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Emotional
My life has been horrible. I have been broken, abused, and forgotten. I have been shaped and changed by my experiences. Because of my past, my emotions are strong. They have taken on a life of their own. I have my Anger, my Pain, my Lust, and my Sadness. They protect me, they make me stronger, and they push me to do things – sometimes bad things.
I need my Emotions – my Demons, my Emos – because they shield me from the monstrous demons that roam the night. How do I separate my insanity from reality? Can I accept my Emos, even knowing they might not be real?
I know I won’t survive without them.
**Scenes and subject matter intended for 18+, contains dark elements and scenes that may be triggering.**
I need my Emotions – my Demons, my Emos – because they shield me from the monstrous demons that roam the night. How do I separate my insanity from reality? Can I accept my Emos, even knowing they might not be real?
I know I won’t survive without them.
**Scenes and subject matter intended for 18+, contains dark elements and scenes that may be triggering.**
146 pages, Kindle Edition
First published May 19, 2018
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May 25, 2018
well deserved 5 stars
knock me down with a feather this was amazing.
The key to this is really is in the title, its emotional and its dark. Not just 'I've had to raise myself because my mom drinks' dark but an extremely abuse past from the young age of 6 (you have been warned)
Some of it is hard to stomach especially the younger parts but the saving grace here is the abuse is not at the hands of the 4 Emos (the Harem) and it only happens in a flashback style occurrence not in the present tense of the book which makes it more bearable.
The story is based around Ren and her questionable sanity. She is on medication that suppress the imaginary demon who control her emotions, but what happens when she comes of the medication are the demons real or aren't they? The whole story is based on the one questionable fact, and question it I did, at every turn. It made the journey Ren takes to recovery so realistic I was questioning my own sanity along with her.
"Long ago, I stopped wondering if I feel emotion on my own or if they’re all caused by my Emos. It’s easier to blame my feelings on them."
Not only does her own emotions materialise as demons but she sees the demons in other people also. The parallels between emotions and demons were so insightful
"Most demons aren’t as innocent, but they still try to pour their humans into “acceptable” activities. Lust demons prey on porn or long strings of one-night stands. Anger demons get violent when they drink or shoot people on video games....... No one is safe, and no one is free."
It just blew me away was not expecting this read to be so engaging. This one will stay with me.
I didn't realise until the end that this is by the author of the Soul Tender Series, I loved those books and I may love this more.
knock me down with a feather this was amazing.
The key to this is really is in the title, its emotional and its dark. Not just 'I've had to raise myself because my mom drinks' dark but an extremely abuse past from the young age of 6 (you have been warned)
Some of it is hard to stomach especially the younger parts but the saving grace here is the abuse is not at the hands of the 4 Emos (the Harem) and it only happens in a flashback style occurrence not in the present tense of the book which makes it more bearable.
The story is based around Ren and her questionable sanity. She is on medication that suppress the imaginary demon who control her emotions, but what happens when she comes of the medication are the demons real or aren't they? The whole story is based on the one questionable fact, and question it I did, at every turn. It made the journey Ren takes to recovery so realistic I was questioning my own sanity along with her.
"Long ago, I stopped wondering if I feel emotion on my own or if they’re all caused by my Emos. It’s easier to blame my feelings on them."
Not only does her own emotions materialise as demons but she sees the demons in other people also. The parallels between emotions and demons were so insightful
"Most demons aren’t as innocent, but they still try to pour their humans into “acceptable” activities. Lust demons prey on porn or long strings of one-night stands. Anger demons get violent when they drink or shoot people on video games....... No one is safe, and no one is free."
It just blew me away was not expecting this read to be so engaging. This one will stay with me.
I didn't realise until the end that this is by the author of the Soul Tender Series, I loved those books and I may love this more.
May 19, 2018
I've been pondering how to write a review for this book. It's....different and more encompassing than almost anything I've read before.
First of all, pay attention to the trigger warnings. This book is hard to read - take breaks if you need to. I know I did.
