Running away tonight I call the last person I want to talk to, quivered voice ready to go off in a burst of tears at any moment. Packing a grocery bag with clothes, change, I make vaporous promises I won't be around to keep, eyeing the window, I'm not alone one more time before burrowing out like a ferret.
And I fail. My fingers get stuck on the latch and I drag myself in, with 3 lbs of dirt and 12 of humiliation rubbed into the carpet. I lack the balls to destroy my own life with crack and whoring and all the other things I watched on Cops from my white carpeted bedroom.
And in the morning, there is more. There is always more.