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I'm Still Here

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Still haunted by her brother’s disappearance and the high profile murder trial that gripped the nation, New York homicide detective, Kara Walker deals with survivor’s guilt by tracking down killers. But as the anniversary of her brothers abduction approaches, Kara receives news of her mother’s death and is drawn back to her rural hometown in the Olympic Peninsula to tie up loose ends. She soon makes a shocking discovery that brings into question the facts surrounding her brother’s case, her mother’s obsession, and the man who pled not guilty.


In a race against time to find the real killer, Kara must risk losing her mind, jeopardize the safety of those close and face her darkest fear, all to answer the question — who is truly innocent?


Full of twists and turns that keep you guessing, I’m Still Here delivers a captivating mystery thriller that forces you to question how far you would go to solve the disappearance of a loved one.

401 pages, Kindle Edition

Published May 21, 2018

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Jon Mills

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International Bestselling Author Jon Mills is from the UK but resides in Canada. He's had multiple titles hit #1 in Police Procedural, Mystery and Thrillers, Pulp Thrillers, Kidnapping, and Heist Thrillers. His work includes the Jack Winchester thrillers, 50 States of Murder thrillers, I'm Still Here, the Undisclosed trilogy and The Promise. In addition to this he has numerous books published under different pen names that cater to different genres. His latest is called Lost Girls: The Maine Murders (50 States of Murder)

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Profile Image for Wiseask.
169 reviews17 followers
July 26, 2021
I tend to be suspicious of self-promoting books which gratuitously claim to be “a gripping thriller with a shocking twist,” as this book does on its cover. I almost always find myself disappointed at the end. I am doubly suspicious of any author who can’t write a thriller in 300 pages or thereabouts. Too many authors in my opinion equate and confuse a high word count with a quality work product.

For example, we do not need to know that when the book’s principal character orders a beer in a bar, “Some of the foam from the top dripped down the side creating a circle of condensation around the bottom.” Sentences like this add to the word count but are irrelevant to every aspect of the story. Add enough of them and an author’s book easily becomes bloated. Like this book is at 400 pages.

As for the story, Kara Walker, now age 39, is a criminal investigator with the New York State Police. She receives a call from her father to come home for the funeral of her mother, who’s committed suicide.

Twenty-five years ago at age 14, Kara, her younger brother Charlie, age 12, and two of their boyfriends were taking a shortcut through some woods on Halloween night near their home in Washington state. They were accosted in the woods by a large man who abducted Charlie at knifepoint, prompting the other three to run for their lives.

Charlie’s body was never found but he was presumed murdered. Years later, a local man named Kyle Harris was arrested for Charlie’s murder, found guilty and sentenced to life in prison, all the while proclaiming his innocence. Kara’s and Charlie’s mother never believed Kyle was guilty and continued her obsessive search for Charlie’s abductor.

The first mystery to unravel is why would their mother kill herself if she was devoted to finding both Charlie and his abductor. The second mystery is to discover who was guilty of taking Charlie if Kyle Harris was innocent. The third mystery is to figure out how Kyle Harris could have ever been convicted of murder if Charlie’s body was never found. To the author’s credit, all three questions are answered.

But only if you read this book in a bathtub filled with water while gripping a live electric wire (not seriously recommended) will you find it Shocking as advertised. You will also find the book nothing more than a conventional, paint-by-numbers police procedural deceptively advertised and attempting to masquerade as a Thriller.

Thus, until her death, Kara’s mother played amateur sleuth, and afterwards Kara, an actual detective, went on to play professional sleuth, even though in Washington state she was entirely outside her jurisdiction and authority. Expect to plod through 400 largely thrill-less pages of what seems like an endless list of suspects to finally discover whodunnit.

The problem is that you will not be shocked by whodunnit, as advertised, and if you were paying enough attention, you won’t even be surprised.
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1,900 reviews33 followers
November 30, 2020
A good book, good story, good dialogue.

Would have made more sense at the end if Kara had spoken to her father about what happened to her mom and brother.

