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Firsts
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She’s forbidden.
Too young, too pure, and not mine.
I’ll break all the rules to be with her.
She belongs to me, even if she doesn't know it yet.
He’s taboo.
Too old, too experienced, and my stepfather.
I’ll cross every line to be with him.
He's not mine, and never will be.
It’s not about the danger of what's forbidden,
it’s about the pleasure we get from it.
All consequences be damned.
She’s forbidden.
Too young, too pure, and not mine.
I’ll break all the rules to be with her.
She belongs to me, even if she doesn't know it yet.
He’s taboo.
Too old, too experienced, and my stepfather.
I’ll cross every line to be with him.
He's not mine, and never will be.
It’s not about the danger of what's forbidden,
it’s about the pleasure we get from it.
All consequences be damned.
172 pages, ebook
First published May 22, 2018
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About the author
C.L. Matthews
49 books1,808 followersC.L. Matthews is a USA TODAY Bestselling Author who lives in lala-landia with their husband and invisible friends. They're queer and Mexican-American, and love to write as many diverse characters as they can. They want to riot the lack of authentic Mexican food in their state but will settle for cooking their own dishes in the meantime. They enjoys tacos, Red Bull, and warm water, because they're crazy. They're an oddball and realize it’s been mentioned before, just go with it. Their joys in life consist of writing unconventional romances, making book covers, causing havoc to her reader’s hearts, and genre-hopping when they need a change of scenery. They're a special kind of weird and enjoy every moment of it.
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May 24, 2018DNF @ 17%
WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?
Not my kind of book.
I like and read taboo stories, but this one goes beyond the limits of what I think is acceptable.
A BIG NO FOR ME!
WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?
Not my kind of book.
I like and read taboo stories, but this one goes beyond the limits of what I think is acceptable.
A BIG NO FOR ME!
May 31, 2020
ARC BOOK REVIEW
Release Date-22/5/18
This wasn't badly written just not my bag.
On paper, this should have been a good fit for me; I'm a big fan of age gap romances being in one myself with a twenty year age gap; they are just so my guilty pleasure.
But "Firsts" for me was a strange one; I found it ever so difficult to connect to either Sy and Leia and I'm not sure why that was.
So I'm just going to give you a brief idea of where this went wrong for me.
I didn't love the fact that Sy was initially lusting after a thirteen-year-old girl.
I know taboo and all that, but that's the truth; it made me feel really uncomfortable and icky.
I know he never acted on his feelings until later and we only briefly meet thirteen-year-old Leia but I struggled with this all the same.
I would have much prefered the feelings Sy had towards Lei to develop at a later date or even for Sy not to meet Leia until she was sixteen.
Still young; but I could have dealt much easier.
I met the father of my children when I was twenty-one and he was twenty years my senior, so I'm the last one to judge; I just felt the timeline used here was a trifle young.
I also felt that if Sy cared as much as he claimed to about Leia he would have (A) not married her mother whatever the reason or (B) at least have the decency to treat Leia like an adult; if you want to bone her then she's mature enough to know the reasoning behind the desition that was made.
Cant have it both ways boyo.
I also thought the mother was a waste of space; so much is said about how she really does care but you hardly see her for dust; Leia was practically raising herself; not acceptable in my eyes.
Leia's mum so deserves the crappiest parent of the year award for sure.
I still could have somewhat dealt with things as they were progressing but then Bran was thrown into the mix and that I wasn't cool with.
I detest love triangles with a bloody passion sorry, and this just happened to be the final nail in the coffin for me.
I really do wish I could have liked this so much more; "Firsts" was really just a very bad fit overall.
If you like your taboo romances this will probably be a much better fit for you.
I usually do love them, but this one just wasn't for me sorry and I won't be continuing any further
Heres hoping you find this a much better fit than I.
Thank You to the Author for providing me with an ARC of "Firsts" of which I have reviewed voluntary.
All opinions expressed are entirely my own.
Reviewed By Beckie Bookworm
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February 28, 2021
Audio -
Male narrator - 5 Stars
Female narrator - 3.5 Star
Story - 4 Stars
Male narrator - 5 Stars
Female narrator - 3.5 Star
Story - 4 Stars
December 24, 2018
This book has been spectacular to write! I'm not sure if I've ever written something so incredibly taboo, but still be unable to turn away from them. I absolutely love it!
I've realized you'll either love this book, or you'll hate it. There's not really an in-between.
And if you're furious? I got a cure, we have a discussion group on facebook, you can let out all of your anger.
➜ Firsts Discussion Group
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AU: https://www.amazon.com.au/dp/B07D1M68T2
*All other retailers blocked my publishing, so it's only available on Amazon.*
I've realized you'll either love this book, or you'll hate it. There's not really an in-between.
And if you're furious? I got a cure, we have a discussion group on facebook, you can let out all of your anger.
➜ Firsts Discussion Group
ON SALE UNTIL 12/28/18
🖤🖤🖤IT'S LIIIIIIIVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEE!!!!!🖤🖤🖤
AMAZON:
US: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07D1M68T2
CA: https://www.amazon.ca/dp/B07D1M68T2
UK: https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/B07D1M68
AU: https://www.amazon.com.au/dp/B07D1M68T2
*All other retailers blocked my publishing, so it's only available on Amazon.*
never-no-way
April 28, 2018Step-father & daughter romance / taboo love - well, at least that's what they call it.