At its core, Emotional is about a woman coming to terms with herself, but so much of it is mental, one is never quite sure what is real and what is her psychosis. I love the ambiguity, the questions, the strength she has to show to embrace herself.
Honestly, I have no idea how to review this book. It blew me away in the best and worst of ways. It's well written and leaves you with questions (not cliffhanger questions, just normal next book please questions). It's reverse harem, it's dark, and if you're emotionally capable of withstanding the absolutely heartbreaking subject matter, read it.
First of all, pay attention to the trigger warnings. This book is hard to read - take breaks if you need to. I know I did.
At its core, Emotional is about a woman coming to terms with herself, but so much of it is mental, one is never quite sure what is real and what is her psychosis. I love the ambiguity, the questions, the strength she has to show to embrace herself.
Honestly, I have no idea how to review this book. It blew me away in the best and worst of ways. It's well written and leaves you with questions (not cliffhanger questions, just normal next book please questions). It's reverse harem, it's dark, and if you're emotionally capable of withstanding the absolutely heartbreaking subject matter, read it.
May 24, 2018
Darker than dark. Might be the darkest reverse harem at the moment
This one is unapologetic and embraces darkness full-on. There might be triggers about psychological disorders, childhood/domestic abuse and sexual violations/assaults. BUT, never has the author reveled in the distress of the character/s during said triggers nor does she make light of it all.
First and foremost, I haven't read the blurb so I haven't expected the concept at all. And what do you know, I'm floored. This one feels like it has pulled the rug beneath my feet while I'm trying to stand still. So much love for this unique concept! (Yes, I am talking about the unique circumstances of the heroes.)
Second, the theme!!! I mean, it's totally not easy reading about desperation, hopelessness, injustice...all about the lowest points there ever is about humanity, about surviving life-they never come easy, istg. But again, I'm not looking for easy. And I want to give the author a standing ovation for the audacity to tackle these themes.
I don't know how do I continue this review without spoiling it. I guess you just have to read it for yourself. You want raw and ruthless and no bs, then this one is for you.
This one is unapologetic and embraces darkness full-on. There might be triggers about psychological disorders, childhood/domestic abuse and sexual violations/assaults. BUT, never has the author reveled in the distress of the character/s during said triggers nor does she make light of it all.
First and foremost, I haven't read the blurb so I haven't expected the concept at all. And what do you know, I'm floored. This one feels like it has pulled the rug beneath my feet while I'm trying to stand still. So much love for this unique concept! (Yes, I am talking about the unique circumstances of the heroes.)
Second, the theme!!! I mean, it's totally not easy reading about desperation, hopelessness, injustice...all about the lowest points there ever is about humanity, about surviving life-they never come easy, istg. But again, I'm not looking for easy. And I want to give the author a standing ovation for the audacity to tackle these themes.
I don't know how do I continue this review without spoiling it. I guess you just have to read it for yourself. You want raw and ruthless and no bs, then this one is for you.
October 18, 2019
A really amazing find. I went into this book thinking it would be just okay. I was wrong. It was surprisingly really good. Looking forward to the next book. Great characters, loved the author's creation of their world, and how she survives everything.
I saw a review that compares it to Sensate8. It's not really, but having another being able to take control and give you knowledge, yes that's like sensate8.
This is a darker. Loved the guys and hoping Ren's story continues soon.
I saw a review that compares it to Sensate8. It's not really, but having another being able to take control and give you knowledge, yes that's like sensate8.
This is a darker. Loved the guys and hoping Ren's story continues soon.
July 25, 2018
I'm not entirely sure how I feel about this book aside from the fact that it was good, like a disturbing kind of good but really good. If you like darker stories, this one definitely hits the nail on the head. At the same time, it also shows how there is light at the end of that dark tunnel. The whole story is filled with darker themes that certainly could be triggering for some people. From the main character's childhood to adulthood, she is constantly abused and taken advantage of, yet she still has strength to fight back.