Felt like the first in a series rather than a stand alone.
Profile Image for Emily.
950 reviews56 followers
August 14, 2020
I guess I am in the minority on this one, seeing all the five-star reviews, but for some reason, it just didn't engage me the way this type of murder mystery/thriller usually does. It started off interesting but seemed to drag on too long, with too many different characters thrown in the mix, I guess to throw us off the track of the real kidnapper/killer. I actually guessed who the killer was about mid-way, and I don't usually.

I think I would have enjoyed this book more if it had been better copy-edited and proofread. There were too many missing commas for me to overlook. And in one instance, Kara received a text...but someone else had her phone, so how did she receive the text? Little things like that always bug me. I just didn't think it was very well-written. There were also a couple of loose ends I didn't think were tied up regarding planted evidence.

This was a free Kindle book, so I am not complaining. But it was just average for me.
Profile Image for ꕥ Ange_Lives_To_Read ꕥ.
886 reviews
April 1, 2022
This was a perfectly serviceable thriller. The subject matter of child abduction is difficult for me, but this didn't veer into any lurid detail, and I think did a good job of conveying the devastation such crimes wreak on entire families and communities. I never considered DNF'ing because I wanted to find out what happened; but the pace was uneven and there were too many characters to keep track of and I was sometimes confused.
Profile Image for lusty22.
420 reviews3 followers
November 6, 2020
This was a hard one for me to finish. I'm not sure why, but it just didn't catch me. I couldn't stand anyone in it for one thing. It shouldn't matter, but in this case it did. Kara was cold, rude, brash and someone I could not relate to. Her dad was just as awful. Noah was terrible too. I knew who the killer was early on. I had to push myself to finish it. I didn't understand why kara's dad treated her so badly. He was hateful! None of the way people acted made sense to me. The mystery was ok, but not earth shattering. There were so many suspects I lost track, but i didnt really care. I just needed to finish. I skimmed a lot. Plus the author left loose ends. He doesn't even tell us about the evidence found at Kyle's. Three stars is generous.
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1,838 reviews9 followers
January 10, 2020
Kara hasn't been to her home time in a long time but when her father needs her after her mother passes, she knows she needs to go back to the place where her brother disappeared and face up to things. While there, there's a string of abductions and Kara is pulled in to help with the case. This leads to Kara searching through her mothers things and what she finds will reveal something that shocks even her.

While this wasn't as shocking as I hoped, as I had figured out things already, it was still a solid mystery that I thoroughly enjoyed. I liked Kara and was rooting for her. She was a strong character and I'd love to see more books about her. The plot was fairly fast paced and held my attention till the end. The characters were well fleshed out and the the story was suspenseful, so overall, a good read.

Jennifer Groberg read this well and had a good variety of tones and voices.

I was given this audiobook at my request and have voluntarily left this review. This in no way affected nor influenced my thoughts.
Profile Image for Kristina Rasmussen.
220 reviews3 followers
February 27, 2021
This storyline really intrigued me. I wanted to keep reading and got sucked in. My big issue, was a few unsavory characters. I think that comes with the territory of investigating a kidnapping, but it was just difficult for me to read. Not my thing. I did really like how it all worked out however.
1,453 reviews23 followers
August 2, 2020
Thrills and Chills from Beginning to End

This is the first book by Jon Mills that I have read and it won't be the last. I could not put this book down once I started reading it. The main character, Kara Walker, is a New York detective who doesn't believe in giving up until the case is solved. The book starts with a 14 year old Kara running away with two friends after a masked man grabs her brother and threatens to kill him if they turn around and do not run away. Twenty-five years later, she is called home when her Mother commits suicide. She finds out her Mother has continued to search for her brother's kidnapper even though a man was convicted twenty years ago and the case was closed. Kara teams up with a local detective, Noah Coleman. The suspects keep turning up but the actual kidnapper is a twist and a shocker when his identity is revealed. Is Kara ' s brother still alive when the kidnapper is revealed? You will have to read the book to find out. I highly recommend this book for thrills and chills.
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412 reviews4 followers
August 7, 2021
This was a very decent slow grind of a thriller. The characters are so easy to understand and the story flows really well into itself. You are given a dribble of information at a time pertaining to the past, and that will be important for you to take with you throughout the story. Of course in the end all reveals itself and everything becomes clear but to watch the struggle through the story is something. The books is super well written and very very cohesive. There are no extraneous characters or scenes. An excellent thriller if you ask me.
Profile Image for Joan Hall.
Author 14 books57 followers
August 15, 2021
I discovered I’m Still Here when it was on sale. Although the author was unfamiliar to me, I decided to give it a try.