And I say "No", there is nothing romantic or erotic about it.
And I say "No", there is nothing romantic or erotic about it.
February 7, 2019
4.5 stars
Firsts is steaming hot, fast paced, intriguing, captivating and all shades of wrong.
"She's too young, too pure, and not mine to have."
To be honest: I'm not a huge fan of taboo lovestories. I'm really not. But from time to time I give them a chance. And often I get surprised how much I enjoyed reading them. Firsts by C.L. Matthews is one of those surprises. It was also my first book by her and I have to say she got me hooked.
"From the moment I saw you, my heart stopped. And since then, I've forgotten how to make it beat for something other than your smile."
This story is fast paced, not once the storyline felt dragged and the rush Leia and Silas get when seeing each other, is felt deeply in your readers bones. Even though you know it's the wrongest kind of wrong, you are caught in their web of attraction. You don't want to see but you are unable to look away.
"This is every shade of wrong, but I can't help myself. I want her so badly, and I'll break all the rules to have her."
I know this is a novella, but it surely doesn't feel like one. Nevertheless I wished for a little more insight of Sila's mind. Explore it deeper, his background/childhood. And I would have loved a little more insight into the relationship between Brax and Leia.
Reading this story will leave you breathless, desperately wanting to know more. Craving for the next book. Where does it go from the ending?
Firsts is steaming hot, fast paced, intriguing, captivating and all shades of wrong.
"She's too young, too pure, and not mine to have."
To be honest: I'm not a huge fan of taboo lovestories. I'm really not. But from time to time I give them a chance. And often I get surprised how much I enjoyed reading them. Firsts by C.L. Matthews is one of those surprises. It was also my first book by her and I have to say she got me hooked.
"From the moment I saw you, my heart stopped. And since then, I've forgotten how to make it beat for something other than your smile."
This story is fast paced, not once the storyline felt dragged and the rush Leia and Silas get when seeing each other, is felt deeply in your readers bones. Even though you know it's the wrongest kind of wrong, you are caught in their web of attraction. You don't want to see but you are unable to look away.
"This is every shade of wrong, but I can't help myself. I want her so badly, and I'll break all the rules to have her."
I know this is a novella, but it surely doesn't feel like one. Nevertheless I wished for a little more insight of Sila's mind. Explore it deeper, his background/childhood. And I would have loved a little more insight into the relationship between Brax and Leia.
Reading this story will leave you breathless, desperately wanting to know more. Craving for the next book. Where does it go from the ending?
May 22, 2018
Firsts by C.L. Matthews is the story of Silas and Leia.
Silas is an older man who has been friends of Leia mother and father. But they didn't really see each other until she was about 13 years old. They happen to see each other before they knew who the other was. Silas thought she was almost 17 years old but she was just 13. They didn't act on their feelings until she was around 16 years old and it was just heavy petting. But then when she is almost 18 years old Silas ups and marries her mother setting off hurt feelings. So their lives are more complicated then before. Lela has a best friend Brax who she also has some feelings for.
This book does end setting us up for the next installment in their story.
Silas is an older man who has been friends of Leia mother and father. But they didn't really see each other until she was about 13 years old. They happen to see each other before they knew who the other was. Silas thought she was almost 17 years old but she was just 13. They didn't act on their feelings until she was around 16 years old and it was just heavy petting. But then when she is almost 18 years old Silas ups and marries her mother setting off hurt feelings. So their lives are more complicated then before. Lela has a best friend Brax who she also has some feelings for.
This book does end setting us up for the next installment in their story.
August 18, 2018
Do you like your emotions to be upheaved when reading a book? Then read this one!
I knew where this book was going, I mean I read the blurb so I tbought Iwas prepared.
Boy was I wrong.
I'm a passive reader.
I like sweet stories.
Tales that don't take me too far out of my comfort zone.
Neat little box stories; wrapped up nice and tight with a big old ribbon at the top.
This book shook my foundations to the core.
I wanted to scream and then shake the main characters until their teeth rattled.
There are no words to accurately describe the magnitude of feelings you experience while reading this book.
Try it and see....
I knew where this book was going, I mean I read the blurb so I tbought Iwas prepared.
Boy was I wrong.
I'm a passive reader.
I like sweet stories.
Tales that don't take me too far out of my comfort zone.
Neat little box stories; wrapped up nice and tight with a big old ribbon at the top.
This book shook my foundations to the core.
I wanted to scream and then shake the main characters until their teeth rattled.
There are no words to accurately describe the magnitude of feelings you experience while reading this book.
Try it and see....
September 7, 2019
What is this?
May 27, 2018
This is so so good. Can I have some more??
This is just what I needed. I’ve read a few dark stories and then a book that made me cried. This was pure brilliant. It’s a hot and sexy read that I absolutely loved.
I love age difference reads as I’m in one myself being sixteen years younger than my partner. This was so good:)
I’m so looking forward to reading book two. I need it Asap
This is just what I needed. I’ve read a few dark stories and then a book that made me cried. This was pure brilliant. It’s a hot and sexy read that I absolutely loved.
