyed than I have no words for you. This story was good and after reading the prologue I couldn't put it down. It's a young adult story...coming of age not coming out. It has some real issues with drugs, some abuse but not graphic, and death. So reader be warned but I loved it and really found my self annoyed with Liz and rooting for her. If you have time give it a read. I loved it and it was a kindleUnlimited book. I look forward to more from this author.
If the prologue doesn't get you teary-eyed than I have no words for you. This story was good and after reading the prologue I couldn't put it down. It's a young adult story...coming of age not coming out. It has some real issues with drugs, some abuse but not graphic, and death. So reader be warned but I loved it and really found my self annoyed with Liz and rooting for her. If you have time give it a read. I loved it and it was a kindleUnlimited book. I look forward to more from this author.
January 26, 2019
Such an emotional book! Had me engrossed from beginning to end.
January 3, 2019
This book was absolutely amazing..... I love everything about it and I just couldn't put it down.
October 7, 2019
My new fav Author. Can’t fault the book.
Loved it, Evelyn Dar what are you doing to me?!
Definitely knows what she doing.
Loved it, Evelyn Dar what are you doing to me?!
Definitely knows what she doing.
May 9, 2018
Hamfisted and gross
Spoiler Alert, but an MC gets raped about 15% into the book and it's treated just like it's any old thing. No real consequences for the rapist, and then the same character is kinda sexually assaulted by her love interests younger brother. And it's treated as a "oh boys will be boys" situation which is disturbing.
Add the slap-dash writing style and this was not a very good read.
Spoiler Alert, but an MC gets raped about 15% into the book and it's treated just like it's any old thing. No real consequences for the rapist, and then the same character is kinda sexually assaulted by her love interests younger brother. And it's treated as a "oh boys will be boys" situation which is disturbing.
Add the slap-dash writing style and this was not a very good read.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
April 29, 2022
2 stars
I didn't like it.
I disliked both the MCs, I didn't like the plot and I disliked the writing style.
But it wasn't a total catastrophe.
So two stars it is.
I didn't like it.
I disliked both the MCs, I didn't like the plot and I disliked the writing style.
But it wasn't a total catastrophe.
So two stars it is.
May 13, 2020
Man, this was not a good book. I was going to give it two stars, but no, bollocks to it. It's one star.
This was the story of Si Si and Kat, two girls who meet for the first time as children and become best friends before Si Si is taken into care and they lose contact. Thirteen years later, Si Si and her foster mum move back into town and the two girls reconnect. There's the usual thing about how they hate each other first of all before being thrown together for a school project and becoming friends. Woop! Woop! YA cliche alert!
So first, the positive. I actually quite liked the two MCs. They were fully-formed characters and I liked them, especially Si Si/Liz. She was really fun and kind of wild.
Anyway, that's all the positive. Now on to what I didn't like.
Let's start with the writing style. I get that this was a self-published number and I'm always more generous with self-published work, but the writing tended towards the rambling and there was a real lack of clarity. In addition there were a lot of spelling and punctuation errors that made the writing just not flow properly.
As mentioned, the plot was cliched, but I could probably forgive the uninspiring plot, if it wasn't for all the other bizarreness crammed into this book.
Some of the things that happened in this book were just weird and disturbing. So, Kat's mum is dying of cancer in hospital. It's really sad, but she is in hospital with all the medical care paid for by the military and, you would assume, access to pain relief. Imagine my surprise, therefore, when Kat goes into the hospital and shoots her mum up with heroin. Yes, heroin. And it's dealt with in a 'yeah, this isn't a big deal' way. Just an every day occurrence for a teenager to obtain heroin, bring it into a hospital, shoot her mum up and for her mum to not die of an overdose when the heroin mixes with all the other opiates she's taking. I rubbed my eyes and re-read the passage because I couldn't quite believe what I'd read. Does that really happen? I'm fairly sure it doesn't.
Then there's the bit where Si Si gets totally off her face and a guy has sex with her and she can't remember anything about it the next day. I mean, that's rape, isn't it? Having sex with someone when they're too out of it to consent is still called rape, isn't it? But this rape is just brushed under the carpet. Similarly, when Kat's brother invites Si Si into his room under the guise of showing her his video games, tells her to close her eyes and puts his penis in her hand. It was just weird and wrong and gross and, oh yeah, SEXUAL ASSUALT. And neither of these scenarios get addressed, other than in a 'Well, boys will be boys' way. This is bullshit and scenarios like these in YA books are EXACTLY the reason why girls don't go to the police when they've been assaulted. It feeds into this horrible societal narrative that says it's OK for dudes to assault women.
OK, let's talk about sex now. There was some odd, odd sex in this book. So the first time there's any sexual contact is where the two MCs are laying on a bed watching TV, one of them falls asleep and inadvertently rolls on top of the other one and jams her thigh between her legs. The other girl then has an instant orgasm. I'm not ... I just ... I don't really know how to describe it. It just felt like the most unrealistic representation of Something That Would Actually Happen that I've ever read. They hadn't been fooling around (in which case I could almost believe the instant orgasm, just about), they'd just been watching TV. Normal TV, not porn. And later in the book was a sex scene in a hotel that had no build-up to make it sexy and awesome, it was just grabby and hard and ended up with one of the girls crying. I think it was supposed to be hot, but it really, really wasn't.
I'm sure there are other things I disliked about this book, but I can't face re-reading any of it to list them. Suffice to say this was not a good book and you shouldn't read it.
This was the story of Si Si and Kat, two girls who meet for the first time as children and become best friends before Si Si is taken into care and they lose contact. Thirteen years later, Si Si and her foster mum move back into town and the two girls reconnect. There's the usual thing about how they hate each other first of all before being thrown together for a school project and becoming friends. Woop! Woop! YA cliche alert!
So first, the positive. I actually quite liked the two MCs. They were fully-formed characters and I liked them, especially Si Si/Liz. She was really fun and kind of wild.
Anyway, that's all the positive. Now on to what I didn't like.
Let's start with the writing style. I get that this was a self-published number and I'm always more generous with self-published work, but the writing tended towards the rambling and there was a real lack of clarity. In addition there were a lot of spelling and punctuation errors that made the writing just not flow properly.
As mentioned, the plot was cliched, but I could probably forgive the uninspiring plot, if it wasn't for all the other bizarreness crammed into this book.
Some of the things that happened in this book were just weird and disturbing. So, Kat's mum is dying of cancer in hospital. It's really sad, but she is in hospital with all the medical care paid for by the military and, you would assume, access to pain relief. Imagine my surprise, therefore, when Kat goes into the hospital and shoots her mum up with heroin. Yes, heroin. And it's dealt with in a 'yeah, this isn't a big deal' way. Just an every day occurrence for a teenager to obtain heroin, bring it into a hospital, shoot her mum up and for her mum to not die of an overdose when the heroin mixes with all the other opiates she's taking. I rubbed my eyes and re-read the passage because I couldn't quite believe what I'd read. Does that really happen? I'm fairly sure it doesn't.