There were times my heart was completely breaking for Ren. I wanted to hold her and let her cry and give her all the love she never got. There were moments when I could feel the tension between Ren and her men, as if you were thre in the room. And still there were other times when I felt as though I could really sense the danger she was in, feel her anxiety. In short, Orrisan does an amazing job bringing her characters to life.
I would love to be able to continue Ren's journey. I hope we see more stories from the mind of Orrisan (😉).
There were times my heart was completely breaking for Ren. I wanted to hold her and let her cry and give her all the love she never got. There were moments when I could feel the tension between Ren and her men, as if you were thre in the room. And still there were other times when I felt as though I could really sense the danger she was in, feel her anxiety. In short, Orrisan does an amazing job bringing her characters to life.
I would love to be able to continue Ren's journey. I hope we see more stories from the mind of Orrisan (😉).
July 11, 2018
This was one of the best books I have ever read. I don't even know where to start, I am so overwhelmed with the emotions depicted in the story. The title is certainly more than suitable, not to mention the cover which perfectly portrays the main character. The story is raw, painful, overwhelming, and certainly not for readers who shy away from violence, taboo topics, and erotica. This story gives a feeling of somewhere in between contemporary fiction and an autobiographical account, although in some moments it reads almost like urban fantasy, hence the step away from my usual preferred genre. And considering the ending, which is a very much of a cliffhanger, it actually still might be some kind of fantasy genre in there.
The author's writing is amazing and incredibly consistent and she infuses the reader with various kinds of feelings while she explains the emotions of her main character in detail. The author does not shy away from taboo topics, such as various kinds of neglect and abuse, together with all kinds of trauma and difficulties they cause for the survivor, and interweaves them into the story of current struggles and coping with the past.
The main character is an incredibly strong and resilient young woman, who is coping with her troubled past. Her coping mechanism includes four unimaginably beautiful and strong men who she refers to as her demons or her emotions, and who make sure that she survives through all the ordeals. There is a significant amount of sex in the story, and the author managed to portray all the scenes in such a vivid way that they left me breathless. There is also a significant amount of violence (unrelated to sex), however, I have a feeling that in this case, the author held back somewhat, and for that I was grateful. Although, some memories implied so much, they nearly caused me physical pain.
I have noted some reviews complaining about stereotypes. I personally disagree, maybe because I haven't read enough of the similar literature, or because I was so amazed that I did not pay attention. All I can say is that overall, it was an incredible, amazing story that I would wholeheartedly recommend to all the readers with strong nerves who also enjoy a bit of erotica. I will definitely read more of this author, as soon as the new book comes out.
The author's writing is amazing and incredibly consistent and she infuses the reader with various kinds of feelings while she explains the emotions of her main character in detail. The author does not shy away from taboo topics, such as various kinds of neglect and abuse, together with all kinds of trauma and difficulties they cause for the survivor, and interweaves them into the story of current struggles and coping with the past.
The main character is an incredibly strong and resilient young woman, who is coping with her troubled past. Her coping mechanism includes four unimaginably beautiful and strong men who she refers to as her demons or her emotions, and who make sure that she survives through all the ordeals. There is a significant amount of sex in the story, and the author managed to portray all the scenes in such a vivid way that they left me breathless. There is also a significant amount of violence (unrelated to sex), however, I have a feeling that in this case, the author held back somewhat, and for that I was grateful. Although, some memories implied so much, they nearly caused me physical pain.
I have noted some reviews complaining about stereotypes. I personally disagree, maybe because I haven't read enough of the similar literature, or because I was so amazed that I did not pay attention. All I can say is that overall, it was an incredible, amazing story that I would wholeheartedly recommend to all the readers with strong nerves who also enjoy a bit of erotica. I will definitely read more of this author, as soon as the new book comes out.