I love age difference reads as I’m in one myself being sixteen years younger than my partner. This was so good:)
I’m so looking forward to reading book two. I need it Asap
May 23, 2018
CL Matthews is a new-to-me author and I’m crazy about her style. Firsts is a taboo read that’s meant to push limits, and I loved all the filthy grit. Silas is a fantastic anti-hero that I couldn’t stop urging on. Even when he’s beyond bad, this guy is stunning. Leia didn’t see him coming, and once she did, it was far too late. The angst is off the charts and emotions were yanked out of me.
I didn’t know how to feel during certain scenes. That jumbled blend in my brain makes the journey even better. There were a few points I had to take a breather because the story got so intense. This author pulled out all the stops by building a reality most can’t imagine. It’s so freaking good, you won’t believe it. One-click now!
I didn’t know how to feel during certain scenes. That jumbled blend in my brain makes the journey even better. There were a few points I had to take a breather because the story got so intense. This author pulled out all the stops by building a reality most can’t imagine. It’s so freaking good, you won’t believe it. One-click now!
March 6, 2024
I love taboo romances, and this one has been on my tbr for a few months now, and now I've finally listened to it.
Yes, the taboo aspect is present, and it's fine, stepfather x stepdaughter plus age gap, and all that, that's fine. But it wasn’t even hot cause the story kept TELLING me about how it was taboo, instead of showing me the character's interactions in their everyday life, to SHOW the tabooneess of it all.
So the taboo felt a little bit understated.
And another thing that turned me off was the sleaziness of this book. Some examples are, the way the hero fetishises the heroine's skin... calling it "exotic."
Ew. Who does that still, in the year of our Lord 2024?
Why not just call her beautiful and brown, and move on?
And the whole Brax being bisexual thing and the heroine saying that shell worry because hes into both men and women but at the same time she goes on tangent about how he is "manly" and doesnt match gay stereotypes and doesnt dress well... Huh?
It all felt a little... off.
Also, why is Brax in this book?
Look, i love me a good contender to get some good jealousy scenes, cause I've grown to like those scenes... but this love triangle didn't need to go this deep, or maybe this author didn't have time to flesh it out properly, cause Brax felt out of place.
Why did the author have to ruin this book with these aspects that just turned me off?
The smut scenes had potential but they didn't do it for me...
I get there are 2 other books in this series so that is why so many things were left unanswered, and I will probably listen to them soon, but I needed more of the hero's POV in this... More about his turmoil over this taboo situation he's found himself in...
Also, thanks author for making this short.
Cause i wouldn't be able to take it if it was longer.
The audiobook is around 5 hours i think, and that's a mercy, truly.
Maybe next time, don't call brown skin "exotic." Or talk about how bi men men will probably cheat cause they're bi.....thnx
Yes, the taboo aspect is present, and it's fine, stepfather x stepdaughter plus age gap, and all that, that's fine. But it wasn’t even hot cause the story kept TELLING me about how it was taboo, instead of showing me the character's interactions in their everyday life, to SHOW the tabooneess of it all.
So the taboo felt a little bit understated.
And another thing that turned me off was the sleaziness of this book. Some examples are, the way the hero fetishises the heroine's skin... calling it "exotic."
Ew. Who does that still, in the year of our Lord 2024?
Why not just call her beautiful and brown, and move on?
And the whole Brax being bisexual thing and the heroine saying that shell worry because hes into both men and women but at the same time she goes on tangent about how he is "manly" and doesnt match gay stereotypes and doesnt dress well... Huh?
It all felt a little... off.
Also, why is Brax in this book?
Look, i love me a good contender to get some good jealousy scenes, cause I've grown to like those scenes... but this love triangle didn't need to go this deep, or maybe this author didn't have time to flesh it out properly, cause Brax felt out of place.
Why did the author have to ruin this book with these aspects that just turned me off?
The smut scenes had potential but they didn't do it for me...
I get there are 2 other books in this series so that is why so many things were left unanswered, and I will probably listen to them soon, but I needed more of the hero's POV in this... More about his turmoil over this taboo situation he's found himself in...
Also, thanks author for making this short.
Cause i wouldn't be able to take it if it was longer.
The audiobook is around 5 hours i think, and that's a mercy, truly.
Maybe next time, don't call brown skin "exotic." Or talk about how bi men men will probably cheat cause they're bi.....thnx
November 20, 2018
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The moment I heard about this story I jumped at the chance to read it because it seems that I have been in a forbidden romance mood lately and I am absolutely loving every freaking moment of it. Let me just say that this book was no exception and I quickly found myself captivated by Silas and Leia's intensely addictive attraction. My heart bled for these two and I was in a trance throughout the entire story.
Firsts by C.L. Matthews is one of those stories that you cannot help but LOVE and HATE all at the same time. I loved it because the writing was unbelievably beautiful and the characters spoke to me, but in another sense I hated it for that freaking epic cliffhanger. Yes I have been known to love cliffhangers in the past for the intense angst that I feel anticipating what will happen next, but lately I have been rethinking that stance. My heart is still racing over this story and I cannot even fathom what state it will be in after I finally get to my hands on Lasts. I seriously want to fast-forward to the next book like RIGHT NOW...if you don't believe me just check out below what I was thinking just moments after finishing it!
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OMG...NO...YOU...CAN...NOT...LEAVE...US...HANGING...LIKE...THIS! I cannot wait for the next book in the duet. GIVE IT TO ME NOW! I mean RIGHT NOW!!!