Then there's the bit where Si Si gets totally off her face and a guy has sex with her and she can't remember anything about it the next day. I mean, that's rape, isn't it? Having sex with someone when they're too out of it to consent is still called rape, isn't it? But this rape is just brushed under the carpet. Similarly, when Kat's brother invites Si Si into his room under the guise of showing her his video games, tells her to close her eyes and puts his penis in her hand. It was just weird and wrong and gross and, oh yeah, SEXUAL ASSUALT. And neither of these scenarios get addressed, other than in a 'Well, boys will be boys' way. This is bullshit and scenarios like these in YA books are EXACTLY the reason why girls don't go to the police when they've been assaulted. It feeds into this horrible societal narrative that says it's OK for dudes to assault women.
OK, let's talk about sex now. There was some odd, odd sex in this book. So the first time there's any sexual contact is where the two MCs are laying on a bed watching TV, one of them falls asleep and inadvertently rolls on top of the other one and jams her thigh between her legs. The other girl then has an instant orgasm. I'm not ... I just ... I don't really know how to describe it. It just felt like the most unrealistic representation of Something That Would Actually Happen that I've ever read. They hadn't been fooling around (in which case I could almost believe the instant orgasm, just about), they'd just been watching TV. Normal TV, not porn. And later in the book was a sex scene in a hotel that had no build-up to make it sexy and awesome, it was just grabby and hard and ended up with one of the girls crying. I think it was supposed to be hot, but it really, really wasn't.
I'm sure there are other things I disliked about this book, but I can't face re-reading any of it to list them. Suffice to say this was not a good book and you shouldn't read it.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
May 3, 2022
I forgot to mark this as finished but I genuinely couldn’t tell you what happened in this book.
January 7, 2020
A good book
Lately when people I follow have loved a book I have ended up not liking it so I’m always a bit nervous now when I see that people I follow loves a book. But I loved “girls who pray” and this is one of the Evelyn Dar books that I’ve been waiting to read but just haven’t gotten around to it.
I can honestly say that I really liked this. Didn’t quite love it but I liked it, it’s not as good as “Girls who pray” but it’s good. Good supporting characters, makes me wish I had a grandma as awesome as Grace and a teacher as good as Ms. Lee. Would gave loved a tiny bit more build up and more angst but it’s worth reading.
Lately when people I follow have loved a book I have ended up not liking it so I’m always a bit nervous now when I see that people I follow loves a book. But I loved “girls who pray” and this is one of the Evelyn Dar books that I’ve been waiting to read but just haven’t gotten around to it.
I can honestly say that I really liked this. Didn’t quite love it but I liked it, it’s not as good as “Girls who pray” but it’s good. Good supporting characters, makes me wish I had a grandma as awesome as Grace and a teacher as good as Ms. Lee. Would gave loved a tiny bit more build up and more angst but it’s worth reading.
June 25, 2020
This was engaging and at times gripping read, yet there was little that was believable in the story. Two girls meet at a park at 5 years old and become best friends, but one has an abusive mother and is taken away to live with her religious grandmother in another state, but ends up back in the home town at high school where she recognises her old friend, but her friend never recognises her. And this friend's mother is dying of cancer in the meantime. From then on it's an on again off again relationship with lots of drama, drugs and often not believable things happening. So in the end a highly unrealistic and not particularly satisfying read.
April 29, 2020
Oh, my goodness.
My spouse was handing me tissues when they saw me crying in the middle of the prologue! What a great story filled with so many emotions. Kat and Sienna/Liz met as young girls at the park. They both leaned on one another for support as their friendship bloomed. We soon learned that Kats rescuer, Sienna/Liz, was being abused at home. The way Dar wrote the growing devotion that developed into love between them, as girls and farther in the story when they reunited as young women, was simply beautiful. As much as I love stories with an edge, I also love soft and tender.
My spouse was handing me tissues when they saw me crying in the middle of the prologue! What a great story filled with so many emotions. Kat and Sienna/Liz met as young girls at the park. They both leaned on one another for support as their friendship bloomed. We soon learned that Kats rescuer, Sienna/Liz, was being abused at home. The way Dar wrote the growing devotion that developed into love between them, as girls and farther in the story when they reunited as young women, was simply beautiful. As much as I love stories with an edge, I also love soft and tender.
September 26, 2019
I am so happy I read Girls Who Pray first. However, reading that book first may have made me rate this one lower. I didn't enjoy this one as much but don't let that keep you from reading it. Dar does flashbacks or past/present very well. Flashbacks, memories, or time hops are a difficult task for any author, but Dar does it and it feels fluid. My issues may not be the same as someone else so you should really give it a go. I worked child protective services and still work social services and when abuse/neglect of a child occurs in a book I instantly go into procedure and protocol mode. It is hard to fully enjoy the story when all I am thinking about is how my agency would have handled this particular situation. I didn't knock off much of the rating because that is not a direct reflection of the writing. I think Dar writes solid stories, and interesting characters and Liz and Kat were good well-developed characters. For me, this book was 3.5 rounded up. I will for sure pick up Dar's other book as well as future books.
August 18, 2019
rep: lesbian mc’s, f/f romance
- This is what happens when you find something on amazon and start reading it without looking at reviews
- I assumed this would be a cute ya contemporary but it’s like a lifetime movie
- So many heavy, confronting topics but the way they were presented never felt like the author was trying to combat them?
- The romance was unbelievable since they met as literal children and knew each other as teenagers 13 years later while falling for each other in two weeks
- A lot of typos and awkward writing
- Not something I HATED but not something I particularly liked or would recommend
December 16, 2019
Lovely, with many heart-wrenching moments especially at the end. Just what I need from a YA novel.
February 2, 2019
Too much misery porn in this (including non-consensual filming of arguably coerced sex, and sexual assault). And what Kat did to Liz in no way equated Liz not disclosing she realized who they were to each other 12 years ago. Like Kat was cruel and sexual-assaulty and Liz should not have been so forgiving. Also them falling in love in mere days because they knew each other as 5-7yo for a couple of months? Sorry but, no.
