This was a bookclub read for me. Reading the synopsis of the book, I might have been intrigued to read it for recreational purposes, but seeing that I knew nothing of Ms. Dorothy Butler Gilliam, I may not have picked this book to read on my own.
Ms. Dorothy Butler Gilliam was the "first black woman" to be hired by the Washington Post in 1961. During that time, the country was divided tumultuously between blacks and whites. African Americans at that time were living in the Jim Crow "separate but equal" days. Segregation was everywhere, and Blacks could not vote freely or without discrimination. Being the "first Black" to do anything was exceptionally historical, and it allowed other Blacks to be able to follow in the footsteps of that first Black. Understanding that significance of being the first Black journalist for a white newspaper is significant.
I was ready and interested in learning all about this integration of Ms. Gilliam's opportunity to be the first Black woman as a journalist for Washington Post. The beginning of her book in her section 'Coming to the Washington Post 1961' was enthralling. I couldn't imagine being the first Black person or woman trying to integrate something. Doing so takes a great deal of courage, tenacity, bravery, and patience when dealing with the racial tensions during that time. You have to remember, Black people were highly discriminated against, dogs were attacking them for voting, water hoses were used on them for trying to eat dinner in the same place as a white person. Any form of fighting for equality met African Americans with staunch resistance and violence. Ms. Gilliam talks about not being able to eat in the same restaurants as her coworkers. She discusses how she was unable to catch cabs to get to appointments to write her reports or conduct interviews. Learning how she navigated to get around those obstacles intrigued me. I was rooting for her success.
Those first 120 pages were quite impressive! Unfortunately, the rest of the book kind of fizzles out from there. She tells and retells parts of her life in multiple sections of the book. The timeline isn't all the way linear, and you can easily get lost as to her chronology that she's telling her story in. The writing is very difficult to get used to. I can see her reporting style of writing in this memoir, but as a reader I don't want to read a report, nor do I want to feel as if I'm reading a history book. Yet here I was struggling to digest all of her information she shared with her audience. It seems that there are large sections of the book where it seems like this is almost a self-righteous brag book, all while name-dropping and ensuring her readers that she knows people. I felt disconnected in many places because these people that she listed, I just don't know or have the curiosity to know. I wanted to know about her and how she was a pioneer as the first black woman and what her experiences were, but I had little to no interest in the people she was determined to list in her book.
There are sections and sentences in her book that are contradictory. For example, on the first page she talks about how conservative she was... asking that more be done for people of color, but later in the book she's almost reprimanded for being so liberal. She also talked about her project of getting more youth of diverse backgrounds interested in a career path of journalism. She talks about how a friend of hers introduced her to a concept program and gave very appealing information that would help her bring more young people into a career of writing and journalism. However, she was hesitant and slow on deciding. Yet, later on she writes how quickly she came to that decision, as if she was just waiting for an opportunity to come along. She also talks one way with the reader, but if she has to write something about that same subject, she gives it a better appeal and makes it to sound as if it was a great idea.
There were a couple of instances in which I thought to myself that I believe Washington Post just kept her on as a writer because of her historical accomplishment of being the first Black woman. Although she may have been good with reporting and her journalistic style, it sounds as if she was a timid/shy woman who didn't stand up to aggression easy, which may have been one of the key reasons as to why she was hired in the first place. I had a hard time with her stand on criticizing The Oprah Winfrey Show because a local show was cancelled. Here, Ms. Gilliam lost me because she was supposed to be an advocate for successful women of color, and here is one making national syndicated news, and she didn't like that. I was baffled!
After awhile I was counting down to when I would be done with the book. The ending was really not my style and was full of name dropping and accomplishments with them. It was reporting heavy, and not an easy style to keep readers engaged. While I loved her story of integrating on the behalf of Black Women, I didn't care for the huge emphasis she placed on others' accomplishments.
The ending of the book dropped this rating down to a 3. Sorry! I know our stories are important as women of color, I just cannot recommend this book to others knowing how I feel about this feeling.