The moment I heard about this story I jumped at the chance to read it because it seems that I have been in a forbidden romance mood lately and I am absolutely loving every freaking moment of it. Let me just say that this book was no exception and I quickly found myself captivated by Silas and Leia's intensely addictive attraction. My heart bled for these two and I was in a trance throughout the entire story.
Firsts by C.L. Matthews is one of those stories that you cannot help but LOVE and HATE all at the same time. I loved it because the writing was unbelievably beautiful and the characters spoke to me, but in another sense I hated it for that freaking epic cliffhanger. Yes I have been known to love cliffhangers in the past for the intense angst that I feel anticipating what will happen next, but lately I have been rethinking that stance. My heart is still racing over this story and I cannot even fathom what state it will be in after I finally get to my hands on Lasts. I seriously want to fast-forward to the next book like RIGHT NOW...if you don't believe me just check out below what I was thinking just moments after finishing it!
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OMG...NO...YOU...CAN...NOT...LEAVE...US...HANGING...LIKE...THIS! I cannot wait for the next book in the duet. GIVE IT TO ME NOW! I mean RIGHT NOW!!!
March 26, 2018
Naughty, naughty.
Silas wants what he shouldn't from first sight, can he resist the taboo when the one person that should be off limits blatantly wants him too. Can he be the bigger man and stay away from the taboo beauty?
Leia has known from her teen years that Sy is the man she wants, but its wrong on so many levels it's illegal. She only has eyes for him, no one her age is visable to her for so long. So when it comes to her V-card will it be dealt to the right person?
Silas wants what he shouldn't from first sight, can he resist the taboo when the one person that should be off limits blatantly wants him too. Can he be the bigger man and stay away from the taboo beauty?
Leia has known from her teen years that Sy is the man she wants, but its wrong on so many levels it's illegal. She only has eyes for him, no one her age is visable to her for so long. So when it comes to her V-card will it be dealt to the right person?
August 18, 2019
UPDATE: July 2019 - Audio Review
I first read Firsts by C.L. Matthews last year and when I heard it was available as an audiobook , I almost tripped all over myself in my eagerness to listen to it.
Holy Smokes , Batman! First in audio format it's an entertaining and rousing listening experience! Lacy Laurel and Aaron Shedlock are the dream couple of narrators.
🎧AudiobookObsession🎧
Hot Taboo
I enjoy reading taboo stories and I when I heard about this book I was intrigued.
Firsts it's a passionate , fast paced and intense story of Leia ; an almost 18 years old and Silas , a 32 years old family friend turned step-dad few weeks before her 18 birthday.
The story it's told in dual POV and it's definitely helps as we experience and feel the heroine youth, inexperienced and struggles; as for the hero, we hear his determination, need to protect and obsession with his girl. It's hinted all throughout the book that, there are things and actions that took place and are developing within Leia's family and close friends that might put her and her mother in danger . The books deals with parents having kids at a very young age, multi-cultural upbringing, parents neglect and a love triangle. Also, this book ends in a cliffhanger.
Overall , this is a solid entertaining read and I am looking forward reading book 2 .
If under 18 years old, have triggers and don't like age gap romance this story is not for you.
I first read Firsts by C.L. Matthews last year and when I heard it was available as an audiobook , I almost tripped all over myself in my eagerness to listen to it.
Holy Smokes , Batman! First in audio format it's an entertaining and rousing listening experience! Lacy Laurel and Aaron Shedlock are the dream couple of narrators.
🎧AudiobookObsession🎧
Hot Taboo
I enjoy reading taboo stories and I when I heard about this book I was intrigued.
Firsts it's a passionate , fast paced and intense story of Leia ; an almost 18 years old and Silas , a 32 years old family friend turned step-dad few weeks before her 18 birthday.
The story it's told in dual POV and it's definitely helps as we experience and feel the heroine youth, inexperienced and struggles; as for the hero, we hear his determination, need to protect and obsession with his girl. It's hinted all throughout the book that, there are things and actions that took place and are developing within Leia's family and close friends that might put her and her mother in danger . The books deals with parents having kids at a very young age, multi-cultural upbringing, parents neglect and a love triangle. Also, this book ends in a cliffhanger.
Overall , this is a solid entertaining read and I am looking forward reading book 2 .
If under 18 years old, have triggers and don't like age gap romance this story is not for you.
May 17, 2018
This author is new to me. I sort of wormed my way to her. I’m totally cool with that. This book, I just can’t. I’m still in shock. That’s how good it is. Taboos are a hit and miss for me, not all storylines can cut it. Let’s face it, some are played out. So I wondered if this was going peak my inner perv. Yep, it did, woke it up. Even my inner perv is torn up, so let’s say this taboo story is definitely not played out nor for the faint of heart. Sooo worth it!
I’m torn between two men. I felt every emotion Leía felt. Although the book doesn’t cover much of her growing up in complete details, I still felt it, her development. Yes, she’s young and at times very naive. Her passion overshadowed that. It overwhelmed me. It consumed me. That’s how you know it’s a hit. I have no words, I’d say no feelings after reading this, but I’d be lying. I have all the feels, that I don’t know what to do with myself. I felt her heart split into two, shit, mine did too.