January 30, 2019
OMG!!!!🙈🙊🙌🙌🙌🎶🎵🎶
I'm sooo giddy right now!!!!! This book is absolutely AmazzzzinG!!!!! I couldn't stop reading thisss book until I finished!!! &I'm craving more more & more!!!!! 😩😩😩 im Def putting this book on my top favs list!!! Kit Kat & Si Si love for each other since childhood is so raw, intimate, and sooo o deeply touching!!!😻😻😻 it's so overwhelming with lost, struggle, and most of all love!!!! I cried real tears 😿😿😿reading this book I felt all the feelings this book had to offer as if I was there!!! If I can give this book 10 perfect stars I would! Here you go...🌠🌠🌠🌠🌠🌠🌠🌠🌠🌠!!! I will never forget reading this thank you Evelyn Dar ur the bestttt!!!💜💜💜💜🎶🎵🎶
I'm sooo giddy right now!!!!! This book is absolutely AmazzzzinG!!!!! I couldn't stop reading thisss book until I finished!!! &I'm craving more more & more!!!!! 😩😩😩 im Def putting this book on my top favs list!!! Kit Kat & Si Si love for each other since childhood is so raw, intimate, and sooo o deeply touching!!!😻😻😻 it's so overwhelming with lost, struggle, and most of all love!!!! I cried real tears 😿😿😿reading this book I felt all the feelings this book had to offer as if I was there!!! If I can give this book 10 perfect stars I would! Here you go...🌠🌠🌠🌠🌠🌠🌠🌠🌠🌠!!! I will never forget reading this thank you Evelyn Dar ur the bestttt!!!💜💜💜💜🎶🎵🎶
January 1, 2019
This is the second book of this writer and I have to say it is the most emotional I've read this year. Very moving , touching story where love beings 2 wonderful people together.
May 15, 2023
This story kept me at the edge of my seat
It's a beautiful touching story full of tension and interesting situations. The first part although necessary for the plot was hard for me to read because I'm too sensitive about those issues. Yet, once the slow burn romance began I couldn't stop reading. I devoured the book in just one night simply because I needed to know how it ended and I was not disappointed. This is a very interesting well-written story. No doubt the author has the gift of storytelling. Loved it.
It's a beautiful touching story full of tension and interesting situations. The first part although necessary for the plot was hard for me to read because I'm too sensitive about those issues. Yet, once the slow burn romance began I couldn't stop reading. I devoured the book in just one night simply because I needed to know how it ended and I was not disappointed. This is a very interesting well-written story. No doubt the author has the gift of storytelling. Loved it.
August 8, 2023
a good story, I just didn't like the writing style.
November 6, 2023
So, I have some very negative and strong opinions about this book. I’m not even sure how to express in words how horrifically bad it was???? I had the option between a seemingly cute other book or whatever the fuck this book was. And I sadly and now regretfully picked this one. And I cannot not review it because it’s just so bad that I need to write it down. While skimming the reviews before reading I was deceived into thinking this was a decent book that would be a good read.
To set the scene this book has a 3.9-star rating!? And also, a decent amount of people have read it. So obviously that many people cannot be horrifically wrong is what you’d think. I was so wrong. This review is more of a plot summary of the book which will tell you most things relevant and save you the painful experience of having to read the whole thing. so obviously !!SPOILERS PAST THIS POINT!!
Some trigger warnings for the book would probably be TW: Racism, homophobia, sexual assault, justification of sexual assault, drug abuse, alcohol abuse, child abuse
Main premise would be that there are these 2 girls CC (it’s actually like si si but I’m lazy) and um OH KAT yes that’s her name I almost forgot for a sec 💀 that’s how bad this book fucked me up. Okay anyway, they meet when they’re like 5 yrs old and cc is like 7 while lost in a park from their parents. But only Kat is lost while cc is hiding from her alcoholic and abusive mother. And then kats mum comes and takes them both home and drops Cc off while noting all of the terrible things about her home and parents. At this point, Kat and Cc are already deeply emotionally attached so start having play dates and such. Long story short in the end kats mum reports ccs mum to CPS and she is sent to live with her grandma in some other state. Then we cut to present.
Essentially, I have many many complaints. The first sort of part of the book I thought was okay. That’s what got me interested and motivated to continue reading. Obviously, it was so shocking to see what had happened to CC who is now called liz for reasons that are never explained but apparently, she just hates that name so she probably changed it in the time period where she now had a new foster mother who is the best character in existence compared to the menagerie of pieces of shit in this story. liz is now very very fucked up has apparently been through many foster homes, smokes uses vulgar language and has been SA’d and abused (it’s sort of implied). So, she goes to school and has this shocking reunion with Kat who doesn’t recognize her and for some weird reason, Liz just decided instead of telling her to just be a massive BITCH to her??? I don’t even know.
So then blah blah she like finds this guy to give her weed who then invites her back to his place and she’s like no thanks. and he is like you’re drunk just come on pls!!! And then she goes with him since it’s what she deserves for being mean to Kat??? Like God it was a bit too much. Anyways what is stated that happens is she takes some pills he gave her and they have sex. Only thing is though she can’t really remember any of it and most definitely didn’t even give her consent SO IT WAS FUCKING SEXUAL ASSULT. However, the author was like no silly billy it’s not and this is NEVER FUCKING TALKED ABOUT EVER AGAIN. Later we even find out the piece of shit filmed it in the most uncomfortable way possible but I’ll get to it…
So, moving on from that mess liz and Kat are sort of having a tumultuous relationship at this point and it is immediately and confusingly resolved when liz comforts kat in the hospital. For reference she was there as her foster mother shay is a nurse there. And all of a sudden, they’re having a really intimate hug even though last chapter they couldn’t stand each other??? It was so random. I couldn’t get behind them falling in love again as it was such a horrible contrast to the sweet lovely relationship, they had in the prologue and it was so heartbreaking to see how far they fell. Anyways they end up sleeping in the same bed in the hospital and kat is like being very very clingy. And then she wakes up flustered and stuff but then in the end they agree to be friends
The thing about Kats mum is that she has stage 4 breast cancer and is on her death bed. Another thing that absolutely shocked me was that earlier we see kat’s boyfriend Ryan buying heroin from the weird guy who basically assaulted Liz. And then Ryan gives it to Kat who then FUCKING injects it into her mother’s iv. AS PER HER REQUEST??? One I was really concerned and confused at the safety of this like are you not concerned that this may just cause her to overdosed and die??? And what on earth was the mother thinking letting herself do this like oh how far her character has fallen as well….
I don’t think I’ll bother with every part of the plot but a bunch of weird sex scenes also made me so horribly uncomfortable too… like the first sexually charged scene I would say is when they are sleeping and liz climbs on top of kat in her sleep and then somehow kat came???? I didn’t even understand the logistics of that and how fucking desperate you’d need to be but I was like let’s move on… but no seriously. It was so abrupt and random I was so confused because there wasn’t anything at all, in my opinion, suggesting anything like that was going to happen and it’s even more weird because liz was probably having a really horrible nightmare and Kat was able to get off from it… which thankfully is discussed and liz tells her it’s okay… which ok like you do you but I personally would have moved to another continent and gotten 10 restraining orders… but I guess with the shared history it’s more complicated. So as I was saying it’s nice that she was conscious and saying sorry for lacking consent here… but not towards the end of the book where she was borderline sexually assaulting liz… (it’s not even borderline it literally is and the writer knows it too because we literally see liz relate it to the encounter with Nathan the weird drug guy) and it’s just like… ok I’ll get into that scene a bit later too…
So, after this weird instant cumming from a few touches of the knee kat absolutely cannot just pretend this never happened like most people would do in the situation and is adamant they talk about it and invites liz over for dinner the next day.
