“Life is not a series of gig lamps symmetrically arranged; life is a luminous halo, a semi-transparent envelope surrounding us from the beginning of consciousness to the end.”
― Virginia Woolf, Modern Fiction
If we look at her works, what we evidently notice is that the idea which most engages Virginia Woolf is that of life itself. Life as it is witnessed every day, the transition from one moment to the other and everything that comes in between. A life not symmetrically arranged in a destined pattern but lived in the consciousness enfolding it. A life gleaming in the perception of fleeting flashes. A life resonating with ripples of thoughts, dispersing and then converging with other thoughts, forming a current creating eddies one moment and in other letting the stream run swiftly along the way. A life pounding with emotions: a relentless cascade from one end to the other.
In her first novel Virginia sets on a voyage to discover this idea, to understand her own relation with the notions lying concealed underneath mind and constituting life, her relation with people in her life, with a world largely unfamiliar till her twenties or with the notions like relation between men and women, a woman’s position in society, happiness, beauty, time, space and delirium. And though one misses her masterful strokes visible much clearly in her later works, one cannot help but admire the efforts undertaken during her first excursion.
When she speaks of the room to be provided to Rachel during her stay with the Ambroses at the island, we perceive the outline for a need of having a room for oneself:
“Among the promises which Mrs. Ambrose had made her niece should she stay was a room cut off from the rest of the house, large, private—a room in which she could play, read, think, defy the world, a fortress as well as a sanctuary. Rooms, she knew, became more like worlds than rooms at the age of twenty-four. Her judgment was correct, and when she shut the door Rachel entered an enchanted place, where the poets sang and things fell into their right proportions.”
Hewet’s conversation with Rachel about women brings forth Woolf’s deliberation on the discrimination that women were subjected to in the society:
“There it was going on in the background, for all those thousands of years, this curious silent unrepresented life. Of course we're always writing about women— abusing them, or jeering at them, or worshipping them; but it's never come from women themselves. I believe we still don't know in the least how they live, or what they feel, or what they do precisely.”
One’s inescapable relation with time, whether exterior or interior time, which figures so prominently in her later works is also dealt with here:
“As midday drew on, and the sun beat straight upon the roof, an eddy of great flies droned in a circle; iced drinks were served under the palms; the long blinds were pulled down with a shriek, turning all the light yellow. The clock now had a silent hall to tick in, and an audience of four or five somnolent merchants. By degrees white figures with shady hats came in at the door, admitting a wedge of the hot summer day, and shutting it out again. After resting in the dimness for a minute, they went upstairs. Simultaneously, the clock wheezed one, and the gong sounded, beginning softly, working itself into a frenzy, and ceasing. There was a pause. Then all those who had gone upstairs came down; cripples came, planting both feet on the same step lest they should slip; prim little girls came, holding the nurse's finger; fat old men came still buttoning waistcoats. The gong had been sounded in the garden, and by degrees recumbent figures rose and strolled in to eat, since the time had come for them to feed again.”
Her love for circles and eddies is quite clearly manifested as there are not only direct references in some scenes e.g. in dance scene at the party in the hotel but also where we are made to go round and round in the mind of one character or swirled from the mind of one character to the other, though it lacks her signature deftness since this shifting is mostly aided through a third person narrative using a direct style. Regardless, it doesn’t impede the narration. The only hitch in the novel, as far as her writing is concerned I believe, is the part where Rachel and Hewet’s relation post engagement is portrayed because here Woolf seems to be struggling, almost dragging her words.
There is also a passing reference to the group of Bloomsbury and to Mrs. Dalloway’s love of flowers. And while reader is smitten, wondering how Virginia gives a little of herself to each of her characters, there comes the final convergence - death of Rachel. The depiction of Rachel’s state of delirium towards the end is so vivid as to be suggestive of Virginia’s own scuffle but what is more absorbing is Virginia’s attempt at bringing the characters together, through their thoughts, after Rachel’s death. Here too she seems to be engaging, with the process of “tunneling” which she exercised comprehensively in Mrs. Dalloway.
It is worthwhile going through the journey of reading her first novel because it does, in so many ways, make one feel closer to the wonderful writer while providing more insight into her person and into the ideas that defined her life and her works.