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369 pages, Kindle Edition
First published January 1, 1969
There are professions, such as orchestra conducting, directing, film producing and even teaching, which spoil one's character, for it is dangerous always to know better.They say that, with age, comes wisdom. I've found that the equation can vary, depending on how often times of little money was able to cultivate comradery rather than be consigned to drug abuse, or how often times of great financial acquisition has calcified compassion instead of inspired magnanimity. Is there art in your life? How about hard work? When you meet a person, do you align with their familiar valuing of family, food, and coming together, or do you perk up your ears at what your country tells you is cost effective and put up your nose when the other's demographic isn't financially lucrative? How are you with labels? With creeds? Have you ever watched Jew and Gentile, Black and White come together without a state pitting one against another? Have you ever witnessed out of work bigots be conscripted by an opportunistic capitalist so that they may open fire on workers' strikes and consider themselves 'heroes of the state' for wiping out the communists, the anarchists, the foreigners and the parasites? For what I've found in my pursuit of literature in the USA of all places is how much time and money my country has spent on carving the heart out of itself, coupling intimacy to disease, creativity to suspicion, and life to the highest bidder, to the point that finding any piece of writing that's not only willing to talk about such, but get published to such an extent that a dabbler like me can afford a copy is the task of digging up a grain of francium in the entire known universe. Viertel won't satisfy any follower of those leaders that, regardless of political persuasion, view critical thinking as the enemy, or those who have been raised on the vacuity of "American" literature with the most paltry, gutless scatterings of "European" literature deemed safe for supplement, or those who see an op-ed on replacing libraries with Amazon bookstores and nod along in self-satisfied accord. She does, however, satisfy me, however little that is worth.
I longed for a respite from people who considered themselves superior only because they were overpaid.
Night after night we were sold out, only to see in the morning papers that we were just as broke as ever. And in the audience sat foreigners who lived like kings on ten dollars a week.If I had to choose a period and a place that exerts the highest degree of fascination for me compared to any other, I would have to choose the Weimar Republic. Such a choice admittedly cuts down on such inane follow up remarks on wishing to live there, but my interest is far more for the existence of the Institut für Sexualwissenschaft and what sort of social climate must have existed to bring to life that sort of publicly accessible intellectual initiative. It's the sort of topic that is ripe for interpretive exposition of modern day creative adaptors, but the confluence of worker's movements, a Russia that still remembered the oppressive stain of serfdom, and the direct line of progress between the gouging, or dare I say colonizing, of the Versailles Treaty, and the rise of fascism makes it an awkward topic for typical writers who wish to draw the advertising eye but not disinvite themselves from the apolitical 'in' crowd. This makes Viertel's position as well educated enough to be artistically "rebellious" and actually reap (some of) the rewards, benefited enough to be able to escape but not to stay in one place, community-minded enough to not only hobnob with the big names but welcome Black, disabled, and other capitalistically disenfranchised types in her life a tremendous boon.
A Transylvanian from another compartment opened the door and announced that we were approaching the German frontier. They all got up, crossed themselves, knelt down facing the window and prayed aloud that the new earth would receive them with friendliness. I often thought of them during the Hitler years.
It is impossible for me to mourn empires and cathedrals. I mourn only the people, confused, misled and apostatical as the human race might be. If the entire so-called culture would become one huge heap of rubble and a new world, cleansed of the Nazi pest, would emerge, my days would end in complete happiness.For all those traits, I didn't truly appreciate the magnitude of them until the venue switched from the far more instinctively intriguing European landscapes to the humdrum roadways of California, complete with much reference to Los Angeles and even a few to UCLA, those locations much benighted by my school years. For Viertel reminded me of the human commonality between literature, the theatre, and the movies, and while her rocky negotiations with the many over-moneyed hydra heads of Hollywood didn't make for comfortably voyeuristic reading, her genuine desire to create masterful works combined with the acknowledgement of the need to make money so as to help a whole city of others made her tribulations at times heartrending, but also far more sympathetic than they would have been in far more stable circumstances. And, like a true narrative craftswoman, she takes us through her life and leaves us at the doorstep of what may not be fame, success, and riches forevermore, but another link in the chain of her being, where what has been lost is used to grow what has been found. Lord knows I sometimes didn't know four out of five of the referenced names, and I had to admit that I understood where the less imaginative types that Viertel mildly excoriated on occasion were coming from when it came to disparate social classes of Jewish folks, but this record is nothing more and nothing less than the odyssey of one who loved and was loved in return, who gave and lost and gave some more, and had no patience for political hegemonies that considered the slightest thought of truly equitable mutual aid networks as tantamount to terrorism (something that applies to Stalin, McCarthy, and any nosy neighborhood decrier of "those types"). It's not the kind of book oriented towards self-help or get-rich-quick (indeed, Viertel might leave you feeling even more confusedly bereft if you go in believing that reading this will allow you to decrease your alienation and leave all your economic greed in tact), but it does show types like me that the void that they see and that they feel in their "land of the free and home of the brave" isn't all in their head (or at least isn't entirely their brain chemistry), and as a result how necessary it is to ground the appreciation of the self in the actualization of the other. Of course, you could enjoy it all just fine by latching onto Greta Garbo or Thomas Mann any other of the adulated names that Viertel (likely consciously, but I won't begrudge her a single dime for doing so) lets slip over the years of her reminiscence, but you'll be getting so much more along with it, so long as you're willing to receive it.