And while this is happening by the way kat is in a fight with her best friend Casey as she is a homophobic piece of shit and kat slapped her for it which was probably her best moment in the whole book. So, their other friend oh and Kats bf who I basically forgot existed lure them both to the bar where Liz coincidentally works and force them to make up. And they just magically move on for 5 mins until liz takes their order and Casey starts being horrible again. And then there’s this other bit where the friend Casey sort of has sexual tension with kisses liz to shut her up and then Casey LEAVES. The whole point of this interaction was to show jealousy from kat and probably emphasize her feelings that I don’t even know how exist since they seemingly materialized out of nowhere. I get like oh this is the childhood friend she doesn’t know is her childhood friend and they just have that instant chemistry and pull but like no. Their new relationship is light years away from the sweet prologue so much that I’m sad it’s even associated with them. They are both just horrible to each other for the first few chapters even if it’s mainly liz for unexplained reasons. And one hug at the hospital after telling someone your mum is dying doesn’t constitute immediate romantic feelings…
Anyways the day of the dinner finally arrives and liz comes over. Long story short they nearly kiss in her room but are interrupted by her grandmother who is like nosy but in a chill supportive way so she is okay. But then the entire somewhat nice scene is overshadowed and painted over by the most random and disgusting scene ever. So kat has a younger brother (15 years old) who has been flirting with liz all evening. It’s just supposed to be that funny younger brother with a crush on his sister’s friend. But then while Kat and grandma are doing the dishes, he decides to invite liz to his room to “show her his game collection” and for a little bit he does. Then he is like close your eyes… which is never a good sign and so she does and he puts his dick in her hand. That’s right. You didn’t read me wrong. He puts his dick in her hand. And this again is SEXUAL ASSULT. Oh my god it was so shocking. And it gets even worse. She is rightfully like WHAT THE HELL??? And he is all crying now and is like… “I just thought you were that kind of girl since my friend who is that drug dealer Nathan’s younger brother gave us this video of you two having intimacy.”
Yup. So not only was she assaulted by the girl she likes’ brother but she has now has to deal with the fact there is this video of her out there without her consent??? Horror. Also, the brother never faces any consequences for his actions. They just chalk it up to boys being boys which made me so angry I couldn’t even tell you. Can’t rant too much as there’s so much more but you understand the sheer whiplash that chapter gave me and it honestly felt like the writer was trying to put me into shock.
Right so I think my brain might be blocking out this from my memory for my own sanity so I’ll need to check what happens next. Oh, wait no I know. Drama ensues. Gasp. Liz runs out the house like any normal person would upon learning all this and kat is enraged by her brother and forced him to tell her what’s going on. and then she asks to see the video. And then is physically sick multiple times upon seeing it. And then sleeps it off where she dreams of cc.
Moving on kat is at the hospital and sees Casey there who has somehow found out about her mom’s cancer even though she didn’t tell her on purpose. And they immediately reconcile??? Even though Casey is very problematic and has not displayed a single redeeming quality??? I don’t know why but it is what it is. She’s still a homophobic piece of shit but is now trying to be nice since her friend’s mom is dying.
So next kat finds out Ryan’s drug dealer is the guy from the video with Liz and that leads to him dropping her off at liz’s house. Oh, by the way in case you forgot (cuz I did) Ryan is Kats boyfriend who she hasn’t spared a thought for in the last 6 chapters. So, he is obviously picking up she’s not into him and never has been so they break up. He is needless to say upset and I think ends up going to the Nathan drug dealer guy. He ends up crying there and spilling his guts to Nathan about everything drunkenly. And obviously, Nathan is infatuated with Liz so this doesn’t go down well and he kicks Ryan out.
Anyways liz and kat make out get interrupted kat runs away blah blah and then there’s this massive miscommunication/manipulation with Kat and Nathan. Nathan is obviously scum of the earth and wants liz to himself so lies to Kat and convinces her that Liz was just manipulating her to have sex and then have a threesome or something??? And she straight up believes this sleazy excuse for a human who filmed someone else having sex without their consent…
Right and as, this is happening liz is at the hospital with kats mother who dies and her last thing is like take care of kat she needs you or something. And then kat finds out her mom is dead and emotionally shuts down.
Liz is trying to comfort her and kat is straight up like “TAKE ME TO THE HOTEL”!!
So, they go to a hotel and have a horribly ominous first time. Liz is honestly a victim here she’s just super into kat and completely unaware of any other thing going on. She trusts her completely. this is her “Kit Kat” (this nickname being used anywhere past the prologue made me cringe so hard was that just me?). The girl who saved her so long ago. The girl she loves.
And then we as the reader know that kat is completely emotionally turned off right now. Under the impression, Liz deceived and was using her. Very volatile as her mother has just died. So it turns into this very fast-paced sex scene where Kat is basically just doing whatever she wants and won’t take no for an answer. Ofc liz is so like into her she doesn’t even try say no so even if this was very horrible and has serious power imbalance and ominous undertones it wasn’t nearly as bad as what is to come.
So next they fall asleep and when kat wakes up she has just emotionally turned off even further somehow. Liz wakes up and tries to talk to her and is still tragically unaware of everything else going on. I actually cannot put into words the horrific severity of all the things Kat says so I’ll just paste it in
(Kat turned fully toward Liz and the bed sheet fell from her shoulders, exposing her breasts. “Why wouldn’t I be? Was my inexperience apparent? Didn’t I make the cut?” Liz winced at the venom in Kat’s voice. “Cut? What cut? What are you talking about?” Kat laughed. “Oh, come on, you don’t have to pretend anymore. I know about you and Nathan. I saw your home movie.” Bile rose in Liz’s throat. Kat smirked. “Not bad, but you should fire your lighting guy. It was too dark to see anything good.”)
Yes, so in this part she basically just uses the word of a disgusting drug dealer against a victim of sexual ASSULT by him. DOESN’T attempt to communicate if it’s true or not. Doesn’t try and understand anything. Just is like. "Omg I saw that video of the man raping you … nice home video!!! Your camera quality isn’t very good…"
like girl you saw the video. She was basically inebriated and couldn’t consent to it. And you were the one throwing up uncontrollably after seeing it???WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT??? WHO ARE YOU?? like Christ, I know grief will cloud your judgement but learn not to trust every little thing people say over just asking someone point blank if it’s true.
And what happens after this? Is so gross. Kat basically assaults her. She uses Liz's hand without permission and basically gets off from it. And then leaves and asks for a ride home??? Like at this point I’d mentally checked out at being able to engage meaningfully with this book but I was so horrified by what I was reading.
So next liz drives her home and tries to explain that it’s not what she thinks but kat doesn’t let her. And then in a last-ditch effort Liz reveals who she is (cc) and even so kat doesn’t reconsider her reaction or consider actually listening to what she has to say. She just takes off the necklace they exchanged as kids which has been her precious item ever since and throws in to the ground… and then says she wishes she never met her. And then leaves.