Kara Walker is a criminal investigator with the New York State Police. When her father calls to say her mother died by suicide, Kara returns to Washington state for the funeral.

Twenty-five years earlier, her brother Charlie was kidnapped on Halloween night. Kara and a couple of friends witnessed the incident but were unable to identify the kidnapper. Charlie’s body was never found and the incident all but destroyed her family. A man was convicted and sent to prison, but he claimed he was innocent.

Anna Walker refused to put the incident behind her. She searched, investigated, kept records, and went to investigators numerous times. Many people believed she was mentally unstable—the grieving mother who couldn’t accept the truth.

After the funeral, Kara begins to look through her mother’s research. Four other boys were also kidnapped, each five years apart, all on Halloween night. Kara believes there is a connection. With the help of Detective Noah Goodman and a retired FBI agent, Kara begins to investigate. If history repeats itself another young boy will be kidnapped on Halloween and there are only a few days to solve the case.

I was a bit skeptical when I saw the book was around 400 pages as I dislike rambling. The book had a lot of characters and at times, I had a hard time keeping up. While there were some parts that could be cut, the story held my interest. I did believe I’d figured out the perp about halfway through, but with the cast of characters and “clues” pointing to others, I had all but forgotten when the truth was revealed.

Three and a half stars for this one rounded up to four for review purposes.
Profile Image for Ted Duke.
205 reviews3 followers
November 4, 2020
A little implausible at times, but who knows what really goes on in police work? At what point do YOU realize who the REALLY bad guy is, or are you wrong, it's probably the other guy, or may not. Might be the other one or someone else.

Get the point? Good read. Great characters, some you will like, some you won't and great setting.

Worth the read!
256 reviews
August 11, 2020
Good read

The story is intense. The pace is fast. The characters are likable. Somehow the ending is predictable. Guess the the author’s feelings about his character gives away his plot.
Profile Image for Heather Doughty.
465 reviews11 followers
October 1, 2020
What a great story! I really enjoyed the plot. It was rich with history, drama from past and present, and potential villain characters. Kara is believable as a complicated police detective who wants to solve everything that comes her way. Her relationship with her parents was a great way to build the story. Noah is also a great character, and I would have enjoyed getting to know him better. I think what I enjoyed most was Kara going through her mother's thought process and interviewing prominent people from the past. There are some really great characters in this book (despicable as some may be).

Even though I figured out the "who dunnit" fairly early on, I enjoyed reading how Kara got to the big reveal. The killer made sense.

A few things that I didn't like:

1. There are only a few chapters/sections told from Noah's perspective. This inconsistency doesn't make sense. Either do it fairly evenly or just don't.

2. There were a few details with no follow-up. Who drove the truck at the graveside service? Why did Matt grimace at it? In the end, was the custody agreement change?

3. I would have liked more in-depth discussion concerning Kara's reluctance to be present for her son.

I am interested in reading more from this author.
Profile Image for Nan Watson .
12 reviews
October 23, 2020
Couldn't put it down

As always the author keeps you captivated from the first page. Thoroughly enjoyed this book, well worth taking the time to read.
6 reviews
August 6, 2020
Good novel

Fast paced excitement. Couldn't put the book down. Enjoyed getting to know the characters and the adventures they faced. Would recommend for a good summer reading story.
Profile Image for Dee Cash.
566 reviews2 followers
August 2, 2020
A Good Writer

Jon Mills is a good writer of thrillers. He just needs a good proofreader. I think that would be a good job for me. I'm Still Here is a really good book and if you haven't read Lost Girls you should try that one as well.
Profile Image for Bryan.
122 reviews11 followers
December 16, 2020
A good thriller