May 25, 2018
Wow...just wow! Took me a bit to think about my review for this book but I have to say as soon as you start reading you are just dragged in by your heart and soul and at the very first chapter are filled with such despair and sadness! This book really captivated me, you certainly have to take the warning to heart as it is a dark RH novel and there are quite a few triggers in this book but reading it is certainly worth it! While reading this book you really have all your emotions engaged and I felt so much for Ren, she is just so tortured by her past, her ghosts and her future! Her guys are all her feelings and they are all so different during the book and they really want her to accept who they are and who she is, but this is so difficult for Ren! But at the end you really start to feel Ren is going to start believing in herself and the guys....it will be very interesting to see what book 2 brings!! This is a highly recommended dark RH book that truly tugs in the heart, drags the reader into disturbing places and spits you out at the end wishful for Rn and her guys. Can’t wait for more!!
June 11, 2019
I liked this book, I just didn't love it. The plot felt repetitive after a while and I had to force myself to finish the book. It got to the point where I dreaded even picking it up to continue.
Even though I felt really bad for Ren and I can't imagine what she has gone through in her life, I found her character very unrelatable. She just made decisions that I wouldn't have and her thought process was difficult to follow. I think that this is mainly because of her questionable sanity, but it is also because of her personality too.
The guys were dull and not developed enough. There was no change in them what so ever from the start of the book to the end. Plus, Mal and Nyle completely overshadowed Tristan and Sar. I got to see barely any of the other two, while Mal/Nyle were mentioned what seemed like every other page. It was ridiculous.
Overall, this just wasn't the book for me. There was some room for the author to continue with these characters in the future, but as of right now, I will not be reading any future installments.
Even though I felt really bad for Ren and I can't imagine what she has gone through in her life, I found her character very unrelatable. She just made decisions that I wouldn't have and her thought process was difficult to follow. I think that this is mainly because of her questionable sanity, but it is also because of her personality too.
The guys were dull and not developed enough. There was no change in them what so ever from the start of the book to the end. Plus, Mal and Nyle completely overshadowed Tristan and Sar. I got to see barely any of the other two, while Mal/Nyle were mentioned what seemed like every other page. It was ridiculous.
Overall, this just wasn't the book for me. There was some room for the author to continue with these characters in the future, but as of right now, I will not be reading any future installments.
May 19, 2018
Stunning book. Raw. Primal. Surreal. Fight Club meets Girl Interrupted. While reading it, the question of "Who do you root for?" rises to the surface each and every time, and I found myself answering back: I root for justice. I was kept on my toes and swept away by what I wanted to be real vs what could be real. Aside from the puzzle that the plot presents, the writing is flawless and authentic. Lots of facets are presented to us of a young woman's fight for her sanity, including glimpses of experiences that are difficult to read, yet poignant and necessary to reveal the human psyche. Reyna's intuitive writing is stellar, showing us exactly what we need to see and hiding the things we aren't ready for. You'll experience the full gambit of.....emotions. Brilliant book!
May 18, 2018
Lots of triggers in this book not really for the faint of hearts, however a lot of relation between myself and the characters. The descriptions and feelings go down on a personal level. I would say i couldn't put this book down but in reality i had to take little breathers. I would recommend this book it shows deeper on mental illnesses and inner demons.
May 27, 2018
Interesting
This book took you on a sad, but almost hopeful journey. This was a very interesting concept for a book and I loved it! I hope there will be more books in this series because I would love to see this group of characters develope more.
This book took you on a sad, but almost hopeful journey. This was a very interesting concept for a book and I loved it! I hope there will be more books in this series because I would love to see this group of characters develope more.
May 26, 2018
Amazing!
I freaking love this book! It definitely hits right in the feels in all the best ways. I can't wait to see more of Ren and her Emos!
I freaking love this book! It definitely hits right in the feels in all the best ways. I can't wait to see more of Ren and her Emos!
May 25, 2018
Weird but good!
This was one of the strangest books i have read, but it was a good strange. It was different and kept me intriguedm, wanting to know what would happen next. It was dark but with the hope of light. I am interested to see where the story goes from here.
This was one of the strangest books i have read, but it was a good strange. It was different and kept me intriguedm, wanting to know what would happen next. It was dark but with the hope of light. I am interested to see where the story goes from here.
