...Sometimes you don't even know what you're searching for until it's presented right in front of you. I didn't go looking for him, he sort of, just landed in my lap... Now, I may be mature, but I'm no fool. This was the first time in my life, that I found a man who was not only attractive, fit, but also masculine...just like me. This was gonna be the first time for us both, and I couldn't help but be nervous. This nervous energy has to be released, and I knew just the way to get rid of it...on the down low.