In the beginning your consumed with Silas. Talk about tall, dark and handsome, swoon. His love is passionate as well and I can also feel it. It’s wronf, it’s dirty, it’s everything. Then you get to Brax and you’re like wtf just happened? I didn’t want to love him, I really didn’t. It felt like I was cheating on Sy, see exactly how Leia felt. Yet I fell for this sweet boy who is all man and there’s no going back.
I’m a little devasted about the cliffhanger. So many questions, so many storylines playing outside the plot. Once I get over my overwhelming chaos of feelings and shock, I’ll be stalking CL for the next book. Off to go eat some of my feelings. Because I’m classy and mature like that!
I’m torn between two men. I felt every emotion Leía felt. Although the book doesn’t cover much of her growing up in complete details, I still felt it, her development. Yes, she’s young and at times very naive. Her passion overshadowed that. It overwhelmed me. It consumed me. That’s how you know it’s a hit. I have no words, I’d say no feelings after reading this, but I’d be lying. I have all the feels, that I don’t know what to do with myself. I felt her heart split into two, shit, mine did too.
In the beginning your consumed with Silas. Talk about tall, dark and handsome, swoon. His love is passionate as well and I can also feel it. It’s wronf, it’s dirty, it’s everything. Then you get to Brax and you’re like wtf just happened? I didn’t want to love him, I really didn’t. It felt like I was cheating on Sy, see exactly how Leia felt. Yet I fell for this sweet boy who is all man and there’s no going back.
I’m a little devasted about the cliffhanger. So many questions, so many storylines playing outside the plot. Once I get over my overwhelming chaos of feelings and shock, I’ll be stalking CL for the next book. Off to go eat some of my feelings. Because I’m classy and mature like that!
April 9, 2018
First off, cliffhanger warning! Gah! Seriously the best kind of torture.
Secondly, onto my actual review.
Silas wants what he can't have. Who, is more appropriate. And Leia wants him too. But this is not your typical Stepdaddy/stepdaughter taboo.
I started this book at the start of my work day, and work was slow, but I did not expect to finish it in one sitting. But I. Could. Not. Stop.
The age gap had me a little worried. While they intrigue me, I do get a bit uncomfortable with some. But C.L. Matthews did a fantastic job at brushing against that line beautifully for me. Her words were raw and real, so realistic. I felt like I was there. I cried when they cried, laughed when they laughed. And, I shit you not, had to leave my desk to hide my mortified face when something happened. I felt it all. And it takes a truly amazing writer to get me to have those kinds of feels for a book.
I could talk about the author's writing all day long. I don't want to talk too much about the story for fear of spoilers (because I absolutely suck at summaries) but if you're into any kind of taboo, then this book is for you.
Secondly, onto my actual review.
Silas wants what he can't have. Who, is more appropriate. And Leia wants him too. But this is not your typical Stepdaddy/stepdaughter taboo.
I started this book at the start of my work day, and work was slow, but I did not expect to finish it in one sitting. But I. Could. Not. Stop.
The age gap had me a little worried. While they intrigue me, I do get a bit uncomfortable with some. But C.L. Matthews did a fantastic job at brushing against that line beautifully for me. Her words were raw and real, so realistic. I felt like I was there. I cried when they cried, laughed when they laughed. And, I shit you not, had to leave my desk to hide my mortified face when something happened. I felt it all. And it takes a truly amazing writer to get me to have those kinds of feels for a book.
I could talk about the author's writing all day long. I don't want to talk too much about the story for fear of spoilers (because I absolutely suck at summaries) but if you're into any kind of taboo, then this book is for you.
May 22, 2018
Firsts.
First heartbreak, first love, first freaking time I yelled at CL Matthews... you get the point.
I literally devoured this book. I’m already a fast reader but nothing could have prepared me for reaching the last page and finding nothing else. CL Matthews took me on a ride from page one until the end with her soul-crushing story, the tears are reforming now. I loved the cultural details she gives us along the way. As a Mexican, I was in awe of her translations and the way they made the story come to life. I will never like a certain person and in my rants I made sure that CL knew just what I thought.
If you want to feel love, innocence, madness, heart racing excitement then this is your book.
First heartbreak, first love, first freaking time I yelled at CL Matthews... you get the point.
I literally devoured this book. I’m already a fast reader but nothing could have prepared me for reaching the last page and finding nothing else. CL Matthews took me on a ride from page one until the end with her soul-crushing story, the tears are reforming now. I loved the cultural details she gives us along the way. As a Mexican, I was in awe of her translations and the way they made the story come to life. I will never like a certain person and in my rants I made sure that CL knew just what I thought.
If you want to feel love, innocence, madness, heart racing excitement then this is your book.
May 21, 2018
4.5 taboo stars
"I love firsts. First kisses, first touches, first orgasms, and the first words after."
First of all, I need to collect my jaw off the floor because I am in a state of shock after reading Firsts. When I started reading it, I never would have thought that both my heart and soul would be tangled so deeply. That I would bleed for this book. That my inside would strung up so high. I inhaled Firsts like a drug. I let it eviscerate every cell of me. Firsts utterly devastated me. Wow, to think it is from a new to me author. C.L. Matthews truly woke me up. I am utterly adored Firsts. Every word sunk so deeply in my veins and crept into bloodstream. I just wanted more. C.L. Matthews wrote Firsts so brilliantly and I am so stocked that I discovered her and her books.
