Two notes:
1) I was contacted by the publishers of this book and provided with a free PDF copy** to read (and view in this case), with no obligation to talk about or review it. However, I adore this so much, that I'm writing my essay anyway!
2) Due to the nature of this book, please be aware that I will discuss suicide/depression/mental health problems in this review.
Now let's get down to business, what did I think of the book itself?
As an artist, the thousands of watercolour illustrations appealed to me straight away. In my teens and early twenties, I would use art as a medium to express my utmost darkest feelings. Sometimes words are not enough to convey the darkness of the world we believe we're in. To be submerged into these various worlds was a little upsetting due to the parallels with my own feelings, but simultaneously gave me a feeling of understanding. As several other reviewers here have said, it allows people who've yet to experience the darkness that mental health can plunge us into, to understand more about how it feels.
The illustrations did slow down my reading time, I found myself transfixed and at times, enamoured by what I was looking at.
I gave myself over a week to read this. Due to the subject matter and my personal relationship with it, I admit I did take breaks. I wouldn't say I was triggered, but it's like the author/illustrator was in my brain and portraying my thoughts... This isn't necessarily a bad thing, of course, but if you are someone who is struggling to read/look through, just take a break and come back. It's worth it.
I do agree with the messages the book is sending to its audience. Having decided to go it alone without medication (in addition to periods where I tried medication), was good to see in someone else. One of the man things I loved about this story (aside from it being a true story!) was that it depicted his relapses. Relapses happen and in life, mental health doesn't just cure itself and disappear for the rest of time. It can literally and figuratively feel like a rollercoaster. There's so much pressure across the board for people to 'cure' their mental health overnight, without thinking about the long-term effects it may have.
Overall, suicide/mental health problems (including Depression) are seriously life-threatening and/or life damaging battles that millions go through each year. It's truly empowering to see Brent come forwards with his ordeal and come out the other side. If you're someone who is struggling with mental health problems such as Depression, and struggling to explain it to the people around you, this book could be a good visual representation (as well as a good example of how things CAN change).
I do recommend this, my only note would be to take it slow, especially if you are struggling. Whilst an absolutely stunner of a book, it's subject can still be a little sensitive for those currently fighting. Aside from monitoring triggers, it's a powerful story with beautiful illustrations - that needs to be shared! Good on you, Brent!
**I appreciate that not everyone will have the ability to view this as a PDF, but that enabled me to interact with the graphic novel more than a regular handheld paper product. I could zoom in and scroll through with ease. As a digital text lover, this made the experience far more valuable.