Warning: if you do not want to read a piece of my mind, this is the time to leave. All opinions are exactly what they are: my personal opinions. I will not defend them, nor do I expect to convince anyone. My opinions are strictly my own. It has no bearing on the quality of the book, Sarah MacLean's caliber as a writer or whether one should or should not read this book.
I have made 2 decisions after reading this book:
1. Sarah MacLean and I must part our ways, citing irreconcilable differences.
2. I will however, before I file the official papers, read Seraphina's story first. My last attempt. Seraphina is the only Sarah MacLean character that managed to pique my interest. I would like to see what she will do with Seraphina.
So let's call it a separation, for now.
I want to and need to say, that I do not think that Sarah MacLean is a bad writer, at all. I think her proses are fluid and well-formed. I have few complaints about her writing.
But I take major issues with her characters.
The first book I read from her was the widely popular 9 Rules book. That book got a 1-star rating from me. I enjoyed the writing, absolutely hated the heroine. Every book I have read from her, I experience the same feelings again and again: I want to strangle her heroines and spit on her heroes.
Let's start with the topic, body image, in her books. I really think that Sarah MacLean and I must be on the opposite sides for what we believe makes a woman charming and relatable. I find insecurity extremely unattractive. No, I do not mean that we all have to feel like Helen of Troy. But it is not necessary to have low self esteem or poor self-image because we are not "exactly what society would call beautiful." This body-image & self worth thing, is a recurring theme in her books. Her heroines are often a little on the podgy side, who disparaged themselves for not being "socially beautiful". They believed they were not what most people considered pretty. Or in this book, an extremely beautiful heroine, but guess what, nobody loves her. This "nobody wants me" feminine cry is the trademark of Sarah MacLean's heroines. I, have no stomach for such people, men or women. I respect that Sarah MacLean wants to write about such characters. I just personally find it impossible to relate to such characters, this "booo hoooo woo is me, no one loves me. I am not pretty enough or I am not worthy of love." is not what I consider the mature attitude to self-esteem. A woman, traditionally beautiful or not, can always be poised and graceful, centered and elegant. Yes she fights her insecurity, as we all do. But what makes a woman attractive, to me, is her grace. Sarah MacLean robs her heroines of their grace by always concentrating on their self-image or self-worth. As if, if no one loved them, they had no value and should consider themselves an outcast. So she has her characters engage in the so-called rule-breaking activities, masquerading them as "boldness" and "courage", which in fact are all just attempts to hide their insecurity: dressing up as men, asking men to ruin them so they don't have to face the fact that no one will marry them, posing nude for questionable characters. All because these heroines have low self esteem and didn't believe that their behaviors could make their social standing or marriage prospect any worse. I see a pattern again and again, and it's disheartening to see her portrayal of women.
In this book we have Lily, a beautiful beautiful woman, but she did not feel loved. She was lonely, felt unwanted. Long story short: a typical Sarah MacLean heroine. Many other reviewers have touched on this: Lily, is a ninny. She was in love with a painter, who convinced her to post in nude for him. Lonely Lily agreed and publicly humiliated herself when she realized that the painter had no intention of marrying her. His intention was to release the nude painting and earn fame for himself. Now, we have been told that Lily was IN LOVE, so IN LOVE. I do not mean to sound so matronly but seriously, Lily, hon, HAS ANYONE TOLD YOU YOU ARE AN IDIOT?
For Lily to put herself in this situation, I have completely lost respect for her intelligence. How am I supposed to care about her happily ever after, if I do not even respect her. MacLean made things worse by having Lily "fall in love" with Alec at like lightening speed. Seriously, there is no love between her characters. Just attraction and skin deep jealousy, made that much worse by shallow characters. Lily seemed childish, stupid, irresponsible and the worst of all: wanting. This is the downfall of all MacLean heroines in my book: They are so wanting, so desperately waiting for someone to love them. I cannot relate to such characters.
Sarah MacLean also writes about either cads or "tortured" heroes whose supposedly tragic past never, never, never really fleshed out. Pains and suffering are not light matters. If a writer decides to write about past pains, I fully expect them to give these traumatic events the respect they deserve. But under MacLean's pen, these heroes seem more like clowns. Where is the tragedy? You don't write a tortured hero by telling us that he has a tortured past. You show us in his behaviors, how he struggles with himself, how a person with a difficult past would behave, make your heroes that way too. I never really bought that any of her heroes was "struggling". They all seemed comical with their allegedly tortured past and painfully bulging groins. Oh and did I mention that they are very tortured? Because you know, to make someone a tortured hero, you just need to say it.
Alec, our "tortured" hero in this book, has body issues (see the pattern? Someone is feeling too large. For Pete's sake, can we stop obsessing over someone's size already? Why is this Sarah MacLean's favorite issue?). He felt unworthy of the heroine. So now we have a heroine who felt that no one loved her. Plus a hero who felt insecure about himself, his body. Can this book be any more Sarah MacLean?
I do not, do not enjoy saying that I want more depth in a writer's characters. It always sounds like I am passing judgement on the writers, accusing them of lacking depth. Whether Sarah MacLean's characters lack depth, I cannot say. But they are not who I want to be friends with. They are not who I want to be. They are not people who I feel for. They are not anywhere close to who I am. (Not that I don't feel pudgy sometimes myself. I so do. But I don't believe that it makes me unlovable. I am a delightful person to be with. :D) I believe that there are people who can relate to Sarah MacLean's characters. I cannot. And since she seems to address similar issues again and again and again through characters, I have reached the point where I must say, this is where we part ways.
I also must say that I am not a fan of HR writers trying to use a modern plot. Dressing a modern problem up in a historical setting. If I wanted to read about modern society, I'd read a contemporary. Sarah Maclean seems to be following some kind of a "modern issues playing Regency" route. This book, for example, reminds me of some actresses' nude photos and iCloud. I know some find it interesting. I find myself again, on the opposite side of the table.
I am giving the book 2 stars because the story itself is ok. If I was rating based on my personal feelings about Sarah MacLean's preference of certain characters/personality traits, it would be a 1 star read.