Like oh my god
What???
What was the need for all of that. And do you even understand the gravity of what this can do to someone who has already suffered this much in their life??? Often times in the book kat tries to compare How much they have both been through and I just wanted to say while having a mother die or be sick from cancer has to destroy you. At least you had that love. At least you had a healthy home. At least you weren’t in danger all the time. Like if she even thought for a second about the real gravity of what Liz has been through instead of being selfish and shallow, she would know not to do things like this. She is severing the one connection that Liz has clung to since age 7 to keep her going in life. Her only reason to live. Thoughtlessly, cruelly, and callously. What the actual fuck. Like what the fuck. Absolutely nothing that Liz did at any point constitutes deserving of what Kat did to her. And for that reason, I can never Forgive her character no matter how much remorse she shows. I cannot support her at all. It actually killed any last droplet of tolerance I could have for her.
This was just unbelievably heartbreaking for me. Where are the innocent children from the prologue and what has life done to them?
Fuck kat honestly, she had no right.
Ok I’m getting a little too worked up about this so let’s move on.
So Liz obviously spirals into a self-destructive depression and then starts using heroin again and then goes missing for 3 days. The foster mom comes to Kats house and is all like do you know where she is???
Now by this point, kat has come to her senses. Shockingly.
Sorry girl but where was this energy when you fucking assaulted her and then ripped her heart out based on a lie you stupidly believed from a DRUG DEALER. Ok no no I’m moving on from this.
And kat is all like no we haven’t hung out. And then suddenly decides that she needs to find Liz and redeem herself.
And so, she calls all her friends over and they go to Nathan’s like the knockoff scooby doo gang and find that Liz has overdosed and is about to die. Kat runs in to save the day and magically and unexplained has the drug to help save her so injects it and does CPR . And then she’s breathing again. Wow what a hero!!! Fuck her honestly. At least she recognized that this whole thing was her fault entirely.
And then she starts calling Liz baby like WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHT IM SORRY??? Anyway that’s that she’s taken to the hospital.
Then she wakes up and they basically just make up. Crazy ik WILD
I personally would never be able to be with someone who was capable of that level of heartlessness and pain? And not to mention sexual ASSULT??? She needs PRISON. ASAP. And Liz needs 10 years’ worth of therapy. Intensive.
Moving on to the epilogue which if I’m being honest I skimmed because at this point I’d had enough. This was so uninteresting and strange as is becoming a recurring theme. Everyone is shockingly still acting nice to the brother who also assaulted Liz so that’s always fun to see!!!!!! NOT. I guess ASSULT and justification of assault runs in their family
And then I think Kat gives herself to Liz as their 6-month anniversary present. So many levels of ew. Then they have another horrible intimacy scene which I got through 1 paragraph of before I felt physically sick and had to skip all of it. They make me sick as a couple and I sincerely wish they did not end up together as it is a recipe for disaster and misery as was reading this book.
That’s all I have to say about this dumpster fire of a book. Please do not read this if you value your mental health and sanity
To set the scene this book has a 3.9-star rating!? And also, a decent amount of people have read it. So obviously that many people cannot be horrifically wrong is what you’d think. I was so wrong. This review is more of a plot summary of the book which will tell you most things relevant and save you the painful experience of having to read the whole thing. so obviously !!SPOILERS PAST THIS POINT!!
Some trigger warnings for the book would probably be TW: Racism, homophobia, sexual assault, justification of sexual assault, drug abuse, alcohol abuse, child abuse
Main premise would be that there are these 2 girls CC (it’s actually like si si but I’m lazy) and um OH KAT yes that’s her name I almost forgot for a sec 💀 that’s how bad this book fucked me up. Okay anyway, they meet when they’re like 5 yrs old and cc is like 7 while lost in a park from their parents. But only Kat is lost while cc is hiding from her alcoholic and abusive mother. And then kats mum comes and takes them both home and drops Cc off while noting all of the terrible things about her home and parents. At this point, Kat and Cc are already deeply emotionally attached so start having play dates and such. Long story short in the end kats mum reports ccs mum to CPS and she is sent to live with her grandma in some other state. Then we cut to present.
Essentially, I have many many complaints. The first sort of part of the book I thought was okay. That’s what got me interested and motivated to continue reading. Obviously, it was so shocking to see what had happened to CC who is now called liz for reasons that are never explained but apparently, she just hates that name so she probably changed it in the time period where she now had a new foster mother who is the best character in existence compared to the menagerie of pieces of shit in this story. liz is now very very fucked up has apparently been through many foster homes, smokes uses vulgar language and has been SA’d and abused (it’s sort of implied). So, she goes to school and has this shocking reunion with Kat who doesn’t recognize her and for some weird reason, Liz just decided instead of telling her to just be a massive BITCH to her??? I don’t even know.
So then blah blah she like finds this guy to give her weed who then invites her back to his place and she’s like no thanks. and he is like you’re drunk just come on pls!!! And then she goes with him since it’s what she deserves for being mean to Kat??? Like God it was a bit too much. Anyways what is stated that happens is she takes some pills he gave her and they have sex. Only thing is though she can’t really remember any of it and most definitely didn’t even give her consent SO IT WAS FUCKING SEXUAL ASSULT. However, the author was like no silly billy it’s not and this is NEVER FUCKING TALKED ABOUT EVER AGAIN. Later we even find out the piece of shit filmed it in the most uncomfortable way possible but I’ll get to it…
So, moving on from that mess liz and Kat are sort of having a tumultuous relationship at this point and it is immediately and confusingly resolved when liz comforts kat in the hospital. For reference she was there as her foster mother shay is a nurse there. And all of a sudden, they’re having a really intimate hug even though last chapter they couldn’t stand each other??? It was so random. I couldn’t get behind them falling in love again as it was such a horrible contrast to the sweet lovely relationship, they had in the prologue and it was so heartbreaking to see how far they fell. Anyways they end up sleeping in the same bed in the hospital and kat is like being very very clingy. And then she wakes up flustered and stuff but then in the end they agree to be friends
The thing about Kats mum is that she has stage 4 breast cancer and is on her death bed. Another thing that absolutely shocked me was that earlier we see kat’s boyfriend Ryan buying heroin from the weird guy who basically assaulted Liz. And then Ryan gives it to Kat who then FUCKING injects it into her mother’s iv. AS PER HER REQUEST??? One I was really concerned and confused at the safety of this like are you not concerned that this may just cause her to overdosed and die??? And what on earth was the mother thinking letting herself do this like oh how far her character has fallen as well….
