I lie in bed at night
and hear the soft throb of water
surging through the ditch,
from extreme to extreme water bounds,
clumsy country boy,
stumbling over fallen logs and rubber tires
to meet a lover
who awaits in her parents' house, window open.
As I used to for love.
Now gray-black hair,
vigorous cheeks, weathered brow, chapped lips,
dismal thoughtful eyes,
I float in brown melancholy on the lazy currents
of memory, studying my reflection
on the water this night,
with distant devotion,
a swimmer who has forgotten how to swim.
****
Sun buries its face
in dark brown
landscape of the West Mesa.
Woman I love
buries my chin
in her breast with pleasure,
teaches me,
to have a good spring
I need a good winter.
****
You make
a thousand expressions of distaste
and indifference, like a bored prince
unimpressed with our performance,
you scream
and we stagger out of bed,
grumbling at the unmerciful rule
of our emperor.
We become fortune-tellers
guessing what you desire.
We become dwarfs
at your service,
jugglers of toy bears and rattlers,
musicians continually winding up the music box,
and after all of it, you simply
shut your eyes, burp, and go to sleep.
We have never loved anyone more than you
my child.