May 19, 2018
I really don't know what to say about this book. It was such a roller coaster ride of emotions. Great character development and the story was rich and emotive. I was full of questions through the whole story but enjoyed it so much. I highly recommend it if dark and gritty is your jam. It is dark and heavy and there are plenty of triggers in this book. If this is not you kind of story do yourself and the auor a favour and skip it. There is nothing that annoys me more than a review that complains about story aspects when you have been specifically warned on the blurb
May 23, 2018
Epic
This has just became my new favorite book of the year, n possibly of all time. So powerful,I won't lie and say its an easy read because it's not. However that is what makes Emotional such an amazing book. It make's you ask yourself questions, and makes you think. It shows a Side to mental health I have never been able to find in a book. Looking forward to reading the next book, along with anything the amazing Reyna Orrisan writes!!
This has just became my new favorite book of the year, n possibly of all time. So powerful,I won't lie and say its an easy read because it's not. However that is what makes Emotional such an amazing book. It make's you ask yourself questions, and makes you think. It shows a Side to mental health I have never been able to find in a book. Looking forward to reading the next book, along with anything the amazing Reyna Orrisan writes!!
August 28, 2018
Okay so I'm not quite sure what to say about this book. Emotional is definitely a dark romance with a FMC who has experienced so many awful things in her life. Beware of possible triggers in this book such as attempted rape, sexual harassment, murder, etc. Most of the dark aspects occur in flash backs.
This is my first book by this author and it definitely got my attention. The story grabbed my attention from the start and kept it until the end. Although I wasn't too sure what exactly was going on throughout some of the book, I still appreciated the plot and concepts presented. With a FMC who sees demons in everyone and isn't sure what's real and what isn't, this story left me with more questions than answers, but I loved it! I loved her emos and her interactions with them.
Emotional was definitely a more difficult read for me, in terms of content and understanding the inner workings of the FMC's mind. But overall I really liked the concept of the story and look forward to reading more.
This is my first book by this author and it definitely got my attention. The story grabbed my attention from the start and kept it until the end. Although I wasn't too sure what exactly was going on throughout some of the book, I still appreciated the plot and concepts presented. With a FMC who sees demons in everyone and isn't sure what's real and what isn't, this story left me with more questions than answers, but I loved it! I loved her emos and her interactions with them.
Emotional was definitely a more difficult read for me, in terms of content and understanding the inner workings of the FMC's mind. But overall I really liked the concept of the story and look forward to reading more.
August 6, 2021
This book has triggers.
I loved this book because it was dark, emotional and I truly related to Ren and her demons. I greatly enjoyed trying to figure out if she was just “insane” or not and how, if she wasn’t, that her demons could be physical. I loved that she accepted what happened to her as a child, and she dealt with it – with the help of her demons.
I did not love that this book kind of seemed to drag; not much really happened in the plot and when it did, you were left with a cliff hanger. Only one of the demons really seemed to have any character development and individual characteristics.
I am intrigued enough by the cliffhanger to want to read a second book. I did notice this book was on Amazon in May of 2018 and the Facebook (pen name Reyna Orrisan) said she was working on the second book (a year ago). I found her Facebook (Serena Lindahl) with her other series that I’ll try.
I loved this book because it was dark, emotional and I truly related to Ren and her demons. I greatly enjoyed trying to figure out if she was just “insane” or not and how, if she wasn’t, that her demons could be physical. I loved that she accepted what happened to her as a child, and she dealt with it – with the help of her demons.
I did not love that this book kind of seemed to drag; not much really happened in the plot and when it did, you were left with a cliff hanger. Only one of the demons really seemed to have any character development and individual characteristics.
I am intrigued enough by the cliffhanger to want to read a second book. I did notice this book was on Amazon in May of 2018 and the Facebook (pen name Reyna Orrisan) said she was working on the second book (a year ago). I found her Facebook (Serena Lindahl) with her other series that I’ll try.
May 31, 2018
A dark reverse harem read.
A story that makes you question reality vs fantasy.
Amazingly written.
This book will pull at your emotions.
Make sure to read the trigger warning.
This is not a read to take lightly.