Firsts is a sexy read. It is a diverse read with beautiful characters and a sensual storyline that will hold your heart. I fell in love with the plot. This story smelled of complication and desire. It smelled of deep love and angst. It smelled of a romance that will tear you apart. First was a catalyst. Firsts was a nerve. Firsts was a mark. I felt it in my soul. I felt it my heart. I felt it in my bones. Dirty. Sultry. Rocking. Taboo. Firsts was a forbidden romance with a phenomenal story that melted me. C.L. Matthews gave me a well written and a risky romance that I could get enough of. It was a quick read but I smiled so hard because First truly exploded into my life. This book absolutely told me, "I am here and I am going to ruin you." Boy, did it ruin me. Firsts is more than a taboo romance. It is a story of finding yourself. It is a story of young love which might seem to wrong but it is so right. First was truly an amazing read.
My gosh, the characters are just stunning, I loved Leia. This girl is so young but she has faced the world - the good and the ugly. She is strong and just damn beautiful. Mature for her age, she was a girl who wanted to help people and love people with her heart.. You will meet two men in her life that will split. First Sy, who is dangerous, sexy and my caliente. He was dominant and just made my ovaries dance to a sexy tune. LOL. But I hated him and probably I will until I am convinced he is good enough for Leia. Then there is Brax. Sweet, supportive, genuine and a best friend for Leia. I love him and I am rooting for him. Sorry, I guess I am #TeamBrax.
Firsts came with guns blazing. This book will melt and set fire to your kindle. Seriously, I need more. Of course with the ending that makes me all kinds of angry. Come on C.L. Mathhews, get to writing.
ARC provided by author in exchange for an honest review.
"I love firsts. First kisses, first touches, first orgasms, and the first words after."
First of all, I need to collect my jaw off the floor because I am in a state of shock after reading Firsts. When I started reading it, I never would have thought that both my heart and soul would be tangled so deeply. That I would bleed for this book. That my inside would strung up so high. I inhaled Firsts like a drug. I let it eviscerate every cell of me. Firsts utterly devastated me. Wow, to think it is from a new to me author. C.L. Matthews truly woke me up. I am utterly adored Firsts. Every word sunk so deeply in my veins and crept into bloodstream. I just wanted more. C.L. Matthews wrote Firsts so brilliantly and I am so stocked that I discovered her and her books.
Firsts is a sexy read. It is a diverse read with beautiful characters and a sensual storyline that will hold your heart. I fell in love with the plot. This story smelled of complication and desire. It smelled of deep love and angst. It smelled of a romance that will tear you apart. First was a catalyst. Firsts was a nerve. Firsts was a mark. I felt it in my soul. I felt it my heart. I felt it in my bones. Dirty. Sultry. Rocking. Taboo. Firsts was a forbidden romance with a phenomenal story that melted me. C.L. Matthews gave me a well written and a risky romance that I could get enough of. It was a quick read but I smiled so hard because First truly exploded into my life. This book absolutely told me, "I am here and I am going to ruin you." Boy, did it ruin me. Firsts is more than a taboo romance. It is a story of finding yourself. It is a story of young love which might seem to wrong but it is so right. First was truly an amazing read.
My gosh, the characters are just stunning, I loved Leia. This girl is so young but she has faced the world - the good and the ugly. She is strong and just damn beautiful. Mature for her age, she was a girl who wanted to help people and love people with her heart.. You will meet two men in her life that will split. First Sy, who is dangerous, sexy and my caliente. He was dominant and just made my ovaries dance to a sexy tune. LOL. But I hated him and probably I will until I am convinced he is good enough for Leia. Then there is Brax. Sweet, supportive, genuine and a best friend for Leia. I love him and I am rooting for him. Sorry, I guess I am #TeamBrax.
Firsts came with guns blazing. This book will melt and set fire to your kindle. Seriously, I need more. Of course with the ending that makes me all kinds of angry. Come on C.L. Mathhews, get to writing.
ARC provided by author in exchange for an honest review.
May 21, 2018
Do you have a guilty pleasure, I do and it's age gap stories and this fits very neatly into this genre. I've never read this author before and I am myself why not? You can be sure I'm going to be checking out her other work.
Silas is a mysterious enigmatic man, he's the type of man who sees something he wants and just takes it. Leia is the very young daughter of life long friends she's forbidden on so many levels.
It's inevitable with these types of books that you'll pick a side but the author throws a curveball into the story and the sides become harder to pick. I loved Leia she's what I would call an old soul, she's mature for her age. Growing up is hard enough without all the conflicting feelings she has for Silas.
This isn't a typical age gap story there is an undercurrent of mystery running throughout regarding Leia's family and where Silas fits into it all.
I'm looking forward to book two.
reviewed by Sweet Spot Sisterhood
Silas is a mysterious enigmatic man, he's the type of man who sees something he wants and just takes it. Leia is the very young daughter of life long friends she's forbidden on so many levels.
It's inevitable with these types of books that you'll pick a side but the author throws a curveball into the story and the sides become harder to pick. I loved Leia she's what I would call an old soul, she's mature for her age. Growing up is hard enough without all the conflicting feelings she has for Silas.
This isn't a typical age gap story there is an undercurrent of mystery running throughout regarding Leia's family and where Silas fits into it all.
