A Breath She Took by Ilan Amit is a novel about a woman who's reached a point of crisis in her life. From the outside Inbal looks like a successful, brilliant happily married woman. When her husband announces he wants a divorce the reader is pulled into her actions and thoughts and it quickly becomes clear she is nothing like the stable brilliant scientist the world perceives her being.
After her husband's announcement Inbal basically runs away without any thought about where she is going. As she gets lost in memories from the past as well as past mysteries the reader becomes aware of just how disturbingly unadjusted Inbal is.
Raised by a mother who seems to have nothing but contempt for her, with an older sister who is selfish and has no use for her and a loving father who mysteriously disappears Inbal becomes so shy and introverted she can barely function but hides it well. She shows every sign of what would be considered autistic. She can't function in society, doesn't understand social cues, can't express herself, has no friends because she doesn't know how to relate to people, is bothered by loud noises and doesn't know how to express her feelings.
In spite of all of this she's managed to become a brilliant scientist with a PhD, marry and hold down a demanding job. No matter where she is, who she's with or what she's doing she doesn't even understand herself. This quote from the book explains how she perceives herself. "I went into research due to inertia. That’s all. I’m better at understanding what I’m not than at defining myself positively in any way."
This would be a fantastic book club pick. Trying to understand Inbal is something worth discussing. There is a lot of meat to this book and figuring out when Inbal's life went completely off the tracks is tough. I kept wishing I could discuss the book with someone. Inbal is a conundrum. I'll be thinking about and questioning my interpretation of this book for a long time.
If you've read this far it should be obvious this is a novel with well developed characters and a well developed storyline. It isn't an easy read but it's a thought provoking one. I kept asking myself if it's possible for a person's upbringing to create personality and character flaws that appear to be autism or if Inbal was predisposed to be this way from birth.
I recommend this book. I would encourage people to read it as a buddy read or a book club pick simply because I had so many questions through the novel. If you can't find someone to read it with it is still a book that makes the reader examine how and why people become who they are.