I don’t think I’ll bother with every part of the plot but a bunch of weird sex scenes also made me so horribly uncomfortable too… like the first sexually charged scene I would say is when they are sleeping and liz climbs on top of kat in her sleep and then somehow kat came???? I didn’t even understand the logistics of that and how fucking desperate you’d need to be but I was like let’s move on… but no seriously. It was so abrupt and random I was so confused because there wasn’t anything at all, in my opinion, suggesting anything like that was going to happen and it’s even more weird because liz was probably having a really horrible nightmare and Kat was able to get off from it… which thankfully is discussed and liz tells her it’s okay… which ok like you do you but I personally would have moved to another continent and gotten 10 restraining orders… but I guess with the shared history it’s more complicated. So as I was saying it’s nice that she was conscious and saying sorry for lacking consent here… but not towards the end of the book where she was borderline sexually assaulting liz… (it’s not even borderline it literally is and the writer knows it too because we literally see liz relate it to the encounter with Nathan the weird drug guy) and it’s just like… ok I’ll get into that scene a bit later too…
So, after this weird instant cumming from a few touches of the knee kat absolutely cannot just pretend this never happened like most people would do in the situation and is adamant they talk about it and invites liz over for dinner the next day.
And while this is happening by the way kat is in a fight with her best friend Casey as she is a homophobic piece of shit and kat slapped her for it which was probably her best moment in the whole book. So, their other friend oh and Kats bf who I basically forgot existed lure them both to the bar where Liz coincidentally works and force them to make up. And they just magically move on for 5 mins until liz takes their order and Casey starts being horrible again. And then there’s this other bit where the friend Casey sort of has sexual tension with kisses liz to shut her up and then Casey LEAVES. The whole point of this interaction was to show jealousy from kat and probably emphasize her feelings that I don’t even know how exist since they seemingly materialized out of nowhere. I get like oh this is the childhood friend she doesn’t know is her childhood friend and they just have that instant chemistry and pull but like no. Their new relationship is light years away from the sweet prologue so much that I’m sad it’s even associated with them. They are both just horrible to each other for the first few chapters even if it’s mainly liz for unexplained reasons. And one hug at the hospital after telling someone your mum is dying doesn’t constitute immediate romantic feelings…
Anyways the day of the dinner finally arrives and liz comes over. Long story short they nearly kiss in her room but are interrupted by her grandmother who is like nosy but in a chill supportive way so she is okay. But then the entire somewhat nice scene is overshadowed and painted over by the most random and disgusting scene ever. So kat has a younger brother (15 years old) who has been flirting with liz all evening. It’s just supposed to be that funny younger brother with a crush on his sister’s friend. But then while Kat and grandma are doing the dishes, he decides to invite liz to his room to “show her his game collection” and for a little bit he does. Then he is like close your eyes… which is never a good sign and so she does and he puts his dick in her hand. That’s right. You didn’t read me wrong. He puts his dick in her hand. And this again is SEXUAL ASSULT. Oh my god it was so shocking. And it gets even worse. She is rightfully like WHAT THE HELL??? And he is all crying now and is like… “I just thought you were that kind of girl since my friend who is that drug dealer Nathan’s younger brother gave us this video of you two having intimacy.”
Yup. So not only was she assaulted by the girl she likes’ brother but she has now has to deal with the fact there is this video of her out there without her consent??? Horror. Also, the brother never faces any consequences for his actions. They just chalk it up to boys being boys which made me so angry I couldn’t even tell you. Can’t rant too much as there’s so much more but you understand the sheer whiplash that chapter gave me and it honestly felt like the writer was trying to put me into shock.
Right so I think my brain might be blocking out this from my memory for my own sanity so I’ll need to check what happens next. Oh, wait no I know. Drama ensues. Gasp. Liz runs out the house like any normal person would upon learning all this and kat is enraged by her brother and forced him to tell her what’s going on. and then she asks to see the video. And then is physically sick multiple times upon seeing it. And then sleeps it off where she dreams of cc.
Moving on kat is at the hospital and sees Casey there who has somehow found out about her mom’s cancer even though she didn’t tell her on purpose. And they immediately reconcile??? Even though Casey is very problematic and has not displayed a single redeeming quality??? I don’t know why but it is what it is. She’s still a homophobic piece of shit but is now trying to be nice since her friend’s mom is dying.
So next kat finds out Ryan’s drug dealer is the guy from the video with Liz and that leads to him dropping her off at liz’s house. Oh, by the way in case you forgot (cuz I did) Ryan is Kats boyfriend who she hasn’t spared a thought for in the last 6 chapters. So, he is obviously picking up she’s not into him and never has been so they break up. He is needless to say upset and I think ends up going to the Nathan drug dealer guy. He ends up crying there and spilling his guts to Nathan about everything drunkenly. And obviously, Nathan is infatuated with Liz so this doesn’t go down well and he kicks Ryan out.
Anyways liz and kat make out get interrupted kat runs away blah blah and then there’s this massive miscommunication/manipulation with Kat and Nathan. Nathan is obviously scum of the earth and wants liz to himself so lies to Kat and convinces her that Liz was just manipulating her to have sex and then have a threesome or something??? And she straight up believes this sleazy excuse for a human who filmed someone else having sex without their consent…
Right and as, this is happening liz is at the hospital with kats mother who dies and her last thing is like take care of kat she needs you or something. And then kat finds out her mom is dead and emotionally shuts down.
Liz is trying to comfort her and kat is straight up like “TAKE ME TO THE HOTEL”!!
So, they go to a hotel and have a horribly ominous first time. Liz is honestly a victim here she’s just super into kat and completely unaware of any other thing going on. She trusts her completely. this is her “Kit Kat” (this nickname being used anywhere past the prologue made me cringe so hard was that just me?). The girl who saved her so long ago. The girl she loves.
And then we as the reader know that kat is completely emotionally turned off right now. Under the impression, Liz deceived and was using her. Very volatile as her mother has just died. So it turns into this very fast-paced sex scene where Kat is basically just doing whatever she wants and won’t take no for an answer. Ofc liz is so like into her she doesn’t even try say no so even if this was very horrible and has serious power imbalance and ominous undertones it wasn’t nearly as bad as what is to come.
So next they fall asleep and when kat wakes up she has just emotionally turned off even further somehow. Liz wakes up and tries to talk to her and is still tragically unaware of everything else going on. I actually cannot put into words the horrific severity of all the things Kat says so I’ll just paste it in
(Kat turned fully toward Liz and the bed sheet fell from her shoulders, exposing her breasts. “Why wouldn’t I be? Was my inexperience apparent? Didn’t I make the cut?” Liz winced at the venom in Kat’s voice. “Cut? What cut? What are you talking about?” Kat laughed. “Oh, come on, you don’t have to pretend anymore. I know about you and Nathan. I saw your home movie.” Bile rose in Liz’s throat. Kat smirked. “Not bad, but you should fire your lighting guy. It was too dark to see anything good.”)
