With enough heart and humor to lift the poignant subject matter, Room for Grace is more than an illness memoir: it's a story of a family's strength in spite of oncoming hardships; the fear of losing control and the courage to fight that fear; and a unique point of view that consistently leaves you heartbroken yet hopeful. This memoir, told through the eyes and voice of the late Maureen Kenner and through the written words of her son, Daniel Kenner, is clearly the result of a painful yet beautifully honest collaboration between a dying mother and her dedicated son.
The thing I loved most about this book was how sincere it was in every lovely meditation and every bitter element of Maureen's process of loss. Although there are shining moments of hope and grace throughout the text, particularly during the parts that recall Maureen's time teaching, the narrative is never syrupy or falsely optimistic. Throughout Maureen's decline that runs parallel with her husband's progression through the stages of dementia, she must learn to cope with not only the loss of control over her own body's health and wellness, but also the loss of her lifelong partner and the support he normally would offer--if only he were able to.
The exploration of this topic is raw; neither Maureen nor her husband is able to support the other in the way they need most when they need it most. Because of this, Maureen feels the tension and weight of their plight, as does her son Daniel as he tries to fill the gaps and hold everything together for his parents. It is this honesty that I so loved, because it's clear that no matter how much you think you have accepted the end, the end is not always pretty. It brings anger and frustration, and no matter who you are, you are only human. And it will be hard. Even ugly. Maureen knows this and doesn't sugarcoat it.
Sprinkled throughout the text are what I view to be "teaching moments" where Maureen remembers instances when her students had to grow from the obstacles placed before them. Often, Maureen sets an example or finds a unique way of approaching her special ed. students so that they can confront challenges, solve their own problems, and accomplish their goals. But nearly equally as often, Maureen recalls these moments as a way of viewing their triumphs as a mirror, calling upon their accomplishments in order to challenge herself to behave in the same brave, positive way her students did. In this way, Maureen becomes as much a student as a teacher, and in reading her memoir, we become students as well.
As we each venture forward throughout life and are faced with these inevitable heart-rending moments, I believe we all need to think of Room for Grace and what we have learned from Maureen. I know I will.