-Berthold Viertel
I have often been asked, usually by young women: "when and where have you been happiest in your life?" It was impossible to answer. Happiness demands a special kind of selfishness, never lasting, seldom approved, and you have to pay for each minute of it, usually too dearly. There are people of such harmonious, Apollonian disposition, of such well-balanced desires and temperament, that they never abandon the prudent domain of self-control. I belonged to a more reckless race.To say that this year, for me, has been one of great positive changes and promises to bring even greater ones before it closes is rather an understatement. It would be no surprise to anyone, much less myself, if that had a noticeable impact on my reading and reviewing, especially in the final evaluations involving stars and other, more simplistic means of quick appraisal. Still, while the number of five stars and favorites I accrue to my name during the course of 2022 has already outweighed the skimpy pastures of 2018 and is a few steps away from gaining on 2021 and 2020, the favored books of today don't look very different from their vaunted predecessors. The benefit of less empty stress and more rewarding productivity, then, may be my ability to take on books that I come to for rather trite reasons (NYRB Classics cover, work of 50+ years by a woman, promises of far off landscapes and literary salons) and invest as much effort as they deserve, rather than what I assumed to be required. It's devastating work when your memoirist is a Jewish woman who was born in Galicia (Ukraine) in 1888, was heavily involved in the theatre scene of 1920s Germany and movie scene of 1930s-1950s (non-blacklisted) USA, and died in Klosters, Switzerland, 1978, nine years after this memoir was published and twenty-four years after the memoir's last recorded events. But it's real work, and the reward is that of giving me a real picture of what the future could, will, must look like. That's certainly not something you can say every day.
The introduction claims that Viertel made the wrong choice for her memoir filled with a sizable number of wonderful vignettes illustrating exactly "the kindness of strangers", and that she should have instead went with the last three words of her text, "my incorrigible heart." I remind these omniscient hypercritics that, when a newly made friend advised Viertel to use the time, in which she was stuck in the middle of nowhere, Arizona whilst the broken down Chevrolet that she was transporting from LA to NY for a friend, to begin writing her memoirs, she put down, and I repeat, "I thought he had overestimated my egocentricity." What a shame for all the would be Ozymandiases; what privilege, what joy for the rest of us.
(On 'Hearings of the U.S. Congressional Committee Regarding the Communists' Infiltration of the Motion Picture Industry") Thomas Mann was cheered when he addressed a meeting, saying: "I have the honor to expose myself as a hostile witness...As an American citizen of German birth I finally testify that I am painfully familiar with certain political trends. Spiritual intolerance, political inquisitions, and declining legal security, and all this in the name of an alleged 'state of emergency'...That is how it started in Germany."
In Munich the actors' meetings were bitter and acrimonious. I participated in the discussion about a new Equity contract. The old one had, among other obsolete articles, an atrocious paragraph granting the director the right to dismiss immediately, without financial compensation, any actor who had tuberculosis or syphilis. In the case of tuberculosis all my colleagues agreed that it should be treated like any other affliction, with a paid leave for so-and-so many weeks, etc., etc., but syphilis was a disgraceful sickness, acquired from an immoral life and therefore not deserving any benefits. I had so far refrained from making any speeches, but this time I got up. it was the first and only speech I ever made at a public gathering, but it made an impression and immediately labeled me a Bolshevik, although I only said that syphilis was a sickness like any other, that the war had increased is dangers of spreading, and that it happened in the best families (the Brieux play had made me an expert on that topic).May we all live to grow so wise.