I like the author's digression into scientific based thoughts of where man's natural cruelty could have possibly originated. The author shares a sensitivity of self that makes the book more than a factual account of events, but a book that encourages one to think about my own human nature with all its flaws, but only after having first examined himself so intelligently and thoughtfully. He seems as an architect of where the human race should choose to evolve. Where should or can we evolve? It is not always an easy read as the book seems to meander along make ongoing similar points. Anyway, I was in Cambodia when I bought this book at the airport. I am hoping to find out a similar truth that Bizot explored with his life, that of what makes humans so absurdly bad.
pg82 update; This book reads like a diary almost. I don't know where it is going but it is quite brilliantly roaming through creative expression of an impossible subject that has joined itself to Bizot like eczema, certainly an unwelcome partner that has to be exercised. I doubt it possible to be exercised, perhaps it can only be cradled and nurtured and then only temporarily absent. Reading this account and story of Cambodia does mean that the demon exists.
Updt.3 Finally the author meets Duch, though it didn't seem clear that this was a first meeting, rather one with movie cameras. Feelings verbally expressed by author attempt to tell what the experience was like, but in my mind continue the seeking of deeper meaning than was there. I agree with Bizot's comment which sums up things nicely in a quote from page 101; "You expect the devil and instead you find a destitute being, with no memory, no papers, no luggage, who only wishes for one thing: to change lives." On to 2009, The Defendant.
Up to this point, much self explanation has been trodden through, and finally we come to activity, the trial. This is where some might skip to and read for the heart of the story to avoid the ramblings, some very insightful, but still somewhat tiresome explaining... Part 2 is much more interesting where history is presented. The transcripts are what I have waited for, Duch's notes on the Gate are very interesting. Part 1 of the book set the stage, although it seems to hover around the similar theme without covering much. I am in the stretch to finish the book, though I won't rush. Just looking for the book's overall insight.
As most legal depositions the word is tedious. The author's transcription is proof of his ability to waffle and say little of concrete content, though he senses his truths are of the most profound. His arguments are rather unconvincing and formal to a point that they are pointless almost. Bizot may have had a horrific experience but it doesn't appear so in this book. I still have more to trudge through to get to the end of this long winded dull book, that I'd hoped for so much more, but it is times like this that I was a much faster reader and that I didn't deliberate on the meaning of things so much. At this point I have changed the 3 to 2 stars. The last portion of the book doesn't really demonstrate Duch as a killer. Perhaps I wanted, expected to see more substance behind a killer and perhaps that is story, that the killer isn't much different than my neighbor or even the fellow shaving in the mirror under different circumstances, but I don't buy that argument. It all comes down I think to your own personal philosophy. I am sure I too would fear death in circumstances. I have had the experience of mortars landing near me on a regular basis in Iraq. I hated it and there was fear. Meaningless killing. I think I read this book not to understand the killing fields as much to contemplate the old question of my own extinguishment and what that means. Understanding the author's view of this when forced into this role has shown me that there are really different versions of this. I am particularly relieved to have some small belief about an afterlife or a continued life. With this the case, not what the book is about, I have the sense that maybe there is more than complete extinguishment. I applaud this diary but it is not not a fresh account retold of a memory that was I assume repressed and brought up to express oneself. I can't really recommend the book unless the reader is a student of Cambodia history. The philosophy is thin and trial is just looking to find fault for a guilty verdict which is forgone conclusion. I don't think they really find a monster but just a regretful intelligent person who hopefully won't commit the same mistakes in his next existence. My new question is what can we do now to ensure we improve then? What if don't improve? Are we damned to repeat the same? Is something imparted to us having committed such acts for our spirits next existence? Anyway now I am not reviewing a book. Best.