As an Arsenal fan, of course I'm biased. But this is one of those books that is both insightful and also uncovers some helpful parallels within my own life.
Since I read Tony Adams' first autobiography, Addicted, around 20+ years ago, I have found myself working with many recovering addicts, and accompanying many through the recovery process. I have also realised many times that while I may not be addicted to any of the substances or behaviours that have a 12-step programme associated with it, I do have my own addictive patterns of behaviour. As does every one of us. All these years working with people wrestling with their own deep darknesses suggests to me this is true.
The football parts of this are fascinating; especially his insights into coaching. I found much that was instructive in his account of his time trying to build a club from the ground up in Azerbaijan; a process which bears more than a passing resemblance to my own job of trying to lead the 'rebooting' of a church from the ground up.
But given the similarities to my own experiences, there's much more to mine for me here. As one who continues to wrestle with issues around my mental health, I too can relate deeply to the experience he describes of being desperate to end it all, but too scared to die. It's a horrible, dark place to be in - and the more people like Tony Adams talk about their own experiences of this openly, the more 'ordinary' people will realise they are not alone and will be able to reach out for help. The crisis in men's mental health, and male suicide especially, is well known and reported on; books like this are part of the solution. As much as I remind deeply grateful to Tony for his footballing service, I am even more grateful to him for this book, and its predecessor.