I'm picky about thrillers, especially containing an ex cop or a rogue cop with an agenda, it's very cliché but I'm glad i tried this one.
I did have an idea about the outcome about halfway through and i was right but i was still happy with the ending
Few small things bothered me, lots of "sideways glance" or "pinching bridge of nose" I though about making a note every time I saw these but didn't
Overall. Good book and I'll look for more by Jon Mills


Profile Image for Linda.
1,081 reviews43 followers
August 21, 2020
Good Read

Another whodunit by Mr. Mills that kept me guessing until the last page of the book. I sort of thought I might have solved the mystery about three quarters through the book, but the author deftly turned my attention another way. Kara Walker, Detective/ Investigator, is pretty in appearance and in her heart, but she is a tenacious and fearless law woman! She struggles with her own demons, but the struggles make her better at her job. She and her ex husband share custody of their son, and they all live in New York. After solving a big case while attending her mother's funeral in Washington state, she leaves New York for a job in Washington. I wonder how that shared custody is going to work.

The author's writing mechanics were good. A few errors appeared to be computer generated.

Thank you, Mr. Mills, for a good read.
634 reviews4 followers
July 18, 2020
I liked the beginning of this book. I liked Kara and the story line was interesting. Her brother, Charlie was abducted 25 years ago when they were kids. A local man, Kyle Harris, was arrested and charged with Charlie's murder, although they never find Charlie's body. Time goes on, Kara goes to college, then moves to New York. She doesn't come back much to her home town. Then Kara's mom passes away. Kara goes home for the funeral and to help her dad. She discovers her Mom was investigating the abduction of some other boys she thinks is related to Charlie's abduction. She did not believe Kyle Harris was responsible. We meet Noah a investigator who Anna was also taking to, trying to get help. We meet a lot of other characters too. Sam and Bobby, Kara and Charlie's childhood friends. Lloyd Benson, the therapist Kara's whole family sees after the abduction. Kara's uncle and aunt, who stepped in to help care for the family after the abduction.

Kara starts to doubt that Kyle is responsible too after going through all her Mom's information she has collected over the years. All good up until this point, then the story becomes quite unbelievable.
Sam does some investigating on his own and gets himself in a totally ridiculous situation. And, the story goes down from there. There are a lot of people, and I suspected all of them at one time.
Profile Image for Katherine Adams.
61 reviews
November 6, 2018
Great storytelling

In I’m Still Here, Jon Mills does a wonderful job at creating suspense, tension, and atmosphere. The characters are fleshed out well, with good background information on most of them that enables the reader to understand their motivations. Now, the shocking twist wasn’t so shocking to me because I figured it out at page 132, but it did not take away from my enjoyment of the story by any means. I look forward to reading more by this author.
12 reviews
August 18, 2020
Well, I read the whole book (so that says something). There were many twists and turns in the book to keep it interesting. I thought there were too many characters to try and keep track of and there were quite a few errors in the proofreading. This , however, can be overlooked. The subject matter and the story were excellent.

