I won this book in a goodreads giveaway. I was quite excited to read it, and now I have a lot of thoughts, which I'll try to keep concise.
Indecent tells the story of Imogene, a 22-year-old who's serving as a teaching apprentice at an all-boys boarding school, who has an affair with one of the students.
This isn't something I would normally rush to read, but it sounded pretty fun and had great reviews. I will say the latter were definitely deserved and it was kind of fun. But the reason I gave it three stars and not five is because, at times, Indecent also felt sort of... exhausting.
Corinne Sullivan is a talented writer and the narrative wove together nicely. We got glimpses of the near past intertwined with Imogene's nostalgia about college or even high school. Everything fit well together and held my attention. I was curious to see how she struck up a relationship with a student, and I was interested to learn how it would unfold.
The characters and actions all unfolded in a way that was fascinating and worthwhile. The book is a good one, and it earns its praise thanks to Sullivan's techniques.
However, the one big road block for me was the protagonist. I didn't hate Imogene by any means, or even dislike her, but I was constantly tired of how convinced she was of her poor decisions.
Some aspects of her personality were completely forgivable. I'm pretty sure everyone has trouble feeling confident at least once in a while, and as someone who spent almost a decade at a single sex private school in New England, I do understand they can have a sort of cult-like appeal for people outside of the little bubble. Imogene is insecure, and she just may be depressed, even if she refuses to acknowledge it. These and other parts of her make her the true human you always want your leading ladies or men to be.
Nonetheless, she was also tiresome. I get that you can't help who you're attracted to. In fact, she even ignores Kip's texts and deletes his number at first.
But none of that makes up for how she spent almost all of the book in a total delusion, pushing people away, believing she was doing the right thing even when some part of her brain started to tell her otherwise. Life is hard, and relationships are tricky, but that hardly felt like an excuse when she hid in her bed for the 79th time and talked herself into believing she played some huge, important role in Kip's life.
Imogene was attracted to Kip because he embodied what she wanted from the boarding school: he's elite - otherworldly, in a way. Yet the obsession she has drives her to make stupid late night visits and act as if everyone is her enemy, to the point that everyone starts filling that role because she forces them into it.
All of my complaining aside, I did really enjoy how Sullivan arranged the theme of power in Indecent. Though Imogene is an authority figure, she's still only 22, she's not a full teacher, and Kip isn't even in her class. It's the teenage boy who holds all of the sway and allure. He's the one who texts her, he's the one who decides what they'll do and when they'll do it. Imogene is just enthralled and ready to cooperate. That part of the book made it far more interesting than it could have been.
This was not a Lolita retelling (thankfully their relationship was a legal one, even if it was morally unacceptable), but at times I found myself feeling similarly to how I did when I read that book. I wasn't disgusted because there were no scenes of an old person raping a child. Instead, I drew the comparison because, just as I was not persuaded by Humbert Humbert's testimony, Imogene's weak excuses and clear delusions failed to draw me in, too.
What I'm saying here is that, all in all, I did like Indecent, and I recommend giving it a try if it's your kind of book. Corinne Sullivan has crafted a great narrative and subverted some common threads to keep her story apart from the majority. It's also a fast read, taking only several hours (interrupted on my part by days of activities that didn't allow for reading time). But in the end, I couldn't move past how ridiculous Imogene often sounded to my skeptical and unconvinced mind in order to delve deeper into her world.