I'm looking forward to book two.
reviewed by Sweet Spot Sisterhood
April 24, 2018
Well now, this was my first read by CL Matthews and she's captured my attention. I'm looking forward to where this story leads because I'll indeed be one clicking the next one. A naughty, sexy, little read that will leave you squirming just a smidge while the two main characters get to know each other. There's a certain depth to the female character that took me back to being younger and having a crush on an older guy, the forbidden, taboo. You know, butterflies in your stomach and all that? Yeah, this book gives you those feelings and so much more!
If you like an age gap, taboo, sexy read of all the FIRSTS we all experienced, then one click this beauty!
If you like an age gap, taboo, sexy read of all the FIRSTS we all experienced, then one click this beauty!
May 22, 2018
It took me a bit to collect my thoughts after this rollercoaster. Holy mother of cliffhangers, first of all. This book left me feeling so many emotions but mostly angry and anxious for what comes next.
Everything that went down in this story was unexpected. And the level of dirty- oh my. Dirty never felt so good.
I don’t know how to write this without giving anything away. C.L. Matthews has such a way with words that made the story flow.
I’m going to be wringing my hands and biting my nails until Lasts is released.
Damn this book. Team Sy all day.
Everything that went down in this story was unexpected. And the level of dirty- oh my. Dirty never felt so good.
I don’t know how to write this without giving anything away. C.L. Matthews has such a way with words that made the story flow.
I’m going to be wringing my hands and biting my nails until Lasts is released.
Damn this book. Team Sy all day.
anfm
January 26, 2019Motherfucking note to self!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just when I thought I'd seen the worst in this world of fiction,someone pops up with something that's below the bottom of the barrel. I get taboo or even age gaps but the stepfather of a thirteen year old girl being attracted to that child and then later being with that child is just plain fucked up! There are millions of these cases in real life......we just call it sexual abuse or paedophilia!!!!!!! Not just no but oh fuck no!
Just when I thought I'd seen the worst in this world of fiction,someone pops up with something that's below the bottom of the barrel. I get taboo or even age gaps but the stepfather of a thirteen year old girl being attracted to that child and then later being with that child is just plain fucked up! There are millions of these cases in real life......we just call it sexual abuse or paedophilia!!!!!!! Not just no but oh fuck no!
April 12, 2018
What a ride that was! I went back and forth with Sy and Brax. This was one of the hottest books I’ve read in a long time. I can’t wait for the 2nd book. ❤️❤️
May 23, 2018
Do you know what I love? Books that have you going in with a particular mindset, a particular guy I'm going to love, a particular storyline that will play out. But then BAM! You end up with the surprise of your life, you get twitchy and frustrated and end up falling in love for the underdog (#TEAMBRAX). I have no words for this story. But any author that can have me obsessing over one guy going in and then have me change my mind by the end is a genius in my book. I don't know how that's possible when I absolutely LOVE alpha assholes, but this guy takes the cup & put me off and I guess that's why I leaned towards the underdog (#TEAMBRAX).
This is quite unlike any forbidden love story I've ever read. It's grappling, it's intense, it's oh so sexy and hot, and it blew my mind. I thought I knew what to expect when I went in, but there is so much mystery, heartache & confusion, I literally did not know which was up. There are so many unanswered questions which I need answered NOW because my mind is just gonna go into overdrive trying to figure everything out.
If you haven't already figured by now, I'm all for Team Brax and despite having loved Sy in the beginning, he needs to get his shit together. And don't even get me started on how I feel about Leia right now *cue eye roll*
Grab your copy of this book and read the story that has the entire book community torn in two. Such a hot read, I can't wait for Lasts.
This is quite unlike any forbidden love story I've ever read. It's grappling, it's intense, it's oh so sexy and hot, and it blew my mind. I thought I knew what to expect when I went in, but there is so much mystery, heartache & confusion, I literally did not know which was up. There are so many unanswered questions which I need answered NOW because my mind is just gonna go into overdrive trying to figure everything out.
If you haven't already figured by now, I'm all for Team Brax and despite having loved Sy in the beginning, he needs to get his shit together. And don't even get me started on how I feel about Leia right now *cue eye roll*
Grab your copy of this book and read the story that has the entire book community torn in two. Such a hot read, I can't wait for Lasts.
May 28, 2018
-Megan, 4 stars
Firsts is a filthy taboo story in the best way. It’s the story of Silas’s obsession that starts when Leia is only 13. What’s worse to Silas, is she’s his on-again, off-again friend’s daughter.
Silas sees Leia for the first time at a bus stop and is instantly attracted to her. Imagine his shock & surprise when he shows up at Xo’s house and finds out his instant obsession is with her daughter, Leia. He’s convinced that the girl is at least 17. When he finds out she’s only 13, he tries to lock down his feelings but is unsuccessful.
Leia is equally obsessed with Silas. The two are magnetically bound to one another. They couldn’t stay away from each other if they tried. One passionate collision together when she’s sixteen only fuels the fire that burns brightly between them. But will it be extinguished when Silas ends up marrying Leia’s mother? Or will it only make the inferno burn hotter between them? What happens when Leia’s friend Brax shows his true feelings to her? Will Silas give her up? Has Leia finally moved on from her obsession with Silas?