I will be reading more of Jon's books.
Profile Image for Siesta.
407 reviews1 follower
September 10, 2021
Disappointing. I liked the premise but as I read I was increasingly disengaged from the characters and plot.
Kara Walker’s life was shattered in her early teens with the abduction of her younger brother. Her parents deal with the tragedy each in their own way, with her mother obsessed with finding out the truth and her father turning inward with the bottle, and both seemingly forgetting they still had one child. Kara spends more time with her Uncle and Aunt than at home, eventually going into law enforcement, though on the other side of the country. There she builds a career and a new family while barely connecting anymore with her parents. Her mother’s death brings her reluctantly back home, and slowly, she starts to follow up on her mother’s research.
While clearly a family riven with disfunction following the trauma of Charlie’s abduction, I didn’t buy into the lack of contact between Kara and her mother in all those years apart. There was so little depth given to Kara’s new family that I wondered why they were even part of the story. Oh, and I guessed the ending by a third of the way through.
I did like the Kara-Noah dynamic, and I found the dialogue very natural. In the end though, the story got too disjointed and unrealistic, and I was skipping through to get to the last pages.
Profile Image for Natelle.
678 reviews3 followers
March 11, 2021
Kara Walker witnessed her brother’s abduction twenty-five years ago. Her family never saw him again. In the intervening years, Kara has chosen a life in law enforcement and moved across the country. Now her mother’s death summons her back. Soon she finds herself chasing theories about her brother’s disappearance. Did the man get who had been in prison for two decades have anything to do with it? What about the three men her mother was still looking into when she died? What other secrets will she uncover?
I guessed who was responsible upon their first introduction, but other characters were equally unlikable, so I kept reading to make sure. The characters seemed to communicate with a lot of head nods and tilts of the chin. I would have liked a variety of nonverbal cues. Otherwise, I found this a quick and entertaining read.
Profile Image for Lyn.
27 reviews3 followers
August 13, 2020
Overall it was a good read, with a well plotted case. I liked the main characters, Kara and Noah. A few cons: when a book is written in the 3rd person, it bothers me when the female detective has to have her body shape, firm-fitting clothing description, and how attractive she is, mentioned each time when she comes in view of the male detective, but the same is not done when the male detective appears. I enjoy in-depth descriptions and comments about being attractive, but please do so for both male and female, otherwise it tends to cheapen the female detective as though her worth is based more on her looks. Also, poor editing distracts from reading, books need to be beta-read by a number of readers. Not horrendous here, but enough to take away some of the reading enjoyment.
Profile Image for Robert Ullrich.
Author 17 books89 followers
December 26, 2020
It's a crime novel, yet much more.

I'm Still Here, is a story of loss, regret, and fear as well as hope, love, and survival.

I'm Still Here struck a chord with me, one which isn't the most pleasant. I lost my best friend when I was a teenager. He wasn't abducted, or a victim; he drowned. I've never had another friend like him. No one has ever measured up. Mr. Mills tells us a story of child abductions and the far reaching affects on those left to deal with unanswerable questions and the pain only those who have been there are able to understand.

It's also a well written crime novel, woven together with well defined and relatable characters. It is worth the five stars I've given "I'm Still Here."

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Profile Image for Jay.
565 reviews1 follower
October 24, 2019
I am giving this a 4/5 because most of the book was really good. It was interesting and kept me guessing where the plot and mystery would take me. I liked the characters who were broken but not overly so. I had a hard time with the "this is our case" conversations that seemed to happen over and over, but that is what you get. The imagery was good, the locations solid. I enjoyed everything up until the end. How everything came together put me off. It didn't fit for me. It seemed too easy and clean. Jennifer Groberg did a really good job narrating this tale.

This audio book was given to me at my request for my free and unbiased review.
40 reviews
October 30, 2020
Good Read, Great Potential!

I mainly read I'm Still Here because I ran out of my usual authors. After having read too many ebooks that were definitely duds I wasn't sure what to expect but I'm always game for something new. While I did enjoy Jon Mills' book and thought it was well written I struggled just a bit to keep reading. Action and excitement always hold my attention! Even though this book had both it still moved a bit slow but managed to keep me going to find out how things ended. Jon Mils, I believe, has solid writing skills and great potential to produce the kind of books you just can't put down. It's all in the seasoning and I intend to keep my eyes on him.
12 reviews
February 18, 2021
Basically a good story. Lots of possible suspects. Kind of unbelievable at certain points. Main character was damaged and it showed in her interaction with others. The author has an affinity for the word ‘scooped’, “She scooped up her keys“, “she scooped up her coffee cup“, “she scooped up her phone“, “she scooped up the papers”. Nothing was picked up or grabbed or cleared away. It became somewhat annoying and I believe I counted about 20 times this occurred. There were a couple of times when I thought I can’t read this anymore but I did finish it just to find out what happened rather than just read the ending. Would recommend for a rainy afternoon or a day of isolation.
374 reviews
September 28, 2020
Wasn’t positive about whodunnit until the end

Although it entered my mind a few times while reading the book, it was at the very that I was certain. Sometimes the story got a little confusing because there are so many characters bit if you keep reading, that clears up. Plus I have a 75-year-old mind that doesn’t retain things like it used to so younger minds may not have that problem. The subject matter of pornography and child abductions are troubling but so true. I absolutely recommend this book.
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