Yes, so in this part she basically just uses the word of a disgusting drug dealer against a victim of sexual ASSULT by him. DOESN’T attempt to communicate if it’s true or not. Doesn’t try and understand anything. Just is like. "Omg I saw that video of the man raping you … nice home video!!! Your camera quality isn’t very good…"
like girl you saw the video. She was basically inebriated and couldn’t consent to it. And you were the one throwing up uncontrollably after seeing it???WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT??? WHO ARE YOU?? like Christ, I know grief will cloud your judgement but learn not to trust every little thing people say over just asking someone point blank if it’s true.
And what happens after this? Is so gross. Kat basically assaults her. She uses Liz's hand without permission and basically gets off from it. And then leaves and asks for a ride home??? Like at this point I’d mentally checked out at being able to engage meaningfully with this book but I was so horrified by what I was reading.
So next liz drives her home and tries to explain that it’s not what she thinks but kat doesn’t let her. And then in a last-ditch effort Liz reveals who she is (cc) and even so kat doesn’t reconsider her reaction or consider actually listening to what she has to say. She just takes off the necklace they exchanged as kids which has been her precious item ever since and throws in to the ground… and then says she wishes she never met her. And then leaves.
Like oh my god
What???
What was the need for all of that. And do you even understand the gravity of what this can do to someone who has already suffered this much in their life??? Often times in the book kat tries to compare How much they have both been through and I just wanted to say while having a mother die or be sick from cancer has to destroy you. At least you had that love. At least you had a healthy home. At least you weren’t in danger all the time. Like if she even thought for a second about the real gravity of what Liz has been through instead of being selfish and shallow, she would know not to do things like this. She is severing the one connection that Liz has clung to since age 7 to keep her going in life. Her only reason to live. Thoughtlessly, cruelly, and callously. What the actual fuck. Like what the fuck. Absolutely nothing that Liz did at any point constitutes deserving of what Kat did to her. And for that reason, I can never Forgive her character no matter how much remorse she shows. I cannot support her at all. It actually killed any last droplet of tolerance I could have for her.
This was just unbelievably heartbreaking for me. Where are the innocent children from the prologue and what has life done to them?
Fuck kat honestly, she had no right.
Ok I’m getting a little too worked up about this so let’s move on.
So Liz obviously spirals into a self-destructive depression and then starts using heroin again and then goes missing for 3 days. The foster mom comes to Kats house and is all like do you know where she is???
Now by this point, kat has come to her senses. Shockingly.
Sorry girl but where was this energy when you fucking assaulted her and then ripped her heart out based on a lie you stupidly believed from a DRUG DEALER. Ok no no I’m moving on from this.
And kat is all like no we haven’t hung out. And then suddenly decides that she needs to find Liz and redeem herself.
And so, she calls all her friends over and they go to Nathan’s like the knockoff scooby doo gang and find that Liz has overdosed and is about to die. Kat runs in to save the day and magically and unexplained has the drug to help save her so injects it and does CPR . And then she’s breathing again. Wow what a hero!!! Fuck her honestly. At least she recognized that this whole thing was her fault entirely.
And then she starts calling Liz baby like WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHT IM SORRY??? Anyway that’s that she’s taken to the hospital.
Then she wakes up and they basically just make up. Crazy ik WILD
I personally would never be able to be with someone who was capable of that level of heartlessness and pain? And not to mention sexual ASSULT??? She needs PRISON. ASAP. And Liz needs 10 years’ worth of therapy. Intensive.
Moving on to the epilogue which if I’m being honest I skimmed because at this point I’d had enough. This was so uninteresting and strange as is becoming a recurring theme. Everyone is shockingly still acting nice to the brother who also assaulted Liz so that’s always fun to see!!!!!! NOT. I guess ASSULT and justification of assault runs in their family
And then I think Kat gives herself to Liz as their 6-month anniversary present. So many levels of ew. Then they have another horrible intimacy scene which I got through 1 paragraph of before I felt physically sick and had to skip all of it. They make me sick as a couple and I sincerely wish they did not end up together as it is a recipe for disaster and misery as was reading this book.
That’s all I have to say about this dumpster fire of a book. Please do not read this if you value your mental health and sanity
September 12, 2024
6 star book
January 11, 2025
The child abuse, the sickness and loss, the addiction, the misunderstandings. All of it was sad. There was no humour in this book. There was only hard situations and heartbreak. I don't really get why Kat believed this junky drug dealer over the girl she loved and that annoyed me. Some important topics got mentioned once and then never brought up again. It was a little rushed at times and I believe that we never witnessed a satisfying conversation between the main characters. Maybe is just me but I was expecting a 5 star read and I got a little disappointed. I have questions that the book never answered. Why Kats best friend called her a lezzie if she had no problem with it? Did Kat and Liz discuss about Kats mom last moments and the fact that she knew who Liz was from the beginning? If so why didn't we get the chance to witness this conversation? We had a small moment in the hospital when Liz overdosed and then we jumped 6 months later leaving all the important conversations unsaid. Not cool. Also the romance could be really better and way more intense if you consider the fact they knew and loved each other since forever. I have some good stuff in my mind too. I loved Liz's foster mom and the bartender, I loved Kats friends even if I didn't really have a chance to know them well, I loved the first pages with them being kids and so cute together. I loved their interactions when they first met and they were kind of enemies. 2,8⭐️
October 27, 2018
There are a lot of really heavy adult themes in this. Child abuse, foster care, drinking, drugs, promiscuity, sexual violation, death, grief, etc.
I was completely into this book and had to know where it was headed.
I was let down with some reveals that I thought could have been more poignant. And the way one of the main characters handles a significant loss, seemed out of character to me. Which I guess could have been the point considering... But I just didn't buy it. And these were the only reasons that I took a way a star in my rating.
Otherwise, angsty the way I like them.
I was completely into this book and had to know where it was headed.
I was let down with some reveals that I thought could have been more poignant. And the way one of the main characters handles a significant loss, seemed out of character to me. Which I guess could have been the point considering... But I just didn't buy it. And these were the only reasons that I took a way a star in my rating.
Otherwise, angsty the way I like them.
February 11, 2021
This book hurts so much
I read this book in the middle of the night during insomnia, and it made me cry several times, I guess that doesn't sound like a glowing recommendation but it's really good it touched my heart, it's a good story, well written and a good read, but it's not fluffy, it takes a lot of pain to get to the end
I read this book in the middle of the night during insomnia, and it made me cry several times, I guess that doesn't sound like a glowing recommendation but it's really good it touched my heart, it's a good story, well written and a good read, but it's not fluffy, it takes a lot of pain to get to the end
March 30, 2024
this shi ass
April 30, 2020
Broken Helping The Broken . . .
Warning have tissues on standby. This story will have you crying every so often so I highly suggest not reading it amongst people. There’s cute young love, sad heartbreak, addiction with harsh consequences, loss of loved ones, and ultimately a beautiful hope of a HEA.