C.L. Matthews has written a scorching, taboo story that is simply delicious. I can’t wait to find out what happens with Silas & Leia.
Firsts is a filthy taboo story in the best way. It’s the story of Silas’s obsession that starts when Leia is only 13. What’s worse to Silas, is she’s his on-again, off-again friend’s daughter.
Silas sees Leia for the first time at a bus stop and is instantly attracted to her. Imagine his shock & surprise when he shows up at Xo’s house and finds out his instant obsession is with her daughter, Leia. He’s convinced that the girl is at least 17. When he finds out she’s only 13, he tries to lock down his feelings but is unsuccessful.
Leia is equally obsessed with Silas. The two are magnetically bound to one another. They couldn’t stay away from each other if they tried. One passionate collision together when she’s sixteen only fuels the fire that burns brightly between them. But will it be extinguished when Silas ends up marrying Leia’s mother? Or will it only make the inferno burn hotter between them? What happens when Leia’s friend Brax shows his true feelings to her? Will Silas give her up? Has Leia finally moved on from her obsession with Silas?
C.L. Matthews has written a scorching, taboo story that is simply delicious. I can’t wait to find out what happens with Silas & Leia.
May 16, 2018
ATTENTION: Don't read this book in public. You will develop sexual symptoms.
Man.... Silas "Sy" is hot.... Like damn.... He will burn you. But trust you me the burn will be worth it. I love taboo. I love forbidden. I love age gaps. This author was able to check off each and every box.
The sexual tension between Sy and Leia is off the charts. They have a good back and forth. One tries to push and the other one pulls. I know there might be a few readers out who are Team Brax but I'm Team Sy all the way. I keep thinking to myself Braxton who.
The ending.... The ending had me like whoa and hot damn... I was fanning myself and looking for some water. I can't wait for the next installment. I will be stalking this author for info.
Man.... Silas "Sy" is hot.... Like damn.... He will burn you. But trust you me the burn will be worth it. I love taboo. I love forbidden. I love age gaps. This author was able to check off each and every box.
The sexual tension between Sy and Leia is off the charts. They have a good back and forth. One tries to push and the other one pulls. I know there might be a few readers out who are Team Brax but I'm Team Sy all the way. I keep thinking to myself Braxton who.
The ending.... The ending had me like whoa and hot damn... I was fanning myself and looking for some water. I can't wait for the next installment. I will be stalking this author for info.
July 25, 2018
I wasn't sure what to expect when I dived into this book because its was my first forbidden love/taboo romance. C. L. Matthew's surely blew my mind and my expectations out of the water. There was so much angst, tension and lust that it worked out perfectly. I can't see wait to see what happens next. The cover was beautiful and I absolutely loved that the first page out of every chapter was a black charcoal color. If you want a angsty and forbidden romance check this one out.
May 10, 2018
Firsts left me all hot and bothered; hot because of the filthy, steamy scenes, and bothered because at the end, I wasn’t sure what I wanted for each main character. I am torn, to say the least.
In an age gap, taboo or forbidden romance, I typically look for the inner struggles and the characters’ rationalization of the relationship. The older one in the relationship must impress me to win me over. This person is supposedly the more mature one in the equation; the one with experience, who knows better than to be attracted to the much younger girl or guy, what more act upon the attraction.
So, did Sy, the stepfather, win me over? Do I want to care about his interests in this? Let’s just say he’s not quite there yet but he’s doing a lot better than I thought he could. Sy is a magnetic alpha; his presence consumes Leia and their exchanges are heated. He is a dominant force; he invades her senses like no other. I’m glad the story is also told from Sy’s point of view as his thoughts and feelings help me form, or rather, change, my opinions of him.
Leia..oh where do I start? She met Sy at a young, impressionable age. Her beauty and innocence are her weapons, albeit this started quite unwittingly. Leia’s self-awareness changed over time; I believe her family dynamics contributed a lot to her formative years, and that Sy “lucked out” as he met Leia during this time. I felt that Sy took advantage of this and ran with it.
Firsts definitely whetted my appetite for forbidden romances and I cannot wait for the conclusion to this compelling story.
*Thank you to the author for providing an ARC.
In an age gap, taboo or forbidden romance, I typically look for the inner struggles and the characters’ rationalization of the relationship. The older one in the relationship must impress me to win me over. This person is supposedly the more mature one in the equation; the one with experience, who knows better than to be attracted to the much younger girl or guy, what more act upon the attraction.
So, did Sy, the stepfather, win me over? Do I want to care about his interests in this? Let’s just say he’s not quite there yet but he’s doing a lot better than I thought he could. Sy is a magnetic alpha; his presence consumes Leia and their exchanges are heated. He is a dominant force; he invades her senses like no other. I’m glad the story is also told from Sy’s point of view as his thoughts and feelings help me form, or rather, change, my opinions of him.
Leia..oh where do I start? She met Sy at a young, impressionable age. Her beauty and innocence are her weapons, albeit this started quite unwittingly. Leia’s self-awareness changed over time; I believe her family dynamics contributed a lot to her formative years, and that Sy “lucked out” as he met Leia during this time. I felt that Sy took advantage of this and ran with it.
Firsts definitely whetted my appetite for forbidden romances and I cannot wait for the conclusion to this compelling story.
*Thank you to the author for providing an ARC.
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