This is one of those books that is hard to review die to the emotional turmoil it puts you through.
It is one that is better for the individual to read themselves than for anyone to tell them about it.
I definitely recommend it.
I think it is something different and unique in its writing and storyline.
A story that makes you question reality vs fantasy.
Amazingly written.
This book will pull at your emotions.
Make sure to read the trigger warning.
This is not a read to take lightly.
This is one of those books that is hard to review die to the emotional turmoil it puts you through.
It is one that is better for the individual to read themselves than for anyone to tell them about it.
I definitely recommend it.
I think it is something different and unique in its writing and storyline.
July 10, 2018
Too dark for me
I'm not sure how to rate this. It definitely lived up to it's title of a dark rh. Its starts off with a deep dive into mental health and just keeps getting darker from there. At the end I was more confused than the beginning (are her emos real or not?) and a bit dissatisfied. I really wanted to see a happy ending or even a happy for now ending. Everything felt unresolved at the end. I get the impression there might be another one to come but I'm not sure I want to read it. The writing is good but I just don't think I can stomach that much darkness in my books.
I'm not sure how to rate this. It definitely lived up to it's title of a dark rh. Its starts off with a deep dive into mental health and just keeps getting darker from there. At the end I was more confused than the beginning (are her emos real or not?) and a bit dissatisfied. I really wanted to see a happy ending or even a happy for now ending. Everything felt unresolved at the end. I get the impression there might be another one to come but I'm not sure I want to read it. The writing is good but I just don't think I can stomach that much darkness in my books.
November 4, 2018
3.5
I honestly don't know how to rate this book, it wasn't bad, it was quite the page turner actually but I have issues with it.
Ignoring the trigger warning my biggest issues with it was the consent.
I honestly don't know how to rate this book, it wasn't bad, it was quite the page turner actually but I have issues with it.
Ignoring the trigger warning my biggest issues with it was the consent.
June 17, 2019
Wow, A must read!!
This is a great story. It is a new author for me and I really am glad I read the book. I can not wait for the next one. If you are not into the darker stories than this book is not for you. I really enjoyed it it was well written and the storyline pulled you in.
This is a great story. It is a new author for me and I really am glad I read the book. I can not wait for the next one. If you are not into the darker stories than this book is not for you. I really enjoyed it it was well written and the storyline pulled you in.
June 6, 2020
Enjoyed
This was an intense book. It was wow I felt to bad for the Mc and irrationally mad at her men for not helping her lol. But i get the emotions the Mc did and she so strong because fighting to stay alive sometimes is the hardest thing you can do in life. I really enjoyed this book and I hope to see a HEA for her.
This was an intense book. It was wow I felt to bad for the Mc and irrationally mad at her men for not helping her lol. But i get the emotions the Mc did and she so strong because fighting to stay alive sometimes is the hardest thing you can do in life. I really enjoyed this book and I hope to see a HEA for her.
October 12, 2018
Dark romance
If you have triggers then this book might not be for you. I have a dark past but this book did not trigger them. I love the writing style of this author. This book will leave you wanting to know more. Ready for the next!
If you have triggers then this book might not be for you. I have a dark past but this book did not trigger them. I love the writing style of this author. This book will leave you wanting to know more. Ready for the next!
December 4, 2020
Dnf, it is a bit to much I think, very well worded and seems to be a great story build but its just a sliver of the tracks for me to get into and fully immerse myself in.
I might give it another go down the road but for now its a dnf.
I might give it another go down the road but for now its a dnf.
May 28, 2018
** full review coming soon **
June 11, 2018
I had absolutely no clue what going on through the majority of this book but I kinda want to read the next one just see if it clarifies anything for me
September 4, 2019
Impressed
I'll make this short and sweet. If you've ever felt like your emotions tangible or overpowering (and you have a bit of a kink😉) read this book. Well done.
I'll make this short and sweet. If you've ever felt like your emotions tangible or overpowering (and you have a bit of a kink😉) read this book. Well done.
May 3, 2025
i liked it! but the end didn’t feel very satisfying for me
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