Love blossomed quickly and fiercely between young 5 year old Katherine/ Kat or Kit Kat and 7 year old Sienna/ Si Si who want nothing more than to be stuck together forever. But it’s obvious Si Si comes from a troubled home life and when the authorities are called in and she is sent away to live with her grandma, Kat and Si Si are separated. Fast forward 12 years later and Kat finds herself stuck with a new girl named Liz, who seems like nothing but trouble yet Kat can’t seem to stay away from her even if the girl tries to piss her off and push her away.
Ugh I don’t want to spoil to much of the plot but read this book if you’re all about fate, young love and finding happiness when life just sucks. Both main characters have troubles in their lives, maybe one has more than the other, but both know what it is to experience pain, physical and emotional. It’s beautiful when they realize they were always meant to be and those around them help them see that before they could lose each other forever. This is definitely one of those books that I just love reading even if it gets me crying, it just gets me smiling in the end.
Warning have tissues on standby. This story will have you crying every so often so I highly suggest not reading it amongst people. There’s cute young love, sad heartbreak, addiction with harsh consequences, loss of loved ones, and ultimately a beautiful hope of a HEA.
Love blossomed quickly and fiercely between young 5 year old Katherine/ Kat or Kit Kat and 7 year old Sienna/ Si Si who want nothing more than to be stuck together forever. But it’s obvious Si Si comes from a troubled home life and when the authorities are called in and she is sent away to live with her grandma, Kat and Si Si are separated. Fast forward 12 years later and Kat finds herself stuck with a new girl named Liz, who seems like nothing but trouble yet Kat can’t seem to stay away from her even if the girl tries to piss her off and push her away.
Ugh I don’t want to spoil to much of the plot but read this book if you’re all about fate, young love and finding happiness when life just sucks. Both main characters have troubles in their lives, maybe one has more than the other, but both know what it is to experience pain, physical and emotional. It’s beautiful when they realize they were always meant to be and those around them help them see that before they could lose each other forever. This is definitely one of those books that I just love reading even if it gets me crying, it just gets me smiling in the end.
June 16, 2021
***I'M NOT MARKING THIS AS SPOILERY BECAUSE I THINK EVERYONE SHOULD BE AWARE OF THE PROBLEMS IN THIS BOOK BEFORE GOING INTO IT (AND THEN MAYBE AVOIDING IT ALTOGETHER) BUT BE WARNED THERE BE SPOILERS HERE***
I'm surprised this book has as good a rating as it does, to be honest.
It starts off well enough with a decent concept, but then devolves into the utterly bizzarre.
For a self-published e-novella I paid three bucks for I really would've loved for there to be content warnings, because boy does the book cover them all.
There's multiple instances of rape, one on screen, and sexual assault. The sexual assault is done by the MC's brother and immediately forgiven as "15yo boy things". The rape, once, is off screen, but the other time gets me more, as it's the MC raping her love interest. She faces barely any consequences and is fully forgiven later and even still gets the girl. Disgusting message from the author.
Another thing that bothered me was the many slurs against lesbians used by non-lesbian characters in an insulting way. Don't appreciate that in a book i pick up for escapism, that seems to be fairly lighthearted in premise. Besides, those slurs added nothing and were unnecessary.
The only reason I'm giving the book two stars is ecause i liked the prologue.
I'm surprised this book has as good a rating as it does, to be honest.
It starts off well enough with a decent concept, but then devolves into the utterly bizzarre.
For a self-published e-novella I paid three bucks for I really would've loved for there to be content warnings, because boy does the book cover them all.
There's multiple instances of rape, one on screen, and sexual assault. The sexual assault is done by the MC's brother and immediately forgiven as "15yo boy things". The rape, once, is off screen, but the other time gets me more, as it's the MC raping her love interest. She faces barely any consequences and is fully forgiven later and even still gets the girl. Disgusting message from the author.
Another thing that bothered me was the many slurs against lesbians used by non-lesbian characters in an insulting way. Don't appreciate that in a book i pick up for escapism, that seems to be fairly lighthearted in premise. Besides, those slurs added nothing and were unnecessary.
The only reason I'm giving the book two stars is ecause i liked the prologue.
January 7, 2020
As young children, Kat and Sienna develop a strong friendship that is torn apart when Sienna is removed from her abusive mother's home and sent away to live with her grandmother. Years later, Kat is a high school senior and Sienna, who now uses her first name Liz (Elizabeth), are reunited when Liz's foster mother moves them back to Kat's home town. But although Liz knows who Kat is, she doesn't reveal herself because she feels she is not the same person as the little girl she once was. Nevertheless, the two begin a tentative friendship and Kat can't understand why she feels so drawn to Liz.
With her last book, Girls Who Pray, just about the best book I read in 2019, Evelyn Dar has become one of my go-to authors. This new book is not perfect, or as good as the other, but it is a well written and interestingly plotted YA second chance romance (which seem to be in abundance these days). Dar adds levels of complexity, not just to Liz's life, which is already quite complex, but to Kat's as well. And as with the other book, once I got to the 2/3 mark, it was difficult to do anything else but see this book through to the end.
With her last book, Girls Who Pray, just about the best book I read in 2019, Evelyn Dar has become one of my go-to authors. This new book is not perfect, or as good as the other, but it is a well written and interestingly plotted YA second chance romance (which seem to be in abundance these days). Dar adds levels of complexity, not just to Liz's life, which is already quite complex, but to Kat's as well. And as with the other book, once I got to the 2/3 mark, it was difficult to do anything else but see this book through to the end.
October 2, 2020
Tw//sexual assault, drug abuse
I don't usually write reviews, but I really felt like I had to for this book.
First of all, the writing was really irritating, because it felt more like a long rant and I could rarely tell whose pov it was from. There were also a lot of spelling mistakes, which I normally don't have a problem with, but in this case just really got on my nerves.
The book adressed many heavy topics, but the way it was executed was just inappropriate.
As others already mentioned, Liz was sexually assaulted multiple times throughout the book. She was raped at the beginning of the book, then Kat's little brother assaulted her and I'm pretty sure, Kat also sexually assaulted Liz at one point.
Every time it was pretty much ignored and treated like it wasn't a big deal.
The other topics were handled just as badly.
It is honestly too much for me to get into right now.
Let's just say, I don't recommend reading this book
I don't usually write reviews, but I really felt like I had to for this book.
First of all, the writing was really irritating, because it felt more like a long rant and I could rarely tell whose pov it was from. There were also a lot of spelling mistakes, which I normally don't have a problem with, but in this case just really got on my nerves.
The book adressed many heavy topics, but the way it was executed was just inappropriate.
As others already mentioned, Liz was sexually assaulted multiple times throughout the book. She was raped at the beginning of the book, then Kat's little brother assaulted her and I'm pretty sure, Kat also sexually assaulted Liz at one point.
Every time it was pretty much ignored and treated like it wasn't a big deal.
The other topics were handled just as badly.
It is honestly too much for me to get into right now.
Let's just say, I don't recommend reading this book
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